hit me baby one more time!!

hi! i just bought medicated plaster or famously known as koyok for the first time. my left arm aches badly for almost 4 days! you see, a have a nephew. he is almost 5-month-old now. before my sister(his mother) goes to work, she sends her son to our house. he is adorable. this is like 1st time i'm seriously taking care of a baby. first, when he arrives, i put him to sleep. he usually sleeps for 1 1/2 hours. then, when he wakes up, somebody MUST plays with him OR he will cry. he is very active and he get bored easily. the most important thing about him is, he doesn't want to lay down or sit!! so, SOMEBODY MUST HOLD HIM EVERYTIME HE IS NOT SLEEPING. that means, when i'm baby sitting him, i spend hours standing up while holding him. he is almost 8kg, ya know! during my 1st days i took care of him, my muscles ached, like after exercise when i didn't exercise for a long time. but, day by day, i'm getting used to it. so, i think, i'm getting stronger :)

hold him high and he is very happy


okay, why i'm using koyok now? 4 days ago, he went mengarok, running amok and merengek2, unusual way when he wanted to sleep. he banged his whole body against mine back and forth. i used more energy and power to balance him so that he didn't fall. i usually use left arm to do hard work, like lifting heavy stuff. i use right hand to write..so, after that day, the pain on my left arm doesn't relief a bit..maybe some kind of sprain...i don't know.
so, i learn to be more patient other than changing diapers, playing and bathing a baby. baby sitting is actually fun! plus, he is adorable. my mother and father said, his crying and his torturing-other-people-to-stand-for-hours behavior are exactly like mine when i was a baby. so, my sister and brother-in-law always say, alhamdulillah..he will become a doctor when he grows up!

taking care of a baby is sooo energy consuming and you must have a great stamina! so, this is the 1st time i understand why God makes human sexually reproduced and not asexually like budding in plants..why we must marry before having a baby and why it is not encouraged for grandparents to take care of grandchildren when their children is working..it is all most probably because of STAMINA, i think. we must have at least have 2 persons to take care of a baby, that is a mother and a father to divide physical and psycological works when having a baby. so..i really despise fathers who just got back home from working in the office (hey!they're sitting the whole time in the air-conditioned room!!!) and just straight go in front of the tv watching football and ask his wife "oi!mana air aku?" hey!! his wife takes care of the whole house works and taking care of the baby!! he can at least hold the baby while watching tv!
..and grandparents are old and don't have enough energy to take care of the grandchildren..

that's all for today's hasil bebelan. have a nice day

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hi! how are you? i hope you're doing good :)
hmm...me? i feel a little bit happy. at the same time, emotionally, i feel very tired. it's about my heart. i'm 22 years-old this july and it's the first time that i'm having this feeling.
you see, i have a friend that i love but i don't like. she did many good things to me. that is why i love her. that's why i can't punch her on her face when she hurt my feelings.
i know she can't socialize well. her attitude is unethical (ethic=right or wrong behaviour of a specific culture, society, group or individual), so with and without she realizing her surroundings, she hurts many people feelings. actually, she has a good heart..so..to hate her is impossible for me. she don't know how to control her emotions and her emotions are the extremes. like, she is very very very happy, that shows on every inches in her movements and speech, and those things are annoying to me. like, when she is very happy, she starts to speak cutely like a baby. eventhough i don't like to hear her voice when she is happy, i never said anything to her because i don't want to crush her happiness, which is very rarely happen. she rerely feel happy. she always angry or sad. can you tell me, which mentally healthy human can stand minimum 3 days in a week, a friend with a solemn face, comes in the room with no eye contact and no talking like 'hi!' or whatever and she bangs her stuffs like running amok? well, believe me or not, that mentally healthy person is me. but i have the feeling like she eats, engulf my happiness and daily joy with her dark and unstable aura. she has no normal, in-between feelings( not in a bad mood and not in the good mood either) or what we called biasa-biasa je. takde.
i can stand those amoks but recently, she doesn't even respect me as a human..and she even try to shake my confident. hey, that makes me furious!! so, i start to think, why on earth that i have to stand this person who has an emotion typhoon? she don't even care about what i feel. what she knows only "if something wrong happen to me, i fire my anger and sadness to everyone surrounds me." and another thing, she has a big EGO (can confirm it with everyone who knows her). oh yes, even she knows that she hurts my feeling badly, she never appologized.
so, i'm having this thought to breaking the friendship. but, i cancelled it. i just don't have to see her everyday. i try to forget her but, i can't. she did many, many good things to me. beside her wrong-socializing techniques, she is a good person. so finally, i try to be cool, no yelling, no face- punching, be frank, try not to see her everyday and pray to God to make her understand the world, understand human and understand herself. my parents always say, if people who always sad or angry the whole time, marry is the cure. you know what? i believe this. so, i hope she finds a good husband soon. God bless you. may Allah and a good husband watch your back because i'm out and moving on happily :)