The busiest period is always at the end and before we graduate from school. Why do schools like to do such a thing? Just wondering. I mean, if they want to squeeze everything out of us they should at least... spread the kaya evenly on the bread right. Why smack a whole bunch of it in the middle of the bread and fold it into half. Maybe it's just the schools' preference. Fine, I'm not gonna complain about that. Hahahaha. Kaya... So lame!
...but TRUE.
Now where do I start? Yesterday we did a presentation to company CASE, it was the last presentation for this module called Marketing Research. Presentation was alright. After that we got back our test scripts. The one that we sat for in the midst of all that busy period of assignments and projects and other presentations- in other words, deadlines. I guess they're not called DEADlines for a reason.
I've got a 35/60, that's a C grade. To be honest, I was sad, but I thank God for this sadness in me. It was a grade that I foresaw... so it was a sad feeling, but I was okay kinda thing. Am I making any sense? I mean after all, it's like the last semester and everybody wants to do well. (:
I learn to accept such failures and sadness in life- but I think there's a difference in shrugging off failures and in embracing them. Now some of you may wonder; Who in the world embraces failure?
What do you gain if you shrug off failures? And what do I mean when I say shrug off? For example, you may say "Forget about it, it's the past!" Or the Singaporean student version would be "Over already right, so heck care la!"
At this point in time I'd like to pose a question. Jesus said that only those who know Him and believe in Him would be able to enter the gates of Heaven. So if there were an eternity (heaven and hell) after this life, wouldn't that mean that all that you do for your studies, for your work, for yourself- would amount to nothing if Jesus is not known in your life? We miss the point if we look short term (this life time) and not gain access to Heaven (long term). What is the opposite of Heaven? It's eternity in Hell...
I have never thought or even imagined that I would be such a spiritual person, but ever since I accepted Jesus into my life and walked with Him (about 4 years ago), Heaven and Hell became very real to me. I do not want to live my eternity in Hell. I want to be in Heaven, with Jesus, who saved me from my sins. And I want my loved ones to be there with me as well. It is His command that I love my neighbors AND my enemies. The Spiritual world is very real- There are powers that we cannot see with our human eye. People are healed when they are prayed for. Voodoo dolls and black magic.
Therefore, I embrace the C grade and the inevitable failures that I have in my life by putting it at God's feet. God, use them to mould me into Christ's image. In the midst of all this, I know that in Your presence I will find rest. I know I have missed the point when I put my focus on the successes in this life, rather than You Father, who is the only way, the truth and the light.
I thank you, Father, for bringing me through all times; difficult times and failures, and you share my happiness with me too. I love You and there shall be no other relationship that will overwrite Yours and mine.
Proverbs 20:30
Blows and wounds cleanse away evil, and beatings purge the inmost being.
A powerful verse from Fuji indeed.
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