random pics

I think my daddy looks cuter than fish out of water in this pic... >.<

This lady should get Best Dress Sense Award 2005

I am tired

I am tired and I've got itchy nose

I am tired and I've got blocked nose

I bathed at Fengling's house at 2am. hehe. scandalous.

I don't understand why this boy needs to mug at all.

So obvious. Manchi acting cute again.

Traumatised after seeing manchi in bikini..

21/12/2005 My day with Lionel Chua

Lionel Chua is a very special friend to me.
I've known him since I was in Sec 1.
And we used to date a very very very long time ago.
But now, we're just really good friends.
So about my day with lionel.. it went like this.

I went to his house in the morning and played his piano.
He said I could play really well though I stopped learning in Sec 4.
(And I started in Sec 3.. Haha)
According to him, I play better than his sister who's in grade 8.
But actually I'm not really surprised aha not being BHB here but I play the piano almost everyday. And everyday since sec 3... thats quite a lot of training and experience isn't it.

And then we had BA CHOR mee for lunch and I got bored. You know how I always wonder what I'll look like if I've got a 36F for my boob size? Hehe so I stuffed newspapers into my top and there you go. my 36F haha. (Look at the reflection in the mirror! Haha) Ok but it looks really unnatural coz you can't exactly make newspapers into really round balls.. Oh and pardon me if you just bumped into my blog and you don't really know me because if you do you'll know I'm always doing stupid things like this.

And after that we left for SENTOSA!!!! Haha I was really excited because it would be my FIRST time in my whole life wearing a bikini. And I didn't feel comfortable wearing in front of not-so-close friends.. so I chose lionel to be my guinea pig. (Actually he should be honored haa)

We went cycling and we were so stupid to leave our student passes and ICs in the car and they wouldn't let us rent the bike unless we leave a 50 bucks deposit with them. We combined our cash and only managed to hit a 48. So we gave them all the money we had (which means no money to buy drinks and ice cream on the way). zZz

And so we cycled. And cycled.

And cycled uphill. (My god I need water)

And downhill. (I want ice cream)

And cycled uphill again. (I'm dying)

And downhill. (Ok that's it we're returning the bike)

And we returned the bike.

After that, we went to eat ICE CREAMM!!!!!

And just look at how puffy my eyes were!! haa I was REALLY REALLY TIRED. (from late nights spent partying and Dota-ing and CYCLING w/o water and rest) But damn happy JUST LOOK AT THAT BIG TUB OF BEN&JERRYS ICE CREAM!!! (which is as big as my head) And my fav flavors!!! Chocolate Fudge Brownie and Oat Cookie.. YUMYUM!! So heavenly..

After that we had a "romantic" stroll along the beach Haha ok it wasn't really romantic and I decided to leave something behind which isn't as cliche as "manchi and lionel were here" that kinda stuff.. Using my artistic talents I drew on the sand.. =)

And we took a picture together.

After that I realized I forgot about the date.

So I added it in...

AND LOOK AT THIS!!! SOOO PRETTTYY!!!

AHH I'm so TALENTED!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

*cough* errrm sorry for losing my composure haah

Oh then Lionel took a pic of me when I was stoning.

And I told him to take a proper one! So I tried to pose which didn't really turn out to be successful. I think I look better stoning hehee

Then we talked rubbish until sunset and sentosa was really pretty. And we continued to take pictures.. Have you realized it's all my pics up here? Coz Lionel refused to let me take picture of him and I was happy to be in pics.. =P

But I was already DAMN TIRED so I didn't really bother to smile anymore. I mean just look at this pic. I'm just stoning (as usual).

And then I FINALLY convinced Lionel to take a pic with me but it turned out to be quite horrible haha.

Then the sky started to turn dark. Like really dark. So we thought we had better make a move. On the way out, I saw a TOAD!!!! So cute I just couldn't resist taking a shot of me kissing it. Like from 1m away. Haha was damn scared it would jump at me.

Then we left. One of the best days I've had this December holidays.

Seriously, old friends are the best.

My xMas part 1

Jingzhong gave me this to make me FATTTTTTTTT

Reall nice disneey pieces (piaannooo!!!) and a self burnt CD =) from Mr CQ

Greg was my sannttaa claaaussee who came at the stroke of midnight wearing a moronic hat

And he gave me my white christmasss =)

Xmas Eve

MERRY MERRY XMAS EVE TO EVERYONE!!!!
wahh i'm so tired today don't feel like going out.. abit sick too actually
Had shooting since 930am yesterday which ended at 10pm, then i rushed down to JP's place for his party and I got home at 2am.. What a day. Oh as for what shooting it was, it's not the corporate video coz I didn't get that one, it's actually the sleepwear modelling contest one. Haha yes going back on my words.. tsk tsk. The story went like this.. After I decided NOT NOT to join it, YM who got saboed by her friend asked me to join it with her for fun. And it really sounded quite fun. Like HEY! It's sleepwear.. and sleeping's my favourite past time. And so i thought, HEY no harm trying! The next day they called me that I was one of the finalists and YM didn't make it to the finals I was like OK like YM was the reason why I joined and now i'm alone. So yesterday we went down to do make up and styling then we started shooting. Long day but we had loads of fun.. like loads loads of fun. Haha my make up was horrible though. It's too elaborate but it's for shooting..



