Just Like Tides

Do i think too much? Is thinking too much bad? And if Pizza, Jelli, Mary or Steady is reading this, do read esp the last few paras in this post! Unless you don't want to. O_ox

Woo! Anyway i've just watched the DVD of DaVinci. Yeah, abit late to watch it now i know, but nvm lah. It's interesting... i'd like to buy the whole collection of Dan Brown's books after my exams. Can't wait to read it on book. :P Anyway, i've been visiting the cinema quite frequently these few days. I guess u can now call it my hobby. Today i just went out with my angels and devils again and we watched Rob-b-hood. By my fav stuntman, Jackie Chan! Amazing how come actors can remain famous for so long. Even though he's kinda old already, but he's still cute. :X

Mm. And a few days ago i watched... what's the movie title huh??? *cracks head*

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Oh yeah, JohnTucker Must Die! And i also caught a few more movies with my friends.

My father have been buying DVDs too, so i watch and watch and watch, and i borrow and borrow and borrow from my uncle blahblahblah.... Great movies are amazing, dumb movies are dumb and sometimes i just wanna smack the hell outta the stupid author or director who created that stupid stupid movie @#)!@($*#@^)@#$^!!! But of course it's impossible. What the ChIn!!!! Anyone watched Haunted Highway? No? GOOD for u! DON'T watch that damn movie it's freakaling stupid! ARGHHHhhhhH!!!! I can't stand the thought of it anymore! Change of topic thank God.

So yeah lor, walked around Bugis for awhile more, following my friends around while they see the cool things that we see almost everyday thus making it really uncool now. Really, Singapore is getting abit boring. But we can't help it since it's small. So yeah lor... i suffered a running nose because the Rob-b-hood show made me cry. Quite touching...... but anyway my steady, Jennifer, she really cried and crying is okay. Most of us did. But she cried so loudly HAHAHAHA what the ChIn????? It was funny! I was half crying at the movie and half cry-luffing at the noises that she made when she was crying hahahahahhahahhaa sweeeeet! Totally!

Yeah, and seems like Friend A changed quite abit in her attitude towards our friendship already. I wonder if the rest can see it, i guess it's time to ask them some questions. She do not like to decide anymore, don't like to discuss with us, walks around alone sometimes, i know somethings there're going on in her mind about our friendship. And sometimes bringing up the matter too soon or wrongly will really affect the whole thing. That's what i think, at least.

It's okay to switch friends. Who says it's not okay? If things don't come out smooth, if things seem to get worst and worst, maybe it's time to switch. However.... when we switch we have to know why we do it for. Is it us that's causing the sparks, or is it them? If it's we ourselves, then it's a different story. Because if the problem lies within ourselves, no matter how many times we switch, we will still not be able to find true friends. I have seen some true friend spirit in my group before. The moments are really unforgetable. Guess it's just what keeps us going huh.
And normally i don't miss people very often. But i guess it's just recently, maybe it happened before, that i start to miss my friends, Pizza, Jelli, Mary, Jenni... hahahaas, i find it strange. If one of u is reading this now, i bet u'll be surprised! I mean, i see them almost everyday, five times or sometimes more a week. And i'm missing them now even though i just went out with them this afternoon?

And i find it strange because usually i don't feel this way, to tell u honestly. Ooo... i just realised something. With all the squabbles going on, actually come to think of it, i feel like i've known my friends better. I mean, come on, u think I am actually human if i've never blown up all my life? No! And when i've blown, u've seen that part of me, and u know i'm really human, and u know one more side of me. Don't it bring u closer? Maybe some will not agree. But we all have our different points of view.

Even though some of us may feel drifted, but the fact is... we have drawn closer to one another. We see the quiet side, the crazy side, the angry side, the happy side of our good friends. Don't that brings us closer to their lives? Although... Closer, don't mean for the better.... well, it depends.

