ALWAYS

DID YOU RISE THE SUN FOR ME?
OR PAINT A MILLION STARS THAT I MIGHT
KNOW YOUR MAJESTY?
IS YOUR VOICE UPON THE WIND? IS EVERYTHING I'VE KNOWN
MARKED WITH MY MAKER'S FINGERPRINTS?

BREATHE ON ME
LET ME SEE YOUR FACE
EVER I WILL SEEK YOU

'CAUSE ALL YOU ARE
IS ALL I WANT, ALWAYS
DRAW ME CLOSE IN YOUR ARMS
OH GOD, I WANNA BE WITH YOU

CAN I FEEL YOU IN THE RAIN?
ABANDON ALL I AM TO HAVE YOU
CAPTURE ME AGAIN
LET THE EARTH RESOUND WITH PRAISE
CAN YOU HEAR AS ALL CREATION
LIVES TO GLORIFY ONE NAME?

EVER I WILL SEEK YOU...................

Tribute

A Tribute to the Big and Beautiful Queen Latifah

She's so pretty! This just shows that you don't have to be stick-thin to be beautiful.

A Week of Celebration

25th Dec

Thanks to Sue-Anne, Shin and I need not spend Christmas alone.
She invited us to her Christmas family dinner, where we had great food (her mum's medium-rare roast beef and cheesecake are simply heavenly!!!) and had a blast getting to know her cousins and Victor!
Thanks Sue!

26th Dec

Shin and I spent the day rotting in front of the TV/computer watching 3 fantastic movies (which all happen to feature black people!). Not being racist here. I love black people...I mean.. African-Americans!

We watched:
Men of Honour (based on the life of Carl Brashear, US Navy's first African-American amputee and naval diver)















Coach Carter (first time watching it... yah.. I know I'm slow...)





















Beauty Shop (fell in love with the very beautiful Queen Latifah)




















*Christmas pics to be posted later (once I get them from Shin)

More pigging out on Thursday during NUS cell dinner at Su-Lene's place and Saturday for Moo's birthday celebration. =)

Counting down: 3 more days till Moo and sis comes back from KL...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

It's my Lord's birthday!!!

World of Narnia

Enter the World of Narnia

Do drop by the World of Narnia this season to experience the true spirit of Christmas, as depicted in C S Lewis' book.

Go vist Vicky at the Narnia Market! Can do your Christmas shopping there as well. =)

Also check out our very own SJSM dancers performing there!

For more information, check out the World of Narnia website.

Must go okie? =)

Really Random

Really?



What does your handwriting say about YOU?
The results of your analysis say:
You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry. You are a social person who likes to talk and meet others. You are affectionate, passionate, expressive, and future-oriented. You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody! You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.

Amazing Thot

So my handphone fell into the toilet bowl at Por-por's place right... It totally went crazy! My keypad wasn't working... There was no light... And then it shuts down on me!
I couldn't get it to work even when I got home and charge the darn phone. I knocked it so hard on the table, threw it on the floor several times. But it wouldn't even come on.

Then I prayed and charge it a 2nd time.
After an hour....
God revived my handphone!!!! I was so relieved! You know I'm still unemployed right.. so a new handphone is outta the question. And so I desperately needed this phone to be able to last me till I start working and buy myself a swanky new flip phone. =)

He is faithful even in little things like this! =)

More Pictures from Gemas

2 more only lah..

Pretty sun-rays streaming through the window

The 2 rascals.. =) Miss them!

Revivalth ofth meth blogth

Upon popular demand...
By Mr. Kwok Siew Keong.. =)

Am back from Gemas, West Malaysia. That's why I was missing on Sunday. You people missed me, right? =P
Went there with the initial intention of meeting Moo's grandma, visiting his grandpa and savouring the simple life in a small Malaysian town. But the turn of events had brought us there to attend his grandpa's wake. Gong-gong passed away peacefully the morning we were supposed to leave for Gemas.

Spent about 6 days there. Kept Por-por company while they were busy with the preparations. Thank God she's Cantonese! It's the only dialect i speak!
Well, have got some pictures to prevent you readers from getting bored hearing me rant.

On the train to Gemas

With Yen-yi and Desmond

Moo's 8-year-old cousin, Desmond

My adopted 5-year-old daughter, Yen-yi

Desmond has got to be the most active 8-year-old boy I know! He's very enthusiastic, very hyper, yet very sensible when he speaks. And he has beautiful eyes with such long eyelashes! He's so easy-going and was already showing me magic tricks the first day we were there.

Yen-yi has got to be the cutest 5-year-old! Her bright eyes and sweet smile can melt even the hardest heart. Love her because she speaks fluent Cantonese! I've got this thing for kids who can speak Cantonese. I want my children to be just like that! =) Have decided to "adopt" her as my daughter, since I kept mothering her. She just adorable!
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My wish is that Por-por will live strong!

Yet Another Bimbotic Thot

Bimbotic Thot 2

Unemployment has turned my brain into mush...

Aren't those the darling-est things you have ever seen? =) They're Coach iPod pouches. So pretty right?

Now...all I need is an iPod to complete the look. *Hint Hint* =P

Happi Thot

Went to see my 2 darling god-nieces yesterday. They're so adorable!!! Feon's two-and-a-half and she's already asking questions and speaking in complete sentences! Reon is 19-months and she's so smiley!

