Just Like Tides

I'm a Christian! I bought a Cross! It's such a beautiful necklace... :)
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And OMG! MY WIFE CALLED ME! AND I ALMOST DIDN'T RECOGNISE HER VOICE! Eeeeeee!!!! I'm so happy!!!! She's back, finally. ^ ^ Oh well, sorry for not posting. I've spent my days going out, staying at home with Family, reading the Bible, and esp this very very good book, Scientific Facts in the Bible given by Aunty Chow. Thanks so much! How true is the book! Omgoodness, i can't believe it. And now i just can't wait to get baptized. Should i? I can't imagine how it's like. Well, i went to K-box with CH 2 days ago. Hehehe. It went on well. He was shy and didn't really wanna sing at first. But he did in the end. :) That's good! And thanks to Mary, for without you i wouldn't have had that outing taken place! ^^ My wife is back in Singapore omg.

Somehow... it feels awkward... i havn't seen her in a month. I don't know how to tell her all the things that has happened without her. However, i have this feeling of joy shooting up my blood vessels at the speed of light, into my heart and it pumped and it pumped fast! When i heard her voice on the phone just, it's the same kinda feeling i've felt when i saw my Steady in Geog lesson. My steady now is still in Indo, she flew back yeah.
I've never felt that way for a friend! It's just like excitement, joy, abit of like overwhelming kindoaf happiness. I just can't wait to ask my neighbour out for a simple outing too. Simple things are just... sometimes i find them the most easiest route to happiness.

Today i went out with WH. Okay, well we did this and that and that and this. We went to the arcade to play some DJ thing. Hahahaa. And he played Outrun. And he owned it! Cool. Well i tried for my first time and didn't do very well. Hahaha. But nevermind. He put ma name!!! "DORC." I want the world to know that i'm not the one who owned it, it's really him.

Time really flies. Blog some other time, my wife is online, and i'm talking to a few others! ^ ^

Blogged @ 10:21 PM

Oops. Sorry, i said i'd update that day on Church but i guess i was too lazy. Well........ it was touching.......... ehem hem.
CH brought me there by bus. I was really worried as first because i didn't know where to meet him exactly. But everything went well, hehe, i guess... i can say it's with God's help that i managed to be there at the church... but i have so many doubts, to tell the truth. I can't say for sure... i can't even tell or assure myself, that i am a true Christian.
And... for those who're non believers of Christ, i hope u will bear with me... and not roll ur eyes as u read this post. hahaha, cuz you can never know if Christ really exists unless u experience it for urself. If you've never stepped into a church and try to understand... then i guess u don't really have the right to say that God doesn't really exist because what u're doing is to only look at your own perspective as a non believer. The other perspective is also important.

Ehem, that was one of the ways of how i convinced myself to go to church. :X
There are so many other reasons. Something just tells me to go into church. So tada! I didn't regret.

I sat with Alison while Pastor Jennifer excitedly parleyed about her testimony of the lump in her body. It's miraculous. How can a lump disappear on the touch of another normal human bean? I mean... Holy pastor. @@. I'm sure she's making no bones about it. @@
Hehehe... then... other than that, she went on to talk about Joseph, another important character in the Bible. Oh but before pastor Jennifer's talk, our church sang some worship songs. But thruout the experience... the part where the whole church prayed for me was the most memoriable...

I was the only new follower on that day so i went up to the front with Alison... i shoke Pastor Jennifer's hand and this holy man asked for the whole church to pray for me. Aunt Chow was beside me on my right, Alison on my left. Aunt Chow was praying for me beside my ear, loud and clear. So i didn't catch what the whole church was praying for me. I only have one pair of ears. But the church's prayer was very loud too, very strong... it was touching. As touching as Joseph's story...
I held back my tears, but at the same time, wanting the others to see that i'm crying as well. It's weird... I was crying softly with many reasons.

Afterthat CH, Sarah, Alison and i left for dinner. I didn't really talk much... because there're lots of things in my mind... and i just don't feel like talking much. O_O. But it was funny watching the three of them crap. hahahaha... it's nice. I don't have to open my mouth or do anything and i can enjoy a comedy. =X

Church people tell me, "i'm so glad u've finally accepted christ", they ask me "so will you come to church next week?"
I told them yes i have accepted, i'm a follower. But i knew deep down that that wasn't the case. I still had many many doubts. The list could stretch all the way from Yishun to Bishan. So with doubts, can i still be a follower of Christ? Can i still be a Christian?

I watched The Miracle Maker today. It's the story about Jesus. I also have to thank God again for helping me find the VCD... it was such a long time ago when my father brought the disc home. I didn't really expect myself to find it in 5mins if it weren't for His help. x) When i was younger i watched it without understanding. Can't help it either! I was an ignorant primary school brat back then. I was in love with F4. heh. But now... i'm starting to understand. I hope i can strongly believe. This line that Jesus said was one of those which i find interesting. The line goes:
"Stop doubting."(pause for effect)
"Believe."