Think about it. Just think about it. *i'm missing Miss.Tan too -_-*

Blogged @ 11:04 PM

Hello, how can i miss out so much on the world?

Hello, how can i miss out things that i should know?

It is not that we do not care. Life can be full of pleasures all the same even when we don't try our best. Does someone's smile or sms make your day worthwhile? It's just some little things in life that we have to pay greater attention to rather than the bigger problems. Because without even solving the simpler ones, how can u go on? When someone is nice to you, think if u're nice to them. Do u repay them like how u're gonna do to ur enemies if they attack or critisize you? Sometimes we think too much of ourselves and forget the simple things. But if sometimes is sometimes and not often, is it still okay? Because the world is never fair and we all know of it.
Now, it just seem so normal for me to treat people nice sometimes, while they feed me back with not so nice things. Sometimes i wonder if i've gotten so used to it, that i do the not so nice way to some others sub-consciously as well. What is becoming of me?!?! SHIT!!! :X oops. sorry.

So today i browsed thru a few of my friends' blog and found out things i should've known, or maybe should never know. I felt it, and then cried. No matter how i wished or hoped or dreamed, it will never come true. And all i know for now is that only time can tell. I wonder if my efforts will pay off as we all try different techniques to solve our problems when the previous 101th time don't work out.
I would love to talk it out with my friends again soon. We all seem to know that keeping quiet will not help at all. There's more to it than it seems...even though we can't see it or feel it, at least, i for one know it's there. I just don't know how to say these things to them. Can u sense it?

Some say they're tired of life, some are still finding a reason to live, some are living, and the other luckier ones will live life to the fullest. Even without trying their hardest. Can we all really choose the path we want to walk? Because sometimes it don't seem so, and even though we don't get the path that we want, we can always, alllways change our minds and still live on. Life are full of choices they say. But the problem is we all get tired one day, get tired of the picking and choosing and changing.

Even still, we have to remember this and stick it into our minds like how you'd drill a hole onto a piece of wood and the hole will be there forever, that life still goes on. So the question is, why get tired of life when u can enjoy it? Why complain when it's already over? Why think about it if it makes you feel down? Well, unless you wanna feel down then i have nothing to say. We all carry on and for me, i trust my friends well enough for me to share secrets with them, but i sometimes wonder, will they do the same.......??? *HINT HINT* So by sharing my secrets and stuff that i do everyday with them sometimes make me feel good. It's just a matter of fact whether they wanna listen to my grandmama stories or not. I will always be there if any of my goody friends wanna tell me something. I hope they won't hestitate. It's always interesting to know more interesting stuff X_X" So okay, i think i shall end here for tonight... Ciao everyone.

Blogged @ 10:34 PM

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Or is it just me?

Just a little updating... on Friday we went out for a little "celebration". We're celebrated early for my friend's birthday because u know, who prefer to celebrate it tomorrow on a school day? Hehehehe, it was FUN! We went to eat at Maxwell, Tanjong Pagar, and then went to Marina Square for pool and bowling. Well... who cares how u're gonna use the stupid pool stick when u can just hit the balls? ARGH! @_@" Or maybe pool is not my thing. Just like Daniel. =P If you ask me, i'd still prefer bowling to pool. I'm playing both for the second time. Bowling ROX! :) Hahahas. The first time i bowled was with my family. I hadda gr8 time too ^ ^ The first part i scored the highest, but everyone knows that Daniel is just giving way. Cuz the second game he scored over a hundred ++. And that's like, beating my first high score by about two times half??? I'm looking forward to bowling with friends again! =)))

Hahaha. Thanks to my wife and steady for coming along.

At about 11.30, my father called and fetched me home. Parents weren't too happy with me hanging out too late. I'm just glad that they understand... what else can i ask for? I love my family.

