Just Like Tides

It's 2.40a.m in the morning now! Ohio Gosaimasu! Hahaha, i read Xiaxue's blog (http://www.xiaxue.blogspot.com) yesterday and i seriously can't believe it, her totally 110% pinkish princessy room is what i would believe as the apple of a million girls' eye. Hahaha, but the hilarious part was that she actually counted all her clothings and accessories and posted them at the end of her post, apart from her 101 pictures taken of her room. Well... to tell the truth, i was kinda envious after finishing reading her post but oh well, i guess... >.> I should just be myself, ya know? hehe.

I'm beginning to feel the pressure of the world. In other words... feeling that there is seriously too little time and too many things to do. And the scary part is, this is just the beginning. The world is not gonna let me go. The world is not gonna let us go. Oh no, i can't be pessimistic in these kindoaf times. :z no no no.... gogogo! *points out index finger and thumb* ^^'' I know i have greater and more important things with God up above!

Anyway, went to NP this morning to have the compulsory software installed in my new laptop for the course that i'm taking. Hahaha, and the poly graduate who helped me was a gal from NYP. She's so nice and humorous! After going there i actually lost all my regrets of buying a white Macbook. hehehe. ^__^;;; thank God for letting me meet her! She taught me a few things and we explored Mac together... It was about 11.20p.m by then. Still early lah.

Recently i've been really drawn to the beach. I love the way i look when i try to dress beach style. But of course i'm not talking about bikinis and stuff, in case you're mislead, which i think is very much possible, i'm talking about the clothes that makes one look light and relaxed. Very much like.... Roxy style. xD Yeah, i'm very drawn to roxy now, i wonder why. I love the way they design the bags, the flip flops, the tops, although being able to look good in it is altogether another story.... @.@

Anyway, i really am thinking about pulling my mother to shop at roxy with me. Maybe she might understand why i like Roxy. But then again, she might not. Hahaha... but either way, it's fine with me... i'm not supposed to be spending now anyway... not when i'm not even working!

And then later on in the afternoon i received a call from my beloved Lao por! Pizza(her nickname)! hehehe. and we talked on the phone about stuff that u wouldn't wanna know. Heheheheh...... *winks* just kidding lah. She was trying to create a blog for herself, since she lost her last blog's password and doesn't even remember the URL of her last blog.... typical of her. hehehehe. Oops. :x Mm. I forgot to reply her miss call from 7+p.m.... oh no. Aiyah nvm lah... if i call her now, she will.... definitely pick up anyway. xD hahahaha, i so totally love bullying her! Err no wait, cannot make myself sound bad lah... actually, i don't bully, i simply play. :) Okaydokay I'm feeling sleepy now.... *yawnz* Shall ask for her new blog's URL tomorrow... :'}

Ciao ciao!

Blogged @ 3:20 AM

How do i tell this story? I guess i shall just start from her memory. A piece of jigsaw from her past that fits into her uncompleted puzzle. A feeling that she can only miss. A moment that will never come back to her side... And also a time that will be etched in her memory, forever and ever... Until the day she decides to forget.

On her way home from her best friend's house, she was the first to alight the train, and also the last after she crossed the pedestrian's crossing and walked onto the pavement again. What's the need to rush, anyway? She glanced at the time displayed on her white Sony Erricsson phone and let out some air from her lungs. It wasn't a sigh, she was just taking her own sweet time, relaxing and strolling at her own sweet pace while the whole bunch of passengers who had alighted at the same train station with her were a mile ahead. Already.

She loved liberty. Who doesn't? And just walking along the long pavement decorated with trees, the leaves seeming to illuminate the colour orange due to the street lamps which stood up as tall as the trees themselves made her heart pump even faster. At that point of time she had decided that this would be another beautiful memory to be inscribed into her mind. A moment that she doesn't want to forget... She is indeed, someone special.

In fact, everybody is.

A leaf isolated itself from the rest and started its dance toward the ground, twirling and swirling along it's way, just like a fluttering black and orange butterfly. Her eyes followed its trail until it stopped dead on the grass below and then glancing back up, saw a few more leaves detach themselves from its branches and went waltzing with the gentle night breeze. She fastened her grip on her shoulder bag without looking away and set her wide eyed gaze upon a breathtakingly beautiful, perfectly arched luminous ball hung up in the sky, with twinkle twinkle little stars enhancing the otherwise clear, dull sky.
Perfectly arched ball? She giggled to herself. Anyone who noticed her on the street would probably think of her as a stoner or a secretive stoner or otherwise, stoner totally nuts. And for God's sake i'm just kidding.

So the stoner-oops- i mean, she continued to fantasize in her own little world and only got slapped back to earth from XYZ planet when her favourite song suddenly played into the earpieces from her phone's radio. Tonight- by FM Static. It certainly did unlock some memories from her past. When she isn't able to forget, she tries to remember it instead, by doing the opposite, she's actually trying to cope with it. And so far so good. She is strong and everybody who knows her knows.

