Just Like Tides

I want to be a child. Someone who knows nothing else but the love of his Father. Someone who is helpless and powerless and needs his Father's help all the time. Someone who is afraid of the world and only finds comfort in the arms of His Father. Someone who is proud of his Father and is not ashamed to boast to others about Him.

I'd rather be a child who only takes hold of the things his Father gives him. When I encounter some new knowledge, I'd rather not entertain it in my head. Otherwise, it is my fault for entertaining it, leaving me with many questions about my Father.

Do you understand what I'm saying? Romans 16:19. It is better to not have known if you're going to doubt God. But if you have known, then don't doubt God. It is your responsibility not to.

This is the message i've been waiting for. FIX my eyes upon Jesus. Because the moment i look away, i will begin to sink like Peter did.

Thank you my friend. Praise Him for getting you that job! Hahahaha. Sorry for not being original. I pray that you wouldn't mind. >_<

Blogged @ 1:00 AM

what do we do when we feel all lost and confused? It's... very typical of us teenagers especially. When you're down and out, you try n find something for support. And when u've found it and you finally got lifted outta your problem, you throw the support away. You forget about it. Sigh... if only you hanged on to it. I'm not referring to the general, okay maybe i am, i really dunno.

I don't want to throw my support away. I don't want to throw away all those memories i've had, the encouraging moments, i don't wanna forget about all the graceful n amazing things that u've done for me and my friends, those moments when i was truly elated when you answered me.
But i feel far from you now. I feel like i'm just an empty shell sometimes, no purpose in life, so many things, so many thoughts running thru my mind, it's like i'm losing a bit of perseverance every day. What if, i become an atheist? Someone who don't believe in God? What will become of me? urghh

However

Truth is, i know that i still have enough perseverance to pull me thru every obstacle in life.
i know that the problems are here to develop my perseverance, character, hope.
i know i've always got someone to watch my back.
i know i never want to be afraid of death, but rather, be afraid of the one who can destroy both body and soul, so i must learn how to guard my heart and mind.
Truth is, there is still something that i see in God, even when i don't know what or how or do not feel like praying, something that i really cannot convey thru words within my realm of vocabulary. hehe.
You know, most people(free thinkers) think that christians are weak. Cuz in times of trouble, religious christians will turn to God for help. We don't rely on ourselves, we rely on God. We have faith only in Jesus. Not ourselves. lol. Let me tell you that YOU ARE SO RIGHT! Hahaha. We are weak. Now then, why would we want to continue being a christian? And why in the world am i laughing at myself, when i've clearly stated that i myself am weak???
Well for one reason, and you're probably right, yeaup, that i'm crazy. hehe. Nah juz kidding. I'm not crazy! i'm 100% normal in every way in the mind. :) But seriously, it is God that makes me shine when everyone else is down, it's The Support that made me want to resolve every conflict that i have. I've never known that i could be free in this world, altho sometimes i do have my doubts here n there. HEhe. Yeah i'm a very skeptical person can't blame me now right?

Ooo goodmorning and goodnight for now. heheheHEeehHehe (U_U)
*^HaPPy BirthDay Daryl! ^ ^*^

Blogged @ 2:26 AM

Hahaha, the strange thing is(or so we think), after the last paper today(POA) almost everyone that i know of is going home! Okay, not really strange... but i was just wondering, where'd the holiday mood go? I was expecting people to like celebrate and you know, stuff like that.

Haha... Perhaps they were already in holiday mood one week ago.

I'm not spared from problems too!!!
If a break between friends is what that's needed, then a break will do for now. What can i do if you are not willing to listen? I'm not gonna force you, i'm not gonna try and change your mind anymore, i'm not gonna make you sit and listen to my grandmama story again, because it has proven a negative effect. but i've taken the first step and if you like, you are the one who's gonna continue. I would still take the first step even if the previous 101th time has failed. Unless you don't wanna listen, or if i know that i have got nothing to do with the fault, or unless i'm just doublesuperultra insensitive or lazy. But forgive me if you will bcuz i'm simply not perfect. And forgive me cuz i really don't have the answers to everything other than chance, if you will. This' just some piece of my mind. The rest are really all jumbled up somewhere else.......... @_@;;;;

O LEVELS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!!!! YEHEY! hahahaha. =Pp

Blogged @ 11:33 AM