And at first I thought it was just an online voting thing.. like they take the pics. they circulate around in school via email and online voting system. Then they said there's gonna be a bash.. like at MOS on 12th Jan. WOW that would be my first clubbing experience man. Seriously. MOS somemore how happening can it get. Then there'll be like CATWALK. AHHHH and Q&A session!!!

"So what's your greatest wish Manchi?"

"World peace"

Haha from that day onwards I won't be able to lift my head in school. Got to wear mask to school everyday man. And its 20% voting and 80% based on judges. They make it such a huge thing so it's quite scary. Like kinda stresses me out too. But it's a good experience. Like I've never joined this kinda thing before so it's the first. Whatever it is, I don't really care if I win the thing or not because most probably I won't anyway. But it's just abit paiseh if you can't do the catwalk properly and you've got flabby thighs and tummy and no bOobs. AND you can't wear a bra on that day. Hahaa like braless on stage. How cool. Well different experience again I guess. Oh well but I'm enjoying this. This whole experience. And I made a lot of new friends who are really nice and supportive. Hehe I'm so happy =)

What is your true colour?

Heehee another one of the tests I took.
http://web.tickle.com/invite?test=1108&type=t

minzhi, your true color is Red!

Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously (this is like how true). If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name (but i thought communication was my middle name the other time? Ok so now i'm Luk Communication Impulsive Man Chi?). You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions(damn true again. It feels so good to get in touch with your inner self). In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied (thats why i'm always doing silly and stupid things which many people can't comprehend but I don't give a damn because I feel as if I'm the happiest girl in the world). Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do. (This I totally agree) =)

phone call from Bondue

"Hello I'm eileen calling from Bondue. Manchi you are nominated for that XXX Sleepwear modelling contest"

"... hmm who nominated me? (who saboed me)"

"Haha I can't say sorry. Anyway can you send a full body shot plus a.."

(who saboed me)

".. close up shot of yourself.."

(who saboed me)

"...plus your height and weight..."

(who saboed me??????)

".. and your vital stats.."

(ok 36F 24 36)
-yes you. stop rolling your eyeballs-

".. to this email address? xxx@business.smu.edu.sg"

"errr ok. Bye (but who saboed me???)"

Oh by the way its not ok.
Haha i think modelling contests are stupid.
And that's why I get so freaked out by talent scouts along Orchard Road who stop you on the streets and pester you non stop.
(But your head does get big. Feel good factor.)

"Hello, I'm XXX from this modelling agency"

"Sorry not interested (bug off)"

Immediately after the call ended, I smsed CQ and asked if it was him who saboed me. He assured me that it wasn't him. But I can't think of anyone else who'll sabo me in school. (and as bo liao as CQ haha) Not like I'm damn high profile in school or what anyway.

By the way, did I mention I'm not going send my shots to Bondue?

happy feet

Had my 1st foot reflexology session in 5 years yesterday.
It's so comfortable I actually fell asleep.
Felt like I could fly after the session.

Oh my.. I can't see my eyes

My Saturday

1pm
met Greg and Ben

2pm
had lunch at CA. Its slogan (or whatever you call that) was "Modern Japanese and Fun Western". When I browsed its menu I couldn't find anything that was Japanese though. So I ordered Western. Cabonara. It turned out really fun!! Like this whole lump of carrot slices on top of my pasta. WOW. Where else can you get that man? I had so much fun picking out the slices from my cabonara and dumping the slices onto another plate.

3pm
60% discount storewide at Solomon. So we decided to walk to Suntec from Marina. It's just a 10 mins walk at most if we'd take the underpass. Quoting Greg, "It's ok we can cut through Riz Carlton". So we spent 10 mins walking to Riz Carlton (and left something in its washroom), spent 10 mins bumming around in Riz Carlton coz we couldn't find our way out, then we finally got out and found ourselves in Marina again. AGGGHHHH. Quoting Ben this time, "Oh we can cut through millenia walk". Another 20 mins gone. And when we finally reached Suntec, we looked across the road, and HUALA! (how ah bengs and ah lians, including me though i'm not an ah lian, say voila) Marina was just 2 road-widths away. oh my god the burger looks DAMNN HAPPY!!!!! sooo cuteeee

4pm
We reached SUNTEC!!!!!

4.05pm
Greg and Ben contemplated to leave me behind when I was engrossed with the Carebear show.

5pm
Ben&Jerry's at Sky Garden. Talked crap.

6pm
Made our way to Esplanade. Really tiring to follow some 1.76m and 1.86m guys when they're rushing. Imagine some 1.57m freak (yup thats me) trying to catch up with them when that freak is wearing heels, albeit 2cm heels. =p

645pm
Finally finally got to sit down after a long day and properly rest our legs.
Freak: I'm going to get cup corn you guys want anything?
Greg: What? Cup corn?
Freak: Yup cup corn. Why?
Greg: What's that?
Freak: Like steamed corn which they put in a cup?
Greg: Ohh. Corn in a cup.
Freak: ... (To me, cup corn and corn in a cup are identical)

The sunset at esplanade is soooo soooo Pretty

740pm
CQ finally reached esplanade. Watched some performance by XXXX. Haha can't remember the group's name. But the performance was quite entertaining. Especially their fragrant rice advertisement song. And the way they try to link Christmas with the songs they were singing was real crappy.

