6 March 2009

Am soon going to be given the position of Company Director at my father's company as well as my uncle's chocolate business. I'd be getting a combined salary of about 3k a month I think. With the increase in pay comes an increase in duty as well. Nice.


I don't really care about money. I think I have enough money and shares to last me awhile, but should I decline this opportuniy? I'm really not sure. It's just that I'm afraid of letting everybody down. I've gone through life without failing at anything I deemed a priority, fucking my duties up will probably make me emo for a very long time ...


I have my grades to worry about as well ... I think I'm doing fine for all subjects except accounting. It's lame because it's one of my majors as well. An accounting graduate who sucks at accounting ... lulz ...


After asking my dearest girlfriend for some help with accounting application homework the other day, it has become clear to me that my grasp of the subject is terribly weak; and that I need a lot of help. I thought that she could help me through it, but she was obviously busy with other things. It's funny cause she goes to help other classmates for long amounts of times and doesn't seem too badly irritated and when it finally comes to my turn she gets prissy. Regarding the fact that I stay back to help her with computing lessons and even make myself available to her questions in class even though I haven't even finished my OWN classwork yet, I think it's kinda fucked up.

Obviously this can't go on for the rest of the semester, so I decided I had better start getting help elsewhere. First person I thought of was Eugene, the all knowing demigod of numbers who used to give me and my old school buddies tuition - ahh good times. Can't afford his classes though, 60 bucks for a 2 hour lesson is too much to afford ... or did he charge 60 bucks an hour for a 2 hour lesson each time??? Though I will still call him up if I feel desperate enough.

Next person I thought of was Wan Yin, so I gave her a call. She can't cause she'll be really busy with work for the next few months.

Then I thought of angpao, but he lazy ... haha ... basket ...

Then I thought of Denise, she said okay. I also found out from her friend that she got dumped 2 weeks ago. Her friend told me I probably shouldn't get close to her again unless I want to be her sugar boy ... Yuck ... well fine if I was single then it would be fun. Should I risk my decency for the sake of my education? ...


Zzz ... I'll probably just beg Wan Yin or angpao for help just to save the 60 bucks I'll have to pay Eugene. Too bad I didn't take accounting in school, would probably have helped me a lot. lol ~


Life has never been good to me anyway, and somehow I always manage to take the paths that make my life suckier in the future. Welcome to my life =)


Am in such a sucky mood right now. Have to go to Klang in a bit to discuss with Ginseng about Donnie's promotion. Will probably make my mood even worse as all I feel like doing right now is lying down at the Port Klang docks and enjoying a big, fat, juicy joint .... sigh ...