I felt lazy and sleepy after dinner and decided to head home straight after I settled some things and watch some of the movies I downloaded. I love old school Jet Li movies and I was very very happy to find them available for download on Ares.
Shaolin Temple
Kung Fu Cult Master
Black Mask
Once Upon A Time In China
Legend Of Shaolin
Iron Monkey
Bodyguard From Beijing
All there!!! I couldn't wait to get back home to watch them ... all this kan-cheongness was for nothing because when I got home ... every single thing was in English and not my beloved Cantonese ... owh mye ghawd. Really annoying voice acting, this doesn't only potong steam but padams the api and keringkans the air ... fucking sad okay?
I should have stayed outside and played ParaWorld at Omaha or something ... or go to Silver and show off o2jam skills ... or NFS Carbon drifting skills ... haha jk jk ~ Had a game of DoTa before dinner, Broodmother ... 17 kills ... 1 death ... the new broodmother fuuuuuuuuuuuccccccking owns like hell, too overpowered ...
Anyway, as I was saying ... was really disappointed when I got home ... so I went on Ares and did another search for more movies of yore. Instead ... I found some sort of documentary on Kung Fu which lasted about an hour an a half ... so I downloaded it ... the things I saw in that documentary was seriously un-fucking-believable ... seriously, if you come by my house I'll show it to you ~ its ridiculous.
It wasn't even midnight when I finished the documentary and since my dad went up to sleep early, decided to enjoy the rest of the night in front of the computer with blissful solemn solitary privacy. No I did not watch porn, but what I did was go through my MEMORIA folder. The great folder I keep a lot of memorable history in.
There is good at bad shit in there. I have message history of talks between two of my friends where I was the topic of horrible criticism, heard rumors that he loved to talk shit about me so when I was over at his house, I gave him a reason to leave the computer for awhile so that I could steal his history. Also have some memorable ones like when I first introduced See Hoon (which was one of my best school friends at the time) to what would end up being his first girlfriend. Have convo history of female online friend asking for cyber sex @_@ ... first time for me and it was just disgusting, how do you get aroused and jack off to nothing but WORDS? Not even a picture of her, lol.
Have convo history of fights with Adrian, Liz, Azri (more of a joke), Alex ... the list goes on. Have some pictures of ex-girlfriends that they gave me during special occasions, have some home addresses of outstation buddies, have bitch fights between two ex-girlfriends, convo of ex-girlfriend telling a female friend to back off, conversations with rivals, with Ella, with old Dragon Raja clanmates, the essays and poems I posted on Legends boards, my retirement note on Legends in-game board ... so much has happened in my life ...
Its when I look in this folder that I feel so wanted and lucky and appreciated ... I miss the time where I could sit in front of the computer playing games all day and didn't feel ashamed of myself ... didn't feel like I was seriously lame ... didn't have liabilities ... sigh ~
Since blogger is lagging like fuck and I can't upload pictures and screenshots, I guess I'll just forget about uploading pictures. Just looked through some old R.Y.L pictures, o2jam pictures ... sigh ~ GOOD OLD DAYS ... nowadays its all about going to clubs and getting wasted out of your mind.
Sure its fucking nice to get wasted, in fact ... I should keep a bottle of LSD or Happy 5 in my room since this world sucks and I need to get away from it and get to my own personal happy world land ^__^ ... enter a world with floating platforms in the clouds filled with dragons and rainbows and unicorns every time I feel depressed.
Definitely not at the PEAK of happiness anymore. I blame college ... =__=
I guess you don't know how to treasure things until they're gone, and this is true. When in school at 8am you look forward to the moment the bell rings at 1.10pm ... this is no longer the case because in college I can go home and come to class whenever I fucking want. I don't have a discipline teacher to chase me around ... I can smoke whenever I want ... I can wear whatever I want - however I want ...
Bah, like I said before, I'm more comfortable in chains than in freedom ... no wonder people say I can't live without a girlfriend, haha. With girls usually what also cannot. No money cannot, no attention cannot, pakai selekeh cannot, wear slipper cannot, never cut hair cannot, eat at roadside cannot, go do something you want cannot ... in fact - I just recieved a sms from a kaki complaining about the fight he had with his girlfriend a short while ago. Apparently he didn't notice the new outfit she was wearing and the new color of her hair and her new heels ... okay - - - seriously - - - I thought this only happened in Archie comics ... my assumptions are proven wrong once again ... he asked me for some advice ... bloody hell !!! What kind of advice you want me to give you ??? I could only think of two things to say to him and of course; had to pick one :
1. Pay more attention to your significant other, what she does is in part for herself - because all girls want to look like the hottest shit you have ever seen - and is in part for you - because she wants your attention and your praise, she wants to look pretty for you.
2. Tell you what brudder, we go shopping tomorrow ... we buy you a new shirt a new pair of pants a new pair of shoes a new pair of socks new shit for the inside of your car and we buy a cheap bottle of very very very dark almost-unnoticable-if-not-directly-under-the-sun type of hair dye that aunties and la la zai mui always use, see if she notices anything or not. If no then you fuck kau her back and if yes ... you settle yourself.
In the end decided that #1 was more practical !!! Save me the trip with my brudder to Yaohan or something ... Anyway, just went through the last of the stuff in the folder, after almost 5 hours of reading ... finally everything has been read through.
I can still feel a lot of the emotions I was feeling when I was actually LIVING those conversations and pictures ... some of them still really piss me off ... and I figure its because I still hold it against these people that have ridiculed and angered me, and I find myself chatting with them, eating with them, doing stuff with them (or to them) ... some were even fuck buddies ...
Maybe its time to let go of my grudges.
