no matter how unwilling i am to come back here,stil,i have to be back and now,sitting here jotting down my feeling right now..sad...a little homesick...and ojipala..complex feeling hmm....i miss being at home!!i miss my family i miss my room...:((( tis morning wen my ah ma asked me to study hard my tears almost drop coz followed by that she hold my hand telling me that she is very she bu de..:'( tis reflects me on my childhood memory...i rmb i love my ah ma so much las time wen i was small that everytime wen she packed her luggage leaving to sibu bintulu all those places to stay wit my aunties i wil cry so badly coz i knw she wil only be back after a few mths , she always hugged me asking me nt to cry she wil come back soon ask me to be good good girl at home..bt dno since wen,my love towards ah ma become lessen although i stil do love her bt smtimes i am sick of her that she lyks nagging..among all her grandsons and grand daughters there is no doubt that she loves me the most, she gave me wadeva i like wen i was small ,she quarreled wit mum wen my mum rotan me to protect me,all of this and that ,i can stil remember so clearly ..even until now, everytime wen i go back home she will call my name before me calling her and smile wit so much joy tat i can see from her face knowing that how happy she is to see me going back home.. but now, she is getting older and older and im kinda afraid that she might leave us 1 day wen i aint at home studying here..i dn want it to happen..las week she had been admitted to hospital for her serious asthma attack and shes been discharged from hospital jz few days before me coming back here..sometimes i realy wish i can finish my study faster and go back ,work ten gv her money, to accompany her as she always does..ah ma,stay healthy,stay strong..May God bless and be with u always...:)

arrrggghhh how??i dn wana go back thr laaaa.....nx week,have to go back le..torturing life gonna start so soon le...i have to leave my home sweet home soon...sad....haizzzzz...i wan a longer holiday!!!!y time passes so fast??nt enuf time larr....hmmm....say so much 4 wad??complain so much for wad??at last stil have to go back to study....result coming out on the 19th...dno how is it gonna be...jz hope for the best....God,do shour your mercy on me....give me a better sem2...:')