sometimes, things isn't just what you wish for

today, i went down to orchad for the new paper new face scouting, well, i cant blame it on anyone though, its just the timing is not right...i do feel sad about it and feel that i'm not cut for it...right now, i tell myself..of cause with the support of lester, vincent and jaime, i decide to give it a go on this saturday at suntec..i really dk if i can get through the first round.but before anything, i wanna take time to really appreciate the people who gives me courage to move on. Thank you..i will do my very best this saturday. the rest i humbly hand it to the judges.

well, today i cried about this issue but somehow the tears makes me stronger and to telling myself how much i want to gain the new exposure and experience. the knowledge to my modeling career is just not enough cause theres so much more to learn. and i really wanna grab the chance to learn more.

its been so....

its been so so double triple duper drooper long since i blogged...been so busy recently with school and modeling...hmm...really do hope can get some jobs but im scared i cant cope with school work...i hope 12 june will arrive soon..that means its holidays..and modeling!!!photoshoot...gosh!i'm excited about it...met with my new agent/photographer liu, idk his full name yet..maybe shall ask him..haha....such a nice guy..he took nice pics of me..well...im really interested to work with more new photographers though...maybe not on lingerie...and i dount want to...eeeewww!and a photographer who took erotic pics asked me if i wanna collaborate with him..and NO...i won't want to...cus the pics are damn erotic..like licking a banana...eeeewwwww!!!!!im not going to do that!!its like blowjobbing...NO WAY!!!!i think the photographer must be sick in the mind..and wth!!so many models work with him before...of cause they have big boobs la...so maybe people who are keen to look at his pics, can go model mayhem and check out his portfolio...but seriously....its freaking erotic...ooohhh.thats the site whereby you can see nude models too...lol....hmmm....but of cause..mine is not inside...haha...i don't do nude ok....



hmm...i wonder whats next.....

photoshoot=)

credits to liu =)

venue sentosa

ok, there he goes again

fine fine, i had enough..its really crap and full of lies when he just treat me this way(he is not my boyfriend)just don't know what to do with this complicated issue...he just have to placer work as work and personal as personal. this is so unprofessional..but anyway, i really hope he don't quit school because of me..cause this just makes me feel bad and terrible.

Oh no!! I'm having a cockroach outblast at home!!

gosh and damn! recently theres so much cockroaches at the rubbish chute at my house..eeewww...mum bought the spray spray pesticide and peeeeewwww!!the cockroaches all ran out..theres 50 over of them!!wah!!!i damn freak out u know..i think the mother cochroach and the father cockroach damn fertilise hoh...keep making love in the dirty place...i hope the cockroaches die....kill kill kill...its really disgusting...oooh and its mother's day!!wanna wish my mummy happy mother's day..and i'm really proud of her..cause she is my super hero!!she is so brave that she killed 50++ cockroaches today!!i made the discovery and thats my present to her...!!haha!!!i'm just joking=)

who is the bitch?

alright, here i am with a headache but i'm still going to bitch about a bitch...its pretty bad of me but its rude of her..think Rihana must sing a 'rude girl' song...well, grats to her for offending me...the story goes like this...i went to art friend bras basar yesterday with my boyfriend to get my school project material...damn that girl, i saw her and i said hi to her..asked her nicely: "hey what are you doing here(in chinese) rudely she replied :"i'm here doing what you are doing."(in chinese) and she walked off...such a rudy.....so upset with her...well..to think optimistically, she is just jealous of me..to think pessimistically, i'm a shit...which i think I'M NOT..haha..well, if she don't do such things to me i won't bitch about her, i will be equally nice to her like to anyone else..too bad..i'm not going to blame her mum for not teaching her well, cause its not her mum's fault...its only her fault that she is so low-class...goodness gracious...hope someone will knock sense into her...

by the way, she is the 1st girl i bitched publicly(i don't do private bitching)...her name is MISS CHUN CHUN CHUN XIA>>>>>>>>

you can be nice, but don't scare me

hmm, recently, theres a friend that suddenly been really nice to me..in turn, it makes me feel suffocated, it makes me feel scared..i will only love a person who is only being himself, not someone who lives to be someone i want him to be =(
i can only chose 1 person, i only want 1 guy who will give me happiness...i don't know who will be in the one in the end..i don't want it to be like a battle between 2 guys you know...i have a boyfriend now, yet the guy that i use to like likes me now...which i really don't feel good cause what i want now is to protect my boyfriend who have always been protecting me...i don't want him to feel even alittle bit of jealousy...i feel sad when that guy is treating me very good..its just so not like him..i feel bad cus theres only 1 trina lim yi ting in this world...i want to be happy and not choke myself.. so to the guy who likes me even i have a bf- please don't make me feel suffocated..don't choke me..i know you care..but it makes me scared of you..='(