Just Like Tides

Mm...

You are what you think.

Do you feel that your life is messy? Worthless? Unfair? Then i think it's time to stop feeding negative thoughts to your mind. You know, the more you try to solve it now the more complicated it becomes. Yes no? If yes, then why do you still trouble yourself with it?
We do things not only for ourselves. By improving the people around us we are also improving ourselves. Do you agree?

I believe there's more to it than just "i am here now because i am here". I'm here for a reason for a purpose. You have to find your purpose. Why do you think people believe in a god? or worship idols? Why do you think i believe in my God? Do you think it's not possible that we were created? Or that everything you have or see now is not real? Do you think you're here by accident?
Hahaha. That's why Mrs.Oehlers said she'd rather be ignorant. Knowing too much sometimes can drive you nuts! I believe thinking too much also drives the same effect. lol. @__@;;;

People cheer up. ^ ^ Tell yourself before you sleep that "tomorrow i will wake up better". lol. And you must know it! We all know there's much stress. This is Singapore. With high standards you can't expect no high expectations. Do you think i'm not stressed?

Hehehe. To tell the truth... i'm glad i know a perfect friend. To some who don't know Him, it is difficult. I said SOME. :) Goodnight.

Blogged @ 10:48 PM

C'mon Go Go Go! GO GO GOOOOO! :) Yes i'm telling YOU. go go go gogogogo! *points out index finger and thumb* :x

Don't stop dead in this on going world. It's not like the world will wait for you. Remember, what you're doing now in the present builds up your future. Make each passing present count! When someone says "now", the "now" now becomes "just". It is history. So your present is precious. Make it worthwhile dudes and dudettes. Don't think about it, don't ponder about it for even a sec because it's not gonna help if you are feeling low. Instead, bring it up when you are high. Hehehhee. Don't understand? Nevermind.

Yeah I'm super duper uber crappy tonight. :) Goodnight.

Blogged @ 9:16 PM

Thank You for Your forgiveness and care.
Thank You for bringing me up on my feet again.
Thank You for letting me trust in You, and showing that i can trust in You.
Thank You for letting me know great people today.
Teach me more with each passing day.
Welcome, Holy Spirit!

Blogged @ 9:18 PM

Oo wow i'm feeling so much better. =P Amazing, just what one night can do!
But seriously, yesterday night was really quiet when i peered outta the window into the cloudy sky. On the road there were no cars, no humans on the pathways. No noise. Wanna know why?

Because it's 3.00a.m in the morning.

Lalalalalalalala........ =X

Yay church later on! Woot woot! =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

-Coming from the lips of an Angel's, say my name because it seems so sweet.

Blogged @ 12:16 PM

I don't think i brought much of my mood to school today. I didn't bring my appetite either. I didn't bring half my brains, and i lost my heart. I do not know why it left me. Maybe a breakdown could occur anytime.

Today was not really disappointing. Rather... it was kinda different. My wife didn't come today because she overslept again. I pray that she'd be on time more often. Borrowed a book written by Oswald Chambers from Chesed, i like the book. It has got that thing. Nevermind.

Gastric struck me today! I think it's gastric. Actually i don't really know how it feels like.

Sigh. Weird. I thought i had much to blog about. But i guess u're lucky today! Hehe. My brain just doesn't wanna work now. Goodnight friends. :)

-You are the truth, the joy, the sadness and the confusion. ^*

Blogged @ 1:26 AM

What is it that is still missing?

Blogged @ 6:34 PM

This is my desire to honour You

Lord with all my heart

I worship You

All i have within me,

I give You praise

All that i adore

Is in You

Lord i give You my heart

I give You my soul

I live for You alone

Every breath that i take

Every moment that i'm awake

Have Your way in me

-Hillsongs, "Lord i give You my heart".

Blogged @ 12:07 AM

Read the previous post? I dreamt of an arranged marriage. Hehe. That evening when i went for church service, a friendly looking granny in her 70s came up to preach. She was white from head to toe! Hehehe, short & curly white hair, white netting over her white dress. She looks cuddly? I can't remember her name ='(( Sarah? Amy? Anyway, she talked about this story in the bible, the story of Isaac and Rebekah (Genesis 24).

Their marriage was an arranged one too. They had never met before, but God brought them together, and they loved one another as a married man and wife. Then cuddly looking granny related this story to her real live testimony about her friend whose parents wants to choose her a husband. Now gals in other countries have no choice over this matter. The girl had heard about many terrible cases whereby the relationship didn't work out for these arranged marriages.