Pardon my excitement. Heh. I haven't seen them in months! They celebrated Dian's birthday as well (Dian's their domestic helper) and the kids had chocolate cake. Will post the pictures as soon as my big bro emails them to me. =)

Sian Thot

Am supposed to go for an interview this morning but I called them yesterday afternoon to cancel it. It's a Payment Officer position with People's Association at Kallang. This was to be the second interview (the first was at South-West CDC at Jurong). I went there out of obligation because my parents' friend recommended the job to me. But I couldn't stand sitting at my desk all day crunching numbers, making sure the right amounts of money get to the clients on time. Work is suppose to start at 0830 and it's at Kallang. I'll dread going to work since it's not what I want to do. And it's a 2-year contract position, which means I wouldn't be getting all the benefits given to permanent staff for the whole of the 2 years!

Mum isn't very happy about it.

Bimbotic Thot

Bimbotic Thot

Oh my gosh!!!! I have totally found the PERFECT moisturizer!!!

Presenting........
Chanel Precision Hydramax Moisture Boost Fluid It's absolutely phenomenal!! The gel is so fine that it absorbs right into my skin! My skin feels so hydrated, even when I wake up in the morning! Good stuff good stuff!

On a more serious note...
Spoke to Uncle Roy this afternoon regarding the Hum issue. He is so wise, I tell you! He said he had spoken to her about it and told me what he told her. It's amazing how he took the words right out of my mouth! I couldn't have said it better!
I told him that we're going to have to start from square one because things are never going to be the same. Even at Alisa's pot luck party next week, if she's going to get all chummy chummy with me, I'll probably tell her off.

Amazing Grace

Faithful Thots..

DADDY God is indeed faithful! Sunday's worship went well because of His grace! Thank God that He has used the team as vessels for His glory!

He wanted us to spend some time to pray for our unsaved friends and family. That was a powerful time for me personally. I haven't really been praying for my family's salvation and that was a good time to pray and to claim their salvation in His mighty name. Believing in faith! FAITH is the buzzword of the month!

Parents are away on holiday (without me!! hmmph!) in Genting this week. But DADDY is still faithful! I didn't have to have dinner alone this week!

Monday :
Met up with Keegs, who was in town with his girlfriend Ai Ling, and some of the YWAM peeps. Lynn was there, Papa Sam and girlfriend Adeline, Raji, Alisa, Abang Aldo and Siti (the Fijian, not the Malay). Had dinner at Hisatomo, a Japanese restaurant at The Atrium @ Orchard. Had such fun catching up! Ai Ling's such a sweet girl! I told her she's really pretty and she told me she was going to say that I was really pretty, but she was afraid to, lest I thought she's lesbian. Haha. She's really jovial and really likeable! And trigger happy too! =)
They're both doing a business degree in Monash. Keegs majoring in Economics and Finance and Ling's doing Accountancy, and they're going to Melbourne next February.

Tuesday:
Met Keegs, Ling and Alisa for dinner and drinks after. Ai Ling hasn't tried Mos Burger before since they don't have it in Malaysia, so that was what we had for dinner. Haha. The cheesecake there is Amazing (yes! With a capital 'A')!
Drinks was at this Irish pub at Chijmes. Ling was really cute! She turned red and was a little tipsy after 1/2 a Singapore Sling. Hehe.

Wednesday:
Dinner with Saion and then down to Ailing and James' place for Mark Banyard. Good stuff!!
He shared on Romans 5:5 and some other verse that I have forgotten. =P About how God as our Father has LAVISHED His love on us, His children. Wow!
Mark also took time to pray and minister to us individually.

This is what He spoke through Mark:

• Wonderful surprises are to come. But I have to be open to Him. I was just afraid He'll say that! Ailing said to come with faith and I wanted to reply her that I'm really afraid that He'll call me to be sent. Haha. I'm really not ready to be sent as a missionary, although Mon Peng and people from the missons department had been insinuating for a long while now. Sigh.....
• Pray against being a perfectionist. Quit trying to pit my own spirituality with others. I am always thinking that I'm not spiritual enough because of how liitle time I have been spending with God. But I never knew I was a perfectionist! I guess He DOES know me better than I know myself!
• Rivers of living water running in me.

How Deep The Father's Love For Us

How deep the fathers love for us
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give his only son
And make a wretch His treasure
How great the pain of searing loss
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the Chosen One
Bring many son's to glory

Behold the Man upon the cross
My sin upon His shoulder
Ashamed I hear my mocking voice
Call out amoung the scoffers

It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life

I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts no power no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection
Why should I from His reward
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

Bummers United



Amazed Thot

Spotted on Christmas decor at Tangs: "Even wise men seek Jesus"

Curious Thot

Why me?? Why do I always get annoying messages from people I don't know on my tagboard??

It's Finally Over!!

Happi Thots

1) Went beach bumming with Ange on Thursday. Haha.. Had a great time though the sun wasn't out. As usual, we were doing stupid things on the beach - like singing and playing the guitar, taking bo liao pictures, gorging ourselves with fried calamari and garlic bread. =P

2) Worship practice on Friday went really well, even with the two new songs on the list. Hehe.. My poor musicians! But they sounded GOOD!
Arrived at Mandy's 21st birthday celebration, just in time to give her the pressie. We got her a pair of jazz shoes! So exciting! Hung around for about 1/2 hour before we left. Hehe..

3) MME was today and it's finally over!! Hahaha! It's quite amazing that we managed to remember ALL our steps for the tambourine dance. We did great, Wendy, Jen and Jamie! Ange, Peishan, Mandy and Karen, as usual, were fabulous as well!

Milestone: Today's my dance debut! =)

All in all, MME was really great - God songs, God stories, dances. making our commitment to God to use our gifts in the Creative Arts.

4) Started learning street jazz in class this morning as well. Very technical. We danced to Destiny's Child's Lose My Breath. Fun fun fun!

