Just Like Tides

I've been fucked up by a friend of mine today...that is, if i still consider him as a friend. But i think i shall not. And why would i still wanna take him as a friend, when he told me his own secrets, and it somehow got revealed later by nobody but his fuckself? And with that...he can FUCK OFF TO HELL. I'm not gonna let him spoil the rest of my night, which, i still have to revise for my physics test on Tuesday. To hell with stupid losers. It's your problem if ur secret slipped out of the bag, and i can swear that i've never told the gal anything. But anyway...u chose to flame me, and say it like everything's my fault. Stupid bastard...get lost. Don't ask any favours from me again. I will rather not help "friends" who don't trust me. Besides, i gave u a choice of whether to tell me or not, and u chose to. Loser...just because u got rejected and u're blaming it on me? U're such a loser...I HATE LOSERS. Havn't u learnt anything abt life thruout ur 15years of lifetime on this planet?

Aiya...away with that...

I upsetted someone the day before...and now he hasn't texted me all day. But i don't think i've done any wrong. Why should i apologize, when i havn't done anything? If u suay suay like me very much, then it's u who has to accept the consequences of liking me. You're not my boyfriend, so i still have my rights. Okay...even if i do have a bf, i will still make sure i have my rights. We are equal. This is getting stupid...Think abt this: Why can u go out with other gals, and claim them to be ur GOD SISTERS AND JUST CLOSE FRIENDS(alone, mind you)... and why can't I have my OWN CLOSE FRIENDS AND GOD BROTHERS as well? I'm not ur property, stop playing me around. It makes someone feel so restrictive...although u mean well, but things are not like this. Things will not flow the way u want it to be.
This is what that burns me up...if u can do ur own things, lead ur own life, so can i. And hold me too tightly, i'll just ignore u. Being good friends now is not so bad...can't u just think abt this?

"i dunno how to not love u and not protect u when u are around..."

Are these the words u say just to assure me that u love me so much that even ur life don't matter much to u anymore? Cutting wrists to prove that u really love me? If u love her...u'll love ur life. Because it's in ur life that u can continue chasing and loving her...

This proves that, WE ARE ALL STILL SO IMMATURE!

I know i treasure him...because he's always there for me when i'm in need. But i havn't the courage to ask if, it's because he likes me that he's doing all this for me... and if he don't love me anymore, then forget it, it's over. I won't help u anymore. So i'd rather keep him as a friend...and hope that the friendship will go on and on...so i'll not lose him. Rather than, going together for a few weeks, months, or if a maricle booms, years... and then we quarel and stop contacting each other ever again. (This is what it seems to be for the rest of the couples who've broken up)...But i cannot be selfish...So i've come to this conclusion. That there are only two ways out:
1) To stop contacting one another,
2) Or to carry on with him, though i'm feeling our friendship will never last, because he's only thinking of me now as a girl he's trying to chase, and that if he stops one day, we'll totally go silent.

However...having thought this...In order to not hurt him anymore, the best solution is 1...
How nice of love...how sweet...to spoil the earthlings' relationship with one another...
Melt My Icy Heart lor. Goodnight.

Hee hee... just testing out the uploading of pictures on blogger too, anyways! ^ ^

Blogged @ 10:44 PM

Yawnz...yeah i know it's late now, and that i have lessons tomorrow. But i just can't help stop noticing certain things about life. Even though i'm 15 gna be and still have probably... another few decades to live on this "living" rock, i know the route where i'm driving at now is the right track. Maturity is what something some people think they have but actually they don't. Like...what's it to know, when u suddenly wake up, okay... u kinda got ehem, ...enlightened... and realise that u're actually wrong all the while? No one can be too sure...one of my aims is to get confidence a key in my life and i know i've aquired it. Well...but maybe sometimes the key just happen to have some faults... oh well. And it cannot open the damn lock. But there is sucha thing such as being over confident...and honestly, i'm not even sure what i am anymore. This part of my life i have to unlock it slowly one by one myself...to find out and to explore. WAHHh......i feel like imma meditating monk!!!
Anyways, hehe. Mid-year's just around the corner and i guess i'm only prepared for certain subjects. =X Recently my school has been getting these new teachers...okay lah, some are not that sucky...But others are not really clear in what they teach. BORING.......@___@" I mean, it's STEWPID...how can they do this to us?!?! Ehem hem, okay...maybe i'm spitting too much. ^__^ Sianology. i seriously miss those days. Lower sec days.... when i'm not so busy and homework is...just not as heavy as now. The pile now is shit... But still have to go on! GO GO GO! *points out index finger and thumb* (Lalalalala...)
I guess teenage is a stage whereby teens, becoming an adult, come to realise the importance of their future bah. Hahahaha... Eh.... but it don't seem to be the case now. Right, or left? (._. ) Believing in oneself should be a good start. Things are not as complicated as it seems. Follow... what u have to follow... -ROFL. Actually over the secondary school years, i've gone thru quite abit =))) Hee, whether it's positive or negative... i'm still glad i've been thru all. Soooo.....like what my english classmates looove to say, The question of whether teenageros now are mature, comes in as a...
...Controversial issue. =) Okay, enuff for now. The bed's.....creepin up to me........@@

~GO GO GO! ^ ^ Hahahas, may the shit be with eu. 0_O

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Blogged @ 7:12 PM

Woah... I've never kindof expected a teacher to ask for me to update on my posts. I disagree with getting too close with a school teacher because i've experienced that before...and the outcome didn't quite turn out to be the way i wanted to.... x__X
But anyways... He really reminded me of when i used to love posting alot... Hahahas... and that i'd post everyday. But that was the past. Now is the present. I used to have alot of free time to do whatever i wanted to... But now my schedule is ficking * ;) * tight. SIGH! Two days of DNT... and the rest of the days i'm not really spared too. Wah leooow... and...i'd go back to envying the teens of the other countries(i'm meaning Europe and not China)... hahaha yah, although i know it's no use getting green over that but yeah... I HAVE FEELINGS TOO. *Green Green Green* Lululu...
Siansation. I have to do the linear equation homework later...and truthfully, i still don't really get it. Should stay back and ask for the AMaths teacher's help soon... But maybe my friends wouldn't want that...i dun noe... Hahahas....Maths just drives them nuts. Oh well...i hope it won't do the same to me. Maths is alot abt logic... once u've gotten the point, then u can solve whatever complicated questions. But logic is logic...and fick, i guess God havn't created logic to be understooded too easily by human beans. Blardy irritating sometimes... but well if there isn't stress u cannot succeed much anyways... Gagagaga...
Holey C0w......s0bs.......my studies have been depr0ving... fick fick fick! I just wonder how come some other friends of mine can still take things so simple... like as if they're exams are so far, a few light years probably, into the universe. Yeah...they're seriously having their honeystars years right now... but the future will be uncertain...
I don't deny...i'm kinda uncertain myself... Hahahhas.... Oh. Yah. I can still motivate myself. Lol...self-motivation. GO GO GO! *points out index finger and thumb* ;) Gagagaga!
Okay... lemmi go sleep first....homework...tomolo lah.... LOL. Hahahahas...
-It'z not just a fashi0n statement, it's a deAthwish.

Blogged @ 8:05 PM