So Granny asked her, "What kind of a man would you like to marry?"
"Mm... i want him tall. He must have a moustache. and he must be from another country. and of course, he must also be a Christian."

Hahaha, cute. So Granny prayed together with the gal. And the Granny said, "Lord let me dream about the man who will be marrying this young lady here tonight." And that night, she had a dream. She dreamt about this man. He was tall, and he has got a moustache. He brought her around his amazingly neat apartment. And he was a devoted Christian.

So Granny told the girl about her dream, and she was surprised.

A knock came at the door of the girl's father's office. And a tall man with a moustache came in and asked to see the girl. When they met, electric sparks were sent flying all over the place! =X Ermmmm...... I mean, the girl knew that God has answered her prayer. And they got married. Cool right! Amen. :)

The conclusion is up to you to think about yeah. I gotta go complete my mountainous pile of homework. x_X

Blogged @ 9:59 PM

I hadda super weird dream last night! WOAH! O_O....

SUPER AMUSING! -_-...

I dreamt of my wife, and a few other indonesian friends whom she introduced. Tessa and company. They planned to force marry me to another indonesian guy whom i don't know. Now there're alot of happenings, i even craved for Starbucks in my dream. I dreamt of WeiHao, JeremyHo... i don't know why it's them either! Dreams are supposed to be a mystery. =P

But OF COURSE i don't want to marry someone i don't know, so when i saw the chance to escape, i rannnn as fast as i could! I crossed jumped down the railings of the stairs, 5th, 4th, 3rd, 2nd, better than stuntman Jackie Chan okay! Then i jumped and i flew! I WAS FLYING! =PPP
hahahas, but i wasn't really flying in my dream. In my dream, i was "flying" because i ran too fast. I understood how Harry Potter felt! If only i had the broom, what's that called? Nimble 2000 or something? hahaha, ahh, but that's outdated. I flew over a hundred metres with each light step that i pushed off the ground. It's like, you know, those chinese kung fu, you step on water step on air and run? Hehehehe. But the flying was quite scary, because i can't really control my direction and how high or low i want to go. I am not that skilled either. =Z It was more like flowing with the wind. :P

So I flew to the MRT's bus stop and took the bus. @_@ I don't know how the guy who's supposed to capture me catch up with me as well. Oh yeah, the guy's bald yeah. :) I was flying so fast lor! It's not really fair. Anyway, the bus drove from morning til night, and i was still in it, the baldie was also still in it. In the end i got captured and was brought back to the place. ^__^"

Okay! The rest is up to you to imagine. Hahahahahas. Goodmorning everybody! =}

Blogged @ 10:17 AM

After watching the DVD of Charlotte's Web yesterday night, a love wave hit me. And i think it hit my sister too. Because she was crying. Hehehe. Charlotte's Web's wave is in tune with mine!

You don't have to understand because, i think i'm making no sense either. :)

Mm... it ended at about 2.30a.m, and because i was kena hit by the love wave, i hugged my sister to sleep. Haha, okay maybe only she slept. I stayed up a bit later because another stronger wave hit me. And i can't help but wonder...

I felt my sister's heartbeat. The night was soundless. I love such nights! Only the heartbeat of my sister's was playing the love song. The feeling that i felt was so... mm, undescribable. I felt love, i felt warmth, i felt some mixture of a few other emotions. I can't name them, not because i don't want to but because i don't know how. O__O"

:) I love you. And You. ^ ^

Blogged @ 9:47 AM

Hahahahaha, my Steady told me today that she preferred my september kind of blog content to that of the blog content now. Hahahhaha, wanted to laugh, but wanted to cry at the same time.
(@__@)
Just kidding. It just shows something about me, but i won't blog about that now.

Hehe, watching Channel U's Hana Kimi! T__T... looks like i'm still into dramas. Romance drama. ^__^" When it's beautiful, it really lifts your heart. Or at least, you feel that it's lifted. I can't explain it. You feel so happy when you see the guy and the gal together! Then, each will wonder if such dramatic love happens here on earth. Or something like "When will my cute guy ever come?" Heheheh, but of course, dramas. Nice to see but not very nice to experience. :Z Don't you think?

Oops. But of course, some of you think that you may already have the love of your life ;), some still waiting. Some just prefer swimming along with the current of life and let things happen, if it's gonna happen, it happens. Love, LOve, LOVE! :) L0ve just makes the world go round and round and round and round and round.....