I'm happi! =)

Thanksgiving

Happi Thot

Daddy's been discharged today!!! Praise the Lord! His blood platelets count has gone up to 94 and he was allowed to be discharged. Went to the hospital after lunch to see him with Shin and her parents but found the bed empty. Found out from his roomies that he was discharged. So why wasn't I informed? Reason given in next post. *Sigh*

Went home after shopping for dance costume for Saturday's MME expecting to spend time with Daddy and Mummy. But I came back to an empty house. My very gui lan (translated: stubborn) father decided to go play petanque! He said he had to go out rather being "locked up" in hospital for the past 2 days. So smart.

THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR PRAYERS AND SUPPORT!!!! Really really.

Careless Thot

I lost my handphone this morning. At Clementi. MacDonald's. Stone table outside.
Sigh... Feel so lost now. Had my line suspended. Gonna go get a new SIM and a $0 phone tomorrow. Need to get ALL your contacts again. Sigh...
Praying for a miracle.. =P

Worried Thot

Worried Thot

Daddy was admitted to NUH last night coz of suspected dengue. He was having fever on and off for the past week and when he cut his finger and the wound refused to stop bleeding, he knew he had dengue.

So... Under his doc's recommendation, we waited for 5 hours at A & E before we was warded for suspected dengue.

He looks pale today, though he hasn't been feverish for the past 2 days. But his blood platelets level is still really low - 64 (the normal blood count for an average person should be 150... I think.. Wendy! Help me with this!). So he's still under observation.
Being a good boy, Daddy has been drinking lots of water and eating lots of fruits.

THANKS ALL FOR KEEPING MY FAMILY IN PRAYER!!!
Mummy hasn't been sleeping well either. But the battle is not lost! Though pessimistic thoughts have been running through my mind, I believe that God is in ultimate control. And I trust that He will not take daddy away since he has yet to know Him.
How apt that we'll be starting a sermon series on faith! =)

Please do continue to keep my parents in prayer. That this will be the time when they'll see His glory and His grace revealed!

Scary Thots

We started doing soul in dance class on Saturday. Will be doing it for next week as well. We were doing jazz for the last 2 weeks. Wah.. Damn tough ah..
Realized that I really don't have the aptitude to do dance. R.E.S.P.E.C.T. to all dancers man! It's really hard work! Getting the tempo is one thing. Remembering the steps is another. And then there are stuff like control and isolation. Wah.. Damn tough man...
Hats off to Ange, Mandy, Karen and Peishan!! Really!

Had our first practice for tambourine dance on Sunday. Maggie, Mandy's friend, came down to teach us the basic steps for tambourine dance. Exciting! So far so good lah. I can catch it faster than I can with Yutaki's class. Heh..
Will be doing the dance with Wendy, Jamie, and hopefully Zac and Jen, for Music Ministry Encounter (MME) 2005. =)

Oh oh! I found out that Yutaki actually did a cameo on Light Years (some local teenage series on poly life) as a Japanese exchange student. Okie.. Random information..

Greedy Thot

Met Wendy, Peishan, Ange, Mandy and Zac later on Sunday evening for ChiJazz. It's this annual jazz festival at Chjmes. Had loads of food! Can you imagine? They splurged $102 on food just for the 6 of us! We had roast chicken, salad, ice-cream, yoghurt, grapes, 12-inch Subways. Not forgetting out Barcadi Breezers. Yum Yum~~ *rubs BIG tummy*

Music was ok. Got pretty bad towards the end. There was this lady in a lil pink dress with a weird name, who was screaming the head off on stage and flirting with the musicians.
Beverly something from the Singapore Idol fame (remember her? The crying one lah..) also did a few songs with a local band, which had a constipated vocalist. She was really good! Take it from someone who don't like her very much on SI .. =)

Good company, good food, so-so music, stuffing ice in each other's shirts, being "blessed" by Peishan's grape stalks dipped in ice-water... =P

Ange!! I want the pictures!! =P

W-O-L-S Thot

Am ploughing my way through The Da-Vinci Code. Yah lah.. very slow, I know.. Heh.. and I'm barely half-way there.
But it had been interesting. =) Am now at the part where they explain the secret behind Mona Lisa's smile. Apparently, she's supposed to be androgynous. Amon is the Egyptian god of fertility and Isis (L'ISA) is his female counterpart.

AMON L'ISA
Hence the name, Mona Lisa. Interesting right? =)
Truth or hoax.. Got to go find out more.

Festive Thot

HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!

Enjoy the rest, you working and studying peeps! =)

Wierd Wine

"Da Bu Si" Wine

Some strange potion from my parents' friends..

So many things to say.. So le-che to type..

Urgent Thot

I have to get this off my chest. Never thought I'd sound like one of the loonies on TV.. but I have to say it...
THE END IS NEAR!!
The tsunami, Hurricane Katrina, Hurricane Wilma (who came up with these names anyway??), the earthquakes - these are only the beginning of the birth pains. These are not merely opportunities for us to be a blessing to the disaster-hit places. These are also opportunities to share the Gospel to them. Thousands of people are dying each and every day without the knowledge of Jesus' saving grace. Now, with all these calamities, we would have to expedite our process of evangelism. Some may attribute this to the monsoon or platonic movements, but we can't deny the fact that the fulfilment of biblical prophesies is happening right before our eyes.