On saturday JY, Jelli, Mary, Toke and his friend and i went out to study. Didn't really study much in the end (i'm never studying out again! I can never concentrate) hehe. So we went to Nigel's place. Cool place! HAhahaha... we had pillow bolster fight, and his little brother is so soooo cute x))) Only 5 years old! Oh btw, toke and his friend went home early. :S Nigel's cute little bro is always protecting his big brother. Hahahhaa... it really was a touching scene to me. I don't know if the rest felt that way. ^ ^

Sometimes we fail to realise how blessed we are. When we have things that others don't, when we have love that we think we don't feel. Sometimes it's just you who's in ur own way. Maybe, probably. People can sit down and relax and think about what the world is all about. Lies and unfairness twisted into our already complicated lives. But we also have happiness and all the good things as well that we fail to put into the picture when we feel down. Hmm. Blog more some other tym! Ciao! :)

Blogged @ 10:45 PM

If you want others to help you, you have to learn how to serve the others first.

Today CH borrowed me a book- The Case For Faith- and i have the faith that it will answer all my doubts or questions i want to know abt Christianity. Is God real? How do you know? There must be a reason behind everything, why people believe in God and Jesus Christ, these things that science cannot explain.

Miracles do happen... and God has His reasons of why he produces miracles on some but not on others. Because i believe that God is fair.

So, why does the world still seem so unfair?

Omg... i'm confused. I have more questions than answers in my head. Thus, i cannot wait to go to a church. =}

Now, i only became religious thanks to CH! =x

Hahahahahas. But seriously, i want to know too. I want to clear my doubts once and for all. In the book that CH borrowed me :
"Faith is belief without, or in spite of, reason."
But others believe that,
"Faith, is a rational response to the evidence of God's self-revelation in nature, human history, the Scriptures and his resurrected Son."
I do agree that the last thing we would want is a naive faith built on a paper-thin foundation of wishful thinking or make-believe.
"I need a faith that's consistent with reason, not contradictory to it; I want beliefs that are grounded in reality, not detached from it. I need to find out once and for all whether the Christian faith can stand up to scrutiny."

But faith seem to come and go easily. Like Charles Templeton. I shall continue reading the book and find out what happens to him.

Anyway, today went on okay. But... i think i saddened a teacher today leh :S I'm so so sorry, so so guilty that omg, i shall not do it ever again. Please don't show me that face again. :'(

Hehehehe!!! Matrices is okay afterall. Quite simple :) But u can easily make careless mistakes doing matrices because there're lots of numbers involved. Alamak. Went on to learn Dinomal something something, cannot really remember. It's okay too. Yay! I can finally catch up with Mrs.Lye's lessons already! ^__^ WOO!

All we need to do is just a little more listening, and a little less talking.

A teacher said to our class today, that nowadays we Singaporeans walk around the streets like we're carrying the World behind our back. Meaning we think that we're better than the others, better than the rest. Hmm. Yes I totally agree. Our teacher also said that Singapore's service sucks. Okay, compared to the other countries, yes i do agree as well. Cashers take the money from us like we owe it to them, and salesgirls keep a vvvvery close lookout on us because they think we might shoplift. So our teacher never hesitates to compliment a good salesperson. :)
I shall do that too when i grow older! =PP muahahahhaas!

Okay dokay, gtg study A maths! Test tomolo. =X Functions!

Blogged @ 8:29 PM

Today's blurred.

New maths topic on Matrices was confusing, with so many numbers in one single bracket, and for a moment they seem to be jumping around, laughing at me as i stared back with those 'i am so damned confused' eyes! Shit!!!

I havn't been getting sufficient rest lately. And i'm just too tired to be bothered with those laughing shits during contact time when Mrs.Lye wanted us to continue doing Matrices... Now i'm not even sure if i've spelled "matrices" correctly. Did i??? (O_O;;;)

I'm so tired... i have to sleep early tonight. @_@ But i still have lots of homework and project work to do... hehehehe. But nevertheless, GO GO GO! ^ ^ *points out index finger and thumb* The least we can do is to pretend to be interested, and maybe the mind will be bluffed, and think it's really interesting thus sending the message down to all parts of our body that it is really interesting indeed so we can continue studying too! Wow. Since when did i become so crappy?