830pm
Interval. Thought I saw a guy who looked familiar. Ahh Jingzhong! Was quite surprised to see him there. Coz I thought he went yishun safra to climb in the afternoon and Esplanade was not exactly near Yishun. Quoting Jingzhong,"I can always climb, go home bathe, and come out at night right?" Hmm.. Ya. Right. He looked dao as usual. Didn't really smile to me though he claimed he did. Imagine a 5cm-longed lips curving downwards with a 1mm dent. Ok I can't describe the way he smiled for nuts. But the moral of the story is (if there's even any story to begin with) is that I didn't know he smiled at me.

9pm
Special guest performance. Daphne Khoo. I didn't think she sang well though. Half of the time she was squeaking. My ears nearly died hearing her sing that "Yey Yey Yey Yey" part.

10pm
Dinner finally. Haha candlelight dinner. It was at a place Bobo said he wanted to bring me go someday. That open spaced area at the 2nd level of some restaurant. But we never had a chance to go there.

11pm
Mum called. "Where are you? What time will you be back? Why are you always coming back so late?" It gets irritating at times. Like Hello I'm 21 already please don't nag anymore. I'm old enough to protect myself. I can scream when I'm in danger and I always make sure there's someone to send me back and all. And its not even that late.

12pm
Got home. Checked mail. MSNed for a while. Washed up.

1am
ZzZzz

King Kong

尽管电影里有很多不合逻辑的剧情
我还是非常非常喜欢这部电影

看这部电影的时候
心情是很沉重的
因为戏还没开始做
我已经知道结局将是悲惨的

电影的前一半
我看得很开心
真的很开心
从Naomi Watts 怕King Kong
到她敷衍地逗他开心 (我选择不用“它”)
King Kong 开始把她当宝贝
处处维护她
然后Naomi Watts真心地对待他
我自己也有点动容
尤其是他们一起看日落的时候
那日落好漂亮
可那一刻,我哭了
因为我知道那快乐是短暂的

我好希望好希望
Naomi Watts 能够永远留在森林里陪King Kong
我想King Kong是非常寂寞的
可那些不道德的,残忍的人们
为自己的利益把King Kong带回他们的国家
当我看到King Kong被琐着的时候
不禁感到十分心酸
天啊,他不该落得如此下场

戏里最令我感动
是当King Kong和Naomi Watts在冰场上玩耍的时候
好像明知即将有危险
但还是选择不理
非常珍惜地与对方渡过这最后快乐的时光
我的泪珠就已经忍不住从我双颊落下
要是时间能在那一刻停止
永远地停止
那该多好

当King Kong攀登那最高的建筑物时
我想他大概也已经知道他将自投罗网
可爱情就是盲目的
King Kong奋不顾身去保护Naomi Watts
就算最后为了保护她而死
我想他也不会有任何遗憾
至少他知道Naomi Watts对他是真心的
当他知道自己将要死时
看着Naomi Watts的那种眼神
非常忧虑和悲伤
他应该对她是一种放不下
又为她未来的安危感到担忧的心情吧
那时我整颗心都碎了
彻彻底底的碎了

如果现实中也有一个King Kong那该多好
如果他这么真诚地对待我
即使他样貌非比丑陋
为了他而放弃一切
跑到荒岛上与他共度日子
简单,朴实的日子
每天吃新鲜果实
晚上躺在他温暖的怀抱入睡
过着无忧无虑的生活
我也不会后悔的

我想我永远也忘不了
King Kong凝视着Naomi Watts那种眼神
那种神态是特别温柔的
也只有对Naomi Watts才有这种眼神
他整颗心都软了
就好像活了一大半辈子
终于知道他等待的是什么
仿佛天塌下来
他也还是很快乐
而这种快乐
我感受到了
所以我才会深深地被打动

虽然结局是伤悲的
但我还是觉得King Kong是非常幸福的
因为他这一生
应该无冤无悔了

Quotes from 如果.爱

“过去,惟一的用处就是让我不想回到过去.”

“爱情没有过.不记得更好.”

“外面的世界特别慷慨,闯出去我就可以活过来...外面的机会来得很快,我一定会找到自己的存在,一离开头也不转不回来,我离开永远都不再回来.”

“不要看着我走.不要再记得这段日子.”

“最爱你的人永远是你自己.”

“每个人的一生都是一部电影,是自己的主角.但有时只是一个配角,或者早被人剪掉了...但有时他们会剪错.”

让我最感动的是金城武在最后一次和周迅通电时,说 “我要走了,不要忘记北京.”

虽然我不知道为什么他们最后没有在一起,也许他只不过想fulfill过去十年里幻想的一个美丽结局. 最终爱不爱谁都不重要.重要的是不要轻易部过去抹去.走过的,是该记住的.

hEEeeeeeyyyy guyyyssss

I was super confident for my driving test today.

Confident when I woke up in the morning, confident when I board the shuttle bus, confident when I did my warm up before the test, confident when I saw the tester, confident when I did the test, confident after my test. I even gave all my instructors that "yay I won't be seeing you anymore!" look. Yes you are good manchi getting smuggish huh. So why you failed again????

I don't know. Don't ask me. Ask the stupid tester. I actually striked a pole during my parallel parking then he said "Do again." I didn't know what he meant actually. Like continue doing? Or get the hell out of the lot and go in again? For the benefit of the doubt, I continued doing and then when I got out of the lot, I did it again. Like 2 parallel parkings. They were perfect. And he gave me an immediate failure for exceeding stipulated time for parking. What the -beep- man.

