loreal making faces

oh yes!today i went to pay and sign up for the upcoming event..i really look so forward to it!!!saw this event on cleo magazine which i bought every month..haha!i love this magazine...and so, i went down to acp magazine at zion road holiday inn atrium and sze li is going for the makeover with me...i hope it will be 23rd jan soon!!!!i hope i hope!!!and i cant wait...

theres free make up, and of cause, whats the best of all, you can get a $100 worth of goodie bag when u go for the make over and only pay $10!!!well, they are not asking us to buy anything but just solely wanna break a new record of the most makeover...yeah!!well, all this is not the best la, whats the best is sze li is going with me and i know all those guys that are after her will go "WAH SZE LI I SUPPORT YOU" i do hope to see any of them bring a pom pom and cheer or even a bouquet of flower for their princess!!!haha!!ok, thats my crap..haha!!than after that, i will be heading back to opss, sad, mr nair(MY HISTORY TEACHER)will be going to MOE to work, i miss him...and i feel like whacking flour on his face...cause i don't want him to go...sobz sobz....

school is coming back!

idk why i name it this way..hmm..ok...i received a wonderful present from siling!my best friend..wahaha!its so cute and i love it!its well a lamp without a bulb!haha!!in the end i went to get my own ikeo bulb..damn funny..and now, the pretty lamp is on my table..i packed my room yesterday...wanna see some before and after pictures?haha!dun get a shock out of ur life...but i agree i feel weird when my room is tidy..

BEFORE:

AFTER:

ok, my wardrobe still look messy cause i have too much clothes and my wardrobe ia too small..just counting my singlet and tank tops etc, its already 41. i have 27 t-shirts..not as bad, 11 scarves. i don't know how many undergarments i have and i haven't count my jacket, outing top, pants, shorts, swimsuit and dresses, OMG! how much does my whle wardrobe cost! i was still amazed and practically i start packing my room from 25th december at 11pm till 4am and the next day, 26th december till 2am plus...my goodness sake...i still cant believe it..but i still have 1 part yet to pack thats my jewellery, moisturiser compartment..and wow!i did some DIY photo frames!

my friend's pics are on it and i wanna make my friends and the people in my life part of my room

• mario
• leon lim
• vincent chin yao liang(my lao da)
• arvin
• kelvin
• gabriel chu
• gregg chu
• rebecca
• siling
• sophia quek
• leon
• david hoon
• faith
• ye jie
• eugene lim
• shaun low
• mr chia
• huai zhi
• joel moo de jian(my best gor)
• kerry koh
• lee zi peng

i do wish i can add more pictures now im still trying to locate my nsp group original picture, me and sze li etc

i have so much more spaces to put the pictures cause it reminds me not to take my my friends and love ones for granted. i know there are many more to come!!!weeee!!!!heee!and i hope daddy won't mind building another shelf for me to put my photos!I WANT MORE!!!!

i think alot of people are pretty curious on who my baby is right?haha!!!thats a secret though..maybe one day i will reveal...so stay tune!(like movie sia) dots...haha!

randomness again

i came to realise
the moment i first saw you
you've made an impact in my heart

i want to know you better
i want to know you more
want to keep you near
hope to hold you close

feels like a dilema
to love you more and more
knowing that someone is in your heart
it makes me go apart

everybody seems to be a passerby
one who stops and say goodbye
the moment of truth
i hope is a lie

hey hey, edit my lyrics!!!help me improve!!!
well, cause i was planning to merge all these lyrics into a song...
hmmm....back to cafe world and packing of room!!!Arh!

a peaceful christmas

well, i stayed at home today eat sleep and eat!haha!!!well, i feel like its sunday today(somehhow) and i started to think of some weird stuff...you see, why do people celebrate christmas?its because christ is born. and why now, as time passes, people changed CHRISTmas to Xmas?haha!!is "christ a censored word?i doubt so..it shouldn't be Xmas, haha!!or people are lazy to put christ?haha!!its just a random thought that came through my head..so no offense..so if people do not like christ, so why do they still celebrate his birthday?why so much effort is put in?hmmm....its some human confusion here...and some irony..haha....i was also thinking..so many people do not believe in christ or lets say jesus. yet why among all the gods only his is celebrated?and not the others(not to mention names cause u know who they are) HMMMM...i feel that i need an answer...and this therefore linked to good friday..the day jesus died. so people celebrate christmas and had a holiday on good friday...somehow, its strange because only the birth and death of jesus is recognised...maybe this is some big or say little days that people took for granted..in someways, i still believe people still recognise jesus is real and he is true..if not why is the important days of jesus's life recorded in the calender.....

