finally,all assignments cleared....Thank God for leading me all the way, giving me strength to do my work...although i know it's badly done,i dno wad mark am i gonna get,bt at least,i've got them all over..bt exam is coming so so soon yt i hvn touch anything yt...hope will have enough time to study..God, continue leading me in my life...especially my study life...for the next 3 n half yrs...celebrated my 1st christmas in kk ,it feels good.. spent the whole day doing church activities..it was tired bt fun..love the feeling wen im at church,owez feel that im so blessed wen im in church..dno y i feel so,bt i find peace in church..thinking of it, am gonna spend another 3 more christmas and also other festive seasons in kk..it's kinda sad coz cant celebrate with family..especially that day "dong zi"..if it was las time, i will be eating all the nice nice homecook foods by mum with ma family..wa...so nice...so xin fu....yea i know i will miss a lot a lot of thing for not being in my lovely kch,my home, bt i will surely gain a lot of things from here too..smtimes, spending time celebrating all kind of festive seasons with frens isnt that bad too..new experience,new life..thats y,frens are important...zai jia kao fu mu,zai wai kao pen you..it's damn true.. love the feeling doing work with frens, this is y 4 d las few days,i went to christina's room to do my work and i can concentrate more wen sm1 is doing work with me at the same time coz i know that im not doing avtin all alone wen there are frens ard..seeing frens doing their work is a strength for me to continue working on my unfinished work lol..tis is jz hw weird i am..weirdo ding.. jia you doreen christina ah ding!!!study hard !!!!arrghh!!!we can do it! cause God loves us :)

sick jorrr..yea again....im big bt im nt as strong ..realy hate it wen im sick..feel lyk dying...so much....heavy head..high body temp,stuffy nose, sore+itchy throat..gosh gosh gosh...avtime wen im sick i wil rmb tis song...which is "if i die young"..lol...nice song though..was brought to consult tis chinese physician.. kinda awkward wen da sis brought me out...n even to go to sis's home..this jz showed that hw caring they are and im quite touched bt i jz cant promise to attend all the meetings and Lord's table meeting...as i cant realy enjoy myself there more than methodist church...bt i jz cant b honest to them..sorry,sis...bt tq for d LOVE..appreciated.arggghhhh....2 more assignments!!!!final is coming !!!goshh!!!let me die!!!kill me!!life is so tough so tiring....

14/15 dec 2011 meteor night :)

2day is the 1^st time in my life I see meteor..nt only 1 bt 15…nice…never knew that I can be so crazy also…christina n I walked n run all the way to sports complex jz to see meteor lol…so fun…and excited to wait for another meteor to appear one after another..ppl always say u gotta make a wish wheneva u see a meteor bt when u see it u wont hav the time to make ur wish anymore …d only thing tat u will do to to shout and scream wit joy and show of to other ppl that u’ve seen it..i dn blif tat our wishes wil realy cm true jz by that..bt d moment wen ur waiting for another meteor to appear is real real fun hehe..it’s fun ..in uni, u will see n do anything tat u haven tried b4..now I start realizing that life in uni is nt as bad if u dnt think abt assignments and exams for a second..i’ve learnt quite a lot of things here and now I start appreciating things ard me..frens,family and all..cc presentation had finally over!!!yoohoo joy to the world….bt quiz and 2 more assignments to go..big headache…umm…and yeah,I’ve bought a new shoe again 2day..yea..its AGAIN…haha…we always use money to buy happiness…tats y money is everything..without money,u cant shop,without shopping,u cant buy,without buying ,u wont feel happy…and wen ur nt happy,u better go die…this is my very own theory bt its kinda true though…crazy big mango’s fan Christina bought quite a lot 2day I think she’s more happy than I do…good good…happy happy 1^st ten busy busy then tired tired…in life,u must hav these good and bad things..if not,life will never be balance I guess?hmmmm…that all for now..bb…