2nd time failed driving test already. If I take another time I'll be spending close to 3K. Heart aches alot. Like very dui bu qi my parents and myself. And CQ!!! Ahh was surprised that he actually came with a pleasant gift to reward me in case I pass. And it was such a perfect gift. A nicely wrapped and decorated P PLATE!!!! Ahh but he took it back. (grrrrrr)

But its ok I don't feel that bad actually. Because that Auntie who took the retest with me got 56 points. mAUAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA ok I'm sorry but it's quite incredible. How do you get 56 points? And she got 40+ points for her first test. So she "Deproved" ok while I improved. From 30 points + immediate failure up to 24 points + immediate failure. Wah so proud of myself. (Ok before you say anything please don't because I am just trying to console myself). Maybe Pui Pui was right. Not no skill not no luck. It's no lookssss!!! Ahh this doesn't help in making me feel any better. And this SMU guy who was there for 2nd test with me actually passed with 18 points. 18 points leh! He was smiling at me while he was in that cozy room watching that "after you pass your driving test then you can watch" video.

Oh well.. But I watched perhaps love after that. Really nice show. But it's quite sad they didn't get together in the end. I don't know why. I mean.. I agar agar know why but I don't know precisely why. If you know must tell me ok. Then I got another pleasant surprise when I got home. I actually got A for my business law. Was expecting a B+/A- coz I so got pulled down for my group project and screwed up my finals. So an A was really not within my expecatations.

Alright. Meanwhile until I take my retest in March again, I hope I can become prettier because if I do, Pui Pui says (implicityly) I'll be able to pass my driving test then.

Wish me looks.

Joke of the day

CQ: What's the name of Tan Teck Meng's son?
ME: Tan Tock Seng?

(hurhur)

CQ: Tan Teck Meng, Junior

Yes don't laugh. It's true.

ME: What's the name of Tan Teck Meng's father?
ME: Tan Teck Meng, Senior

缘来就是你

朋友们! 推荐我上节目当女主角吧!
我的理想条件将会是 “最好比我小,1.7米以上,瘦瘦的像栏杆,有一点toot”
然后我会叫我弟弟去那个指定的广场走走
希望钟琴会选中我弟弟
然后当我弟弟上台问 “缘来是我吗?”
我就说 “缘来就是你!”
之后我就可以拿到八百块现金奖
我弟弟也可以拿到五百块现金奖
加起来就有一千三百块了!!!!
哇! 好 cheapskate

Tired Tired Tired

Today was a tiring day.

Woke up at 630 and was late for my driving lesson at 8am.

Then went down to Delta House for some SMU Corporate Video Audition.. If I get chosen I'll appear on the video which will be screened on the day of the Official Launch of SMU. I doubt I'll get it though. But it was a good experience. Individual shots + Group shots. Zoom in Zoom out. Right to left and left to right shots. From top to bottom and from bottom to top shots. Attitude shots. Intense look shots. With white shots (When the pros say that, they mean smile and bare your teeth). Side profile and Front profile shots. Took about 40 minutes to do the shooting. I had an advance booking for cab at 1130am coz I had to rush down to Raffles Town Club for my Finishing Touch Lunch Evaluation. In the end it ended at noon instead. I felt so bad for keeping the taxi uncle waiting. Aha in the end I gave him 15 bucks and asked him to keep the change. (Quite expensive considering its just from Delta House in Alexandra Road to Raffles Town Club) He kept thanking me and I kept apologizing. But it certainly made me feel better.

Lunch was good! Though people say it was horrible. I mean.. the salad was ok and I had Dory Fish Fillet while most of the others had steak. I bet they regret having steak. My fish fillet was really nice though it was topped with Wheatgrass sauce. I mean.. wheatgrass sauce??!!! They say 20 bucks is too expensive for a meal like that cause the serving was really small. But I thought 20 bucks was ok considering it was in a nice restaurant and it was in Raffles Town Club. I regret not eating more bread though. They got real nice butter. =) But there was just lots and lots of bread crumbs on my table (So unglam) so I hid the crumbs under my plate just in case my instructor came to inspect our table and saw those crumbs then I'll probably do badly for that evaluation. I thought I was smart to think of that. muAhaa who else but Manchi can think of this kind of stuff! (because the rest won't have crumbs on their table) Then that stupid waitor had to remove my plate! Awww.. In the end I swept them onto the floor when my instructor wasn't looking. muAHahaaahaa sorry cleaner auntie.

Watched Aeonflux after that. I thought it was a nice show. Like a much lousier version than The Island. But The Island was WOW. So this was not too bad. Charlize Theron is soo freaking hot. Her looks and her body... lose me abit only. ahahhahahaha ok ok I take those words back =P

CQ jio-ed me out for Crab Bee Hoon at AMK said it was really good. It was sure tempting I haven't had crabs for a really long time! And Crab Bee Hoon was a sure turn on. Too bad I was too tired and felt so nua. Plus I promised my mum to have dinner at home tonight.. Must be a good girl =)

Ok this is such a long post and I'm starting to have sorethroat. (No relevance)

I've got driving retest this Friday. For those who don't know, I scored a whopping 30 demerit points + an immediate failure for my first attempt. Hey not no skill. It's no luck. =P

Alright wish me luck.

fengling says..

really think about what u are willing to compromise and what u are not

Cannot grey grey one. Must black or white.

(haa didn't know all my friends are so good at all thesee!!!)