(all is base on my personal thoughts and feeling, there is not means to offend anyone or anybody's religion.i typed it down so i will have a record of my personal thoughts and what i did at the moment or day...)

sorry if i did offend u whoever is reading this post or maybe you can think about the questions too

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

hey friends!merry christmas u u all and me!christ is born!!lalala!!well, today i went to sze li's bbq after a long and serious consideration..haha!but i really enjoyed it though, get to know new people etc, today, i know 1 new friend!he is call xian liang!english name is call "limited"!!wonderful!but its sad that i had cough, if not i can eat the bbq food...dots..my npcc girls friends are there to and we sang npcc songs, just remembering the days at npcc is just so sentimental and nice. i confessed that i blogged about julian(zhu lian) and jerry...haish, i feel so guilty after i posted that up, but i wun take it down!!haha!!so in the end, i didn went home with the girls cus the went to take 354 which it requires a super long walk!!Arh!!!than i went home with 2 guys!limited and jerry, had i very long chat with them, from pasir ris to outram park!haha!!just keep talking non stop!cool!and before i went to bbq, i went to orchad to change the size of the jacket baby bought for me, to M!!haha~now its so much comfortable and of cause it still look nice cause its from my baby!!!my baby=my good friend!

this part is credits to my french guy! Vincent Francome who inspired me to name my title hard without u.Just wanna thank him for the memories and joy and I MISS YOU VINCENT!wanna wish u a MERRY CHRISTMAS!bet you are gobbling down a turkey now LA!!!!haha!!!

and just now on my way home, i meet up with one of my friend, bought me something and i feel so.........its so expensive that i wun wear it....but i do like it la...haha!!!thank you (u know who u r)

SHOUT OUT: THANK YOU BABY!YOU KNOW WHO U ARE!

shopping with my baby!!

today went shopping with my wonderful baby!haha!!well!!he is only a very good friend of mine...don't misunderstand alright..he is only a good friend and not my boyfriend..so sad to say im still single!!haha!!or maybe i chose to be single...well...having a very bad flu today and cough...coughing away around orchad with baby by my side...dots..oya, y he is called baby..haha!!cause he act cute!!but cute la...damn funny de..especially the macho man pose!!that is epic!and he called me baby as well...cause he said im bimbotic(urh!!!i don't know how to spell) well...i'm not!haha!he anyhow say...ok even though i behave stupidly sometimes, i do it with a reason...1, self entertainment and 2. entertainment for others..kk it very lol!well, what will life be if very thing is so perfect?perfect people cant fart in the public!!hahah!!no link!the reason why i call him baby too is because he call me baby, so its a natural copy cat instinct..(provided i am comfortable with the gender and person huh)

ok so baby and i walk from wisma to cineleisure to have pasta mania!!haha!!he ate bacon cheesy crumble and i ate the baked rice!its really yummy!!and than, we went to get some gift...so touched u know, he actually brought me around to chose my gift...so i purposely wanted him to get the gift for his friends first so he wun spend so much on me...in the end, he got 8 keychains at takashimaya!wahaha!!its very very expensive!!!more than $12!!and u just imagine!!8 or them!!and $12 is the minimum!!gosh!!that will be about $100!!!awwwww!!!!ok, so after we settled his friend gift, he asked me to chose my gift!!hai yo!!so i showed him a jacket i saw yesterday when i went to bossini with sze li..the place where she bought her ah ma's gift. well, at first i didn't know how much is the price when i showed baby, and when i saw the price, i told him i don't like already..haha!!so we went around the winter clothes hanger trying out the clothes and baby tried on the ladies jacket!!wha!!damn sexy u know!!but too bad leh
its girl's cutting if not he wear hoh, sure very man de...dots, i seriously think he must spend some money on himself..so in the end, he still buy me the jacket and i was so guilty about it, i sat down at the chair and emo but in the mean time super ultra touched...not because he is rich but he gave out of his poverty, i feel like...crying when i typed this...gosh...ok, so after he paid, he told me that theres a 40% offer for that shuai jaket of mine and i was super happy, at least i wun feel that bad...


and oh!!yesterday!sze li gimme a stuff toy with the pail to put stationary etc, damn cute u know!!i like it alot also!!haha!!well!!guess what i bought for my 3 goody good friends!!haha!!underwear!!i got one myslf too!!its all the same design from E2, haha!!!i hope one day if sze li, sophia,si ling and me can go out together, we can wear the same underwear out!!haha!!sorry abit lame la..haha!!underwear for christmas..haha!!

orchad small shopping spree!

hehe!!!went to orchad new shopping centre cal 313 today with sze li...whats the trend with 101 and 313 as in numericals?i think the people who came up with this names are starting to name the shopping centres in orchad in block numbers..haha!who know next time there will be a building call 440?or 999?thats pretty cool eh..haha!!or maybe there will be a building call atom!?
i think they are obsessed with mathematics and science!haha!!ion(present) atom(future)
omg!haha
today the two guys that sze li intro are simply awesome!haha!!one likes high class elegant girls and the other is 24 years old..ok..no link..haha!now im in a dilema if i should go for sze li bbq on the 24th..dots...hai yo...ok ok...i will show u the pic of the two guys..bet u all must be curious how they look like..i hope they don't see my blog..haha!!cause when i'm bathing...i think of this idea!!


there this is the pics!

