although its just another wednesday.......

8am
wake up, prepare and head to work for ronnie, done photoshop and stuff had a great time, had a quick breakfast alone.

2.30pm
stayed at bukit gombak had my lunch alone again. had laksa and read cleo magazine and i head to grandma house.

3.45pm
in the train, despite the killer weather, i was freezing in the train, think im falling sick.

4.05pm
reached grandma's place and was working on my project. had a nice time with her, i never heard so much abt her. despite how unhappy i feel when i recieve the project, one thing that delights me is the moment i spend with my grandma. Next Interview will be my daddy's side. so looking forward to it. atleast it a time of communication betwee me and them. cus i realise, ur frens, no matter what will only be your friends, they can just hurt u. but family will always be there for u. i really hope that 1 day, i can design a beautiful home for them.

4.45pm
Wondering aimlessly in northpoint. hoping so much that i can get someone to have dinner with me cus mummy didn cook. DK who to call also cus either they are busy if not they are having dinner at home or even booked. The last thing i ever wanted for today is to have dinner alone but i think i have no choice left. tears rolling down, having that little pity on myself yet telling myself that i'll be fine after awhile.

had been really bad these 3 days, cried almost everyday cus i dun feel good yet every night, down a red wine and tell myself, i'll feel better tomorrow, hiding down all my pain. cus the last thing i ever want is to make myself feel useless. i tried to be nice to everyone that i've met cus its not by chance that they become my friend and i wanna cherish them. I always told myself, despite how hurt i am, i also want others to be happy. i noe its some foolish thinking of mine in this selfish world. and sometimes i hurt people but i didn mean it. im sorry..and i dont feel good either.

think i shall stop here, if not i'll feel more down. dinner?think i'll skip that, at least im happier this way.

new hunk???

haha!!!!today i will feature jason chee in my post..abit bo liao la..haha!!!!nothing better to do in school oso do i put his photos to disturb him =p today is brandon's birthday and he is waiting for his princess to go lunch tgt, i hope she give him a kiss cus he is so deeply in love with her!!!!!! back to jason! haha!!!

deng deng deng!!!!the first pic will be

black and white jacket , everlast pants and his hot bod!haha, so rmb to log into wwww.nutrifirst.net!LOL

next will be

this one look so boy boy..haha!!dunno why, but maybe cute mah..haha!



u can see his muscles, its so define..haha!gosh im like some pervertic psycho haha n im freezing cold in the studio, i can feel my tummy shivering..zzzz....i'll go prompt him to see my blog at least he will be more happy to book out from camp!!!haha

places i wanna go

first stop will be hawaii!!!


volcanoes and beaches. simply wonderful!

next will be new york!!!!
i wanna have a photoshoot there!!every corner of the city is just so artistically amazing and picturesque.


france!!
the rich and romantic culture simply keeps in in awe. i love the architecture!and of cus, i miss vincent francome, my very good friend.=/


where should go to my honey moon?haha!!!
or maybe with my future bf when i earn enough $$?
scuba diving/snorkling at mauritius is another dream of mine and i realise all the places are so expensive..haha!!

back again

HAHA!im back blogging agaain...actually idk what to write but well, for a moment, i was asking myself and telling myself that i can't please everybody. thought about wen an that case. hai, all the nasty things he said about me just pissed me off so much, i cant even treat him as a friend. He is just too selfish to the people around him. hopefully when he grow older, he still ha ve some true friends around him.

althea is back from italy!yeah!!!!im so happy ok...i hope she is coping well. miss her...

yester had a photoshoot with mike and we gossiped about the stupiak alvin who took advantage of me. i just couldnt force myself to be ok about it. argh!

ok this post is so random and is filled with randomness.. think i should get my mind sort out and focus first.

MAYBE ITs True

kinda stuck with reality and fantasy. Maybe because i have nothing else better to do..dots. I actually dun feel good. u noe, sometimes we know its the wrong thing yet we still indulge in it. its not so right. its just so hard to believe. reality and not so real, idk what to chose. all messed up, all confuse.