My Church

I don't think anyone would feel the same way as i do...

But after finding out the real history of our church, i am so like, arghhhh only now i understand why 40 years and youths are SO SIGNIFICANT!

After finding out the real history of church, i am so like, arghhh now i understand why that whole emphasis on joshua crossing the jordan river!

After finding out the real history of our church, i am so like, ahhhh now i now why Ps Tan's message was not just a good message, but it was a God-sent message for OUR CHURCH AS A WHOLE!

COS OUR CHURCH LIFE SERIOUSLY PARALLELS THAT EXPERIENCE, FROM MOSES TO JOSHUA!

Which makes me all teary eyed... cos now after one entire full cycle, i'm part of the bunch that's gonna cross the jordan river and take down the walls of jericho... cos i'm part of a brand new generation... :)

There's a new found respect for all the adults who stayed faithful to this church, there's a new found hope and meaning to what the pastors say when they say we're on the treshold of something new. :) I understand now, i understand now. :)

Saturday Night

Last Saturday night i was stoning like nobody's business. :)

This Saturday night, i'm touched like nobody's business. :)

THANK GUYS, YOU ALL MAKE IT ALL WORTH IT FOR ME. :)

Thanks to everyone in my zone, esp my Project D kids... all of you are amazing guys with such amazing potential! :) I'll pull up my socks and do the best i can to grow all of you! :)

Thanks to all my leaders, who invested in me and believed in me. :) (thanks esp to my coffee buddy whom i still owe coffee too, thanks for teaching me so much))

Thanks to God... :) He's the start, end and everything else in between of it all. :)

My life's more worth than living, my work's more with than just working... cos it's for you all. :)

Dinners, Meetings, Ideas

Yesterday Starbucks was a majorly good time. :)

From then i had many ideas flowing... wow... there's so much to do for this youth group, so much that can be discussed so that we can accomplish our vision. :) I'm so excited. :)

As for the zone, more plans coming up... :) More things happening. :)

I'm in such a dreamy state now i find it a lil insane... but i like it when ideas come, when i start dreaming... :)

This was the question posed to me during dinner yesterday, "where do you see the youth group in 2 years time?"... and it struck me: what i believe for it to be is where it can become at. :)

SAY HI TO DREAMS AND VISIONS. :)

On a random sidenote... hmm... how to find boyfriend liddat ah. Haha. :)

i felt the love of God

So when i imagined Jesus... when i imagined Jesus standing right in front of me, looking into my eyes, stretching out His hands...

I started to hear other ppl laughing... Holy Laughter yoo...

But i started crying. Trust me man, i tried smiling too. But couldnt work. The more He said about the joy of the Lord, the more i cried. When i tried to get a smile onto my face (which i usually do for worship), it didnt worked... i sobbed!

I wasnt sobbing about anything in particular. In fact, today i didnt even care whether crying was weird when others were laughing and he was talking about the joy of the Lord. I knew for sure i was in the presence of God and if He wanted me to cry, i would.

So i sobbed, harder each time Ps Mike Connell mentioned something more about the presence of God flowing.

When he gave the altar for joy of the Lord, i didnt go up. Duh, i was crying for nuts. Hahaha. :) Then Pastor Mark came to me, hugged me and prayed for me while i, well, once again, had another flow of tears rushing out and sobbing.

None of it was sad sobs or sobs over a particular incident or situation. I remmeber clearly thinking that my mind was in a blank! It was sobs of peace, sobs of joy, sobs of i-know-this-is-where-im-meant-to-be. It's was beautiful. :)

Unexpected that i cried? Not really... :) That's the way i usually express God's love flowing into me.. crying... when i feel no sad or negative emotions. :)

I'm very glad. :) Glad that even now, the peace of God is in my heart. :)

THANK YOU LORD. :)

And the finance Word was unexpected, but good... and very happiness. :)

Mike Connell

Nopes once again there wasnt any crazy "manifestations" nor "specific prophecies"... and seriously i dont have to be jealous of that. :)

Because...

God already spoke clearly... i needa speak faith into my own life because God intends for me to be so. I need to believe not just in miracles, but believe that God wants me to have each and every miracle. :) I need to believe not just in a God of abundance, but that God wants me to be abundant.

Yes i cryyyy when i see other people get their breakthrough cos im just so touched and happy for them...

But ultimately i need to believe that even for myself, God wants the best for me as well. :) God loves me, as much as i think and know He loves others. :)

God is so awesome. :)

Him

"Cant live a day without Your presence, closer to You i wanna be"...

How good He has been to me but i've neglected Him...

God, restore, revive, and take the whole of me again.

:)

Official

It's official. :) I have nothing to do now until tomorrow comes. :) For work only lah. :)

Today i was working on a touchscreen tablet pc. It was... shiok. :) Very easy to use yo! :)

But anyways now i'm in a cranky mode cos im rather tired. :)

Saving the words of wisdom for another day when i'm more energetic! :)

MUCH LOVES! :)

Personal prayer

Haha, i wanted to write that i'd better pray for myself every day, and pray for everything else every day. Then i realised, i should just do a solid tabernacle prayer every day then it covers everything, and bible reading should be within tabernacle prayer also lah. :)

Yay i shall extend my QT time... i needa wake up earlier to seek God! :)