I'm going to church tomorrow again. This time i'm going for the cell meeting, where they do prayers and talk about bible study stuff. I want to find out more. I think it's where Stop doubting, believe will come in handy. Hehehe. Update more some other time! Goodnight.
(U_U)zzZ....

Erm, God bless. <=)

Blogged @ 1:02 AM

Wooohoo!!! Yeah! Recently i have been waking up early in the mornings without the help of one of my bestest friend, the alarm clock. I feel lazy less recently nowadays. Don't always feel like sleeping and all... =) Yeah! And the best part is, when i wake up, i wake up! As in feeling refreshed and well, mm. Awakened. Especially today! =D Why ah? Why ah?
Lalalalaa.... Oo! It's 8a.m in the morning. Gotta get ready for piano. =} Blog again later. I want to share my yesterday's experience at the church with the world! (well hope u don't find it boring, cuz it's pretty interesting for me =x) Yeah! Oh. How can i forget?!?! *smacks head* GOODMORNING EVERYBODY! (^V^) Have a nice day, in Jesus's name i pray, Amen.
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Welcome back Steady. (^3^) *muakcs*

Blogged @ 8:03 PM

Yesterday was spent with WH and family! POA lesson was cancelled in the morning. So we met up(WH and I) at my MRT station at about 12, and i'm supposed to bring him to my primary school. Why?
Because we have swings there. =P

Sis and bro were still in school at that time. I was wondering if i'd bump into them. Hahahas. Yah... so upon reaching my ex school we went to buy some long forgotten ice cream. You know the 20cents one and u can break it into two to makan? It has been quite some time since i've had it. Hehehe. Childish.

So then we went to play the second swing cuz the first one is kinda infested with ants. Walked about, played with sand(HE played with sand =X) and then i brought him to SAFRA. We crossed the bridge over my favourite swimming pool. We played arcade. Mm... the most interesting thing that happened is that i played the dancing thing? The dancing machine where you have to put ur hands under the sensor to clear the arrows that appear on the screen. OMG. Hahahahaha. I saw Steph play it once. It looked complicating and i've never thought that i'm actually "dancing" it by myself! IT WAS FICKING FUN! =DDD I tried to pull him to dance one time. Well he did try but after that he didn't dare to do it again. Hahahaha. It's fun watching him.... erm, "dance". =Ppp How shy. Muahahahaha oops =x

Yay! I played it quite a few times. :S He just stood and watched. I can't help it, it's fun and it's something new. He finds it amusing watching me dance. I find it pressurizing. Accidentally hit him quite a few times. My hands are getting long. Sorry. =Z But after that i relaxed more and i didn't look so much like a stick.

I shall bring my friends and family to try it out sometime! I should be bringing my sister out tomorrow. It has been quite some time too. :)

Oh yah, we bumped into my sister when we hadda pass by somewhere near my school. Hahahas! I think they're playing hide and seek ar. She's looking for... well, ...someone... ;)

Hahahas, after that i went to his place. Umm... he showed me the more well-known games like Gunbound, DOTA, Ragnarok etc etc. But i still prefer playing the PS2 games. NBA!!! ROCK ON! Hahahas. I wanna score a 3 pointer chop like how the players did in NBA! So we went shooting at the bball court. =x I only did it a few times. After that i started to lose my focus and the ball began to slant a little when i aim and shoot. He taught me lay-up. I think i did it! =D I shall put that skill to use sometime. All in all, i think i've tried shooting in at least 70-100 balls. Maybe more. It's tiring but not tiring. I don't wanna say anything about that guy. His shooting is thumbs up............. O___O I can't shoot like how he does. But i'm sure he can't shoot like how i do too. =} But his is the correct way. =Z

Gotta thank him for everything. :)

Well actually today was spent with him and my family again. =X Went for Amaths lesson in the morning. After that i invited him over to my place to watch Scary Movie3 but i can't find it. ='( So in the end we ended up watching "Creep". Hahahas. At least that's something we both havn't watched. It's not bad. Ate maggimee. lol.

After that! I went for a JOB! And i lost a JOB too. Oh well. Not really interested about it, to tell the truth. :Z It's selling ice cream from door to door. Recommended by my dear friend. I wanna thank her too for giving me a chance to gain some experience. =D Well not too bad, we satisfied ourselves(and cheated too) by setting ourselves a goal to sell at least 1 Magnum ice cream. Because we were like halfway down the blk and yet there're still no business. =( However, we still managed to sell 15 magnum ice creams and 1 box of solero ice cream. :S Hahahhaa. And we even met a cute malay guy at our last door! Freaking charming. @@ hahahaha. Didn't ask for number. Though tempted. At least we know where he lives. *smirks* His mother is very kind and friendly too. :) How nice! They bought a total of 6 ice creams, so 3 free. yay.

