"Our own heart, and not other men's opinions, forms our true honor." -- Samuel Taylor Coleridge

back from camp. i miss the feel of typing on a keyboard. i love civiliasation.

first day
wheee. all packed up with a disgusting big luggage. had a trainer named add. not sure if guy or girl but managed to comfirm the sexuality at last. its a girl. pretended to be christine cos i wanted to be same group as cheryl, jia yu and cass and feli. jac pretended to be jocelyn. hahas. reached campsite at ard 10++ i guess. the bunks reminded of chalet. hahas. the trainer damn cute leh. latiffah. very hyper and short. =x last moments of aircon on the bus.

i did the high rope element thingy leh. i feel so goddamn proud. was the last one to try. did it damn fast, never wobble or anything. HAHAHAs. tried the flying fox, damn cool can? i screamed when i flew down, and i zao geng. -.= damnned. and so obvious to the whole entire world. hahas. den had to change back the groups, cos of the stupid brownies. changed groups and got another super duper cute trainer called jingyuan. david calls him bernard for obvious reasons. den he shortened the name to ah ber. guess he hated that name lar. did teambuilding. was so kns. didnt manage to complete the activity. guess ah ber was disappointed in us. muahhas. den eat lorhs. the food there was LITTLE. where can eat until full? but its not very nice lar. next time should provide fast food.

oh, and i didnt manage to bath on the first day. completely smelly. had the night hike which was so ridiculous, i thought very scary but in the end it was SIAN. went to a place and sit. -.= no comments. had a nice moon that night but no stars. Had sing-a-long session. Latiffah damn cute there lorhs. super hyper and enthu. slept smelly. i sortsa "stuck" to the floor. slpet in the middle of luoling and cheryl.

second day
woke up at a crazy 5a.m. to bathe. so coldd. hahas. served breakfast to everyone. did rock climding. its damn diulian. i at the rockwall there scream and shout like so sia suay lorhs. and i zao geng. AGAIN. hurr. didnt manage to climb the whole thing cos go halfway den nothing to grab!!!! not my fault. i have short arms and legs. shibaii. den had the highh rope thingy. i wanted to do dat cos it looked so goddamn easy lorhs. but no time cos i was one of the last ones cos i did the first challenge rope course. yucks. had the general station. everyone managed to climb over the wall. even mighty mighty david. hahas. assisted by the mighty mighty us. =D .

had the completely sucky nature walk. den ah ber called me pampered kid or something den bcos i had a lot of complains. david called him kampung boy cos he say he like the wind. damn funny. den have a lot of slopes lor. so JIAN. later ppl fall down or something! den i like nearly fall lor. i damn scared i fall lor. nobody help me. !!!! jian. had the flu while walking. den ah ber called me pampered kid or something den david called him kampung boy. damn funny. den have a lot of slopes lor. so JIAN. later ppl fall down or something! den i like nearly fall lor. i damn scared i fall lor. nobody help me. !!!! jian. had the flu while walking. den got tissue from ahber. gandong leh. i ren very long leh. den he got first aid kit mah so sure to have tissue. den he knows bout paige leh. david loves him cos CHARMED ROCKS. then ah ber says tcs teach him before leh.cool lorhs. then they also hide books de. den halfway rain lor. hid under the shelter. den had a *blast of a time* climbing steps up bukit timah hill. anybody sane would never do that!! ki tao hong lorhs. had another *rocky* time climding down. *rocks lor* many many rocks on the floor. walking on the pipe rocks. hahas. den walked back to the campsite with ah mahs and the rest. discussed bout funny stuffs. finally back at campsite is DAMN XING FU de gan jue.

dicussed bout campfire performance. den joked ard with shadra. she very FUNNY lehs. and she damn cool. and the most diulian thing happened to david. wahhas. i laughed in the most unshunu way. had campfire! hahas. ah ber ki tao hong there. den the last two rows were laughing our asses off. cos its funy. its a fourteen frequency kinda thing. hahas. our performance wasnt spectacular.but wadever. ahma ile rawks. another 3/4 frequency just like chow-time. hehes. went to bathe. omg. this part roccks. once in a lifetime thingy. cos me and cheryl damn kiasu went 1A the bunk. the most hapiest thing happened there. noone in the toilet. first to bathe. xingfu. never bathe first day but second day is so ahahahaha!! had a debrief and currypuff for supper. kinda hard but i was HUNGRY. talked with cheryl at night. talked until cannot ren anymore den fell asleep. sleep until very shuang!!

