10 June 2008

I'm still feeling emo.
I wonder why.
I talked to Adrian and found out the trip was organized by Azri and Matt. This makes sense now.


Simple moral rule, the greatest benefit for the greatest number. If I don't go, Matt and Hafiz can go. So it's basically 2 friends for the price of 1. If I were either one of the trip party, I would make the same decision.


Well whatever I guess.
I'm tired of all this backstabbing and having to choose between friends; so I'll just leave them be. Without me, Azri and Adrian will be able to enjoy the company of Matt and Hafiz. Like I said, the greatest good for the greatest number.


Sides, I'm a boring person anyway, better not to bring me along.
It's hard feeling that you want to give up your friends of almost 8 years.
But it's for the greater good of all I guess.



Well - on to happier things. On Friday night, I had a drink with Von. She's gotten prettier and seemed ... shorter ... and more .... feminine ... ??? But I enjoyed the drink. I didn't think I'd be able to get along with her so well after not seeing her for almost a year.


Supposedly, people change after living in a different environment for too long. I was kinda reluctant to go out for a drink with her 1 vs 1 cause I was worried there would be long periods of silence.


Guess we proved me wrong.


However, the sad part is that my IQ dropped by about 50% after watching the stupid Epic Movie which happened to be on Star Movies at the mamak. I had an IQ of 10, so now it's 5. =(


How la???


Also, Von ... I thoroughly hate the fact that you sniped the bill as I reached for my wallet ... I'll have my revenge someday ...


Thank you for the drink and for supper.



On other things, I decided to invest some money in my friend's idea of putting money in a kiwi savings account. It gives 7% - 9% interest or more if I heard right. (which is really sweet)


The only problem is that you have to invest a minimum of 120k. So he and I gathered some very old brudders and discussed the matter. We agreed that we won't withdraw the money for at least 6 years and we would split the interest according to how much we invested, not including the ang pao we should give out of respect to the discoverer of this idea.


Perhaps this is David's chance to become rich?
We'll see in 6+ years time.

9 June 2008

I spent the entire day thinking about why I should still be alive.
Life is so boring and troublesome.


I couldn't come up with a good answer until my precious girlfriend attempted to talk to me a little while ago.



tan yee ling says:
what are you doing now bee?

David says:
Nothing at all

tan yee ling says:
want to go night market tomorrow bee?

David says:
No

tan yee ling says:
another question, how long more you plan to go on like this bee?

David says:
Until I feel happy again




That's it ... "Until I feel happy again."


She goes around pissing me off while shes in a bad mood and shows no remorse for it ... so I should go around doing whatever I feel I want to do as well. I don't feel like I need to FORCE myself to be nice to her since the reason I'm pissed off at her is her fault to begin with, so I WON'T.


Hafiz and Matt are pissed off at me for asking them to repay the money they owe me, and Hafiz has been backstabbing me, stupid ma chan.


Hafiz is a dog. He doesn't deserve to be mentioned by name. I helped him out in the past and this is how he repays me? Ingrate son of a bitch.


He wants to play the "pulau" game. Well, whatever. It's the type of game that maggot dick faggots like him plays.


Anyone that takes his side in this game can fuck their grandmothers and die.
I'm a useful friend, you probably won't want to make me your enemy.
It's in your future interest.

8 June 2008

It's been a hard weekend.


Azri called me at about 6pm on Friday to ask me if I want to join the gang in a camping trip. I told him I can't confirm I'll be able to confirm and told him I would call him later that night to give him the final answer.


I called him and found that he did not answer the phone, which is odd for Azri since it was only 1am. I SMS'd him and Adrian and told them I was going and asked if they could call me until I woke up, since I only skept for a little bit on Thursday.


On Saturday, I woke up to find there weren't any missed calls or replied messages. Which was weird as Adrian never leaves messages unreplied or passes up doing simple favors for his friends. At first, I thought they were pissed at me for not giving my answer earlier.


Of course, that was until Saturday night. I decided to go to o2 for a bit since I was already out of the house. The moment I reached there, Man asked me to go for a drink even though he was in the middle of a poker game, which is exceptionally rare. He looked like he had something that he needed to ask me out of curiousity, so I obliged, even though I just came from dinner with my brother.


Man immediately asked me "Wei, ko tak gi camping ke?"
I asked him in return "Ko dengar cerita tu dari tempat mana?"
He replied "Dekat mamak cheebye ni lah, mana lagi?"


I didn't bother asking him "Who" he got the story from as it could only have been from Azri or Adrian.


I changed the topic of conversation so that I could work out the math of what was going on.



The only way Man could know about the camping trip over a drink was if Adrian and Azri were at Jelutong.

The only reason Adrian and Azri would be at Jelutong is if Matt or Hafiz was there, because if Matt and Hafiz weren't there, they would go to Uptown.

Coincidentally I talked to Zul on Friday night and just for fun, I asked him if Matt was at o2, he said "no." Besides, Adrian boycotted Matt, so it just doesn't work out.

Logically, Hafiz must have been at Jelutong. Which means he just got back home on Friday night, considering the fact that I was even invited to go along for the camping trip on Friday evening.

Which explains why Azri and Adrian did not call me on Saturday morning or reply my messages throughout Saturday afternoon that I sent after I woke up.




This is so ... cute.
Hafiz probably turned all of them against me at that table in Jelutong on Friday night. It's either that or they love Hafiz so much that they couldn't say "David might be coming."


Now for the next topic at hand, they aren't responding to me either because they are pissed at me for not replying sooner, or they feel guilty and don't have the balls to reply my simple SMS. I doubt it would be the 2nd choice though. There is also the possibility that they aren't replying me because Hafiz told them not to.


I really wanted to go for the camping trip since I felt like I needed to get away from the inconvenience that is my life, Azri's invitation and plan seemed to come with PERFECT timing. I was thinking like "Wow, something right actually happened for once this week."


I'm quite sad that I'm 2nd choice, since they invited me first but gave him priority on invitations. But, oh well ... I probably had it coming since I messed with the most popular guy in the group.


God ... wow ... I should be used to this sort of shit by now, getting tossed around all the time. But why am I still so upset?


I don't know ...


I don't know if I should feel pissed or just feel ... rejected.


Well, how bad can it be? It's not like this week can get much worse anyway. I'm probably going to get flamed for writing something as "mean" and "inconsiderate" as this.

7 June 2008

Girls are truly incredibly intuitive creatures.


Sing Yee could tell that I've been extremely frustrated with my precious girlfriend even though I didn't mention a thing about it to anyone.


She has been paying a lot of attention to me for the past week and earlier started talking in a very coy manner. She then sent me a song ... "Girlfriend" by Avril Lavigne; saying


"I love this song, I know you don't like Avril but you should listen to it okay?"


I assume that she wants me to pay attention to the lyrics ...


Well, time to start ignoring her.
It's a shame.


I wonder if her intuition managed to tell her that I am extremely exhausted, frustrated, and depressed due to my precious girlfriend's continuous stubborn ignorance and insanely random mood swings (that I have to suffer for no aparent reason with no attempt of apology or change) BECAUSE I love her so much.


I'm just so .... angry ....
I need a drink ....
First thing tomorrow morning ....