"Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy." -- anne frank

what a tired day today lor. had flag day early in the morning. met in school at 8.45a.m. *yawnns* squabbled with some girls that hebe and toro is better than toro and fiona. which to me is perfectly disgusting and (RA).yah. very grosss.den went flag day. no bowling`!! arhhhs. cos the bowling alley closed shop already. sad. so go take neoprints. at the heeren there. wanted to see the singapore idol but it was already too late. took a ballon from the "balloon person" .lol. stupid eunice and cheryl were luffin at me. took a taxi back to amkss. the uncle driving tok so much. at this age still act pro. *pukes* den went mac eat ice - cream. makes my fernucking sore throat much better.

den had games day`~~! very nice. begged chen lao shi help us open games room. had a game of pool with her. i w0n`! yeahhhs. den after played and played but lost. den went to play badminton. i sooo looorve badminton. so cool. too bad it started to rain. den we got to feast on the lovely buffet. not bad leh the food. den went to play more pool and darts. den it started to diulian. the first round not too bad the second one was terrible. lost like shit. cos the damn blackie went in. damn it right?den aching and sore.*and after diu wan le lian* went home. saaaad. damn shitty. but baboooo. its okaaay. practise more. lol.

carpe diem - sieze the day.

"There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved. " -- George Sand

has floral arrangement yesterday. lol.it was okay. my flowers was quite nice lor. haha. den go home the time damn bhb. pretend it was from my admireres. *diulians* choose my subject combie. chem/bio and history. yeahhs. get to learn europe hisrtory in jc. cool.

today go sch. sat in the hall for a long period of time.got all the prize giving and shit. damn sian. afterthat go ava room watch vcd that san jie made. it was ok gan dong. haha.saw all the pics. ting with the ponky hair. lol. and me with the ponky hair. den went back to class play cards. lost lot of money today. den play uno. use money stil. lost more. sad.but damn fun. den gotta clean the stinky smelly classroom. den miss soo anounced to us that she was leaving. qing and eunice teared a little. babooooo. fu lao shi den showed us all the comments on us. me the cheerful girl. funny.

next up, ice- skating. damn nice. not that cold there and a bit derr LP. haha. did not fall down at all. hahas. it was very slippery though. like can fall down any time. den the blkade on the shue was super thin keep on cutting into the ice. nearly make me fall. stinky poOo~. the food there was supoer expensiVeEee~~~~. $2.20 for a cup noodle. $0.60 for one normal lollipop. KMA man.shtupide. cheap little people of our money. stinkiE. but i survived. next up on the list. archery and bowling. hah. see ya theree.

think i will miss 2/4. ahhh. it rawks. hope we will stay together.

_2/4 forever~~~~~`

A girl and guy were speeding over 100mph on the road...
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it onyourself? Its bugging me...

(In the paper the next day):
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. 2 people were on it, but only1 survived.The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke down, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug 1 last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.Would you do this for someone??

omg. its damn touching lor.

"Unless you try to do something beyond what you have already mastered, you will never grow." -- Ronald E. Osborn

after exams activities kinda okay. not sick or anything. the guides cookin thing was nice. love cooking. just nort high class enuff. lol. den gotta cleaning stuff. damn funny. after sch found out no training. den wanted go play pool. lol. but no clothes to change. dammn. so went bowling with daveo, jac and cheryl. damn diulan. den david wanna throw the ball dat time the thing fell and roll baqwards. damn funny. not bad lor. miss pool. so long never play liao. sianx.

got new subject combie. dammn happy. got chem and bio. rawks. but sure a lot of peeps want. sians. i wanna learn bio. *future vet* lol. i want the kero in action city. only 29.00. lol. its damn super cute. go see.

"You don't need an explanation for everything." --harry browne

i am jealous. jealous jealous jealous. fucked fcuked fucked. stupid show on ch8. the stpid one with toro in lurve with another uglyy girl besides hebe. sucks lor i tell u. just aggravates my mood more. i am fuming now. all the shitty asses in this whole wide world. and i am all stressed out. toro is sorta like a jian nan ren. go around flirting with every girl cept hebe?!?!?! so assholic. so stupid. hebe is obviously prettier den all the ugly girls toro flirts with. i will not watch that fernucking show. anti that. will go bursting green smoke if i watch.

ahhh. my results suck. the position is damn lan.

class - 9th
level - 51th

sucks right. feeel so goddamn stupid. andrea got 9th in level. so clever. and i have no idea to go which class. damn.

watched movies in class. haven finished watching monster inc. sad. wthe drumline was nice. i like movies like that. dawn of the dead damn gross. i do not like peeps dying in a freaky way. do u think we can watch ju-on? anna has the cd. lol. terrified to death. wanna watch the doll master. super creepy. screamers.

very stressed cos got two ccas. den both ccas damn taxing. dun wanna go both but have to choose between one. tires out. and the whole "five days to go to school per week" thing is not good. have to consult melinda on this. yup. open house on saturday. netball and guides on fri. which to go? still will regret choice. freako. and more bad news. no more disney's recess. end of life.

i have let myself down. bursting with shit.