Zhu Lian

Jerry

sorry but i know its bad...sorry hoh...just admit its not u can le..hehe!!if u happen to see this...sorry...

fresh spring break 2009

just came back..phew...its so fun yesterday or maybe today morning...dance the whole night and everything is so crazy..dk how to describe leh...its like beach clubbing loh or mini zouk out??sorry arh..kind of tired to blog...i will upload some not so nice pictures up soon k?stay tune peeps!!

ok, this is the pics i promised...well...its some not really nice pictures for those who haven gone to beach party before..its pretty fun though..met with some new friends..haha!!

Black and white christmas

yeah yeah!!just came back from my church youth christmas party!so happy that region d won!!weee!!!well, our YCG won as well!!the best dress!!gosh!!we dress as the hamburglars!!this is the picture of the character

quite cute right???don't know if u all find it familiar..haha!!its the 1980s (i think) ronald macdonald hamburgar stealer!!hahaand this is our costume..

the pic is me and leon

ok...dots..i know i look retarded..i feel retarded as well...but haha..its a good fun!!everybody dress retardedly well, for my YCG la..haha!!but we won!!!haha!!!well, remember that last year christmas, we won the best dress YCG as well!we dress as ninja turtle..haha..its equally retarded..but at least no one will laugh at us..cus event mah..who cares...right?but if u go out and dress like that, pple will of cus laugh la..its seriously weird..well, sorry i cant post up the last year ninja turtle pics cus firstly, i dun have a blog last year and secondly, i don't have the picture..sorry..

anw, tml i will be heading down to wavehouse sentosa for a dancing good time..i hope..haha!its my first time clubbing!wee!!and its a beach party!haha..going with some of my nsp friends, i really hope sze li can go and sadly, siling got rashes=(..why lidat??=(..it wun be as much fun without sze li and ling, but it will be enjoyable too with my nsp frens there...thanks guys..

just another day

hmmm....had my day well spent with my friend.well, suppose to go for a bbq with xun zhong gor and kira, in the end cant go...dots...cus its too late thanks to the rain..spent the noon watching hai pai tian xin, a new taiwan drama by rainie and luo zhi xiang...so funny la...go watch its nice...i feel like i am growing fatter each day...thanks to the medicine huh..grrr....i guess i had to go for excercise le lah...jia you trina!!and jia you her friends!!

rude long hair guy

went to have dinner with my friend just now..and when im going to bouard the trein, theres this stupid ingentleman guy who snatch my seat away!i feel like heeling him!!!AS IN STEP HIM WITH MY HEELS...grr...he purposely push me away with his butt!!!wtf!!!hair so long like ah gua lidat!!!haiyo!!!

slowly the world is sucking me away

every sunday, i will have to battle against the dilema of going to sunday service or skip sunday service...today i lost the battle...well...i don't have the will to battle on..or maybe not say "i don't have the will" maybe lets say i don't have the emotional support. i'm starting to become worse everyday...i know that...maybe not to the extent of smoking...but i let my church friends down...welll.i did tell them i backslided...and now is the period where i need them most...=( i need someone to bring me back cause i cant seem to face the giant alone...the reason why i know i'm becoming worse everyday cus i started to scold vulgarity...this is the me 6 years ago before i accepted christ..now, the old me came back again...i feel terrible yet this satanic force seems to take over..well my none christian friends who read this may not understand or find it ridiculous...im sorry but bare with me if u happen to read this post.i'm just sharing my feelings and thoughts with no offence..really do hope that some1 will just give me an sms every sunday encouraging me to go to church.at least i know some1 is supporting me through the battle.

well i've written a song(or maybe say lyrics without a tune)decide to share with those who care..its a song talking about how i feel now and what i hope to feel in the near future.