Anyone read the article on Asia? Says that Asia's gonna be the worst hit due to global warming. I believe the revelations in the bible are unfolding...

Blogged @ 8:11 PM

Hmm... i never knew that the anointing of the Holy Spirit is that wondrous! I have underestimated the Holy Spirit. I thought i knew the Holy Spirit enough. But of course, not. :) Thank you for answering my prayer! The Holy Spirit has not let me down. It has taught me and there will be so much more to learn! Yay, i'm so hungry. =P hehehe.

Mm, but there is something that i find very amusing in the book, "The Anointing", that i've read so far. I mean, i did not know that without the Holy Spirit, Jesus would have sinned. Jesus would not had been holy. Jesus would then not be able to perform his miracles. It was the time when the Holy Spirit descended as a dove above Jesus's head when John baptized Jesus at the river of Jordon (it's Jordon, right?) that Jesus's time began. The Holy Spirit is really important. Yeah, maybe some of you would have already known this. I didn't til now.

So far i have not met anyone who is very anointed with the Holy Spirit, as compared to those testimonies revealed by Benny Hinn. They are truly anointed. They did it. They paid the price! Though i do not really understand when Benny said "You have to pay the price". I guess i would one day, with the Holy Spirit guiding me, i know i would. I have to be patient. Go Go Go! hehehe.

Blogged @ 9:28 PM

Thanks to all who prayed for my mother! =D I am really quite touched.
Praise the Lord because she is feeling so much better. :) Woot!

过后我还要去看牙医呢。哈哈。对不起啊。我真的很需要弄好我的华文。相信我一定能够做得到的！C'mon, go go go! :P
-_- 好无聊对吧。hehe.

Blogged @ 12:20 PM

Jesus died for us. He was scurged and tortured, He was crucified and mocked at, He took the burden of the world upon that cross and I believe that He is the Son of God. With His blood He washes away all our sins so that we can once again be reunited with God. God, You sent down Your one and only begotten Son. I can never understand the pain that You have felt to be up there in the heavens watching Your Son down below being tortured and crucified. But this has to happen so that the scriptures can be fulfilled. Jesus went through all this for us. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zYk3dqduQfY
Jesus, I love You! I must learn to pay the price. That's for You, because it is never enough if i were to express my gratitude thru these two words "Thank You". It's never enough.

Learn more about how Christ died for us:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qzIOBv00g-I

Blogged @ 10:45 AM

I love watching great drama serials. The best would be funny and romantic! x) Oh my God! Yeah it's the holidays, but it seems like some of my friends and i are still not in the holi mood. I'm gonna learn more things, i'm gonna read books, i'm gonna go out out out, and i have to complete so much HOMEWORKKKK......... =O
Hehehehe. I feel like i'm in love. It feels like i'm in love. I think i am in love and i dunno why i'm feeling so long winded today yeah. =}}} I'm so long winded i dunno why. :x hahaha, okok, stop crappin.

I want to kick off the habit of avoiding people when i know they're looking. But, it is pressurising sometimes. I can't lift up my head and look back! I lack courage? =O No no no. I can't. I gotta pray. I gotta summon up alllll my courage, and STARE back with my @@ open BIG AND WIDE! Yeah go go go!

I went to J8 and bought a book by Benny Hinn. It's called "The Annointing". Yabadabadoo! :x Can't wait to read it. =P As boring as it sounds, you can expect me to blog more about what's in the book. =X Hehehe! So you can read only when you're interested. If not, you can read this
-> http://www.bennyhinn.org/yourlife/Spiritual-Life-Featured-Articles/Entering-God-s-Presence.html
Hahahahahahahahahaa. Nothing.

Okay, so most of you by now would be thinking why the cucumber am i so crappy today? I shall stop now then. :) Thank God, Goodbye.

Blogged @ 9:13 PM

"Dorcas, do you have anything to share? C'mon, share something."
My mind was blank, i racked my brain frantically in search of a testimony, in search of something. But it was blank. Blank. I had nothing to share. I'm sorry.

How i wish to be able to just share freely what i have learnt about the Lord. It makes me feel sad. What is it that i have experienced with Him? Other than knowing that He's there when i pray? I don't feel His presence. I can't.
"It's not about feeling, it's knowing. It's not about sensing, it's knowing."
I want more than just knowing. I want to feel. I want to experience. I don't want to be greedy, but too bad, i am.

What can i say to impress You? What can i do?
Holy Spirit, guide me.

