its monday again...damn tired....gosh things are getting more and more..literature is killing me...so tough...too abstract to understand my gosh...1st time in my life i found literature can be so tough...name will be called anytime to ans qs..lucky im not the unlucky ones...bt it's 4 sure that i s wil be called 1 day also...so better get myself ready from time to time...whole day of lectures...only d 1st 2 lessons i listened in class d rest of the time jz chat and laugh wit frens...lol...they are indeed nice and cute frens to be with...lecturer talked in front and we were like talking and laughing all d way like thrs no leturer ..discuss where to go 2mr and wad we gonna do 2mr...haha never know they can be so crazy like wad i did in school las time also..haha...thank God that he has chosen 2 good frens for me..at least with some good frens ard me i feel that im not that lonely anymore...i hope we can graduate 2gether after 4 yrs..seeing each other with "jubah" will be proud and by tat time we will share all our fun moments tat happen in this coming 4 yrs together...looking 4ward to it...haha..frens,we jia you 2gether bah...gambateh to all!!=)

.....mood swing....i am quite happy dis few days although kinda busy with works and some stupid activities..coz i have found few nice friends to hang out wit...talk laugh like crazy in class...am glad tat i have this 2 nice frens intro intro,they are christina and doreen :))...tey are the ones who cheer me up 4m time to time....new bt nice.it owez makes me feel so proud that i can have them as my good frens although we jz knew each other for nt more than 1 mth time...

assignments..pls get out of my life...

damn....i spent more than 30 hours jz to do surfing,typing and rephrasing everything...fck u mdm amali..stupid pig.....thanks to u..that i had to wake up 6 in d morning and go to the library until 8pm ten come back to dorm continue to busy wit assignment until 12/1 am....lack of sleep everyday....i have to do everything on my own....nobody wil ever understand hw terible it is to do 4 ppl's work on u urself...damn...i truly deeply madly hate assignments!!!and all those useless ppl!urrghh!!!!uni life=hell life....can u imagine?while other ppl with other courses are relaxing having their sweet time sleeping and talking loud,laughing,go out 4 movie,and u have to stay awake jz 4 d sake of assignments.....tis feeling is real terrible....damn....=( I love u,God,pls make me tough..

sorry,and thanks,to my mum

now,i can really feel how much my mum cares abt me..once she knew tat im sick d 1st thing she called me,asking me hw am i feeling any better?take med dy?its so warm...she called me 4 more than 6 times continuosly ..having a caring mum is a good thing,bt y cant i see it wen i have her near to me las time ,i only feel that im so blessed to have a caring mum after i came here..human is owez like tis,perhaps..i realy dno hw 2 describe in words wen she talks to me on phone,bt deep down inside my heart,i realy wanted to say,thank you mum and also a sorry...thank you coz u owez care abt me,my whereabouts and stuffs like that...sorry ,for that long period of rebellious moment of mine especially wen i was in primary 6 until form 2...i know i did a lot of things,silly things which hurt u a lot ,which upset u,im sorry for all that...thinking of all that realy make me feel so stupid of myself...i apologize for all d things that ive said to u which hurt u badly...thx 4 not giving up on me bt stil care a lot abt me...thanks,mum..

real sick...bt tis time..without mum nagging at me asking me to take med...unlike the time wen i was in kch,when i was sick..i owez got scolded by mum 4 not taking med on time...bt after scolding she wil automatically bring med and water to me....and forced me to eat porridge....i kinda miss it,now....las time i felt very annoying everytime wen my mum talked to me...bt now,out of the sudden,i kinda miss it...dno y...i feel like crying so badly wen i lie on my bed having high body temperature,wen im not feeling well...thinking how good if my mum were here..is tis something we call it homesick?haizz.....d life here realy made me suffer a lot....

sick...finally fever visits me...why am i using the word "finally"?i have no idea lol...actually dis few days im realy in a bad mood that i feel very unhappy wit everything...tired of the life here....bt wad can i do?thrs no turning back anymore since the day i decided to further my studies in ums...i jz cant stand those stupid fucking malays!tey deserve to go to hell!cant they see i have a lot of stuff to do???cant they jz stop screaming and talking+laughing when they see me taking out my notebook doing my work??????????are tey blind or anything??i have to do all the topics and tasks that were given by that stupid lecturer as my group members are useless that i cant put any hope on them..i have to do avtin by my own in order to pass up our works on time...bt y????y i jz cant do anything peacefully????im so sick of malays!tey made me hate them more and more ..y do i have to deal with all these probs??im so tired of it!!!!!!!!i din ask 4 much,i jz wan a peaceful environment that i cant do my works peacefully without any interruptions...God,pls show ur mercy...

Life in sabah...

It’s hell life here..1^st,it came orientation week,most hectic life ever in my life…waking up at 4am and only able to sleep at ard 1 or 2am d next day..it;s really killing…to be honest,im realy nt used to the life here….everything is like upside down…damn….the people here,the things here ,are real terrible….imagine ur d only chinese in dorm and surrounded with 3 malays…so tis is wad they so called”1 malaysia”??jz wanna get another chinese to be in d same dorm wit me is like almost imposible …seeing other ppl with 2 chinese or more in a dorm really makes me so envy…y do I owez have to be so unlucky to get sth I dislike?and tis is wad we call a LIFE?d foods here,I can only describe with one word,and it is SHIT!i would rather die of starving also not gonna eat the rubbish here…I realy hope to go back…bt I know I cant disappoint my parents,my grandma,and realtives who put so much hope on me..i promised my mum tat I wil study hard ..i have to mark my words..class started yesterday,and it was an exhausted day…y?coz from 8am to 6pm,I have to attend 4 lectures and 8pm to 11.15pm thr was another stupid lame and long taklimat to attend..gosh….i realy hope 4 yrs pass faster….i realy dislike the life here…thr is nobody here that I can rely on…I hav to stand on my own..i realy hate those useless and irresponsible ppl…bt now in my group,thr is one like that..i have to be alert all the time, if not,I wil die…we are all told d same thing bt y I can hear it bt she cant???while I talked abt it she was like “huh?ding,wad are u talikng abt??i dnt understand..lecturer got talk abt tat jz now kah?” …its so damn sucks to hang ard wit this rubbish dude…1 more thing is that we have to rush for buses everyday..if not u gonna walk like hell for 1 and half hrs to get to ur faculty from hostel…although hostel is inside uni,bt wen u need to walk 4 so long to reach ur faculty,im sure everybody will be like me,u’ll hate UMS ,u wont say ums is the best uni in malaysia anymore…God,pls strengthen my will to continue my studies here…