To Be With You Lyrics
Hold on little girl
Show me what he's doone to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you
[Chorus]
Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

" Genius develops in quiet places, character out in the full current of human life." -- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

i feel sick depresssed and baaad. i feel guilty for no reason. yet i feel like shitt. i went to the stupid lousy polyclinic and got an mc. it felt so so wrongg. but what i said was not untrue. my leg did hurt. i had a cough. i had a headache. and i cant go for sports cos my leg hurt like noboby's business. arrghh. i felt like i just killled somebody. i feel bad about all the lies, all the deciet i have ever done or told. but i really cant face netball. and the fact that my parents have no idea what i have done. why i cant go to vjc. why my results are like shitt. why diidnt i study beta for my PSLE. why do i alwaees do stuff that i regret. why cant i think properly. why am i such a coniving person. all so wrong. the truths are worse. reality sucks. hurrrrrrmmph.

i feel like shit about myself and wish that i can put all wrongs right without torturing myself.
i wish that i can tell the truth without hurting myself or anyone.
i wish that i can face up to things bravely instead of just running away.
i wish that i can think back on what i have done without regret.
i wish i was me again.

" Pick the flower when it is ready to be picked. " -- ancient chinese proverb

oh shitty. the stupud [the village] vcd hanged on me. arhhs. it was gettin interesting too. pissed off so came to blogg. lol. went a eating dis morning. yum yum. damn niccee.. damn stressed. think i going to the polyclinic tmr with cheryl to get an mc to skip netball. hopefully can extend to bout 3 weeks. lol. each week go different polyclinic. worth it. hope it works. i have never been in a polyclinic before. so...... *bless me*

"Some books are to be tasted, others to be swallowed, and some few to be chewed and digested." -- franncis bacon

got back resultss

it was not too bad lah but still quite bad. sarrks. today damn sark. haf p.eeeeee. haaish. den muist run 2 rounds. GREAT. yup. just great. den came lit. which was ok. haha. just nice an a1. lol. den after sch so siaan plus got the stinky dnt shit.which i dun have a cluuu wads it bout. damn kns. prefer staying at H0me

jiu mei hao jke aiii. can read de worr. she can read the "si" word on my desk. when she crawl pass the word she will look won and see. damn ke aii. can swim too. kawaii nehx. must improve on my darn lousy results.

heyaass. hafta go baq to sch tmr. siaaan. dunwanna get baq results. scarry. go dis webbie

http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/singaporeidol

its damn funny.like yesterdaee's punk'd. the reporter asked paige if she summugled raisins. it was so damn funny, i just sit dere and luffed my head off. lol. very funny. i like things that make me luff. i watched mr bean yesterday too. was also veri funny. disney's recess rawks. burt next week no more lizzie mcguire. sarkss. i changed the rainbow pic toi the i love u one cos its so cute. used it in my hebe toro wallpaper. damn ncie.

which is why u have to burn all i zhou kan. its disgusting. got toro and fiona xie. perfectly eeeyucks. gross.toro is damn super sucky. too bad he and hebe so pei. misfourtune. and stupid winglin sucks. hardly and hebe and toro storyies. den suay suay i saw a fernucking toro and cyndi story. made me wanna puke. eeeyuckss. groszsss. my dearest hebe.

cant bring myself to wake up early tmr. have to watch der swan tonight. love showes like these. hoho. tv fanatic. heard its bad for your brains. i keep eating during the hols. argh.

OBESITY

its gonna be a fat me again. lol. cos i am suffering from the word above. sad. i keep eating non-stop. luckily i have no junk food at home. luckieee.

i am 3 apples high- the smurfsss acceptable height.so kawaii

" shi jie ruo shi na me xiao, wei he wo de zhen xin ni ting bu dao?" -- liang jing ru

ahhs. blurdy pissed off by some LC peeps. damn it. ah well no sch tmr. stay home and watch teevee and my beloved cartoons. oh sad. tmr is monday. no disney's recess. sucks. at least there's lizzie mcguire. lol. wenta eat HC food today. yummy. satisfied. but now still hungry. haaish. i am so forever eating. i will get fat sooner.

exams over = cca starts

that sucks. no cca rawks. i shud have bcum cca-less. think i wun do well in dis exam. that sucks. i had sucks ____ expectations of myself. arhhs. i wanna do well. shtoopid papers. this sch damn suckssssssss.