Okay, let yall know something. Actually i didn't feel exactly comfortable in a group prayer. Tell you the truth, i allllways worry about how i pray. Will i sound stupid? Am i praying what you all want to hear? What He wants to hear? How to pray, pray about what? Am i too slow???? Teach me how to concentrate on praying in a big group without being so self-centred! Oh my goodness. O.O"

Seriously, i am irritated. (U.U) IRRITATED! I am confused! But well it comforts me to know that we're supposed to feel this way afterall. Sometimes.

On the night before my E.maths common test, something happened. I wanted to share this in school just now with the small prayer group but didn't get to. I said i wouldn't want to have anything to do with the Lord anymore. I was really tensed up that night, too much stress i guess. I was crying when i spoke those words. I mean, after putting in so much faith, and then everything just falls back down on you, you will feel sad am i right? You will cry.

I said something like, i won't worship you anymore. I am angry. I am breaking down. And you know, before that i actually prayed to the Lord to help me in my math. And the next moment i was rushed over with sadness and drowing in anger. I even promised Him i wouldn't read the bible or pray anymore. Can you understand it? I never wanted to ever make a promise like that. But why did i still make it? I don't know.
I broke that promise by the way. I can't really recall what happened. But after that incident, i realised what i have done. I prayed and prayed for His forgiveness. Oh my God. I thought it was a test and i failed it. I realised that my faith wasn't very strong. Holy Spirit, help me build up my faith!

Okay that's all. Maybe you've had experiences like mine. I think this's just the beginning. We have such a loooooooong way to go. There's sososooo much more things to learn. I want to walk that path with the Lord. :))) God is light! He's a lamp that'll light my way for me. No, He's the bright lamp that lights the path of all those who walks in the truth. AMEN! Yabadabadoooo! ^ ^
:x

Blogged @ 6:56 PM

I am feeling sad for not much of a reason. I want to cry. Crying can be beautiful sometimes. =')

It feels like a picture hung up on a wall. When it's still new and the paint is still fresh, people come and admire it's splendor, it's magnificence. But as years pass by, the colours fade, just like a rainbow, right after a light drizzle. It's worth depreciates. Until nothing glistened. It could fade no more.
I'd like to remind you that life sometimes can feel like this. But it's still up to you to paint a rainbow into your life again. Up to you! Whether you want to re-paint the painting, or whether you wanna do the painting on another fresh piece of drawing block, it's solely up to you. Remember, when we fail, we don't let the failure step on us. We step unto the failure, and take it like you know, stepping stones. One step at a time. Up and up, higher and higher. Well, and maybe you can give your stepping stones colour as well? Blue, gold, indigo, pink. Paint a rainbow! I mean, of course the rainbow doesn't have colours like gold and all, but yeah you get it. You get it, right? @@

Dya know what the rainbow means to me? Okay well, actually, i'm still l@@king for it's purpose. =X So gimme some time, i'll come back to that. That is... if i remember. ^__^" Hehehe! Okay! Gotta go, still have my POA to revise and my chinese to do. Yeah, i know, TIME MANAGEMENT. Well ciao! :)

Blogged @ 10:02 AM

HAAAHAHAHAHAAHARr..... Bluh! Yes, i am going stark raving mad. :)

No you ain't gonna miss these stuff! Check these out. Cute! Totally... xDDDD Waahahaha. Muaha.

Terminator parody ->
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qnq7N6X4x84

James Blunt(You're Beautiful) parody ->
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hKzgUGAlviY

Bleeee hehehe. XXXXX >___<;;; (X__X")

Blogged @ 9:54 PM

So here i am over at my friend's place. =P We were supposed to study actually, but... you know, we only studied a little, then we went to play the PS2. Hahahaha, if you've known me about 2 years back, you'll know that i loved playing DOA (Dead Or Alive.) We played that game and i trashed my friend over and over. I won't say who, because, well i dunno. :)

Anyway, TIME MANAGEMENT. Sigh. I still havn't been managing my schduele well. My results have been dropping. I was demoralized at the beginning, to tell the truth. What's happening?

I still can't feel His presence when i pray...

I know i havn't been blogging much lately. It's because of my studies. I gotta work harder yeah. =') No matter what. I know i have to learn to strike a balance in my life.

Okay, i shall stop here for now. Havn't much things to say... i am still a little bit disappointed.

Hehehe, must work harder! Dya know that failure = one step closer to success? ;)

Strive together! C'mon Go Go Go! *points out index finger and thumb* :))

Blogged @ 5:30 PM