today
unable to wake up. too tired. never brush teeth in the morning cos toothbrush was kinda soapy. shh.but i brushed when i reached home. had breakfast and moved chairs. -low class-. today's breakfast rawks. the best meal during camp. den went home. took grp photo. hahas. got up the BUS. the AIR-CON bus. high leh. its been so long long since i last interacted with aircon. den david act high. hahas. den went j8 with jane, eunice, cheryl, jac, ting, feli and qing, den we ki tao hong lorhs. take so many neos. hui dao guo qu. wahahas. den went home. XING fu. slept. woke up at 8.30. whole body ache man, thus blogging now. muahhas.

group 14 rroooccckkss!!!

sec 3 adventure camp soooo rawkss!!

i miss camp. and all the great trainers. latiffah, jingyuan(a.k.a. ahber) and shadra!!

J'aime HEBE

i will miss hebe during my camp. i will miss my discman and all my stuff toys and my family. its kinda sad. but i hope camp rawks. play lots of cards, do lots of fun stuff, but hope i dont have to face disgusting peeps. hurr humph. wheeee. heard its lotsta fun. ciaaaos. miss me.

"He who fears being conquered is sure of defeat." -- Napoleon

On Sickness,

first comes the sore throat,
then the fever,
next is the flu,
the last bit is the coughing bit.

things that would never make you sick no matter how much you eat:

*eating a whole packet of chips with a whole jar of peanut butter, not drinking water would never make one sick*
*eating KFC when you are sick will make you feel better instead*
*standing in front of the air con with wet clothes would not too*
*when you wanna be sick, you can never fall sick*

HELP ME. my nose is running like nobody's business. coughing like nobody's business as well. feel sickly. carlsberg SUCKS. made me worse. muahahs. tiger beer beta. hmmm. wonder when then can make the cocktail. i feel crappy now. just ate curry fish head. sometimes i am too clever for my own good. when i have sorethroat i eat curry and KFC. clever. see now what happens. gggggreat.

"All Downhill From Here" -- NEW FOUND GLORY

You’re hiding something,
‘cause it’s burning through your eyes
I try to get it out, but all I hear from you are lies
[Pre-Chorus:]
And I can tell you’re going through the motions
I figured you were acting out your part
Once again, we’re playing off emotion
Which one of us will burn until the end?
[Chorus:]
Catalyst, you insist to pull me down
You contradict the fact that you still want me around
And it’s all downhill from here
And it’s all downhill from here
Your good intentions slowly turn to bitterness
Reoccurring episodes with each and every kiss
(Let’s go!)
[Pre-Chorus]
[Chorus]
And I can’t believe you pulled it off again
Or notice till it all sets in
You’ll deny it ‘til you’re at your bitter end
[Pre-Chorus]
[Chorus]
And you keep pulling me down!
(pulling me down)
(pulling me down)
You contradict the fact that you still want me around
And it’s all downhill from here
And it’s all downhill from here

"The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost." -- G. K. Chesterton

stupid new school rule sucks like hell. probably wants us to die of backache or something like that. damn the preenciple. not fair. and the lousy phsycotic perfectionist form teacher we have. everyday single day of her entire adult life she just has pms. or menopause. whatever. it just sucks that she is making the lives of others miserable. daaaammmnnn. its not fair. poor family of his and hers.

went to sungei buloh nature reserve. saw lots of plants. *durh* and reptile looking things lor. damn cool. too bad never see squirrels. bloody cute creatures. hehes. hope i didnt do too badly for my eng and chi test. =x was sick yesterday, so missed OM and guides. thinking day training on mon. with the mighty bootsies. siaaan. no comments. sec 3 adventure camp next week. wheee!! cant wait. =D i so love hebe.