But then again...

Since when was i not :P

Alrighty then, so... i was saying that the day passed by in a blur, we did english situational writing. Today's topic was interesting. I really enjoyed it without bluffing my brian. Although it seemed kinda boring at first, i got the hang of it later. :)

Then... after school my goody angels and devils(some of my friends don't like me calling them angels) and i went to macdonalds to eat. And as usual, we see the same group of clique, Edmund, Daniel, Kendrick, Riovee they all already inside...

Hahahhas. We had fun eating together. After which i had to go out and pass the $$$ that i owed to Chong Hao. Alison was with him. MARY THOUGHT ALISON WAS PRIMA OMG HAHAHAHAHASSS!!! Hahahaha i hadda good luff over that, but can't blame her. She can't really see without her spectacles, which she has forgotten to bring for like the past i-dunno-how-many consecutive days. Hahahhahahas

Anyway... i'm still not sure if i want to go for Chong hao and Alison's church... first, it's kinda far.... second, i can also try out my Uncles'. Three people has been asking me to attend their church already. But too bad my uncle's church crashes with my piano lessons on Sunday mornings... so sad... ='(

I miss my childhood church friends, but i guess they've changed much over the years. Yue qun has become so different. She's in a girls' school now, Starts with 'C' but not Cedar, and i always seem to forget. Oh.... YAH!!! Cresent Girls. Bleh!!!

Hahahhas. They claim Kitto's hand is very lady like. I havn't really seen it for myself. I shall do it one day. =P

That's about all... nothing much. But it's perfect. =} Hahaha. Love my friends, Goodbye.
zzzz

Blogged @ 5:43 PM

Dear God,
Thank you for giving everyone around me and myself such a blessed life. Thank you for sacrificing your one and only son down to help us clear of our sins and to die on the cross.

Dear God,
Please save the world.

Amen.

Blogged @ 11:00 PM

Wahh leooow!!!! Another one week holiday has just past. Fast, fast, fast.... I don't know if i'm looking forward to school. Sometimes it's fun, sometimes it's tiring.... Alamakkkk..... Woah. I have this sudden urge to go to the beach. =P Hahahas. Oh well.

Kaya says he's gonna treat us watch movie leh, hehehe....barnyard? WTH! hahahahas, i seriously didn't know he loves THAT kindoa shows. But i guess it's kinda cute anyway. x))) Teepot asked me out for another movie. Art Of The Devil2 i think, if i remember correctly. I love watching movies with friends. But yet... it's $$$ lar..........wahhhh i'll go broke if this goes on. No money to eat O_O' I dunno, maybe eating has become one of my hobbies too. I find it enjoyable to go around, and eat. EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT..................... shit man, i'll get fat soon if i don't start taking up exercise as my hobby too. ='(

Hmm. This holiday has been nice. :) Really relaxing for me because i seriously havn't done any revision or homework =xxxxxx But i read about Business World, the newspaper. I think i should really do some cathing up on what's happening around the globe. Kinda interesting too yeah ;) Hahahas. It's also an ace up our sleeves.

I havn't any idea why, but when my father said "wah, it'd be good if dorcas tops her class" and gives me The Look, it really set me thinking. Is topping the class that important? What's so good about topping the class when your character and attitude is lyk shyt sia. =x Don't mean to offend anybody anyway. I mean, people can be from the normal or technical stream, and yet their character is so nice, so sociable. Is being sociable and flexible more important or are textbooks our lives? Even though the answer is crystal clear, some people still don't get it. Or rather... maybe they really care too much of their everything hierarchy. Really really, seems like parents nowadays care so much about this stuff. What stuff? Our rank in studies. Haha, yeah...but i think there are it's advantages and disadvantages. It pushes us, gives us stress, helps us to a certain extent. But i've seen cases whereby parents have gone too far. BLEAH them lar. =x However, i don't hide from the fact that i once was like them.

