31 July 2007
不知道得不知道
有时候我真的不知道我到底在做什么, 每天的来来回回去去, 真不懂到底为什么? 我有时觉自己真的走得很累很累了. 很想真的停下我的脚步休息下, 想想到底我要的走方向在哪? 有时觉得自己真的不行了, 很想就这样放弃了, 不理会那些在我身边发生的事. 我真的好想脱离这个有复杂又繁忙的现代都市! 我真的觉得他们的脚步走得很快很快, 我已经追不上他们了. 我很累我很喘了, 是否能让我在路途上停下来休息吗? 我跟你说不能, 因为一旦你停了你就需要花更多力气来追上他们. 有时我还想就这样一了百了, 从此再也不想了! 其实我趁怀疑我自己是否得了忧郁症, 一旦我对一件事深思受虐的时候我就会开始幻想很多乱七八糟的东西, 使得我整个人极度的难过. 又一次在会考的期间我是极度的崩溃, 因为我觉得我做不到而使到我觉得我很对不起我的父母. 不要看我每天都这么开朗, 其实我内心是很脆弱的. 要不是有我父母一路的鼓励和至此我相信我也不会走的今天的! 有时我回想要是一天我的父母不在了我会怎样, 那时我一定会像要死的. 我不能没有我的父母, 他们是我生命的所有, 没有他们就没有我. 最近正和我班的同学在疯看古惑仔, 很好看喔, 我看了很想当黑色会老大咯! 哈哈! 但从那我学到了很多东西如做兄弟的要讲两个字 “意气”, 对朋友也是! 兄弟不是当一两天的而是一辈子的事情! 自从看了这套戏我觉得我真好想谈一场轰轰烈烈的恋爱. 应该是因为在里面他们的女友到后都死吧! 这才使到我要珍惜我眼前所有的一切, 何况我真的有时会感到很寂寞. 那种寂寞真的是很难形容, 就好像我自己一个人被关在一个无底洞, 没人关心你, 没能把你心里想说的话给说出来. 只能一个人独自地对自己说, 对自己发脾气. 我真的好想好想谈恋爱喔, 但是问题是我还没遇到我真真喜欢的对象. 要是给我遇上我也没那个勇气去跟她说的, 我对自己真得很没自信. 其实我已经遇上了, 但没那个勇气跟她说, 因为我对我自己很美自信. 我就的我一定追不到的,何况我总觉得我配不上她. 所以我要怎么办才好呢? 有时真的会觉得爱到底是什么? 有人为了它而死而有些为了它而生. 真的搞不懂它. 我真的真的不知所错, 你能告诉我吗? 有时我还真的觉得命运是不是在玩弄我们啊? 往往我们都会不会把命运当作一回事, 这使到幸福从人群之中和我们的身边擦身而过.
Enter Cruel Stage @ 7:31 AM
19 July 2007
Fries cone Glass Fries holder Tomato sauce
Hahaxx… today having enterprise… haiz… sian I slept in the class lor… during the first meeting and the third meeting… really felt bad for my team members… sorri Hiong2, Suren and Zhang Wei… sorri that I slept when doing the PPT… I was really veri tired… haiz… really dunno why tis few days so tired and slept in the class… sorri I dun mean it de… hahaxx… then after skool when meet Jia Li and we go tgt meet Val, Nick and Pris for dinner at Causeway Point… on the way there talk a lot with Jia Li on her days in RP… really happie that she is doin well… then we reach Delifance le… we saw Val and Nick but we didn’t saw Pris… we all tink she sure late le… haha… then we all go find place to eat… we were indecisive on where to eat between Jack’s Place and Swensens… haiz… we actually wanted to eat Jack’s place de Student Meal but its until 5.30p.m only… haiz… then we finally made our choice to eat at Swensens… haha… then went we were about to go in Jia Li called Pris… and her mother said she was sleeping… wah… she pro lor… still sleeping… haha… then we went in and we sat down and we see what we wanted to eat… all of us actually wanted to eat main course de… but dunno under who influence we all ate ice-cream and fries only but Nick ate Baked Rice… the service over there is so so damn lousy lor… we sat there almost for 15mins still no 1 came and serve us lor.. what is tis man… how can you convince us to gave u the 10% service charge… even the table beside us came in later then us got serve before us lor… WTH… we then ordered our dish then we started chatting… I find that Nick is much lamer than before… haha… we chat and chat until our dish is serve… when we started eatin we still chat and chat… we were talking about our wonderful life in Polytechnic… haha… when we were eating half-way Pris called us and she said she is on her way here on a taxi to Causeway Point le… wah she best frenz lor… so steady… haha… so we waited for her until we finish our food… then we receive call from Pris… guess what she reach le… but she said she got not enough money to paid the taxi… wahaha… so funni lor… then Jia Li went down to help her pay… haha… then she came up and meet us… haha… then we started chatting again… wah Pris now quite Fat le ar… haha… then she order a bowl of salad… wah it was so big lor… and full of vege… haha… when she is eating… Nick started to tell us a story about the relationship between Fries cone, Fries holder, Tomato sauce and Glass story… wah I tink he veri good at telling story lor… the story was so interesting until veri Tao Jiu… haha… even Pris also stop eating and listen to him… haha… so funni… now than I noe how are they related le… after that we went to take neo print lor… it was dunno when I last taken my neo print… haha… I tink is when we came out that day for our O Level result… haha… veri long le… then we take le then we went home after that… haha… today was so fun and interesting… The interesting part is I get to heard Nick tell us such an interesting story in my life… I think tis is more interesting than wat Harry Potter lor… haha… then I reach home abt 9.20p.m… quite late le… haha….