Like a bird looking for direction
searching hard for my destination
never realise i'll be so lonely and lost
hoping to find the memories that i've lost

slowly i wonder into the wilderness
where there is pain anguish and hurt
at last i kneel down and prayed so hard
only to realise you are here from the start

like a sheep you are my shepherd
like a knight you are my shield
guilding me through this raging battle
(to be continued)


P.S:christians, do you experince before a cicumstances whereby u have sined so much that the holy spirit left you, well, all i know is god is a gentleman, he let us chose who we wanna be and where we wanna go, we will feel guilty at the beginning of the sin, but when we continue sinning, we will have a feeling that god just left us...


i know he is still here.its just i can feel it animore..

haven been blogging for a day or 2..hmmnow submission ended yet 1 big project was launched..terrible...my holiday is burn...zzzz..model making again...cousin larry uis coming back...i remember how cute he is when he is young...now he is so naughty...dots...im now in school using the school's computer...well...actually i came to school with a friend and now he went for gems and im damn bored now...need wait for gor gor to finish exam and he help me in some stuff...so bored

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i dreamt of FR_G!!!

i had a nightmare just now...some of my frens know i hate that jumping green thing to the core!!!its ultra damn disgusting!!!and i actually had a dream of it!!!its practically a nightmare!!!im so freaked out after that!grrrr!!!!okie...this is another random thing that i blogged...sorry dear readers who read my post....at least u know i hate FRO_.....

events on holiday!!!

prawning with nsp!!!weee...
primary school gathering 12dec!!!yeah!!!location...secret!!!
primary school chalet!!!yeah!!!

model reunion

had fun having dinner with vanessa, regina, rita and jaime!!though its only 5 girls including me, its stil memorable..maybe count it as an early christmas prezzy??haha!!rita will be going to austrialia soon...hope she will be fine...jia you to rita!(so shock when i found out that she clubs when she have the most good girl look and the bad girl look which is me, dun go clubbing...or maybe not now..haha!!!

well well...we went to fish and co to eat and before that i am so hungry...went to eat chicken curry with rice and barley drink at the toast box...cost $5.80...wahaha!!!than when i went to fish and co...dotdotdot..i cnt finish the danish fish...the fish and co cheat pple feeling one...what we saw in the picture dun tally with the food being served...its weird in some ways la...and overall, for fish and co, i will give a rating of 4/10 cus the fish is not nice at all...but 4 points for the service...good job!

LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!LEON IS COMING BACK!!!!!YEAH!!!!!

assignment week!

oh my god!!!had a ultra mega terrible week...so much work to do and its like wha!!!!!!!!(earthquake) i rushed my projects do nicely but didn meet the dateline...as a result, certain percentage of the total marks will be minused!grrr..than 1 stupid guy call vincent peh!!!!make me damn angry!!!!super upset by him...add more pein to me...dun talk abt him!but my lecturor is good enough to give grace la...cus i suppose to get 0 for late submission...LOVE YOU YONG SHENG!!!he is my interior design comm lecturer...still single but not sure available not...very good catch!!!and the bonus of him is he looks cute!!!and quite handsome la...i think he is in his late 20s???or early 30???hobby is acting cute but look cuter after he act cute...(laughing while typing this...but its true..)he is cute....and i wanna thx my good friend/bro, lester liao!!!for guilding me and brandon for helping my in my 3d max!!!MAXIMUM ROCKS TO U TWO!!!!

i spend my night crying

quarralled with my fren today just because of ther people's business...wtf!
i feel terrible...very very terrible...how come my thoughts is always being misunderstood?he keeps telling me about her, does he even know that im jealous?i didn say doesn't mean i dun feel!!!f!all i can do to depress my jealousy is by telling myslf that he trust me thats y he tell me...supposed to do my work de...but end up troubled when my this friend tell me he is feeling down...and i cant help but worry for him..in the end, picked up an argument, so i spend the night crying...my eyes is so swollen now...so painful..it had been sometime since i cried so badly...i shouldn't have tell him about my friend....i thought of being invisible towards him..yes, i really got to admit, sometimes i am offended by what he says, but all i do is keep quiet and agree with him...y?cus i realise i grow a sense of reliance onto him...as a friend la..yes, i admit that im super ultra gullible my thinking is childish...but im still growing up what...im only 17, people think im 20+ when they first see me, than my action reveals my age...my thinking is still immature i admit...thats y alot of things i wouldn be able to put the right view or judgement...yes im stubborn..and very stubborn...but all this requires patience to change right....

had a poem which my friend told me ytd..kinda lame la..haha...it goes
"jack and jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of water
who knows what they did up there and came down with a daughter"
abit random la..haha...
i had start playing ghost trapper, cafe world and sorotiry life on facebook...i think i must try get back to work again..but i had been doing my work!maybe not as much...sobx sobx...i feel like eating ba kut teh now...i remember my fren told me chinese garden have a very nice ba kut teh stall...hai yo...go till so far eat ba kut teh...dots...dun1 la...my house here oso have one nice de...but ex sia...grrrrrr....maybe later go down eat than come home cafe world abit than go school...sianess...xxxxxx

submission week!!!