The time is nearing. Soon, everything would be gone. The peacefulness would be gone, and she's well aware of it.

She was already walking along the corridor by which she has known for 11 years and still counting when the song ended and the 987FM whacky DJs Muttons at Midnight came back to life. "Crazy people" she said to herself, but she secretly adored them as DJs. They are funny muttons, i mean, people. And their lame jokes are definitely in tune with hers. You know, same wave length and same velocity, blah. This is it, she thought to herself. The time is here.

"I'm home." She spoke out almost inaudibly, but her siblings were already rushing to the door and started squeezing and hugging her so tightly that she couldn't even lay a hand on them. She was so captivated that she couldn't even speak. Yeaup, it would all be over. The time is up. Everything would be gone. The peacefulness would be gone, and she's so totally gonna have to live with it...

Blogged @ 1:07 AM

Sometimes you just can't help but wonder about certain things. Will i ever fall head over heels in love with a guy? Even though i would think twice about sharing this on the blog.... i guess i'd just say honestly that i don't think i've ever given any guy my whole heart yet. Hahaha.... maybe it's a good thing you know, anyway, i AM supposed to put my studies as a priority now among other certain things. But it's just that... there're quite a number of people that i know who has already been thru a BGR or is in one now. I've been in one before. Hahahaha, and i'm not sure about how i think about it. There are it's good sides and bad sides anyway. I am someone who guards my heart quite a bit. But sometimes when i like someone, i just can't help myself! =X hahahaha. ^^"

It's been quite a while since i've had a major crush on any boy. or... man. =P Lalalala. heheh. Too long to the extend that i sometimes find it annoying, all the BGR stuff going around me, and btw, there is absolutely nothing wrong with me. >.> I..... hope. hahahahha.... kidding kidding! Anyway, this post is just all about my ponderings and random thoughts. You don't have to take it too seriously if you're reading this okay. Well, i've been enjoying my looooong holiday since my O's last year november! Really long indeed. And time flies. About a month more til poly starts! I better start gearing myself up before it's too late again.... @.@ Hahaha, and you too! If u're a soon to be poly student! ^^ Ciao ciao! Have a nice day ahead. ^^

Blogged @ 1:46 AM

The world is indeed a harsh one. We've been told from the beginning, when we were little kids who pestered our parents to buy us candies, facing them with those little puppy eyes without even trying at all.

If u're reading this blog, u've probably been to work and had a little glimpse of the world. People gossiping and talking about other people behind their backs, u've probably experienced or seen your friends experience heart break, whether it's from friends or from their relationship partners... And you'd probably know that heartbreak is actually all part of life.

I mean, friends come and go, just like the seasons. Are you one who would throw your friends aside once u've found new and more interesting friends? I wonder if what they say is true... that going thru so much trouble and suffering just to find that 1 minute of happiness is worth it. There must be a better way?

Hahaha, but of course, thats quite the pessimistic point of view. I want to be a person who is able to turn every heartbreak into a priceless experience that i've earned in life and put it to good use in the future endeavours. I do not want to be a person who's afraid of setbacks and failures. In fact, take failure and turn it into success! I do believe that that's the process. I want to be a better communicator >__>;;; Hahaha, and to acheive that, boldness is one thing that one must not lack. Ahh.... shit.

I've been juggling between two jobs lately! Hehe. But it isn't that tiring. One of the two jobs is to distribute property flyers. It's about $8+/hr, really good money, obviously. But there's not much experience gained. Well... at least, i've gained SOME experience. hehe. I'm not as afraid to approach strangers as i used to be before. ^^V Yeay!

And the other job is at Escape theme park. I had to face many many children everyday, especially since i'm new there so i only get to work at the kiddy stations.... @___@;; Hahaha, but its not all that bad, well... unless you think that children are a total nuisence. I did bumper boat the first day, haunted house on 2nd day, and on the 3rd day i did red baron. The work there is fun. But i don't think i'll be continuing there... it takes up a total of 1.5hrs just to reach that freaking destination which is alllll the way at Pasir ris! No way am i gonna waste 3hrs of my time travelling in a packed cabin and i don't even get to sit down..... >.>;;; Hahaha, but it's not just that. I wanted to work there just for the experience. So that's why the pay, which is $5/hr, doesn't really matter. The people there are mostly malays (i wonder why?) and they're really fun loving and friendly people. Oh no wait, actually, there are many mixed bloods there. Tamil-Chinese, Malay-Chinese.... Arabians.... Cool!

Well anyway, think i have a new years resolution now! (even tho it's already march i know ^^;) To strive forward and keep up even though it's gonna be competitive at NP's Business Studies course. I will be a stronger person each time i fall, God will always be by my side. I want to be someone who's reliable. Ohmigosh.... there's gonna be a lot to learn and catch up on! Gogogo people! *sticks out tongue and index finger* Shall end my post here for now. Ciao ciao! :}

Blogged @ 2:11 PM