Enter Cruel Stage @ 7:35 AM
18 July 2007
OMG... they are fighting.... and Zhen Zi i coming OMG... run for your life... be careful it crawls out your com... haha....
OMG... did u saw that thing behind... isn't Zhen Zi.... OMG....
oooo... Wat are we trying to do???
The Thailand's Ah Gua showing their traditional dance... wah... nice Ah Gua... wat a good surgery they had in Thailand...
Now wat 1 more Zhen Zi le... wah.... 1 Japanese Version and the other 1 is English Version de.... veri hiong lehx.... tis time the not comin out from well but from the sea...
ooo... who is this uncivil person... doin tis kind of uncivil action... ooo... no wonder la... he is that red monkey...
wat are they trying to do.... esp that girl in the middle... realli dunno wat happen to her... haha
Enter Cruel Stage @ 8:33 AM
5N's BBQ and Gathering Nitez Photos
haha... taking some group photos..
Can somebody tell me the different between this 2 pictures? Can help me? I can't find the different lehx....
haha.... they are the fruities.... dunno why they call themselves fruities... can you see the girl in the middle... dunno why she pose until like that... that girl on the right is the 老佛爷... haha
OMG.... the Demoness is attacking us....
Enter Cruel Stage @ 8:02 AM
Harry Harry.....
Yeah… I ytd went to see Harry Potter and The Order Of Phoenix… hahaxx… when to see it with Mun How and his friends (Angelina, Adeline and Felicia)… Wah… I tell you is very nice for me lor… Mun How also say veri nice… However, not as nice as the last 1… haha… but I tink is veri nice esp the last part… the fighting of the good and bad… though the middle seem boring but I still tink is interesting… how they overcome the new Headmaster of Horwart… veri funni lor… haha… the sad part is that Sirus Black is dead… haiz… but I will rate at 8.5/10 la… quite worth seeing it la… haha… today in skool I bought a new lappie bag for 10 bucks… haha… so cheap and useful… then then then… yes… I forgot to post the 5N’s BBQ and Gathering Nitez photos… I will post it up as soon as possible… I tell u its goin to be quite funni… haha
Nice rite the picture wah... like it a lot...
Nice rite the picture wah... like it a lot...
Enter Cruel Stage @ 7:59 AM
16 July 2007
5N's BBQ and Gathering NItez.....