OH MY GOODNESS!!!so many assignments
experience design, drawing studio, 3d max, temple of heaven!!!stress!!!i really miss holidays and its coming!i hope tml will be holiday!=(...can go chalet,work etc and go out with my NSP CLIcQUE!!i miss them so badly....hope they miss me too...NSP PPLE if u happen to read this, write smth on my tag box okie...??

church/no church

been missing church for sometime...i kind of feel bad in my heart...i feel bad that my church friends especially my laoda and whui sin keep asking my how am i..i know in their heart they want me back...i wanna go back as well...i know i disappoint them...=( im sorry...today, leon is still away in nepal...miss him=( and theres no one to accompany me to church today...so im thinking if i should go =( in the meantime, i feel guilty for all the wrong things i've done...since god is so holy, how am i gonna face him?=( hate myself for that..

filming at harry's bar millenia walk

 had filming today!!!jump jump!!!so happy...it started at 8pm and ended at 10pm!!!cool...so i went home early...but feel damn tired...was drinking some salted drink at the shoot...sprite with salt?haha...cause today is the last shoot, so we took pictures and all...

skipped school for filming...

omg, i skipped school today...and now im doing nothing...so bored...have no choice cause the cooking without clothes show dateline is approaching le...sian...and they ask me come and sit at a this beautiful kitchen showroom doing nothing...and today, i have a dateline to meet...rushed it yesterday night and i'm feeling so exhausted today cause i slept 2 hours yesterday...but its a wonderful night though...=)...

filming at mediacorp

its a fun and exciting day today!!sent leon to the airport today...met his friends and chatted..haha!nice pple...than went home today...skipped church...cus was too tired...what a bad excuse...but i really am...so in the end....ouch!my blog song keep hanging!shit!nvm dun care haha...so at 1pm i went for filming at mediacorp..now i know the show title is call zhu chi ren and it will most probably be shown on a sunday at channel u...haha...so happy...now my tongue had been so itchy and i keep rubbing it against my teeth...ok ok back track...so my role is to act as a staff in the meeting area..took photos with the fellow actress and actors..cool!

this girl is call joanne!hee..

view from the mediacorp annex building..nice right

my heels nice?shiny hoh...a very special person buy for me de leh

my fellow calafair frens! left to right(nigel, ??(forget his name),derrick, me and joanne)this derrick is not mr suan hoh...

close up!hee

guo shu xian and i (she look so pretty)

elizabeth and i (she is very pretty as well!)

me and nigel aka naima

i think i love you

haha!interesting right the title!its from a drama series i watch yesterday.finished watching the 16 episode drama this noon...of caused i wake up at 12.3 pm cus i was watching it and crying (at some parts) till 3.30am till i wake up..haha..hadn been blogginf for a few days...so decide to update it today..was really busy so much work to do yet im still procastinating...hmmm...missed jun jie's bday dinner ytd...sorry JJ...and  having a shoot at mediacorp tomorrow at 1pm..haish...better start cracking my work now...wonder what is he doing...

meal at SPGG with jeremy and MR SUAN!haha!!!

yesterday, went to have dinner with Jeremy and MR SUAN!why is he call mr suan!grr!cause he everytime suan me...and idk how to counter attack back!he is none other than DERRICK!damn bad la him...see arh, we were chatting on msn and he invited me over to SPGG to have dinner because he had a voucher.its pretty an eye opener as its my 1st time going into the inner most part of SPGG. and i saw an advertisement of SPGG: the unresistable $200...huh?how stupid cause we have to pay $200 to be a member..haha...hmm...back to the dinner...was really grateful to derrick and appreciate his kindness...haha..so i offer him a one month package of suaning me...so maybe he will get tired after the 1 month and hopefully stop suaning me...

so after dinner, he and jeremy send me home...in his mummy's car...its abit not tally with derrick's image and his mummy's car image...btw the car is pure white...damn luxurious...didn't manage to take pics of the car exterior but i manage to take the internal view!!

the guy on the left is jeremy, the guy on the right is derrick.

ooh btw sidetrack...wah!!!when i enter into the HTI someone whom i thought i lost say hi to me!!!omg!!!!so damn happy!

fat hope!

thought i can sleep with my shoes tonight!grr...now loh...i can only stare at it and hope that i can sleep...so much work to do...=( fed up!dk what is he doing!!!hmmm....feel so lost now and feel so out...hai....bro is gg nepal soon...hope sat won't come....dont want him to go...really hope somebody could just tell me NOW12.59am!, "trina, jia you, i'm here with you"....feeling so discourage since this noon...and i cant sleep cus of work=(...

seventeen super stylin 2009

hey, aniway to anybody that happens to read my blog, can you please help me vote for my friend?melissa and brandon???here this is the link...