OH yah, we also met a gal, i think she's from a single school, she bought the rest of the 6 ice creams and 1 solero box. And she's freaking CUTE too! We wanted to ask for her number as well. I know, we're crazy. She's really friendly as well. =} So glad to have met them all. Things like these... mm. They actually brightens up my day. Wouldn't you feel the same?

We finished everything at about 7 plus. Not really tiring... umm to tell the truth, if our "customers" clearly didn't wanna be disturbed or really, really, didn't wanna buy the ice cream, i would not force. Nor would i stay there and continue blabbering on about the promotion... i find it pointless and really irritating. If i were the customer, i'd feel irritated too. I mean, clearly if i don't want it i'd give off very obvious hints. And if u claim that u cannot see the hint and still continue to talk talk talk... then i'd say u're blind.

Promoting is one thing. but i feel... it's just that irritating the others would be another. Unless u're talking about irritating ur friends or ur siblings. Different story. ^ ^'' Bleah.

That's about all... and i hope my wife will come back soon... it's the 9th today... still a looong way to go. Actually i have no idea when my steady will be back from indo. Aiyah. She got another someone to miss her anyway. =Pp Okaydokay! Have to turn in... goodnight. Ciao.

Blogged @ 12:59 AM

Allow me to recommend you three songs. You may find them kinda like relating to your happenings in life, that's probably only for some of you.
1)Welcome to The Black Parade- My Chemical Romance.
2)The Way You Look At Me- Christian Bautista.
3)Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol.

You don't need too much thinking, you just have to listen with ur heart. These songs are quite meaningful.

Welcome to The Black Parade lyrics-

When I was a young boy my father took me into the city

to see a marching band

He said, 'Son when you grow up, would you be, the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?'

He said 'Will you, defeat them, your demons, and all the non-believers, the plans that they have made?

Because one day I'll leave you a phantom to lead you in the summer to join the Black Parade.'

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.

And other times I feel like I should go. Through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.

When you're gone we want you all to know

We'll Carry on,

Though your dead and gone believe me

Your memory will carry on Carry on We'll carry on

And in my heart I cant contain it

The anthem wont explain it.

And we will send you reeling from decimated dreams

Your misery and hate will kill us all

So paint it black and take it back

Lets shout it loud and clear

Do you fight it to the end We hear the call

To carry on, We'll carry on

Though your dead and gone believe me

Your memory will carry on, We'll carry on

And though you're broken and defeated You're weary widow marches on

And on we carry through the fears (Ooh oh ohhhh)
Disappointed faces of your peers (Ooh oh ohhhh)
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all
Do or die
You'll never make me
Cause the world, will never take my heart
You can try, you'll never break me
Want it all, I'm gonna play this part
Wont explain or say i'm sorry
I'm not ashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
You're the chair, for all the broken listen here, because it's only...
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who's meant to sing this song
Just a man, I'm not a hero
I -- don't -- care
Carry on We'll carry on
Though your dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
You're weary widow marches on
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
We'll carry
We'll carry on
-END-

It's even better with the sound in. =}}} Hahahahas. These songs are more famous among the younger generation, just in case you don't know. The adults may find it crap. But it depends, if they understand, then good for them. If not, blablabla. I don't know. =X

My wife went to Indonesia on the 2nd Nov for about 15-20days. On the day that i sent her off is the day when i went out with one of the most weirdest gang ever. I'd never thought that this could ever happen. But okay, eventually it did. I hanged out with Leon for a whole afternoon, and even went to his place(not alone)! Yah, and after that we met up with LiangWei, PL, LiangYang and his gf, and Peng Suo. I'll be going out with WeiHao later. @_@ Another weird thing that can happen. I'll be bringing him to my primary school. There's a playground there with swings!!! Yay. =Pp

I wonder why i've never thought of bringing my friends to give my pri. school a visit. Probably because i tot they wouldn't be too interested about it. Well at least there're swings there. Hehehehe. ^ ^"

Umm. I really MISS MY WIFE!!! :'(

My Steady also went back to Indonesia. Awww.... i hope they enjoy their time there. I cannot waste my time @_@ I have to do something meaningful while they're away! hahahas.
I talked with a buddy yesterday night. One thing that my buddy said really pricked me. We've been in our secondary school for 3 years, and yet we've no idea what the stall vendors whom we buy food and drinks from everyday, every recess, we've no idea what their names are? Hahahas. Yah yah, it may sound stupid to you. You may think that we've nothing else to do and that's why we think of what seems to you stupid things like this. But i'll dare you to think it again.

I just have this feeling... and the more i think of it, the more angry i get with the world. I need a break. I'm not sure if looking at the negative side of life will help in any way. Given a choice, i'd rather not. But how can we learn then? I dunno... i'm just happy when i look only at the positive. :) Anything else tat can match up to a real smile? Post some other time! I havn't eaten my breakfast. O_o *stomach grumbes* CiaO!!! =}}}

Blogged @ 10:19 AM