Then the next day wake up then pack stuff then went off for the BBQ… first I went to my auntie’s hse to pass her sometink then chit chat for a while then went to buy sometink from my big auntie… after which I rush to meet May, Neo and Bloody… then we tgt take taxi to East Coast Park… on our way to East Coast Park in the taxi, we keep on talking non-stop until we reach our destination… hahaxx… really veri long neve meet le got so much to talk…. Haha… miss and love all my 5N’s…. when we reach there all of them have started to BBQ le… haha… then I saw all those guy they have really change a lot… esp Ah Ming… wah I tell you he damn slim le… last time still in tarf club… haiz.. I tink I should do sometink le… hehe… then we started to chat about our life… then I found our Nelson went to study sometink on building tinks de… wah… hope he can make it…yeah…. I still got chat with wenbin he really ‘diao’ lor… CI lehx… so happie abt him…. Haha… I will sure go for the year end NPCC Chalet de… I also caht with my veri good buddy Esmund…. Hahaxx… he also become more and more slim le and also more and more ‘Suai’ l ar… haha… Then I saw that Red Monkey and her Monkey Gf… That lovely couple Wee Pin and Regina… Wee Pin still as ‘Suai’ as last time and Regina still as pretty as it was…. Hahaxx… both of them are always the most lovely ones…. If there is a award called ‘World Most Lovely Couple’ I will sure nominate them… not for that I tink they will sure win it… haha… Then after that I started cooking le… but not really I cook la… I tink is May the 1 who is cooking the whole day… then she cooked le also dun wan eat… haiz.. really May 辛苦你了… haha… wah the tink that make it so great is that I get to see all of them… I tink got around… 30+ people… haha… really hope that we can have more of this gathering… after that our Birthday girl came with her Boyfrenz… haha… I tink Joy is becoming more and more Rocker le… esp the hair… haha… before she came we planned to pour the water that we made on her… inside the water consist of ingredients like… Potato chips, Oreo crump, Chicken Wing, some unfinished drinks, tissues and paper plates… haha… I tink if we pour at here she will sure ran off angrily… haha… luckily we dun all thanks to her BF Wei Hao… they we planned to pour a mixture of flour and water on her but at last we dun cos we scared the mixture will make her sticky… and tis all thanks to her BF also… then our finally planned is to pour flour on her la… haha… at last we really made it… and she become veri white and scary…. Just like de 白发魔女… then we toke photo with tt demoness… haha… her BF really care a lot for her like after the pouring for the flour, he keep on wiping her… so sweet… but we dun like it… we wan her to be dirty.. haha… then from there we started taking photo… until we go home… we toke a lot of photos with a lot funni poses… like we act like the 12 Horoscope, The Retard, The Ring, X-men, Human Evolution Process and we act as though we are ghost like that… it was really veri fuuni when we pose as the 12 Horoscope and the Human Evolution tink… haha… Regina was the most potential in it… she look really like her Monkey BF… haha… we also wanted to take photos on how caterpillar to butterfly de… but we drop the plan…. then we also take some jumping photos I took 10 onil got 1 is successful de… haiz… sian… then we keep on pose and take photo… then when the clock strike 11 mean its time to go home le… 天下没有无不散之宴席, 再见总是要说再见的, 分离总是要分的… I really felt veri sad lor… hope that time can stop there forever… I really noe myself is when I am with them… they are the real true frenz I ever have… haiz… we have to go… we all walk there and take the taxi… cos they said after 11.30p.m is double charge le… so luckily I got on a taxi before 11.30p.m… I am the 1 who left firx… cos I still have to rush back Malaysia… then I say Bye Bye to them and I left le… I really miss them… dunno when will we meet up again… I have a instinct that we all will meet up veri soon… really veri soon… haha… I promise I will try to organize sometink out(tink onli)…. Haha… the next meet up i tink is with Pris, Jiali and Adell they all… they are also another batch of frenz that I have neve meet for a long long time…. Haha…. I went off and I reach Woodlands Checkpoint at 12 then the charge is 20bucks… wah… expensive… then quickly rush and took a taxi home went I have pass the customs…. Then I reach home at almost 1a.m…. then everyone is asleep le lor… I called my sis to open door for me… haha… then went bathe and watch finish Guess Guess Guess…. Then I went to my room and see the photos that I took… wah it is really really fun lor… I dunno how many times I goin to say veri fun le… I miss them a lot… really nobody can replace them I my heart…. Then sleep le… haha… the next day still thinking about ytd gathering it was a nice and wonderful gathering ever have... then stay at home the whole day do hse chores... i my mind is all abt the BBQ i had ytd... haha....
Enter Cruel Stage @ 9:11 AM
SAVE OUR MOTHER EARTH!!!!