It’s been 2 days after I cm back from novotel..feel so sien…so wanna go back to the hotel again…so nice..so comfortable ..thanks to my sis tat I wil hav chance to go stay thr..and of coz bring along my two gude gude peng you..haha…walked at 1b for the whole nite jz to wait for the arrival of my sis…felt kinda excited coz long time din see her dy after d las time I saw her which was in kuching airport wen I sent her off … hearing to her complaining how tough is her life as a cabin crew I feel so sad for her bt I cant do anything help her…seeing her been scolding by leading of coz I dn feel good as well..las time she was so cheerful and everything jz like happy go lucky..everything also dn gv a damn..compare to now,I knw shes been experiencing hell life..telling me tat she miss ucsi..how good if that time she decided to continue studying then she wont be suffering all these dy..bt thrs no turning back anymore..if it was las time,wen she see foods she will be like damn happy and eat like thrs nobody bt its diff now,can see that she has no apetite to eat at all ..go back hotel straight away study..las time dn even hav to be so hardworking..feel kinda “xin suang” for her..jia you ba ah mui,as ur sis I will always be by ur side to support u,really hope that ur life will be getting better and I hope that u will be as happy as b4…that is baru my cheerful and naughty sis..

woohoo wulaala..i got my xiao bai back dy...kinda excited bt i hope no more problem wit it anymore at least let me use peacefully for half a year or longer..hmm...waited in bus wit billy for like almost 1 hr gosh....hard to imagine if i was alone..tsk tsk....imagine waiting in bus nth to do from 7.50pm util 8.50pm..hng terribleee..only reach kpg e ard 9.30pm..exhausted ..bt stil got to do some correction for cc slides and also the assignment..hmmm...nx week is a real busy and terible week..3 presentations,1 quiz,1 test..gosh...........so chun hui yi come on dis weekend..bt yeah wil try my veli the best to study b4 meeting her...almost 3 mths din see her dy..kinda excited...rmb d time wen we were at home,the crazy things we did,said all and all..good memory...kinda sad also..cuz i knw that we wont have much time to spend together like las time anymore..i study,she works,nx time wen i work,she will be stil working and 2 of us in 2 different places..even new yr also can hardly get to meet her...really miss the moment when she was in college and i picked her up like almost everyday..go church together,go swim every sat or sun,go play 2gether..and all that stopped wen she left for her training in kl...gosh...sad.. :(...bt tis is life...no matter wad,we will still have to separate,wit family,frens,and also the ones we love..saying goodbye is always very pain, bt tis is life..life is cruel.....Goodbye sometimes also help us to be more mature and grow up in a way...so yeah,no one to be blame,and nothing to be blame also..u can only blame urself for everything..who ask u to be borned in this world?hmmm...

woohoo....finally i step into here again....d reason y i cm 2day is bcoz of the 2 of my very de "GOOD" fren.they jz wan me to come and write something and show them 2mr...lame gao lao sai...in order to make them happy and talk to me willingly,i hav no choice bt to chen quan them..las nite i was so pissed off,coz of those malay pigs.nt feeling well tis 2 days..urrgghhhh...bt luckily i gt to nap for 1 hr plus tis afternoon to gain sm energy ..hmm wad else to say??hrrrmmm... damn so much things to do bt y am i so free to blog here??yerrr!

its been quite a few days i din blog dy...so busy and lot of things happened..gosh...whole week jz busy wit assignments,preparation for midterm,all and all..it's real tiring... BUT,1 fun thing is that yesterday we rent a car to go out,and of coz,i was d driver ehhehehe...kinda excited and 3 of us jz go out buy stuffs ,ate our favorite frozen yogurt(tutti frutty) and talk and laugh like mad in car coz it was d 1st time i drive in kk,haha..come back ard 5 sth,thrs stil 30 minutes left b4 i return d car,so we went to our uni beach for the very 1st time..took a lot of pics and 3 of us shout like mad thr felt so satisfied after doing all those crazy things...yesterday was really a happy day 4 d 3 of us..that it washed away all my unhappy things which kept me kinda unhappy all this while...hoping 4 d nx time to come..:) although life here is tough,bt owez wen i come to think of it,wen thr are unhappy moments,thr are owez good frens ard me all the time,tis is d thing tat im most happy with ever since i enter uni,thats y,frens are so important for me..thx frens...we have 4 more yrs to spend time 2gether,happy+unhappy moments,it will all turn into tears and joy d day wen we graduate 2gether..:)

went to manukan yesterday and it was real fun...very very nice place and we played banana boat and snorkeling...and of coz..doreen and ru yi were wit me too.. enjoyable..took a lot pics...we shouted,we laughed ,all and all..it's real good spending time wit good frens at beach..good memory..we all got sunburn aftertat...so painful and i found a lot of wounds on my leg...thx to the fishes and also d stone in d sea..was totally happy although tired...too bad christina din join..if nt it will be more fun..hope to visit manukan island again soon..bt d nx time,not wit buddhist club anymore,it's with my own frens..heehee it will surely gonna be so damn fun...dreaming..haha...