http://www.seventeen.com.sg/superstylin09/vote.php

this is a fashion competition...really hope they will win....well brief intro...i attended modeling class with them...awesome people...really wish they will be ablke to go into greater heights in this industry...vote for them please....

disappointment!

today, my day started very well....got a new shoe and i'm really happy!!!gonna hug it to sleep tonight...but now, i kind of feel so down and discouraged...feeling damn terrible and wanna cry...cause i really dk what to draw for the world without glass...my mind just cant work in this freezing cold room...i can't let my imagination run wild....cant think...=(people drew finish yet im still harbouring the thought of redoing....others draw till so nice yet i cant seem to be at any improvement....i hate this feeling of discouragement...i wanna try to convince myslf that im on the right track but it dun seem to be what i wanted...i just don't feel like doing anymore....just feel like tearing what i did intho pieces...bits and bits of pieces!

Changes

alright...today the shoot was cancelled and i slept the whole day at home..shiok!woke up at 4pm and went for a jog...haha!receive a call from granny when i was sleeping...aw!!!!!and than a call from _ _ _ _....so nice of  _ _ _ _ to want to gimme a surprise..but its my fault though for not describing properly...well..i still appreciate _ _ _ _'s effort...

_ _ _ _thank you and i'm sorry

for now, i still look forward to my next shoot...haha!!oh,went to the coffeeshop and ate dinner with leon!im so damn  happy when i complain that the chicken culet is too hard...as hard as rock...and i was battling with the chicken!haha(sounds weird)and what he did?he took the knife from me and cut it for me!!!awwwww!!!im so happy and deep inside of me feels so sweet...its the nicest not nice chicken cutlet i every ate...because its so not nice, the action that leon did make me feel so...warm...and sweet...after the quarral, this is the first time i went to eat dinner with him...

jie LOVE YOU LEON!!!hehe!!!

filming at harry's bar!

yes yes!so excited for my filming later!will be heading to harry's bar to film the upcoming show...really wonder if its really call cooking without clothes..haha...really super weird...had a nightmare yesterday cause i dreamt that i shit in my pants!eeeewwww.....haha!!!dk why will i get this weird dream...maybe was too traumatised?haha...idk!!!hmmm...still have so much work to do...now im planning how to do my experience design method work...ask us to stalk people...OMG...is so fun!but IDK HOW TO STALK!grrrr!!!=(wake up at 12pm today... haish...nvm...i still feel tired...zzzz...i gg sleep now...

how stupid i can be...haha

ok finally i decide to cook some rice using the cooker...often i will be so scared to overcook so today i decide to cook less...so happy after 20mins of waitinf for the rice...when i open up...to my horror i saw something

its like so....OMG!!!so little!!!eat what!!!arh!!!need to recook..really ruin my appetite...and i packed my messy room today...its so neat now i love it but not use to the clean and tidy environment..however..my cupboard is in a mess now..wakaka...my room just seriously dun look like a girl's room...more of a garbage house...haha....BUT ITS SO NEAT NOW!!!yeah!!!so satisfied!daddy sure be proud of me cus he had been complaining for 1 mth that my room is so messy!he even say "even i give u another month it will still be messy" haha...maybe for today its neat la...it will grow to become a garbage house again!!very soon and i hope not...haha...i know my habit..throw things here and there and everywhere...haha....better eat my curry fish head now....grrrr....i need rice!

it had been so long since i really sleep well...had been so exhausted. today during GEMS class, a friend that i lost spoke to me again!im not naming who but i'm really happy about it.even its just a few sentence, it just makes my day...well, its really hard these few weeks though cause of school work..and today i had disappointment as well..in need and desperation but i was so touched that some/one of my friend and my gor gor is so nice to offer help..i owe them a great lot...feeling bad as well though...=(

having an early night now...sweet dreams

hmm....as what i always feel, idk what title of this post will be...well...slept the whiole day today and i feel i had so much things hanging and undone...sadly i lost some of the group photos the NSP took together...its oni been a few days and io started missing them...hmm...will be having the followup shoot for the channel u show on the next few sundays..hope i can still attend church...hmm...feeling kind of empty now...actual fact i miss some1 la..haha....gtg zzz le...love u...nites

drama

hmmm...where should i start??i have so much to write...ok...i shall start on my school puppet project.its really kind of crazy la.n 1 more friend stayed over at B_____n house..chiong the puppet project all the way and edited it into ppt animation...this is my puppet

this part nthing much to write but i really enjoyed the whole process with my friends..

next will be Meng Yang's bday!!haha!!!i really had lots of fun!!!!we went to seoul garden and eat...didn eat much as im not feeling well...

and yesterday, went for the shoot at aps building...working with guo shu xian, elizabeth and june...i know their english name but not full name...well...its a nice experience but was pretty  upset that i had to stay and work ot...so much homework to do and so busy dun sorry arh...no time to post in detail...promise that i will share more after my work load is cleared...

