You know, before i came to know God, i thought i had everything i needed. My family is good, my friends are good, my life is good. I am quite positive in life. But sometimes, it's just sometimes, i kept thinking and i kept wondering, I don't find any meaning in life. I always ask myself "Why am i here on earth for?" And i could never find out what's my purpose. Have you ever wondered? Do you have your answer?
On those days before i came to know Him, on the days when i was bored, i felt so much emptiness. Fortunately for me, i was positive enough to raft through those times. Sometimes i enjoy reading a romance novel. But on other times, the feeling was really, REALLY so very pointless! I felt kinda useless. I don't understand. What can i do? Life is sosososoooooo boring at times. Especially when i am bored! Because i think i have nothing to do. To tell the truth, the boredom can be quite pressurizing for me on occasions. Why am i here on earth for?
You wanna know why i'm so Jesus-ly now? I tell you the truth, i found my sense of belonging in God. The Holy Spirit can take over the emptiness. =P I'm so glad CH brought me to church! I admired his choice to bring me then, because i know we weren't in a very good relationship or some sort. I dunno, i can't really remember. ^__^" It's nice to know that God still loves me, regardless of who i am and what i've become. He loves His children. I mean, why wouldn't He? He created us! This may sound stupid or strict to those who're non-christians. But this definitely is something very precious to me. You cannot say "Christianity is stupid because you have to believe in God or Jesus to go to heaven." It is insulting. If you are sensitive, you wouldn't say that. The choice of whether you want to believe or not is up to you. The choice of whether you choose to be stubborn or insulting is also up to you. No one can force you. For example, you can choose to donate or shoo the people on the streets who ask for you to donate yeah?
I can never learn to accept people for who they are without holding back the least bit of grudge if not for His teachings. I have learnt to let go of every grudge unto Him. He will listen and He will heal us. He's the Lord of comfort, the Listener, Lord of all understanding, the Almighty God! What is impossible for Him? =D
Haha, but of course, He doesn't just heal you at the snap of your fingers. He wants you to learn as well. What good will it do if He were to just heal anyone who got hurt and they continue to do the hurts onto themselves or others?
Have you ever wondered if Heaven could be real? Wondered why more and more people are converting recently? They don't just change. They truly believe. Why? Do you believe in miracles? I just experienced one today in class. Leon topped the class in Physics. =X Hahahahaha, 23/25. xD It was so amazing! Even he was shocked. Hehehe. But good job, really. Omg. I still can't accept the fact. =S Sorry.
Yeah anyway, if you're wondering, just wondering, you can go get those books like "scientific facts in the bible" and stuff. You'll come to realise that science can't prove that evolution really took place but instead, the world seems to be created by a creator. Aiyah, no use explaining here. You can go and read up if you have the time. It's really interesting. =P Hehehhe, okay, i'll stop here for now. Sorry for the looong post again. ^ ^" Goodbye!
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