moments - ayumi hamasaki
kokoro ga kogatsuite
yakeru nioi ga shita
sore wa yume no owar
i subete no hajimari datta
akogareteta mono wa utsukushiku
omoete te ga todokanai kara
kagayaki o mashita no darou
kimi no kudake chitta yume
no hahen ga boku no mune o
sashite wasurete wa ikenai
itami toshite kizamareteku
hana no you ni hakanai no nara
kimi no moto de sakihokoru deshou
soshite egao mitodoketa ato
sotto hitori chitteyuku deshou
kimi ga zetsubou to iu
nanofuchi ni tatasare
soko de mita keshiki wa donna
mono datta no darou?
ikibasho o nakushite samayotteru
mukidashi no kokoro ga fureru
no o osorete surudoi toge
harimeguraseru tori no you ni
habatakeru nara
kimi no moto e tondeyuku deshou
soshite kizu o otta sono se ni boku no hane o
sashidasu deshou
hana no you ni hakanai no nara
kimi no moto de sakihokoru deshou
soshite egao mitodoketa ato
sotto hitori chitteyuku deshou
tori no you ni habatakeru nara
kimi no moto e tondeyuku deshou
soshite kizu o otta sono se ni boku no
hane o sashidasu deshou kaze no you
ni nagareru no nara kimi no soba
ni tadoritsuku deshou tsuki no
you ni kagayakeru nara
kimi o terashitsuzukeru deshou

kimi ga mou kore ijou nido to
kowai mono o minakute sumu no
nara boku wa nan ni demo narou

SAITE sounds like SIGH TEH. Slang word meaning "the worst" or "it's the pits" or "crappy".

SHIMATTA sounds like SHIH MAH TAH. Informal term simply meaning "damn it!"

hehes more bad words. its more cultures den fuck u. so ahas. gonna use this words dat peeps dun understand. why is the world full of jian rens.?? i hate this type of peeps. thjey have no consideration for other people lorhs. shibayas. shimatta em. heehas.

toro sing the "SEKAI NI HITOTSU DAKE NO HANA " damn cool lorhs. why he so jian and so FLIRT??? harrrrrrrr. so hurt. my hebe. i hate jian people. campaign against them. ^-^ slap their faces, make them eat shit den stuff their big heads down the toiletbowl and flush. a s s holes.

"Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work." -- Thomas Edison

laughed in chinese class agaaaaain. cos i saw something absurdly funny.heeehas. made progess in OM. came up with a storyline and everything but not sure if it will be exceptable. my group members rawks except for MOU REN who never turn up at all.den afta OM the stupid me and phoebe, cheryl went down to join GUIDES!! ahhh. the foolishness. so we had to join the bllues in drills although we were wearing full sch u. harshh. hehehes. stress. doing mah dental healthh. yeahhs. lost all mah magic markers. booos. many many tests next week. gambette.

why does toro have to suck so much??????? i hate flirty assess.

" I do what i want, u got a problem?" -- mah cousin

say no no jian nan rens. cos they suck. should stuff their heads down durh toiletbowl and FLUSHIE. flirty assholes. why be so mean? the same goes for jian nu rens. JNR. IHB gruop strongly supports anti ahlians, brownies. yup.

hahas. today went home saw a guy scolding the traffic light . a pri sch kidd actually. den they stand they scold and scold. so funny. had maths consultation. was okay. didnt need that actually. just lazy. cos i didnt redo my ans. stupidd. so terrible. wahhas. had an okay day. did long jump in p.e. its so fun. hehes.

i.must.try.to.love.me

"Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today." -- James Dean

had a really cool bio lesson today. gotta see cells. got epidermal onion cell, hydrilla and liver cell. liver is so cool. and we had this nice microscope. thanks to cheryl who had yuan fen with the microscope and got us sucha nice one. can actually see the cells and anything. durh microcscope in our sch is so LP.wahhas. had training today. not tough but i hate doing group ballwork or wots dat called. i just wanna train durh sec ones. its so fun. ahahas. i recognised a girl from rosyth. my lovely memory. ahaaaa. i need mah sleep. panda eyes. hurrmph.

"Gifts And Curses" -- Yellowcard

Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before?
I was sure. (She is the one),
but I have a purpose, (she is the one),
and I have to fight this, (she is the one),
a villian I can't knock down.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you
. And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go,
would she know? (She is the one),
all that I wanted, (she is the one),
and I will be haunted, (she is the one),
this gift is my curse for now.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you.
Fight on for you ...