2 sleepless nights

hadn't been sleeping for two nights..hai...stayed over and did my work...=(...feeling real tired now...went for the subway casting just now...was damn idiotic...haha....dk what to write now as well...kind of empty in my mind.....

thief

today i commited a theft with my fellow culprits lester (criminal head), lydia (look out/ accom), Brandon (in action), trina(in action / look out) have to pass up the puppet tml hai...another sleepless night...i miss sleeping now...hai...now in class....kind of boring...duh...k la...gtg..Jia you trina...=)

what happen?

i did something that cheer me up today...went to school, and went to jurong market and than another crazy thing...went to toa payoh..haha...buy a phone and its so damn cheap...well...cus the boss is good..give a realli good discount...i wonder what is he doing now..trying hard not to think but he just cant get out of my mind...hmm....drank coffee today, and after hearing what joel gor gor say abot the naughty G i decide not to buy..haha..i really hope he is enjoying his time now...i shouldn't have felt this way but i do...hmm...side track abit...oooh...the handphone shop is call vision...its allocated at toa payoh central blk 183 #01-294 tel: 63542242...hmm....dun worry they didn pasy me to advertise for them..i do it willingly because they service are really good..so they deserve credits...ok..got to do some work now...


I MISS YOU

i shall name this later(if i remember)

haha...i received an sms from yit hoong yesterday asking me where i bought the relightable candle..not bad eh...i can do advertising on my blog..haha...i wrote this down so i will remeber...or maybe if i forget, some one who readt his will remind me..haha...need to buy that the candles later before heading to school..haha...i'm so happy that i skipped my morning class....bad girl right?but actually...sometimes i good girl also one..haha(sound like a kid)
hmm...well was too tired so i plan to sleep more...its pretty hectic and tiring to be in design..still have so much stuff to do....yesterday or should i say just nw i slept very late...and i bought my first red bull...well the can is not red at all...but blue and silver...hopefully the words are red..haha...lol...IT SUCKS EH..super not nice to drink...but thats something i did to keep myslf awake while doing work..after one can, i feel energetic...but after an hour, i fall asleep....haha...maybe its not stong enough...cause i use to drink another drink i dun like-coffee...maybe next  time i will try NAuGHTY G!!!haha...the advertisement a make it like a sex drink...but i like the concept alot...not because of the sexo concept but the can design...so i'm going to purchase a red bull. a naughty G and maybe nescafe latte(i only dare try latte)maybe this will keep me awake so i can last throought the night of agony doing my assignments!arh~~

half burn candle....

hmmm...having so much thoughts in my head now...well...went to sp to do my assignments today and than head to clarke quay...not for clubbing but to support my brother...despite him saying that even if i go down to see him fly the remote control plane (which is call "go fly kite") he will treat it that he don't know me..till now this sentence is still ringing in my mind...my friends say that he is saying words of anger...but disowning me???it feels terrible...hmm...when i reached around 6.30pm found out that it was raining so i went to ate my lunch /dinner at yoshinoya...and waiting alone for time to pass...saw a good looking inmdonesian guy...and start pondering if he is a model or something...well all my imagination about modeling comes back...well...as some of my friends know that i'm so into modeling and all..its just something i enjoy so much..so no doubt, wherever i go and i saw a girl / guy that looks good, i will start imagining that they will be posing so attractively infront of the camera and which angle flatters their look..ok thats sidetrack...so after eating..i went to have a walk at central..its really nice there..but some places are pretty deserted...so i wonder how will the shops thats allocated at the deserted area earn..hmm...than its about 7.15pm...so i decide to walk by the river in order to find the "field" where leon will do the plane performance...and when i stepped out of "central" the rain is pretty heavy..so i just dashed my way through the rain to riverside point

(one of the pics i took on the way)

so when reaching there, i was keeping a lookout for the field depite the rain..saw some nice view

well...i walked and walk till 8pm still looking for the stupid field which i didn manage to find =(...and the rain didn stop..so i guess it will be cancelled..hmmm...well...i didn let leon know that i went and i don't intend to...so keeping my feelings and writing some general thoughts in my blog will definitely comfort myself...and i'm really happy that brandon, siling, lester, joel gor gor were there emotionally for me...

well just saw this on his wall "i dun hate u..but its just sometimes u do things that make me so pissed off..it just makes me super angry n lose all the respect i have for u.."

well...pissed off for an internet??im so sad...i'm still a human...i make mistakes...even though sometimes i neglected u..but when i care and do things for u, did u even thank me???u don't even remember my birthday...