Kaiwen says...

All you've lost is someone who doesn't even love you
But he has lost someone who loves him a lot

Very true indeed.
So why can't you let go? There's nothing beautiful left.

ahhhh

Those lyric writers areee sooo zai!
Can bring out the whole feeling in sooo few words..

非要等到爱远走分两头
才知道谁都怕寂寞

Anyway chicken little issss sooooo cuteee!!!
I love the fissshhh man! and that alien
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
That fish is so freaking cute
perpetually happy ahhaahahahahhahaa
so adorable
i want a fish like that too!

mUhaha look at that silly grin!!!!!!!!!

Another silly grin!!!!! mauahahah should see him when he goes *blurp blurp blurp* (thats when he's trying to talk you see but he can't coz he's got a water filled aquarium on his head) hehehehehee sooooooooooo cutteee!!!!

*swoons*

Not a callable bond

You make me feel like I'm a callable bond.
When you want me, I'll be here.
When you don't want me, I can be thrown aside.
Just as and when you like it.
You call this commitment?
I think you're being too selfish here.
You're the only one who's happy you know. Not me.

There's just no communication between us.
Exams exams exams. They're just excuses.
Already hardly see each other.
Is it that hard to just spare a few minutes of your time a day for a short phone call?
Or just a few smses to ask how I'm doing?
By the way, I don't consider smses like "morning!" and "good night!" any form of communication.
They're statements.

You know I don't like to be stuck forever in a dating game.
It's just a lame term for people who don't want to commit and who want to be in unofficial relationships. So that they won't lose that freedom to flirt around and fancy other people at the same time. So that they can call many other people "gf/bf" or "darling" at the same time. If that's the way you want it, go find someone who thinks likewise.

Chances. Chances. And more chances.
Just how many chances are enough?
Not chances to prove your worth to me.
But chances to prove that you're really not worth it.
I'm sick of giving.
I'm sick of waiting to see what happens.
Frankly, I'm lost.
I don't see this going anywhere.
And I'm pretty sure it's not me.

Seriously, most of my guy friends treat me better than you do.
And I don't know why I'm just so stupid.
I can't be coaxed with just some sweets and honey-coated words or some empty promises when the next moment you go into hiding again. That brief attention of 5 mins a day out of 24 hours. And I know its not because of exams. You're just plain unwilling to give.
That's not the way you make someone happy.
And that's if you were intending to make someone happy in the first place and not being too preoccupied with your own happiness.

Old friends of mine think that I'm too hesitant in relationships.
I think they're so darn right.
I'm sick of not being able to make up my mind.
Or rather making decisions but not being able to stand by them.
In the end, everyone gets hurt.

This time,
for all those hearts I've broken in the past,
for people I've rejected or let down,
I'm going not going to be hesitant anymore.

That was the last chance I gave you.
You didn't manage to prove your worth.

Sayonara.

SAW 2

i love these kinda shows! Not so much for the blood and gore but for the plot. It's just plain awesome.. Its just as good or even better than SAW. My company was great too! It's our Mr Chongmeng Aka NTU HALL PRINCE. Either NTU doesn't have any good looking guys at all or the good looking guys never take part in the pageant. =P Haha Chongmeng still looks the same after so many years (yes he still has gorgeous features) and it's still so comfortable talking to him even though we haven't met up for sooooo sooooo longgg. Haha but I do feel bad that he had to shop with me for bobo's present and I was just so indecisive didn't know what to get. What can I say? Old friends are still the best!!!! Feel really bad for letting him send me all the way back home and then taking cab back to hall with that midnight surcharge. But I do feel happy too! =)

(NTU Hall Prince caught peeping at me Hahahahahaha)

Biz Law paper was horrible horrible horrible. screwed up some 35 mark question. Basically I just screwed up all my papers this term lah. But heck it's over. I'm going to max out my happiness factor this holidaysss man. JB shopping + seafood, play tennis like mad, go for rockclimbing, go crazy over shopping for xmas presents, go beach and flaunt that bikini! (not the figure lah ok though its not that bad ahaha), go KBOXXXX, meet up with old friends.. so many many things to do this holssss~~~

Ooo and lionel left for Sri Lanka yesterday. So sweet of him to call me at the airport. Didn't know his flight was at 630pm or Chongmeng and I would have sent him off! Haha but it was hilarious that he actually asked Chongmeng to "take care" of me when he's not around. It's like I can't take care of myself. I can lah and of couse I will. But I just feel so good that there's all these real old buddies around who'll always take care of me. With them around, I feel like I can brave through anything in the world. They'll just be there to back me up and "take care" of me when things go wrong ahaa.

Anyway today's bobo's birthdayyy... Happy 22nd birthday Bobo!

Oh and must remember to eat Ben&Jerrys Icecream with Chongmeng.. I must not pangseh him I must not pangseh him I must not pangseh him I must not pangseh him I must pangseh him I must pangseh him I must.... eh?

Ahhh Chocolate Fudge Brownie Icecream!! *sAlivates*

sick of all your empty promises

I guess it was plain foolish on my part to believe in what you said.
No concrete evidence but never underestimate a woman's intuition.
(And that of her friends)

I just hate myself for being so indecisive.
So weak. So irrational.
So unwilling to get out of that comfort zone.
(Though its not really that comfortable at all)

I am really looking forward to the day when I can leave everything behind and just move on. When that day comes, no more pleading will make me stay for the nth time.
So long, goodbye.

