its been ages since i last updated my blog dy....wad to do??life is jz toooooo busy tat i couldnt even find a proper time to really update my blog...aha...is tis an excuse? well..hell no......tis sem is killing me...time flies...its towards the end of this semester ored...i cant rmb since when...that i start chasing after time like wad most of the ppl did which i never needa do it las time..life...is owez as miserable...so,wad have i actually done throughout the whole sem?interested to know?? haha..wads wrong with me?? am i really hyper like wad my fren owez said? always gt so excited in everythg..lol..ok ok..bk to topic..so hell yeahh..throughout the whole sem, i procrastinated..i played...i laughed....i enjoyed...i went to uk fun fair...i got bruises frm the fun fair...i did almost all my assignments las minute..i complained...i gossip....and i met a shitty lecturer...ive gone through a most terrible presentation and lots n lotsss...lots of things happened in this sem...but am i happy?do i? yes...cant deny that im having some happy moments here ..but..its 20 percent out of 100 percent..20 percent of happiness and 80 percent of disappointment, sorrow, worries...u must be wondering why?? i used to b a happy go lucky person that i can gt over with sth so easily ..bt i admit i hv changed...everyone changes...i thought i wouldnt chg but at last, i do..i owez take for granted in things i do..i tot everything is as easy as i thought..bt in real life, nothing is easy..problems in family n prob with frens are never easy to be handled..and i hv experienced all these in tis sem..tey are the ones that can bring u happiness ,but at the same time,disappoinment and worries are all from them as well..
Oh yeah!i have moved out frm kampung E already! too much of freedom also make me starting to not appreciate...hmm..things are always like this..when u dnt have it, u want u wait for it n u try ur best to have it,but wen u gt it in ur hand,u will look for sth better again...funny isnt it??lol And one more thing..i stop going to church dy!!neither Methodist nor local church..y?because no point going?i see too many hypocrites..
exam is coming so damn soon which is jz nx week...goshh....best of luck for me..jz hope for the best ba...hmm..hope for a better 2nd year in ums!

no matter how unwilling i am to come back here,stil,i have to be back and now,sitting here jotting down my feeling right now..sad...a little homesick...and ojipala..complex feeling hmm....i miss being at home!!i miss my family i miss my room...:((( tis morning wen my ah ma asked me to study hard my tears almost drop coz followed by that she hold my hand telling me that she is very she bu de..:'( tis reflects me on my childhood memory...i rmb i love my ah ma so much las time wen i was small that everytime wen she packed her luggage leaving to sibu bintulu all those places to stay wit my aunties i wil cry so badly coz i knw she wil only be back after a few mths , she always hugged me asking me nt to cry she wil come back soon ask me to be good good girl at home..bt dno since wen,my love towards ah ma become lessen although i stil do love her bt smtimes i am sick of her that she lyks nagging..among all her grandsons and grand daughters there is no doubt that she loves me the most, she gave me wadeva i like wen i was small ,she quarreled wit mum wen my mum rotan me to protect me,all of this and that ,i can stil remember so clearly ..even until now, everytime wen i go back home she will call my name before me calling her and smile wit so much joy tat i can see from her face knowing that how happy she is to see me going back home.. but now, she is getting older and older and im kinda afraid that she might leave us 1 day wen i aint at home studying here..i dn want it to happen..las week she had been admitted to hospital for her serious asthma attack and shes been discharged from hospital jz few days before me coming back here..sometimes i realy wish i can finish my study faster and go back ,work ten gv her money, to accompany her as she always does..ah ma,stay healthy,stay strong..May God bless and be with u always...:)

arrrggghhh how??i dn wana go back thr laaaa.....nx week,have to go back le..torturing life gonna start so soon le...i have to leave my home sweet home soon...sad....haizzzzz...i wan a longer holiday!!!!y time passes so fast??nt enuf time larr....hmmm....say so much 4 wad??complain so much for wad??at last stil have to go back to study....result coming out on the 19th...dno how is it gonna be...jz hope for the best....God,do shour your mercy on me....give me a better sem2...:')

after tough exams tiring weeks,now im back home...finally..bt tis time,i dn feel as excites as las time dy...bt stil,home is good,home is sweet...home sweet home..:) can meet wit hui yi and crazy again..dis is the thing that im most happy with i think..tis makes me think of last time..now,we have chance to eat together,play,go out 2gether again dy..bt after few days she will be back to work dy bt yeah...few more days later i wil see her againn..happy:) cny is coming so so soon..bt up til now i dn hav cny mood still..lol...or shud i put it tis way,i like xmas more than cny??haha...but,thinking of ang pau,it makes me sangat the happy hahaha...and also reunion wit old classmates..good time..:)