i can no longer sustain anymore....realy feel so tired....feel like dying so much...pressures..from lecturers..exams...assignments....useless irresponsible lecturer...i realy hate all of them so much...y avtin cm 2gether at jz 1 time???we are also human...we need some rest...

so,is tis call uni life?y is av1 telling me that it is very fun bt i cant feel even a little of joy in uni life?everyday so pack..full with assignments and tasks...stupid lecturer..and all...are these that make a uni life interesting?gosh several times i feel like giving up...i feel like killing myself so badly...i cant breath..i feel so hard to breath properly wen i face problems...bt thr is no1 that i can really rely on...d only thing that comforts me d most are friends beside me..am real glad to have frens like them...getting along well with frens is my only source of joy here...we complain 2gether we emo 2gether we laugh crazily 2gether most of the time we are 2gether...love ya all my precious frens :)

it's been few days i din update my blog due to broadband prob.damn dis stupid line here..av1's broadband had been terminated wad the hell..so stress...a lot of tasks to do and it's all on literature which is so hard to define ..spent d ho day in library jz to find all those info...realy so damn tired..stil tot that 2day hav no class can rest bt have to stuck in d library also..gosh hectic life...tiring...suddenly feel like going home so much...i miss my bed i miss my car i miss my frens i miss everything in sarawak gosh...all and all...received a phone call from my little sis...1st time see her asking me to go back wen she's back...lol...haha she misses me much?haha funny little gal...actualy i kinda miss it wen we go out 2gether wen we laugh together wen we quarel last time b4 she left to kl...lol..it's always like tis,wen smbody is near to u,u wont feel it tat much bt wen she's away u will kinda miss d moment wen both of us used to spent 2gether...life,is cruel...bt sometimes,it's fun..

its monday again...damn tired....gosh things are getting more and more..literature is killing me...so tough...too abstract to understand my gosh...1st time in my life i found literature can be so tough...name will be called anytime to ans qs..lucky im not the unlucky ones...bt it's 4 sure that i s wil be called 1 day also...so better get myself ready from time to time...whole day of lectures...only d 1st 2 lessons i listened in class d rest of the time jz chat and laugh wit frens...lol...they are indeed nice and cute frens to be with...lecturer talked in front and we were like talking and laughing all d way like thrs no leturer ..discuss where to go 2mr and wad we gonna do 2mr...haha never know they can be so crazy like wad i did in school las time also..haha...thank God that he has chosen 2 good frens for me..at least with some good frens ard me i feel that im not that lonely anymore...i hope we can graduate 2gether after 4 yrs..seeing each other with "jubah" will be proud and by tat time we will share all our fun moments tat happen in this coming 4 yrs together...looking 4ward to it...haha..frens,we jia you 2gether bah...gambateh to all!!=)

.....mood swing....i am quite happy dis few days although kinda busy with works and some stupid activities..coz i have found few nice friends to hang out wit...talk laugh like crazy in class...am glad tat i have this 2 nice frens intro intro,they are christina and doreen :))...tey are the ones who cheer me up 4m time to time....new bt nice.it owez makes me feel so proud that i can have them as my good frens although we jz knew each other for nt more than 1 mth time...

assignments..pls get out of my life...

damn....i spent more than 30 hours jz to do surfing,typing and rephrasing everything...fck u mdm amali..stupid pig.....thanks to u..that i had to wake up 6 in d morning and go to the library until 8pm ten come back to dorm continue to busy wit assignment until 12/1 am....lack of sleep everyday....i have to do everything on my own....nobody wil ever understand hw terible it is to do 4 ppl's work on u urself...damn...i truly deeply madly hate assignments!!!and all those useless ppl!urrghh!!!!uni life=hell life....can u imagine?while other ppl with other courses are relaxing having their sweet time sleeping and talking loud,laughing,go out 4 movie,and u have to stay awake jz 4 d sake of assignments.....tis feeling is real terrible....damn....=( I love u,God,pls make me tough..