"It's easy to make a buck. It's a lot tougher to make a difference." -- Tom Borkaw

had the first OM meeting today. ahas. finally in OM ok?? in rosyth they wundnt accpet me. dats why they didnt win. wahahs. it sounds fun but i know its hard. hurmph. burt have one baad thingg. not gonna say it know cos i see how lar. cos i gearing up to oppose. grrrrrrrrr. cant stand it u noe!! BTW, i hate writing testis. cos i have no idea what to write.

many stuff to do. arhhs. haven found someone for hebe. twins are adding on mah stress by coming out with a CHINESE album. gu yi zheng dui s.h.e. or so i think. maybe. stress and confused.

"The die is cast." -- Ibid

hmmm. i suddenly realised i differ from most ppl. much much different. the piorities are different. much much different. maybe genuises dont feel the need to interact much with other peeps. or have the habit of telling other ppl things. its just the way i guess. most things dont matter. maybe its cos i dont belong here. maybe i should have gone elsewhere. so confusing. hurmph. hafta do mah homework later. maths. its ok i guess. dun feel the stress YET. and declaration of love for yellowcard. =) my thinking is weird. my actions are weird. the things i say are weird. the things i do are weird. weird a.k.a different. its nice i guess. =) may have a 601 gathering to eat tuan yuan fan on sat. ahahs. haven met them for ages. maybe going back rosyth. hmmm. confusing. i think i am may become an alcoholic. since i dont think beer taste bitter. but i still hate wine. and i wanna drink cocktail. cos i read in this newspaper article that children who start drinking at a young age have a higher rate of becoming an alcoholic. boo. mixing my own cocktail on new year anyway. ahahs. me and mah bro and my father. hope i dont end up smoking or drinking when i grow up. that wud be horrible. >.< please let hebe find someone. finding someone for hebe is harder than finding someone for myself. stress.

i am for myself. i rawk if i dont fail my napfa. =)

"I would rather excel others in the knowledge of what is excellent than in the extent of my powers and dominion." -- Alexander the Great

the wedding dinner yesterday was damn highhclass. everyone there looked rich. ahahs. got a lot of good food. got shark fin's, abalone, scallop, suckling pig, nice chicken, and a blurdy ncie dessert. heard one person cost $100. wahahas. den my cousin say the bride look lyk frog. =x and i suddenly have a lot of cousins and aunties and uncles. dunno sprout out from where? got a lot. they know me mostly as my mum's daughter. nice. =) anyway, the dinner was nice and high class. i love getting to eat nice food. like i ate crayfish for luch this morning. so nice. but a bit erm...... unfresh. i guess. watched mah s.h.e. vcd, the one i bought. its damn gandong as well. very touching. hebe is seriously too good for toro man. i still hate him. hate flirty asshole-y idiots.

i like to know of my existence.

"even if he loses this love, he will come to love her again." -- Syaoran Lee to Sakura.(CCS)

the sentence is damn gandong. can cry.

Sad stuffs
currently all stressed and pissed out.getting irritated easily. hehe. all fcuked up easily. stuff ppl's head down the toiletbowl and FLUSH!! hurr.mph

found out some devastating news today. i no longer support toro. he sucks. i hate flirty assholey guys like him. wahlau. not for my hebe. he shud flush his head.

I HATE TORO GUO WEI YUN.

i must now find somebody more worthy of hebe's love. the funny thing is, i dont hate zaizai. but i hate toro. cos he too blurdy flirty. shit him. so depressing.

Happy stuffs
got mah s.h.e. vcd. so happy. thats bout it. oh, and i am going to a wedding dinner tmr nite. FREE FOOD. ahahas. not much happy stuffs. depressed lately. i dunno. p.m.s?? i doubt it.

i feel like crying for all thats happening and all the little sad stuffs that i see. but the tears just wont come. stupid. just let me cry.

i am left all alone

"We all have ability. The difference is how we use it" -- Stevie Wonder

its snot fair. we go to school 6 hours. spend around 4 hours for cca on and average day. thats 10 hours. we have to sleep for 8 hours. that leaves us with 6 hours. 2 hours are spent for eating and bathing. that leaves us with 4 hours. are we supposed to spend the last four hours of freetime doing homework?? its so unnescessary lor. for the poor peeps who have tuition. too bad. the truth is. we dunch need homework. its redonedun. its extrra. why cant teacherrs understnad thaat? so terrible. cleanned the guides room today. dirtty like shit. so dusty. cleaned the fan. interacted with the thinner.and my fucking fingers hurt. but its cleaan!! yay~~ its really sad bout guides actually. 2 new ones. hmmm.

