skipped

been 2 month since i blogged...perhaps i have learnt to keep my feelings, perhaps i just hate to share?perhaps im too busy?perhaps i'm just pure lazy...

recently had been pretty aimless...no motivation for work at all...it is precisely i have no goal to work on. My once ambition to be an air stewardess had slowly simmered down as i want a career that have bigger prospect in life..not just a high class waitress...i hate this period of life without aims. my diploma in interior design is fun but i dont seem to be motivated.I am sad. my colorful modeling life have been mundane after the hairshow. partly due to the heavy workload of school i rejected many photoshoots and events. right now, i'm not happy, because this is not the life i wanted...where have the confident trina gone to?why is everything so fucked up inside.. where am i????aimless....i love modeling, the confidence, glam, attention and knowing new people. why must things be simmered down to simplicity of being an ordinary student studying and schooling everyday...??things had been so hard....this battle of aimlessness is harder to conquer.

really need to pace up....

everyone is a slave for money...without $ u cant do anything...seriously.....
my dreams, the courses i want, the stuff i want to learn....all needs $!!!why $ even exist...its the root of all evil....