sorry,and thanks,to my mum

now,i can really feel how much my mum cares abt me..once she knew tat im sick d 1st thing she called me,asking me hw am i feeling any better?take med dy?its so warm...she called me 4 more than 6 times continuosly ..having a caring mum is a good thing,bt y cant i see it wen i have her near to me las time ,i only feel that im so blessed to have a caring mum after i came here..human is owez like tis,perhaps..i realy dno hw 2 describe in words wen she talks to me on phone,bt deep down inside my heart,i realy wanted to say,thank you mum and also a sorry...thank you coz u owez care abt me,my whereabouts and stuffs like that...sorry ,for that long period of rebellious moment of mine especially wen i was in primary 6 until form 2...i know i did a lot of things,silly things which hurt u a lot ,which upset u,im sorry for all that...thinking of all that realy make me feel so stupid of myself...i apologize for all d things that ive said to u which hurt u badly...thx 4 not giving up on me bt stil care a lot abt me...thanks,mum..

real sick...bt tis time..without mum nagging at me asking me to take med...unlike the time wen i was in kch,when i was sick..i owez got scolded by mum 4 not taking med on time...bt after scolding she wil automatically bring med and water to me....and forced me to eat porridge....i kinda miss it,now....las time i felt very annoying everytime wen my mum talked to me...bt now,out of the sudden,i kinda miss it...dno y...i feel like crying so badly wen i lie on my bed having high body temperature,wen im not feeling well...thinking how good if my mum were here..is tis something we call it homesick?haizz.....d life here realy made me suffer a lot....

sick...finally fever visits me...why am i using the word "finally"?i have no idea lol...actually dis few days im realy in a bad mood that i feel very unhappy wit everything...tired of the life here....bt wad can i do?thrs no turning back anymore since the day i decided to further my studies in ums...i jz cant stand those stupid fucking malays!tey deserve to go to hell!cant they see i have a lot of stuff to do???cant they jz stop screaming and talking+laughing when they see me taking out my notebook doing my work??????????are tey blind or anything??i have to do all the topics and tasks that were given by that stupid lecturer as my group members are useless that i cant put any hope on them..i have to do avtin by my own in order to pass up our works on time...bt y????y i jz cant do anything peacefully????im so sick of malays!tey made me hate them more and more ..y do i have to deal with all these probs??im so tired of it!!!!!!!!i din ask 4 much,i jz wan a peaceful environment that i cant do my works peacefully without any interruptions...God,pls show ur mercy...

Life in sabah...

It’s hell life here..1^st,it came orientation week,most hectic life ever in my life…waking up at 4am and only able to sleep at ard 1 or 2am d next day..it;s really killing…to be honest,im realy nt used to the life here….everything is like upside down…damn….the people here,the things here ,are real terrible….imagine ur d only chinese in dorm and surrounded with 3 malays…so tis is wad they so called”1 malaysia”??jz wanna get another chinese to be in d same dorm wit me is like almost imposible …seeing other ppl with 2 chinese or more in a dorm really makes me so envy…y do I owez have to be so unlucky to get sth I dislike?and tis is wad we call a LIFE?d foods here,I can only describe with one word,and it is SHIT!i would rather die of starving also not gonna eat the rubbish here…I realy hope to go back…bt I know I cant disappoint my parents,my grandma,and realtives who put so much hope on me..i promised my mum tat I wil study hard ..i have to mark my words..class started yesterday,and it was an exhausted day…y?coz from 8am to 6pm,I have to attend 4 lectures and 8pm to 11.15pm thr was another stupid lame and long taklimat to attend..gosh….i realy hope 4 yrs pass faster….i realy dislike the life here…thr is nobody here that I can rely on…I hav to stand on my own..i realy hate those useless and irresponsible ppl…bt now in my group,thr is one like that..i have to be alert all the time, if not,I wil die…we are all told d same thing bt y I can hear it bt she cant???while I talked abt it she was like “huh?ding,wad are u talikng abt??i dnt understand..lecturer got talk abt tat jz now kah?” …its so damn sucks to hang ard wit this rubbish dude…1 more thing is that we have to rush for buses everyday..if not u gonna walk like hell for 1 and half hrs to get to ur faculty from hostel…although hostel is inside uni,bt wen u need to walk 4 so long to reach ur faculty,im sure everybody will be like me,u’ll hate UMS ,u wont say ums is the best uni in malaysia anymore…God,pls strengthen my will to continue my studies here…