:X

sp life is starting..
studying AGAIN..

sianx..

alone- 10:20 PM

well.

all the emo stuffs shld be over alrdy right..?

looking at ppl's blogs.
looking at ppl's msn nick.
i dont deny e fact tht my mood worsen when i saw those stuffs laa.
when esp some ppl are bragging bout how gd their results are.
i dont blame them laa. its my fault tht i dont do well. right?
if i could just put in a lil more. mayb things will be better huh.
but its kinda i-dont-know-how to say when i see some ppl's in a dilemma whether to choose vj or tj.
its quite insulting for those who dont score well when you see those nicks.
but again. its not their fault. and im glad for them really.

wte. its over and e jae application is over as well.
so i guess i shld try not to think so much right?
for now i just hope we can get into our choices together.
i dont ask for more le really. i hope god can help me this time.
if we are really meant to be together..

i hope to tell the ppl out there who look dwn on poly.
hey you. dont be such a noob. times are different dude.
seriously i dont understand why my friends strongly discourage me to choose poly.
i hope i can do well and prove them wrong.

ihopeiwillnvletgo.

alone- 10:48 AM

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i hope.
i hope i din made e wrong choice..

i know.
i know its hard for you to accept it.
but its not ez for me to either.

if only e ans is not e one im expecting..

happy valentines ppl (:

i pray.

alone- 7:20 PM

:'(

when everyone was jumping with joy.
when everyone was screaming with grins.
when everyone was bz gng arnd to share their happiness with someone else.

im there lost..

wtf? is this my result?! why are they so kns?!
mum keep trying to console me from d other end.
cuz you are sick. and really sick during tht period..

i mean so what?
tht shldnt be an excuse. right?

if im stupid.
i am.

many ppl are headache nw. on whether which gd skools can they choose.

too many choices..

yet me. headache too. but only on whether which courses can i take.

too lil choices..

so irony..

huiyi yousuck.

plx.

just stop crying..

alone- 10:37 PM

:(

i nearly cried today.
in fact. i nearly cried almost everyday.
tht unconfirmed ans somehow just make my tears welled up unknowingly..

tml is the day.
i still can actually remember tht day 161106
i was telling myself. still got long time to results. enjoy first bahx.
now? im gng to face reality again soon.
after tml i must be serious again le..

dreamt tht i got E8 for english.
E8.
the bright RED E8 at e corner of my results slip.
though i dont know why its red laa. but its so BIG.
so big tht i was trying to convince myself tht its fake.
question e cher who gave me e slip continuously. then did i realise tht i cant take up e blow.
e blow of failing my language.
my english.. :(

gng back to work le. orchard OG.
got a bad feeling bout it.
hope its just my hallucination.
everything will go on smoothly one. right..?

i still cant get over tht fear.
those fears..

i still cant overcome them.

caniholdthishandforever?

alone- 8:10 PM

:(

tht uneziness.
tht insecureness.
tht crapness.
its lingering over there..

dont know why.
thts not e ans i somehow expected.
tinge of disappointment again..

you changed away all e locks.

and left me outside alone

crying..

alone- 11:03 PM

010207

im free now. as free as a bird flying in e sky.
no more pressure no more stress.
isnt this what i hope for?

tues 300107 was my last day of work.
cant bear to leave my family there. tears almost came out when i hugged june and e rest of my friends there.
i really appreciate their help and concern for me during those tough periods..
its them who had helped me.

cant bear e tot of it tht im no longer working there.
no more tapping of tangs card everyday. no more serving of customers. no more taking out e package and fold clothes.
not anymore.. :(
getting emo. but really.
this job changed me alot.
what if.. ive nv came to vivo tangs.
what will my life be now?

olvl results predicted to be out nxt fri 0902.
uhoh. 1+wk more only.
scared laa. what if.. :(
give me confidence plx someone!
i need 12! 12 only plx!

btw i saw khang ytd. so long nv see old friend le! :)
wonder if i can still communicate well with e loyalists anot nxt fri when we see each other..
i so miss them.. :(

i hope to shake away tht uneziness..

i dont want an ending.

cuz it shouldnt have an ending.

alone- 10:09 PM

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