In order to prove to my parents i decided to study and push myself, and what happened actually was... i got drifted away from my very own close friends. I don't want that to happen again, because i feel that it's not worth it at all. Not one bit. It didn't help anyway, my studies didn't improve. Hahaha, i guess i've not been using the right technique in studying anyway.
On the other hand, we have to know how to balance both well. And tat is exactly what i'm trying to do. :) Friends are okay, studies are....erm, maybe you won't agree, but i find listening to teachers in class are the best way to understand and learn. Esp some really good teachers...like Mrs.Lye....Mrs.Cher.... Ms.Ivy Chan....and of course, Kaya, even though he's not teaching us anymore. If u read my posts from 2004, 2005 (wow, donkey years ago! *being overly sacarstic*) maybe u can get a glimpse of one part of a post of him or watever la. hahahas, some teachers are really -"teachers". Born to be! woo!

However... for other teachers, maybe relief, maybe not, i seriously detest. They don't do their jobs, no seriously, i'm not giving out an opinion from a student's view, but perhaps from... -_-' erm, a good student's view? x) Okay, cancel that. I'm sure every student knows what i mean, i hope.

Cuckoo clock guy went to church on 3rd Sept and changed his life. Hahha, he probably didn't change much, but that's on the account of "yet". He gets the meaning of life, in life, and i know it sounds very weird to say this, but... sometimes he seems like my angel. Okay, and sometimes maybe not. WTH right! Hahaha...but i guess we all have to go thru thick and thin together to know more, and maybe to get close, or drift further. Some things which are supposed to work out will come out good eventually. And therefore, all my goodfriends now... haha, they could be angels. Some of which i'm not very close to, some of which i hang out with almost everyday. Good friends from both categories i guess it's still counted. Hehehehe. But what i want to know is, Can Angels be Devils sometimes?

With that... goodynyght everyone! ^ ^ Still have school tom. WAH LEOOWWW.....

Blogged @ 11:56 PM

Things are getting better with friends. =)

But not for a friend of mine... this friend of mine is having his 'O's this year. And... i just don't know what his results will show. He is not the hardworking type, he spends his time just thinking on how to improve his own life, when life itself...i believe, or at least part of it, is written all over in your school's textbooks and workshits. Where can u go without an education?

Where can u go without knowledge of the world and it's politics?

Speaking of which... actually i have no idea how people remember politics stuff. Chim sia. (^_^")
So hard to remember lor... but anyway! Must be positive.............. *sticks out index finger and thumb* Go go go! =x

Best of luck for everybody who's gonna sit for their major exams!

Now back to my dear friend. Haiz... now i've just learnt something new, again. I guess when a particular friend or family member is down with stress, depression, or whatever reason that caused him or her to get into the not so positive note in life, just remember to stick by their sides, giving them moral support and all. But don't think you can change them. I have been so selfish, tried to change him for the better, but havn't really considered how difficult it is for him to do so. And of course, with the additional burden of me wanting him to change, he got more stressed up... i wonder if he has read my apology... sometimes we may try to help but everything just turns out wrong huh =Z omigod...

I guess what they need at that point of time is just some understanding... and a need to know that someone out there is actually there for them. Life is not always a Key of Pleasure or Lover's Dream. Life is reality.

What i feel about life is, what u've done is what u'll get. And.... it's just up to you to take control of ur own life. Thinking twice, as simple as it sounds, is actually really important for me... because i'll never know what's next on my mind. Do you?

I hope my friend will be okay. And i hope friend B will get over her crush's problem. =) Must be positive...............!!!! Wahahahaha! Who watched My Sassy Neighbour?!?!?!?!

Blogged @ 11:27 PM