"The magic of first love is our ignorance that it can never end." -- Benjamin Disraeli

YOOHOO. happy valentine's day peeps. had an unromantic day. cos i am boyfriendless. ^-^ me and the singles club. hahas. ate lots of chocs, courtesy of ba jie meii. gonna bring a feast tomorrow in commeration of total defence day. and high class princess mel's burfdae. hehe. oh yarh. today was ah lian's burfdae. forgot to wish her. =x sorrie. p.m.s. teacher was good today, probably her hubby treated her well. ahhas. afta sch went gambling in class with cheryl, jac, feli, tommy n jonathan. hehes. no $$ involved. went mac to eat and saw lots of QB peeps. hate them. no love in durh air. den stayed and talked in the canteen. went home after that. something wrong with the uterus lining this month. wheees. crassie over WH. hehes.

one fine day, i am gonna look at maths straight in the face and laugh. =D

degraded to hebeti.

An excuse is worse than a lie, for an excuse is a lie, guarded." -- Alexander Pope

the most diulian thing happened to me yesterday at fu lao shi's house. its damn BLOODY diulian. lucky i have all the lovely peeps from 2/4 04 . who waited for me. hahas. so sorry for the inconvenience caused. thanks to all the lovely peeps out there though.

stress. its DAA DAY. durh day where i am gonna tell my parents that i failed my e maths. STRESS. i hope i dont fail m,y chem and bio and eng and chi too. =x touch wood. huhhh!! hpoe i dun get too much of a blasting. fuck. i hate maths.

peeps make stuff so complicated. f u c k .

happy valentines's day tomorrow to all. ^-^

"Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy." -- Cynthia Nelms

eeeks. depression day. failed my e*maths diulians.
sucka lor. i damn SAD. damn super freaking sad. =(
mood change very gandong-ed now. serious mood swing.

"Often attitudes are kindled in the flame of others’ convictions." -- Louis E. Le Bar

waaaaaaaah!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!
Eeeeeeekkss!!!!
nothing is wrong. iam perfectly fine man.yes yes. perfectly fone. just feel like bursting in tears. FUCK FUCK FUCK. EEEEURRRRGHHHHHHH. stupid fucking Om tomorrow. no research to find. haven sign the fucking guides form. just so KNS. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeks. nothing to say. no more holiday tomorrow. hafta go to the stupid sch. everything is so pissing off. irritable. me. wadever.

"Happy Chinese New Year" -- Shu Yan

hahas. happy chinese new year everyone. eat LOTS. i plan to collect lots of hongbaos. hehes. the jies who all got laogongs dun wanna gimme hongbaos. hmmph. reason why single rawks. =) hope there is crab tonight. hehes. gonna be HAPPY. i love food. going to fu lao shi's house on saturdaee. whee. gonna stuff myself. 2 kg. =)

highlight -- 3.30p.m. s.h.e on teevee encore mtvees. watch!!

"There is no wave without wind." -- Ancient Chinese Proverb

wheees. had my maths test today. confirm fail. *boohoo*stresss. i dunwanna fail.no more phone. bloody p.m.s. teacher. i hate herr. today is a bad day. i lost my handphone keychain. andandand stress. lotsta ugly stuff. just wanna say i HATE mrs lai. she is a fugly person.hehes. one month and one week into the one passage.stress. HUUUUUHHHHHHHH. *burst into tears* david and brandon bully me today, cos of Q mor. wahahhas. meaniessss. big bullies SUCk.

"Even in the darkest nights, the stars still light the way for us." -- ???

ahhhh. wilbur and hebe!! a bit sad lar. *devasted and miserable me* hungry and probably has diarrhoea. hmmmph. stupidd. cant even shit in peace. didnt sleep much cos was toking to durh phone. last time i talk on the phone so late was with steph. until 3++ . still kinda sad about failing my maths and nearly failing my ss. stress. hafta do beta, maybe i'll get a new phone~! =) my marmie promised me one i think....

is anyone going back to rosyth on chinese new year eve? i heard theres a reunion dinner/lunch for the 601-ers. hmmm. hafta ask greg bout that. and watta but andrea chew for her present?? i need ideas!!stressssss.

heard that s.h.e. going to IMM next sunday. hmmm. try to go lar. if possible. nid to meet my dearest HEBE. =D. secret obession. i love hebe. shhhhhh.