"Turn to me and be saved,
all you ends of the earth;
for I am God, and there is no other."
Isaiah 45:22 (NIV)

Random Thot

Rosa Parks, the mother of civil rights, passed away at the age of 92 yesterday. She was, and I believe she'll always be, an inspiration to the black community in America - to stand up for their rights as a citizen in the Land of the Free.
There was even a movie made about her. That was actually the first time I've heard of this amazing lady. She was the bold seamstress who refused to give up her seat on the bus in 1955, when the buses were separated into 2 sections - the front part for white passangers only, and the back portion for black passengers only. She was jailed and fined US$14. Rev. Martin Luther King Jr followed in her footsteps by campaigning for civil rights for the African-American community.

For more information on Rosa Parks, you can check out this article.

Annoying Thot

The Hum saga continues..

*In Da Club ringtone ringing (for lack of a better word.. what else can a ringtone be doing??)*

Me: Hello?

Her: Hi June. This is jo-ann, P****'s sister.

Me: Yes?

Her: My sister hasn't been herself these days. This has nothing to do with her ok. Sorry ah, I want to say some things to you which may sound very harsh.
(What the nerve!)
Her: What's this about calling my sister a flirt and forwarding the emails to your friends?

Me: Jo-ann, in the first place, this is between the two of us, so I advise you to keep out. Secondly, I forwarded the emails to Alisa and Saion because they are our friends whom your sister has gone complaining to, and Roy's our leader.

Her: Ok. I'm very defensive of my sister and there are things I want to say to you that are very harsh. I read her diary and found out about some stuff....

Me: Jo-ann, I'm actually very busy right now (ya.. busy talking to Moo.. =P) and let me tell you one more time. It's between the two of us, so keep out of this.

Her: Ok. See you.

Me: Bye.

*Click. Too.....Too.....*

Nothing better to do after PSLE is it?

Dear Jo-ann,

There are things that you're too young to understand. Things that happened in school that you don't have to know in order not to tarnish your good impression of your sister. And it's rude to be reading her diary. Your sister shouldn't be leaving her diary lying around if she doesn't want anyone to read it (unless she does...since she craves the attention). I understandthat you're being protective over your sister. I like you too much to get you involved.

-June-

Sending the email to Hum had been the most liberating thing I have ever done. My close friends can tell you that they've never ever seen me so pissed off before. I'm also never one to say such stinging things to anyone in their face. I've have been pushed beyond my patience limit this time. It's my fault for taking so long to tell her off.
Volcano June has exploded.
Am still contemplating whether I should post the emails here.... *evil wink*

Relieved Thot

Watching "The Golden Girls" makes me thankful that this Hum thingy is not childish at all. I mean, they're like a 100, and the problems thay deal with sound like mine alright.. =P

Myanmar Memories

Pork curry and Google Talk.

The link? Myanmar!

Had pork curry for dinner just now. Guess everyone's afraid of catching the bird-flu and avoid chicken altogether. Brought back memories of the time spent in Yangon. =) The pork curry, not the bird-flu.

Made a date with Terence last week to talk to him online today. It's was great! Shared with him about the Hum saga. Said she emailed him to ask him to get in touch with Meju. Asked me whether I knew she still misses him. I have no idea why when she said she's being very careful around guys at this point in her life!

Anyway, happi thots, happi thots. It was great to talk to Terry after such a long time! The last time I saw him was in Yangon about 9 months ago. It's so refreshing! He's like, what, 22? And he's such a man of faith! He's just so encouraging and faithful! And so willing to serve! He always remembers to keep me in prayer. Such a sweet boy!
Miss those guys back in Yangon so much! Terry... Joey... Bhai... Veron...George... Cindy... Naw... Meju... Thar Ji...

Well, looking forward to see him online tomorrow... =)

Ghurka Embellished Hair-Calf Hobo

I simply love the ethnic detail - so intricate... so exotic.. =) And it's huge! Can bring my whole house wherever I go! Nice nice!
This baby comes with a price though - US$1300! Don't play play..

Bittersweet Symphony

Bittersweet Thots

Yesterday's junior cluster barbecue was fun! Loads of marshmallows and people-dunking after that. Heh.. It's tradition! =)
Jimmy put up a strong fight - a full 5 minutes of struggling before Kwang How and gang managed to drag him to the pool. =P

Today's service was...different..=) Leaders were asked to go to the front to be prayed for by the youths whom we're serving anhd then the leaders can pray for those who rededicated themselves to serve the community. It was a touching time of prayer when my cell kids came up to pray for me. I didn't expect it though, since I haven't been the best cell leader. It felt really good. =) Though I couldn't really hear what Debbie was praying. =P Moses and gang were a bit taken aback when they saw me all teary. Haha. Then I prayed for the cell to grow spiritually and to learn to love one another in His love. Julia teared. And it was the first time I actually felt that the cell has started bonding.. 10 months of hard work hasn't gone down the drain after all. =) Thank God for his grace!


Monkey Clan

Later in the afternoon... I was kinda disappointed at the outcome coz I really felt that he's capable of doing better. But I just want him to be happy. Wanted to give him a big hug. He seemed indifferent. I will try my very best to cheer him up (I'm really bad at this).

Re: The Clarification

Hum's reply to "The Clarification"

She completely denied sending all the Web SMSes, making me sound like a hallucinating lunatic! If Alisa wasn't present when she was SMSing me one day, she would have thought that I was making everything up as well!

Hum's status - "Accused-turned-Victim"

June's status - "Victim-turned-Accused"

She sounded so innocent and remorseful in her reply! She almost made me sound like a bitch sending her such a harsh email! I've never verbalized my unhappiness in such a blunt way before. I didn't even bother to mince my words or try to sound diplomatic coz I've had enough of her nonsense.

I know I have to learn to forgive. But I'm afraid of being used by her again. I guess it'll take time and I don't even know whether things will go back to what it was before.