Hi everybody!!!! It has been 2 weeks since my last posting. Haha… now I finally post le… but first I will talk about the things happen last last week... before talking about things that happen last week…. Ermm…. Last last week got the LIVE EARTH Concert… wah I think the concert was great not only the singer but also the way the message trying to convey to the world… why it is great is that the concert is held in all the continent on the same day… this kind of concert is hardly to see now but I hope that tis kind of concert will be organize more often to bring the world together to do something… I also really hope that people around the world will come and save the Earth… it may doesn’t affect you but can you do it for the sake of our next generation… like what the Ex. Deputy President of USA said “if we do not do it now, then our next generation will be affect. They will sure ask 2 questions in the future, Why hasn’t they do something since they know that the Earth is warming up? and Why have they done to make this going?” think about this questions carefully what is he trying to convey… we are responsible for the future of our precious Earth dun let it fall. Hahaxx… this is what I felt after watching the concert for the whole day… hahaxx… really quite tired la… haha… then skool lor… haiz… sian ar… everyday skool until late… I think I goin to get depression soon le la… ha… then that’s all…
Then this week is the week that I am looking forward to because is our 5N’s BBQ Gathering Nitez… hahaxx… really wanted to know how everyone is doing now… haha… then tis week go skool haiz sian now every Tuesday will be goin back home at around 6++… sian la… have to stay for IG haiz… then tis week Communication’s Faci never come, come a veri sian de Malay Faci… haiz… then the whole day slack at class… hahaxx… then after which go for my IG sian lor… go for the DJ talk… haiz…we were ask to prepared a short passage on some of the characteristics for a good DJ… then I was so unlucky… cos I was chosen to read it out to the whole class… then I screwed it up… haiz… then after that I slept in the class… hahaxx… then having UT Test for the next 3 weeks… haiz… then Friday I had my Computing and Mathematics lesson… then the Faci neve come… then I came a veri very very damn voring Faci’s… haiz… then after the first meeting we ‘Pon ‘ the lesson and went to hide in the library for the whole day and play DOTA… haha… then our Faci who is preparing for her test called us to return to the class for our lesson cos it is important for the next lesson… so we went back but some of the boys did not go back then they stay at library and keep on play their DOTA… we went back the Faci did not say anytink and continue teaching us… I think we sure get Grade A le la… hahaxx…. Then I was very happie cos tml is goin to be the 5N’s BBQ Gathering Nitez haha…. Then went home and prepare for tml stuff… yeah…
Hi everybody!!!! It has been 2 weeks since my last posting. Haha… now I finally post le… but first I will talk about the things happen last last week... before talking about things that happen last week…. Ermm…. Last last week got the LIVE EARTH Concert… wah I think the concert was great not only the singer but also the way the message trying to convey to the world… why it is great is that the concert is held in all the continent on the same day… this kind of concert is hardly to see now but I hope that tis kind of concert will be organize more often to bring the world together to do something… I also really hope that people around the world will come and save the Earth… it may doesn’t affect you but can you do it for the sake of our next generation… like what the Ex. Deputy President of USA said “if we do not do it now, then our next generation will be affect. They will sure ask 2 questions in the future, Why hasn’t they do something since they know that the Earth is warming up? and Why have they done to make this going?” think about this questions carefully what is he trying to convey… we are responsible for the future of our precious Earth dun let it fall. Hahaxx… this is what I felt after watching the concert for the whole day… hahaxx… really quite tired la… haha… then skool lor… haiz… sian ar… everyday skool until late… I think I goin to get depression soon le la… ha… then that’s all…
Then this week is the week that I am looking forward to because is our 5N’s BBQ Gathering Nitez… hahaxx… really wanted to know how everyone is doing now… haha… then tis week go skool haiz sian now every Tuesday will be goin back home at around 6++… sian la… have to stay for IG haiz… then tis week Communication’s Faci never come, come a veri sian de Malay Faci… haiz… then the whole day slack at class… hahaxx… then after which go for my IG sian lor… go for the DJ talk… haiz…we were ask to prepared a short passage on some of the characteristics for a good DJ… then I was so unlucky… cos I was chosen to read it out to the whole class… then I screwed it up… haiz… then after that I slept in the class… hahaxx… then having UT Test for the next 3 weeks… haiz… then Friday I had my Computing and Mathematics lesson… then the Faci neve come… then I came a veri very very damn voring Faci’s… haiz… then after the first meeting we ‘Pon ‘ the lesson and went to hide in the library for the whole day and play DOTA… haha… then our Faci who is preparing for her test called us to return to the class for our lesson cos it is important for the next lesson… so we went back but some of the boys did not go back then they stay at library and keep on play their DOTA… we went back the Faci did not say anytink and continue teaching us… I think we sure get Grade A le la… hahaxx…. Then I was very happie cos tml is goin to be the 5N’s BBQ Gathering Nitez haha…. Then went home and prepare for tml stuff… yeah…
Enter Cruel Stage @ 9:08 AM
02 July 2007
Dots.... Dots.....
Hi guys… haiz… sian la… no more Youth Day for us=no holiday=no rest=study… haiz… tired lor… haha… my cousin and Joy Chen Chai Choy aka Ah Chai Birthday comin… haiz dunno wat to buy for them… haiz but I tink it is goin to be nice and great haha…. Haiz… it’s been a long time I haven meet up with my Sec 5 frenz… miss them a lot… but the time is comin soon cos the BBQ is coming soon… haha… finally heard 周杰伦 new song… haha… very nice I like it a lot… also waiting for his new movie to come out soon… haiz… still got 2 more months, then we have to change classes le… haiz miss all my frenz… haiz... nowadays dunno wat to post... haiz.... see how la.... bb....
Enter Cruel Stage @ 8:53 AM