"Waking up in the morning is an act of false confidence." -- anonnymus

ooooh siaan. i love hebe. wad can u do bout it?? aha.i want mah dat hebe file. mah bro is back from camping at durh z00. hahas. zoo. i love the zoo. i am gonna work there. ahh. cousin arh cousin. why he not online. i want my hebe file. *boo* i very sad now. i am hungryyyy. no food. NO FOOD. booohs. nice song below. kinda gandong. wo ai gan dong stuffs.

星晴 - Jay Zhou Jie Lun

乘着风　游荡在篮天边　一片云掉落在我面前
捏成你的形状　随风跟着我　一口一口吃掉忧愁
载着你　彷佛载着阳纯　不管到哪里都是晴天
蝴蝶自在飞　花也布满天　一朵一朵因你而香
试图让夕阳飞翔　带领你我环绕大自然
迎着风　开始共渡每一天
手牵手　一步两步三步四步　望着天
看星星　一颗两颗三颗四颗　连成线
背对背默默许下心愿
看远方的星是否听的见
看远方的星如果听的见
它一定实现

With freckles on her face,And a birthmark on her cheek,With her no one ever wanted to play hide-n-seek,With all the other children she couldn't find her place.She sat all alone, In a corner all day long,She saw a light within,And that all hope was not gone.
She kept her fears inside, The mask she hid behind,No one knew her secret, The she saw no one more kind.
Within her little corner,Sat her and her little angel friend,Together they would sit and watch as others run and play, Waiting for the day to end.
As the days went by,She sat in her corner and cried,She knew her days were limited, And soon that she would fly.
With out any warnning, Her little angel friend took her up,The little girl was hoping, She could watch the sun come up.
When the little girl went to heaven,She saw the pearly gates,She knew that up in heaven,A new life did await.
She looked around, And talked to God,and found that she would no longer cry,That she would only fly.
She would be the perfect little angel,That that their ever would be,The perfect little angel,Everyone soon would see.
She would be the little angel, That would be an angel friend,To another little kid,Who also needs a friend.

"If you are in a hurry you will never get there." -- ancient chinese proverb.

so fucked up today. i HATE peeps who are pretentious; sucky up ; wanna actt big people. example: fathimah. she is sooo horrible. yesterday, we had our om disscusion den SHE sat three tables away eating a bloody apple. den today she came to confront cheryl on why we didnt ask her to join in. like fuck lorhs. we were talking so loud for the "whole" world to hear. and if she was deaf and blind den she probably wundnt notice us. but she was neither. but she sat there eating her bloody apple. she didnt even ask us about it until today. we were going to have a meeting with mr siva on fri. and she knows now. so she gonna weasel the info out of us den gonna tell mr siva and say it like its her own. fuuuck her. shibaya. its so damn jian and lowdown. goddamn bitch she wasnt even surposed to be in OM. den she wanna act so she come and join, she cant even make it for the meeting. ask her to go eat shit and fang pi. stuff her disgusting head down the toilet full of shit and flush. this is so frustrating. just like everything else. i feel like i hating more peeps each day. ya. whatever. fuck off. =)

i am gonna flunk all my first tests. they are so damn hard. like WHY??? its only the first test. didnt so very well. think i gonna fail my maths test and my chem one. *bursts into tears* and mrs lai just have p.m.s. all day long. screaming like she is the best. she talks she knows us all so very well and she is one of us. but u know something. there is a barrier between "girls" and her. its the GENERATION gap. its none of her bloody business what we do and how we do stuff. all she has to do is teach us. etra stuff are not needed. our teacher example mrs sim sucks. i wish i had taken geography. i regret like fuck now. *bursts into more tears* why?? at least i can excel in my humanities. why am i so dumb at times?i want geography. the school has sucha lot of lousy teachers. lousy principals as well. total failure.

plus i am anti-social and unparticipative. at least i am not irresponsible okay? i am sucha disgusting bitch sometimes. quiet too quiet, noisy too noisy. i have no idea what to do with myself. no idea how to live. i feel like *burst into tears* that. i just wanna tell ppl who hates me or see me buay song to fuck off. which is incresing. the number i mean.