Oh man! i'm 25 for goodness sake! This thing sounds so juvenile!!

DAD, please take over! Help me learn how to forgive and be gracious, just like how You're gracious and merciful. Please give me wisdom in my future interactions with her. Give her wisdom so that she will know what to do in her relationships with guys. I pray for more friends (other than me) to come alongside her to help her with her struggles in this area. I pray for patience for myself. Help me to love her with Your love.
In Your most precious and mighty Name I pray, AMEN!

Relieved Thot

I finally sent "The Clarification" to Miss Hum Li. 8 points on why I'm unhappy with her.

Happi Thot

Yesterday's surprise birthday dinner for Ailing was really good! It was held at Hu Cui Shanghainese Restaurant at Taka. Almost everyone was there - Clem, Jim, Thammy, Andrea (who organized it. Thanks gal!), Jen, Pris, Stephan, Dudley, Cecilia, Michael, James and our birthday girl, Ailing. =)
Good food, great ambience, excellent company and a faithful and inspiring youth leader and pastoral worker turning 3-0. I thought it was great that we all got to mingle and talk and laugh eventhough there were 13 of us. Am really excited to see the progress in Pris' and Stephan's wedding preparations. They've got the most adorable wedding invitations!

Glad that you had fun, Ailing! God is generous with his blessings, isn't He? =)

Thammy has nicely uploaded the pictures here, so please do check them out. =)

*Burp* Thot

The week of feasting.....

Wednesday: Mos Burger with Tracy and Vic when we met for Tracy's follow-up.

Thursday: Ailing's Shanghainese birthday dinner at Hu Cui.

Friday: Grandma's birthday dinner at Shin Yee's place, complete with chilli crab and brownies, and a chocolate birthday cake!

Saturday: Junior Cluster 2's post-exam BBQ at Huan Yang's place.
(Disappointed that most of my cell monkeys won't be there tomorrow coz of various reasons.. Sigh..)

Sunday: Usual pig-out session at cousin's place. Highlight - Ben & Jerry's ice-cream!

My only consolation: 1 hour of dance tomorrow..

God, I can be such a bitch....

Annoying thot

SMS from Hum to Alisa:

"June is really not talking to me. Can you help me?"

Please lah! Stop annoying our friends! Unlike you, they have work to do!

Happi thots

Went tanning with Ange this morning/afternoon after interview with Standard Chartered bank. =) Yeah! But there was hardly any sun and it started pouring.. Thought long and hard about where our next destination will be. Ended up at... *drum roll*... NUS! So happening hor.. =P Met my dear cousin for coffee at Spinelli's at the new University hall.. Yum! Pretty nice place.. =) We had to resist the urge to go shopping at the bazaar.. heh...

Our concoction of lotions and potions - secret to a great tan!

Beach babes and a great sea view =)

3 of us in the car

More ranting....

Recent SMS from Hum:

"Hey june. I'm trying my best to restore our friendship. I really am confused of why you're not happy with me. Please call me back. I need a clarification."

I shall title my email to her "The Clarification". =)

Ranting.....

I was running and listening to the radio just now when I was stopped by a middle-aged woman at the bus stop. She spoke in Mandarin and asked whether I was staying around here. And then..... she asked whether I want to lose weight and started to take something out of her bag.. I said no and continue my run..
What the...??!!

And what's with all these programs getting people to lose weight? Mediacorp has been coming up with programs sponsored by Jean Yip, Expressions, Mary Chia and what not, that invites real women to show the whole of
Singapore their cellulite and thunder thighs, and go through the whole exercise regime, dieting and fat-busting treatments at the beauty salons. Then, they had Project Slim ( which I went auditioning for.. so sue me.. =P) and Villa Wellness. Now, there's this program on Channel News Asia called Obesity Olympics featuring obese families going through hell to lose weight, so that they can... get this.. run a mile-long race or some crap like that at some sports event in the US.
HUH?? Why??

Congratulations!!!!!!

Photo taken with THE next Super Host! Congrats bro! He went for the audition today and he got into the semi-finals!! Yeah!!

I was already day-dreaming during sermon just now.. How they'll announce that Moo is the Grand Finals winner.. how he'll react and how his fans and family will react... and how he'll be holding a huge bouquet of flowers.. and how he'll be so overjoyed that he'll be speechless.. hahaha..

I screamed so loudly when he told me the good news when I called him after dance class today! Seems like the people around him are more excited about it than he is.. heh..

On the downside, he'll have lesser time for me once he's more involved in the competition when he gets to the finals (fingers crossed! =)).. Sigh.. no more morning, mid-day and late night phone calls..

Don't you dare forget me when you get famous ok? Or else... =P

Found this on nap's blog..
Alright..I'm bored, can...

7 things that scare me:
1. losing my loved ones..
2. having no friends.. =P
3. war
4. RATS!
5. the supernatural..
6. not being able to get married and have 2.5 Eurasian kids...
7. conflicts

7 things that I like most:
1. butterfly motifs and flowers
2. pampering (massages, pedicures, manicures...)
3. denim
4. glitter, sequins, beads, crystals
5. books
6. bags! (Lotsa them!)
7. babies

7 important things in my room:
1. computer
2. phone
3. bed
4. wardrobe
5. air-con!!!!
6. photos
7. mirrors

7 random facts about me:
1. I have 5 god-brothers - David, Yixian, Yixiang (they're actually my cousins who became my god-brothers...it's complicated..) Deon and Daniel (they're my friends who adopted me as their sister.. Whom I'm actually closer to.. =))
2. I am too lazy to own a pet
3. I'm big-boned (or I chose to believe so..)
4. I was band major of my secondary school band eons ago
5. I have never gotten drunk
6. I have 7 piercings
7. I had my right molar extracted