What kind of dog are you?

Heyyy go take this quiz!
http://web.tickle.com/invite?test=1000&type=t

Haha i'm a Bernese Mountain Dog!

Bernese Mountain Dog
No bones about it, you're a good-hearted, people-loving Bernese Mountain Dog. Down-to-earth and loyal, no one works or plays harder than you do. You put your nose to the grindstone when it really counts, but you never neglect your social calendar. Simultaneously strong and sweet, you're very tuned-in to the feelings and needs of the other dogs you run with. Without having to be asked, you always have a helping paw to lend and a sympathetic shoulder to lean on. "Communication" is your middle name, and when that's paired with your unswerving devotion, you get a breed that everyone respects and trusts.

errm.. Luk Communication Man Chi?

Stefanie Sun and her boyfriend broke up le =(

I always thought that they were really compatible.
Awww.
Something that she said made my heart skip a little.

两个对的人, 在错的时候, 爱了一回

Reminded me of Bobo.

Candid Shot at NSmen Jamboree

Power of technology.
I was like 5m above the photographer.
(Or maybe its just me coz my digicam doesn't have that zai ZOOM function)

Heyy

You know what I think?

I think you're just that close to being kicked out of the game.

Inspired by Nike Basketball

Ask me to play. I'll play.
Ask me to shoot. I'll shoot.
Ask me to pass. I'll pass.
Ask me to steal, block out, sacrifice, lead, dominate.
Anything.

But it's not what you ask of me.
It's what I ask of myself.

Here it goesss..

Seems like alot of pple wanna know wad those finance qns were..
Don't laugh at me ok i'll be really sad =/
(actually i wanna laugh at myself too but i'm too overwhelmed by grief)

The 3 mark question asked something like if you put $1 into Stock A now and its expected return is 25%, how much will you have in 2 years?

I mean.. can't be as simple as $1(1.25)^2 right?
But oh yes its that simple

As for the 5 mark question.. It went something like if Warren Buffet invested $1 in Stock A now and Bill Gates invested $1 in Stock B with an expected return of 7.5%.. who will have more money in 100 years?

Now that I think about it.. it's a super give-away-marks Qn
Yes and so I thought there must be something to it and I answered BILL GATES.
Someone please stab me.
(And I should have known better because my prof is such a great fan of Warren Buffet)

But you can't really blame me for that considering the 2 mark MCQ questions that the paper asked were things like covariance (which I totally didn't have a clue on) and if cost of equity and cost of debt will be affected by changing debt-equity ratio. Oh well.. now you know that you can't overestimate questions just because they carry alot of marks.

Ok I know this is irrelevant but I slept 14 hours last night!

*beams*

Blame it on RJC

Finance test and Macro test were disgusting.

3 marks for a one line answer for finance.
5 marks for some really simple explanation.
And so i thought they were trick questions and tried to act smart.
All RJ's fault.
When you get questions worth lots of marks in RJ and you think its simple, believe me you have a prob of 0.99999999 of being wrong and yup so i just threw 20 marks worth of these "trick questions" away..

Macro was horrible too.
I spent so much time working on derivations because they come out so often in mid terms
just who can resist free marks? Then most of the questions that came out today were qualitative rather than quantitative.
Feel so cheated of my time and energy and chicken essence.
RJ's fault again.
Spot questions and act smart.

The questions weren't exactly that tough. They were do-able.
But I just..

1) got not enough time to study to cover everything (and so i spotted Qns)
2) felt like sleeping when i was doing the paper coz i slept so late last night.. yea i literally stoned for 10 minutes halfway through my macro exam.. and i woke up coz i tot i heard someone swear the F word coz the paper was "too tough"
3) act smart (and you know whose fault it is)

Business Law exam on friday
Havent read anything since mid term
Kinda freaked out but i don't care
Tonight's for chilling out

armageddon

9 hours left to first paper!
Ahhh I still got loads to finish studying!!!
omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg

Thinking about life

This has been a particularly stressful term for me.
Only 1 week to study for 3 exams.
I've got 2 papers tomorrow and I haven't finished studying.
And I doubt I'll ever do before my papers.
And just look what I'm doing now.
Blogging.

Sometimes I really wonder why pple study hard for exams.
20 years of education. Then you work like mad until you become 60.

Then you retire and realize you're not that young to travel, not that young to go on a roller-coaster ride, not that young to play basketball and tennis with your children.. so you stay at home and watch soap opera all day. And you get fat and you get old and you get sick and you pray hard you're lucky enough not to get some terminal cancer (And at that time you'll prob regret not maintaining a healthy lifestyle by exercising and eating more fruits and stop smoking and drinking when you're young).

That's so not the life I want.

I used to want to graduate soon, start working and earning money soon (big big bucks i mean), then start up a business when I'm 35 and money will just start rolling in. Then I can retire and go play with my kids and go spa and go travelling and take up cooking lessons, sewing lessons, music lessons...

But that's kinda tough isn't it? Seriously, I don't think many people out there (yea and even if they're from all the top top schools, top top brains, top top creativity, top top connections..) can do it. It's easier if I just go find myself a sugar daddy though I'm convinced most of them will be pretty fat and smelly and ugly. (Think of their yellow teeth smelly breath wobbly tummy flabby muscles if they have muscles that is) But I certainly won't mind a Brad Pitt lookalike sugar daddy.