say no this world and its fucking tenants. plus i am fucking stressed. everything just keeps getting suckier and suckier. people who are so fucking obssesed with themselves and "biao mian" stuff. who think they are so completely right and dont give a damn bout anything but themselves. who wanna act good but actually has a hypocritical heart. act helpful. asssholes.stupid actties.and people who just cant accept you for who you are shud just do and stuff their heads down the toiletbowl and FLUSH. discriminative freaks. shud be condemn to some little island so they maybe might kill each other off by pissing one another. it doesnt matter.

i am for myself. shit u some peeps out there.

"What we anticipate seldom occurs, what we least expected generally happens." -- Benjamin Disraeli

i feel hart-broken. maybe bcos i lost mah eraser. ahh well. wadever. school's stressful. too much homework. stupid teachers. so much darn homework. plus i feel that i do not deserve so much homework. plus the deesguzthin brutha i haff. he irriztate moi like nobudde's buzinez. ahhh well. life goes on. *screws up face* notice mah new blog skin? its kinda plain. but i luuuurve the words.heheh. being mad again. feeling gan-dong again.

i wnana make this clear. hebe wants the fish not the cat anymore!! YAY!! hebe+toro = love =) amuse me.

i am depressed. somewher out there. s.h.e. is performing. and i am not there. hell.

"Great lives are the culmination of great thoughts followed by great actions." -- Peter Sinclair

weeeeha. went for the sec 1 orientation campfire ytd. not bad larhs.but verh tired and sorta last nimute. and i cant take 3 periods of lessons straight. can DIE wan lorhs. damnn teacherss. ridiculous idea.

had a campfire at hougang sec today. damn farrn. everybodddie was enthu-ing away. den can jump and dance and cheer and sing. l0l. very nice. if only every training can be lyk dats. heeha. gtg polish mah trifold for tmrs sec 1 orientation. i ahte sec 1s. blurdy kids. wahahhas. =x nitey.

"The only man who makes no mistakes is the man who never does anything." -- Theodore Roosevelt

i hate school. so blurdy stressful. *white hair all pops out* arhhhs. just wanna thank everyine for their ke ai presents they have bestowed on mee. ahahahs/

and wanna say hebe no longer wants the cat sylvester. she wants the fishiee toro guo; n0 catss. only fishiee.

i hate this girl in sec 2. so accct. act big, act lian. so shii baaai. got disgusting name summore. gr0ss. some peeps are so act so stupid so revolting. muaha. errxin. little fry. the princess me cannot be so free to go bother bout her. of she offends me den *keer-chaa*. her head shall go rolling on durh floor. heeha.

den had netball and guides today. tok to fu lao shi today. den jiayu damn funny. critisze her n dere. a bit bad lar. in class too. so far the class not bad lar. must see how. hmmm. >.<

yeah. u know some peeps when u talk to them and they just do not reply? i hate peeps like that. fcuk them. =) but some peeps are beta and nicer. =) the helpful and nice ones.

singing off - p.shuuyan

"Set honour in one eye and death i' the other,And I will look on both indifferently. " - (1.2.87)[julius Caeser]

first day of durh school. siaaan. mrs lai our form teacher. tot wad so scary. aHhHhh i forgot to bring my prezzies home!!! baaad baad memorry. waaaaah hope its still there. later it got stolen!!!!!!!!!! waaaah. den so quote "fook up" by elmo. wah laaaoooo. my chocs. waaaahh. my prezzieeess. i am gonna be lyk elmo soon. wahahhaas. daarrn. aaarrhhs. fook up. the day not too bad larr. got to get to see al the tootsies sec ones. funny. burt okiee. hungry lately.

i looove Laputa: Castle in the sky. its damn gan dong!! i looove eeet. muaha.

stewpid p. shuuyan

" its not the end, but the begining." - annonymous

HAppy nEw Year 2oo5!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hebe + toro (backup) i hope hebe end up with SLY!! den i will be the happiest girl on earth.

the one moment when i will be truly happy is when i go to the s.h.e. concert.

hebe+sly ("v") if possible hebe+toro osonot too bad. but..... ='[ so sadd.

hebe can also end up with pan wei bo. i dun mind too. ewahhahas.

woaihebe.