7 things I plan to do before I die:
1. get married (to a filthy rich guy who happens to be really cute and Godly) and have many many kids
2. own a house, a black BMW and be a VIP at all up-scale boutiques
3. travel round the world
4. lose 30kg
5. help families in poverty-stricken countries
6. learn as many languages as I can
7. buy a huge house for my parents with a garden for mummy and a backyard for daddy's birds and fishes, and 2 maids so that mummy doesn't need to clean the place
(8. To watch the All Blacks play in NZ)

7 things I can do:
1. sing
2. play the euphonium
3. play touch rugby
4. be an Ah Lian
5. annoy the hell outta my mummy
6. spend money in a flash
7. burp really loudly (sometimes in people's ears)

7 things I can't do:
1. eat alone in a public place
2. play a guitar (coz I'm darn too vain to cut my nails)
3. drive legally
4. splits
5. draw/sketch/design (I'm a 'words' person)
6. become a vegan (I love my meat too much!)
7. do up my blog (HTML and me are NOT friends..)

7 things I say the most: (vulgarities counted or not ah?)
1. harlow
2. idiot
3. go and die lah
4. take care
5. byez/lolox/muackz/hugz
6. wah lao
7. annoying

Can I whine???

Can I whine? Of coz I can! It's my blog!

Today didn't start very well...
First, I got an SMS from Hum's sister.. lil P. 6 sister, mind you.. Says "hi june! jo-****, hum's sis, here.. im aware of the barrier betwen the two of you okay.. but my sis did NOT tell me about it.. she just seemed so down and all.. and i found out la.. but, care to tell me what happened?"
What the heck is she trying to do??? Accused-turned-victim is it?

Never mind.. So I got ready to go for dance class.. Left the house at 10.30.. then it started raining really heavily so I decided to cab it.. 45 mins and many many many swear words later, there was still no cab and so I didn't turn up for dance today.. Sigh....
[Thanks Moo, for bearing with my cursing and whining.. =P]

Plus.. my mudder is in 1 of her crazy moods again...

But dinner with the NUS cell was great though! Nice nice food at this seafood restaurant near Sunset Way... Nice nice cake later at Jelita's O'Brien's.. =) Happie happie!

I feel totally inadequate to lead people into worship or to lead a cell.
My own life is so messed up man! I've got unforgiveness in heart... with Hum, with my mum... I totally haven't been a good testimony to my family and friends...
I suck! I'm really not worthy to worship the Holy God... nor am I worthy to be a youth leader.. less I bring them astray..
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Trigger Happie Part II

Jud's Birthday Dinner @ Couduroy & Finch 02/10/2005


The birthday gal!


Group pic


Lil & Jud


Me & Priscilla


The SJSM gals

Trigger Happie... =)

Reunion with Eny & Moo


Cheeky pic


Yum-cha at Crystal Jade


Fave couple pic


Doesn't Eny look sweet? =)


The gals!

My good friend's mum just passed away yesterday morning. She was supposed to undergo blood dialysis and she just had a change of anti-biotics for her infection (she was a kidney patient). But I guess Dad couldn't bear to see her suffer anymore, so He decided to take her back home. She passed on peacefully at the age of 53.

Was at her wake just now. One could never truly understand the feeling of losing a mother... at least I couldn't. I can only imagine the pain of seeing your mother suffer for the past 20 years, having to send her to a nursing home not because you want to but because you were unable to take care of her due to your need to work, having no time to visit your mum because you're working so hard so that she can have a better life, having to make trips to and from the hospital and the nursing home, having to worry about soaring hospital bills, having to see your mother waste away in her last days.... One can only imagine...

Alisa, you have always been so strong.. You never faltered and only fixed your eyes on Jesus.. Your mum's demise was unexpected but Dad's timing is always perfect. We can rejoice because she is in eternal bliss with our Father. She will never have to suffer.
Be strong! I'll be here for you...

So Funky!

I went for my first dance class ever! Actually no... I did ballet for some kindergarten celebration thingy (don't laugh!! Ok.. So I look ridiculous in a pink tu-tu.. Round and pink.. Sound like something you know? =P)

So anyway, I went for a hip-hop dance class at St. James' Church with Amanda, Karen, Angie and Wendy.. =) They all could dance and I like the only beginner amongst the experts! Cept for 1 "auntie", I am the other clueless one in class.

Teacher's this guy called Yutaki.. Reminds me of Moo though.. Don't know why.. heh..
He looks just like a dancer (duh!), posture and all. He made us do 30 minutes of warming-up. I was perspiring like a pig 10 minutes into the warm-up already! There is this difficult stunt that I couldn't do coz my calf muscles are too hard.. Sigh.. So embarrassing! The choreo part was fun though. =)

My tummy and my arms and my legs are aching from all that exercise today!! Good stuff! Looking forward to next week's class!
More power! =) Yo yo yo..

Intriguing and disturbing at the same time. Made me wanna go online to find out more about Marquis de Sade.

It's kinda scary how de Sade's writing distracted a priest's plan to save his soul. I mean, I understand de Sade's desire to go against societal norms and religious principles. Scary, isn't it? I actually find his writings really fascinating - how he writes about the pain of love and the love for pain.

This is a play that discusses the role of the artist, and the right to create no matter what the circumstances. It has a magnetic appeal that keeps the audience captivated throughout the play. Even after I came out of the theatre, I was lost for words. I was so intrigued by the whole presenation of the play - the mise-en-scene, the sound, the lighting, the blocking, the costumes, the script... It was great!