sorry..was carried away...ok back to the topic..so i decided to head back and on my way, i remembered that i can do my assignments while on my way home..(the work is call POEMS..like observing people and taking pictures..cant expect that every minute of my day, my school work is haunting me..)

and i reached home...realised that mum is not at home well previously i secretly went to make a spare key i agree its stupid that i only duplicated the metal gate and i didn duplicate the wooden door...so i went to look for my mum at her friend's block..sign*...well...people who read my blog should be curious why i name this post as "half burn candle" well basically, it because when i reached home i lighted a relightable candle cause i feel like..so i start playing with fire...blowing it and seeing it relight again..and i realise something...the difference between a relightable one and a normal one..well..in some term, candles means hope..well when a normal one is blown, the room will be in complete darkness..when a relightable one is blown, the flame will come back again..there are some sparks as well...strangly i start to link my life as a relightable candle...again and again, some things will blow my flame away..but in the end i manage to relight again..maybe till the day when the fire decides to cease and theres no more wax to sustain the fire, it maybe the time that i give up...

blank

really feeling in pain...i really want to scream and cry all my sorrows and agony out...why do people don't cherish and take others for granted?i had been in a terrible mood this noon. no one asked, no one care as in my family.the work load of my school work is making me feel so exhausted...theres so much things to do and i didn know where to start...and leon, the one that i loved so much, dotes and cared is the one that hurts me the most...i tried to do what i can do to show that i really love him alot, im so proud of him when he says that he is promoted to sergent major, im really proud of him so proud that i cant wait to show all of my friends that he is my little brother.all the hurts in the past i can just put it aside...im so ready to forgive him even he hurts me a thousand time as long as he say a sorry to me...well....i dont care if people are going to get offended or not when i write such personnal stuff online...i know the risk...people may critisise, gossip but i dun care..i just wanna be genuine..well..frankly to say, i'm starting to hate my life so badly...its just so tough...and i know that i lose my support (my greatest support)my close christian friends should know...so to put in the right words, i'm just slowly fading away...i lost my track and path...='(

it hurts when u have to cry yourself to sleep. torturing your body into extreme tireness so that u will sleep peacefully..........................................................................

shattered................

the awefulllll dinner

went to have dinner with si ling just now..hmmm...i'm really happy that me and her are building our friendship back again. well...just now, went to 925 and eat.(coffeeshop) and i ordered fish soup marcoroni, centuary egg and you tiao so the guy gave me 1 extra piece of fried prawn cracker and i thought he didn't pay attention to what i ordered and i said quite loudly-"i didn't order this. he winked at me and i said "ooohhh u give me arh?" than the boss heard..hmm...i was pretty upset that i landed him into trouble...really sorry for the trouble caused..i hope he don't hate me...

another thursday

yeah!!!no school tml..however, still have lots and lots of stuff to do..chated with lester yesterday, he is the oldest in my class..but he is very caring and nice...so sweet of him...gave me morning call so that i will wake up to go for my GEMS. send me an sms also..well...in the end, i still went back to sleep..i'm so tired cause doing the "puppet" for my assignment really drains me...hmm...but he made me feel so guilty...
well, really appreciate him...
promise will try to sleep early..

thank you lester

oooh, and yesterday, sze li went home with me...i think i let her wait so long...sorry about that sze li..we had a good chat on the way..its so fun...and we went to mac as well...one memorable thing is that we suggested a group jacket for the NSP clique and the most interesting part is that we start to allocate colour to the clique (you know, girls does all this lame stuff but its fun)

this is the allocation( i may forget some so pardon me)
sze li-purple(cause its he favourite color)
trina-gold (cause i think its unique)
durian-green(cause durian is green)
yang-
marc-red
gavin-silver
arvin-white(cause he too black)
sharil-(forgot)
soon yi-(forgot)
jaryl-(forgot)
purple-pink(cause sze li says he likes pink)
jeremy-(forgot)

school work, macdonald monopoly and a random turkey guy

(sample of my work dated 27oct)

hmmm...so many school work and its driving me mad...my body is breaking down loh..hai...i need to draw so many stuff...but theres accomplishment la..but the work load is scary...hmm...today i ate macdonald
!!!wee...so happy and the have a monpoly game..i think its really interesting snd the prizes are attractive...wow!!!well..i need joo chiat road, toa payoh, thomson road, tanjong rhu, shenton way, robinson road, scotts road, orchad road and sentosa cove...oh no...hmmm...i hope some one will be nice enough to gimme some of their tabs..haha...today, i realise that i am really that crazy...went around and ask all my friends for the tab..haha

above is the monopoly paper..its so cute right..

and you know what?today, a random turkey guy chatted with me and say some..errr kind of disgusting stuff....hmmm...sorry...so tired to blog now...nights