So I guess what's important now is to enjoy life as it is. If not, I know I'll regret it someday. I can really imagine alot of people thinking about how they lived their lives on their deathbed. And they'll prob regret doing or not doing alot of things in their lives. And some of these things can be as simple as having too many commitments back when they were young and not cherishing the people around them, or not telling someone that he or her actually loves him or her a lot.

I'll make sure I'll not regret anything in life
I'll prob tell my mum that I love her tonight =)

Jiamin loves me so much he wrote a poem for me

You are the smog in my sky
The algae in my pond
The speck of dust in my eye
You are so special
Everytime see you
I want to die

Jiamin i'm so touched!

His priority list

1. Exam subject 1
2. Exam subject 2
3. Exam subject 3
4. Exam subject 4
5. Homework/Assignments
6. CCA meetings/involvements
7. His business, *** ****
8. Sleep
9. Clearing mails/junk
10. Me

If i'm gonna stay at the bottom of the list for long
I'll be pretty much tempted to just move on

...

"Are you your father's son?"

"My wife is a sex object. When i ask for sex, she objects."

没标题

其实我是一个蛮独立的女孩
可不知道为什么最近总是觉得特别寂寞
在每个寂静的夜晚入睡之前
就是不习惯没有那些goodnight hugs and kisses之类的sms
我想, 也许在过去的两年里
我已经忘记了孤独的感觉

这种感觉突然回来找我了
两年后再交汇的感觉
多了一份凄美,一份空虚的感触
天啊
两年前的那些日子我到底是怎么敖过来的?

我喜欢单身的感觉
不用向别人报到
不用凡事都要为那个他着想
自由很多
可以透透气

可我也很讨厌单身
不错
还是有很多很多朋友给我关怀
也带给我很多很多欢笑和快乐
但是,你能了解没人爱的那种感受吗?
若我受了伤害,会有那个他为我感到心疼吗?

我好傻
我竟然哭起来了
也许我不堪寂寞吧
那种孤苦零丁的感觉
好难受
真的好难受

不知道这辽阔,蔚蓝的天空下
是否有人也感受到这份孤单
如果这个人存在的话
请你来安抚我这脆弱的心灵吧

可是我会坚强的
哭也不是办法
眼睛也会累的
应该让他们休息了
泪, 就留在心里面流
等到泪流干了 (如果有这么一天)
我就可以勇敢地像以前一样去面对孤单

我真傻,我又去查手机有没有goodnight sms 了
每晚都这样
明明知道是空等一场

我好累,要去睡了
至少, 入睡之后
会有周公陪我吧

calling for sai...

Man Chi is calling for this person who calls himself/herself sai who left 2 comments on her blog because she doesn't know who this sai person is will this sai person kindly tell her who he/she is so that she can perform his/her request of leaving a friendster testimonial for him/her

thank you

manchi is sick

manchi is sick
think its all the stress and late nights
this has been a bad term for her
waves of projects and tests never stop coming
and all the stupid relationship problems
finally taking a toll on her health
And it doesn't help that Channel 5's only screening first half of Harry Potter tonight

Manchi's body: I need quality rest stop giving me quantity.. 12 hours of sleep doesn't help if you're sleeping past midnight everyday.

Manchi : Ok I promise I'll sleep at 10pm tonight

Manchi's body: I'm pretty much stretched to my limits from all those projects and tests. I need play!

Manchi : But I just watched a movie yesterday and I had a whole night's fun just the previous day! Oh well.. But ok I'll watch Harry Potter next week if thats what you want...

Manchi's body: Yes and I need money! I'm so broke from taking all the cabs in the morning.. I can't spend as happily as I did as before

Manchi : Ok ok I'll resume my tuition assignment next year.. OK? don't be a bugger

Manchi's body: Yes and I need love! I want someone to be there for me to care to shower concern to love to fulfill my emotional needs..

Manchi : I love you what. I'm here for you.

Manchi's body: No you don't count.

Manchi: ...

Manchi's body: Oh and don't you think that champagne gold diamond ring you saw on the website that day is nice? There was another one right? The white gold one.. That was pretty not bad too.. Why don't we go shopping for.......

Manchi : Shut up

just like heaven

I watched just like heaven yesterday. It's a really sweet show made me cry a little.
Yesterday was a good day for me too.
Though I was really tired and I had to go back to school on a Saturday to attend some stupid Finishing Touch make up class, I was really happy with the company I was out with after that.

I was really happy yesterday.
Felt as if exams were non-existent.
Nothing else mattered anymore.
It was just like heaven.

Though I'm still afraid to open up to those kinda stuff again, I can feel that mental barrier which I had set up for myself lowering day after day. I really hope this happiness will not be short-lived and I really hope I won't have to go back to those crying days anymore.

All I'll need is to know it's for sure, then I'll give all the love in the world.

i love these quotes!

oh well they're all pretty sad but i guess i just need some sadness to dampen my happiness once in a while... life's not all about happiness isn't it?


"You can't lose something that you never had"

"A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go."

"Is love a tender thing? It is too rough, too rude, too boisterous; and it pricks like thorn."


Finally something sweet to end this off...

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams."

Awww.