It somehow made me think about how the deil can make us fall (there was a scene that protrays the priest succumbing to lust with the devil disguised as the Marquis delighting in his fall) and how we should always draw strength from God because we can't do it with our own strength. Also what I would do if I was in the priest's position - he had tried to talk the Marquis into turning back to God, taking away his writing instruments (his quills, paper, bedsheets, curtains, clothes), killing him ultimately when he took away his creativity (his brain)..

It's a thinking play.. Am still thinking about it after a week and a half...

4/5 stars.. =)

*Ain't very coherent..wrting this at 2.30 in the morning.. but can;t sleep.. what to do? =)

Yet Another Strange Song...

Heard this on Perfect 10 just now.. Wierd....

Watching Punk'd on MTV with Ashton Kutcher
Reminded me of my handsome uncle working at the butcher
He's oh-so slim and trim
The man is not a glutton
But he can't find a wife because he smells like muttonMutton...(X6)
Smells like mutton...

He's lonely and confused
He has an empty heart
He's suave and he's hygenic
He never popped a fart
In his life...In his life...

Everyday he wishes all the girls would touch his button
He tries so hard to talk to them
It even led a slutton
Mutton...(X6)
Led a slutton...

He tries so hard to change his ways
14 times a day he bathes
But no matter how long he keeps on scrubbing
The man would always smells, smells likeMutton...(X6)
Smells like mutton...

One day he met a girl
She said her name was Keith
Her hair was gold, her breasts were big with shiny perfect teeth
She loved the smell of all raw meat like fish and pork and beef
But this girl will be his downfall
His one and only grief

His one true love
This nice female
Escaped just now
From Punggol Jail
This woman he sawAs his wife
Was brandishing a kitchen knife
Brandishing a kitchen knife(oh...)

She jumped right up and my uncle fled
From all the gaping wounds he bleed
He passed away through loss of blood
Because of all the cuttings

And this ends, a tragic tale

Of Uncle Mutton
Of Uncle Mutton
Of Uncle Mutton
Of Uncle Mutton...

I - AM - A - LOSER

So I decided to go down to Tracy's place to tan right.. Didn't get to do it yesterday coz of the pouring rain..

I had planned to tan for 2 hours but I couldn't stand the heat and so I only spent an hour tanning. When I get up from the chair, I felt woozy and nauseous. I struggled to put on my clothes and went to the vending machine to get a drink. Didn't have any coins cept for a dollar coin so get a Coke instead of good ol' mineral water. Big mistake!

I was seeing patches of light and my walk was unsteady as I tried to walk to the ladies room to puke. I felt like vomiting, my stomach was queasy and my head was spinning. I slumped on the beach and slept for a while.

I HAD A HEAT STROKE WHILE TRYING TO TAN! HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF A BIGGER LOSER?

Wah lao! I felt like such a loser! Sun-bathing's supposed to be a relaxing activity and I still managed to get a heat stroke nua-ing in the sun!
The last time I remembered having a heat stroke was in secondary school, after hours of marching in the sun when I was in the school band. Sigh..

Who would have thought?

Web SMS monologue...

*Beep beep*

Incoming: Hi june.. can u call me now? [Reply to *****?]
(Switches phone to silent non-vibrating mode and goes back to dreamland)

Incoming: I'm feeling very sad [Reply to *****?]

Incoming: I feel tt god dsn't love me [Reply to *****?]
(What did you do this time?)

Incoming: I have been cheated of my feelings and everything! [Reply to *****?]
(Finally!)

Incoming: hey... still no response [Reply to *****?]

Incoming: hah... bluff you one lah [Reply to *****?]
(Funny ah, gal?)

Incoming: just want to say hi... wait for me to come back oh [Reply to *****?]
(Not looking forward!)

Incoming: itz be a suprize [Reply to *****?]
(It's s-u-r-p-r-i-s-e lah goon!)

Incomimg: bye.......:))))))))) [Reply to *****?]

Incoming: StarHub Msg:***** has ended the WebSMS session with you blah blah blah...

*9 messages received*
Outgoing:

************************************************************************************
Dear Hum,

What does it take for you to get it in your dense skull that your SMSes and calls are not welcomed?

It irks me that you can't say all you want in as few SMSes as possible. StarHub does give you a limit of 147 characters per SMS you know.
It irks me that you are like a leech that only falls off after it has its fill.
It irks me that you persisted in calling me today eventhough I didn't want to answer your calls (I was expecting Jasmin to call and was rudely shocked to hear your voice. I didn't answer your calls subsequently. You remind me of Tun Tun! He, too, kept calling and calling eventhough I didn't respond. Don't you get it?)
It irks me that i may be the only one that you're irking!

Irked,
June

My Wishlist...

Dior's Trotter Romantique collection.. Pretty pretty! =)

Spoke to Jas for 2 hours today! Miss her so much!! Am so glad to hear her voice and do some catching up! I guess we needed to talk to each other because we have been going through some rough times recently. It's really amazing how we can be miles apart and still sense that something was wrong and just be there for each other. =)

She'll be back in Dec or Jan! Can't wait!!

BTW,

Dear Hum,
I am really not looking forward to your return. And I think your plan to surprise everyone is totally ridiculous! It's only for your own benefit! You just want to see the surprised faces of people and see how much you're missed and all! The truth is - you're not!

Whatever gave you the idea that everyone back here is looking forward to you coming back to Singapore? Obviously nothing has changed. The course has not transformed you at all. You still sound schizo to me. Your emails rant about how God has touched you and how much you want to follow Him, while your SMSs to me revolve around one subject - guys.