"Cinderella" -- PLAY *fan chang by S.H.E. **ban tang zhu yi**

When I was just a little girl
My momma used to tuck me into bed
and she'd read me a story
It always was about a Princess in distress
And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory
I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I want to beT
hen one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me

[Chorus]
I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no one else
I'd rather rescue myself

Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart, and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am
Don't need nobody taking care of meI will be there for him just as strong as he will be there for me
When I give myself then it has to got to be, an equal thing

[Chorus]

I can slay, my own dragons
I can dream, my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me
So I'm gonna set me free
[Chorus x3]

"告诉我什么是爱和被爱." -- 5566 [gao shu wo she me shi ai he bei ai]]

the end of the exams`!!! lol. the maths 2 was okay. dun think i will die like hell. mabbe pass lor i hope. home econs? dun give a damn. lol. do finish den slp. *snores*. nicee. den go shopping. miracle my parents lemme go out. once in a million. and buy things summore. went out wif sister 8 minus jane. she got piano lesson. first stop j8. cos qing had to go baq home. bought op shirt. lol. 70% discount. got home the tyme. mummie say "u only buy one?" lol. very funny. den take mrt go far east. the train ride like take 5 mins only. so strange.go far east walk. all the skirt all so 'jeans' . i dun wan jeans skirt. eunice and qing bought. lol. took neox too. walk until we were half dead and tired and had to fight for any available seat, we found a this fashion where i bought a skirt. lol. quite nice. not too ugly. and not jeans. lol. den went to p.s. took the mrt, too lazy to walk. walk a while den go home liao. dead beat. aching legs. must rest dem while watching SI. watch ok? support sylvester`!!

+++__I wanna know what it's like to be loved *** yin wei aii

"It's not good enough that we do our best; sometimes we have to do what's required." -- winston churchill

had science paper to day. lol. gonna die. damn hard ok. den went to mac. ate yummy yummy hot pancales with sausage. cures my depression. but it sort of making me sick. mabbe next time i just eat the muffin sausage. eggless. lol. lost all my songs again. damn damnit. gotta redownload. my boa. haaish. the nice lovley song i took 2 daes is gone. ah well. i have my disney recess to pei me to wallow in my sorrow. haha. find solace in the tevee. sad kid. lol.

"If you choose not to decide, you still have made a choice. " -- neil something

ok. the ex post dissappeared. gotta retype. so gonna make it short.

i hope i din flunk my maths and geog. i wanna do well for dese two. i wish they would not put it in the same day. kinda stressed. but i got motivated by weizhen's ah pooh msg. lol. and my good luck charms.

tommy is a idiot who sen my this file which changed my nick to " i have my period". but my period finsih liao. stupid pervetic tommy. mentally unstable. actually send dis type of thing. very bad influence on such an innocent and decent girl like me. OMG. haha. like wad joel actually discribed " what happened o the sweet shu yan i used to know" after he read my vulgar blog. haha. that proves it. even my enemy said i am sweet. lol. and like what jane said. "qing chun ke ai mei li gond ren huo bo kai lang wen rou xian shu". haha. 'tender' as what t.j. would say. double haha. too much reading is damaging my brain. haha. all the chimchim' books. nerddy. i read finish digital fortress liao. in one day. *claps*lol. the achievement.

must sturdie like mad if i wan my xing fu and freedom. gambatte. hope my lucky charms work.

" Friends we have are ever changing " -- busted

i had this very funny conversation with my brother just now.

me: i think the ugly duckling the cartoon very touching lehx.

my brother : ya. you are an ugly duckling but you will stay ugly forever.

i think its so damn hilarious. i laughed my head off in the car. my mummy oso laugh. den my brother said.

my borhter: why u so ding dong?

haha.it sounds so damn funny coming out from his mouth.

watched winnie the pooh yesterday. found it was damn touching. sad cartoons make me cry.it was damn nice and funny. laughed my head off at that too. heesh. children day rawk/ why cant i be a kid too.

stardied my maths this morning. did lots of assesments. i have to pass my maths if its the last thing i do. i cant afford to fail. lol. watched stepford wives just now. its wrong but i just cant help it. i mean. its movie vs. maths. lol. which it der obvious winner. hoho. gotta study lotsss...