Learning not to be spoilt

I had a project rehearsal 730am at SMU.
Usually, I would have opted to wake up at 630am and take a cab to sch just for that half an hour more of sleep. I have been doing that since I-dunno-when.
But hey! I woke up at 6am and took public transport to school this morning. And saved that 15 bucks. (21 bucks if theres ERP.. yea its that costly to wake up late)
If I had saved up all my cab fares from the past I guess I'd prob have saved at least a thousand by now. But I guess its not too late to start.. =)
Good luck to myself.

nobody likes me

nobody likes me
everybody hates me
i'm gonna eat some worms
(bom bom bom)
big fat juicy ones
long thin slimy ones
itsy bitsy teeny little ones
(bom bom bom)
.
.
.

爱.作战

i just watched this show on Channel U.
They asked, "两个人在一起是为了什么?"
是为了爱.
I guess just love is just not enough. Love without commitment love without contribution love without showing concern love without perserverance is not enough. Or does the notion of love already include all of them? I have no idea.
In the end the guy sacrificed himself to save the girl. The ending was so cliche it's a must have for every movie. But it touched my heart. Maybe because it reminded me of the past.
Once, a very long long time ago, a special person said that he'll go to hell just for me to go to heaven and he'll be happy in hell knowing that I'm happy in heaven. Sounds cliche too but I know he'll really do that for me.
And he always said he knew I wouldn't do anything like that for him because I didn't love him as much as he loved me. I have to admit that I wouldn't but I can lose all my money all my friends all my achievements just to save his life if that day really comes.
他说也许有一天我会学会怎么去爱.
而为了他,
我答应自己我以后一定会好好去爱别人,
再也不让他人流泪.
只不过,
在外头已经没几个人值得我去爱了.
可是为了爱,我一定会奋斗到底.

i haven't dota-ed for a while

the last time i played dota i was still using v1.19 and 6.15 map
when i played it today it was v1.20 and 6.23 map
And yes it has been that long
Everyone was really funny today (and strange)

"Where's the host ah? SG?"

"yea"

"Then may lag because i'm from korea"

"Nvm he lives in yishun quite near korea"

.
.
.
.

"Eh lets go for supper after this"

"Where?"

"Woodlands"

"I don't mind i'll take 20 mins to get there I'm driving"

"I bet you windwalk there only 5 mins"

"haha" (the not really laughing kind)

"Use boots of travel lah faster"


Oh I'm really glad we're gonna have a gathering this December! Its quite funny you've know your dota pals for quite a while and we chat on MSN and play games together but we've never seen one another before.. Except for my smu wcg gang =) I'm So Looking forward to an afternoon of desserts at NYDC and lan-ning and a nice nice dinner.. All after exams! wooohoo

Beautiful Girl

I'm dedicating this song to this special friend and I hope he'll feel better and happier because there are many good things in life waiting for him to go and achieve. Although the songs that he like will change from time to time, just like things and people, I do hope this song will remain as one of his favourites and will always have a place in his heart, just like this beautiful girl.

Beautiful Girl
Where ever you are
I knew when I saw you
You had opened the door
I knew that I'd love again
After a long, long while
I'd love again

You said "hello"
And I turned to gold
But something in your eyes
Left my heart beating so
I knew that I'd love again
After a long, long while
I'd love again

It was destiny's game
For when love finally came on
I rushed in line
Only to find
That you were gone
Wherever you are
I fear that I might
Have lost you forever
Like a song in the night
Now that I've loved again
After a long, long while
I've loved again

Beautiful girl
I'll search on for you
Till all of your loveliness
In my arms come true
You've made me love again
After a long, long while
In love again
And I'm glad that it's you
Beautiful girl

love yourself

I haven't been this happy for very long. My heaps of workload finally ended off with a grand finale of finance quiz though it didn't go very well.

Exercise really makes me really happy. 3 hours of rock climbing and 3 hours of tennis and the whole cycle repeats itself. Makes me sweat. Makes me happy. Makes me high.

And I received this bouquet of flowers from this special friend. It really came as a surprise. Made me feel special to someone again. (not forgetting the hershey kisses)

I feel like I'm on the top of the world ready to brave all difficulties because there are just so many people out there who know me so well and care so much for me. I feel like I've found my lost confidence. I feel like I've found my drive. I feel like I'm who I am again.

You know, you really are beautiful and it's true.

i want a getaway

At this very moment i want to fly away to some faraway beach and sleep under the warm sun and play with the warm waters... feel the sand under my feet.. build sandcastles pick up seashells like i did when i was young.. wear my many-years-old bikini for the first time have one big coconut for myself and sleep under a shady spot. I remember being thrown into the sea being piggybacked along the beach and cycling around the place. I remember being sung a lullaby and going to sleep like a baby and being patted on my head. I love that feeling. I want to do that now.

But I'm afraid when I wake up in the morning I'll be all alone again.

Just like now.

It's 10.55pm and I'm still up

It's already 10.55pm and it's amazing how these days I'm not not asleep by 11pm considering I would have gone to bed by 10pm as long as i can ever remember. And I'm not even going to sleep soon. Not 11.01pm not 11.02 pm.. ok maybe 11.03pm

U know what. I've got a resume and my career plan and my cat project and my business law assignments to rush by this Friday and for the first time in my life i really feel that work load at SMU can get more heavy than my JC days (not like RJ had much work to do also).. And what doesn't help is that theres this stupid lizard staring right at me on my wall right now and its ugly. I hate ugly lizards. But then again, all lizards are ugly.

I still haven't finished my resume and my career plan and my cat project and my business law assignment but its already 11.03pm. Time for bed.