You mean all you can talk to me about is how many guys like you and how they come in all shapes and sizes? How you want to introduce them to me coz you don't click, or coz they don't have a sense of humour, or coz they are fat and funny, like me?
Get a life, gal! Seriously!

Stop living in your own bubble! Stop thinking that everything revolves around you! It freaking doesn't, alright!

Frustrated,
June

To my many many friends who are moulding the future of the nation:

HAPPIE TEACHERS' DAY!!!!!!

All is peaceful at home now.. almost...

Have decided to "be a (wo)man, do the right thing" after worship prac last Fri and greeted mum when I got home.. I have relented! Sigh...

Was woken up this morning at 9 by the beeping coming from my mobile.. read the message from an unfamiliar number: "Hey june, hope u received my email rdg the interview tdy at 1pm? Thks"
Aaahhh!!! What interview?? I've been so busy with H.U.M that I've forgotten to check my emails... turned out that the message was from Evelyn, GM of Intergrity Media Singapore.. I went down for the 1st interview abt a week ago for the Sales and Admin Asst position..
Requested to meet her tomorrow instead.. it'll be too convenient anyway to get from Kallang to Dover and am meeting Ling at 3pm to prep for the LAST night of H.U.M.. Yeah!

On a totally random note:
I MISS JASMIN!!!!!!!!!!!!

I do.. I really do.. I miss my best friend, who's all the way in Auckland, NZ..
I have a sudden urge to go see her and give her a BIG hug and talk to her and be there for her and go for coffees with her....
We only get to talk twice a year.. on her birthday and on mine.. heh.. reason being we both can't afford to spend too much time on the phone (expensive you know.. especially on her side..)... and we're both busy with our own stuff (she's definitely busier than me.. =P From her uni days till now.. even more so since she just started work..)

I think I'm gonna call her tomorrow.. =)

5 weeks of teaching English at SFMS doesn't warrant an interest in relief teaching.. =P

Local kids are just really bratty compared to foreign ones.. although my Taiwanese kids drove me up the wall (one of which got called f***ing a****** by moi..haha..)
My Jap and Korean students were really good though.. I especially enjoyed my time with the Korean kids.. they're so cute!!

Honestly, I'm scared... I totally freak out at the thought of teaching local secondary school kids.. I'm insecure.. really insecure..
Pressure's on.. =)

Have been jogging and climbing stairs.. all in the name of weight-loss.. hehe..
(no choice..got a pair of SAF NBs.. so muz use lor...)

A self-confessed hard-core non-believer of solo-cising has found jogging and brisk-walking to be extremely therapeutic..and a great way 2 release tension and stress..
Believe me.. people DO get stressed even if they're gainfully unemployed..

Have also fallen terribly sick..stuffy nose and all.. after 4 whole days of exercise! Just when I decide to get my butt off the couch and do something meaningful in my life.. this happens! Do you know how many hurdles I have to cross? Things like what other people might think seeing a fat girl jogging past them (the tremors felt by many might be coming from Bukit Batok and not Nias..), stares from wierd Bangla workers.. Uninvited guests following me back home.. (it is the 7th month, you know..)
Isn't exercise supposed to strengthen one's immune system or crap like that???

Anyway, mummy dearest hasn't been very encouraging..
Not that she doesn't know that I've been trying to lose weight and have been working out.. she's (un)intentionally been harping on how fat I am and how much weight I've gained recently..
And how I should lose some weight, less I look like a married woman..
Also she's been reminding me about how I would be a mother of a child at my age if I'm lucky.. just 'cause she became a mother at 23..

In order to make a statement, I went on a hunger strike.. for a day..
I simply refuse to eat anything she has cooked or bought..
Childish? I know.. I guess pride has gotten the best of me.. and having inherited my stubborness from you-know-who.. let's see how far we can go..

I felt trapped in my own house! I had to get out! I so want to move out but since I'm not working, it's out of the question..
It felt so good to be out of the house today!
Alas, I succumbed to temptation at Shin's place... Forgot all about the statement I was trying to make and ate a big bowl of laksa..amongst other edibles... that have been painstakingly prepared by my 3rd aunt and the maid to please the guests' palates.. Sigh... TOTAL GUILT!

I haven't been the most emotionally stable person these past few months...
My mum's driving me mad! Or maybe it's just me.. stressing myself.. about the job... about my weight... about how almost everyone I know is engaged or married..
I think I need to see a shrink...

Any volunteers? =)

Boy, was the overnight Church Prayer Meeting great!!!!

It was really gd 2 be able 2 pray 4 our nation, our youths and the different minitries at SJSM! And we made it thru to 6am this morning! =)
[age muz b catching up..the older we get, the lesser sleep we need.. ]

My heart still skips a beat when the subject of prisons ministry is brought up..

The first time I heard this song, I cried buckets!!

Fly Away by Corrine May

"When will you be home?" she asks

As we watch the planes take off

We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead

She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled

As a child, she was my world

And now to let me go, I know she bleeds

And yet she says to me

You can fly so high

Keep your gaze upon the sky I

'll be praying every step along the way

Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart

I love you too much to make you stay

Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and

Silver-painted hair Daddy called one evening saying

"We need you. Please come back"

When I saw her laying in her bed

Fragile as a child

Pale just like an angel taking flight

I held her as I cried

You can fly so high

Keep your gaze upon the sky

I'll be praying every step along the way

Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart

I love you too much to make you stay

Baby fly away ohh...

I love you too much to make you stay

Baby fly away

My grandparents in their prime.. =) Me and grandma...love her to bits!