Just Like Tides

blah.........no point brooding over the past. Might as well get on with life and live it! Break all the school rulez!!!! WAHAHAHaas wow that will definitely be memoriable*dunno how to spell*. HEhehehehe god brother just went home. Damn crazy and STEWPID!!!! XD What makes history??? TIme and Memory. SOmetimes i just wished that i could really plucked my brains off my skull and eat it.........yumYUMYUM =XXXXXX OOPS. HAppy tree friends!!! heheheheee.....and one more thingy...........I SWEAR AND PROMISE THAT I"LL NEVER EVER GET A BF TIL I"M 18 LOL, WHO WANTS TO BE MY BF ANYWAY XP i'm mad.................diaoZ mad wahahahas!! I wonder what my future will be like...........sigh, better start planning lOL x) i miss talking shit, not many people talk shit on msn nowadays. lalalalas..................ok, ignore me. I'm bonkers =X really, as u can see. *sticks out tongue*

~Others can only make ur change temporarily*dunno how to spell again*, only you can make a permanent change on ur own life.

Blogged @ 11:23 PM

hehehhee weee~~!!!!! Ah.........tired.............hahaahazzzz today Benny was mad, but Sheryl was even more mad. xPp Not bad today. Arh.........but..............I STILL WANNA CHANGE MY SEAT......................................................... X) X) X) X) X) X) X) X) X) X) X) X) X) X) X) X) X) X) X) Sobsob............tomorrow my father's taking off day and i cannot go help out at the musical..........quite.........sad lah.........honestly, but my parents were understanding enuff when i reached home at 12.05A.M TODAY. DIdn't shout at me, probably because i grow up liao?? Probably because i'm too old for them to shout or scold me when i reach home late @__@;; eh. .......i don't wanna grow up =Z bleaHZ ^__^ gOodnighT!!!!

Blogged @ 1:13 AM

today was blablabla...........my seat is changed again. -___-; sigh.................then after school got air bang bang but XT didn't wanna go. Then kaya gave me apple...........was stupefied.........didn't accept the rotten apple becus i'm not good enuf.................diaoZ! WAhahas and air bang bang, we shot 100 shots today..........shiok?!?!?!??!? Yes...........very shiok....................X) My 20 shots on my first card was Oh My Mary! ;) THen the rest of the cards slacked..........maybe hand's not strong enough? Went home with Jedric*dunno how to spell*.......he always waits for us..........DIAOZ cus some.................gay.................told him to =X lalalalaaaaas sigh..........have to stay back for the props thingy starting from tomorrow........tired, tired, tired........................die, die, died....................why nobody help me prepare my coffin wan???? :'(
nah, juz kidding -_-;

~Pain.

Blogged @ 7:25 PM

chose the topic pain cus i think it's interesting. Pain... i felt pain again today, emotionally.
i'm sorry cuckoo clock..................if u're reading this by any chance. But i don't understand either........why do u have to make it sound so bad ....thanks for informing that friend/enemy of urs * i dunno* not to go to the library......i think that's something great. ANd sorriea...abt some other things... . ...do you feel the pain too. . ?

~damn the reality.

Blogged @ 8:54 PM

今天一个二十五岁的男人在 skype 里和我做了朋友! 哈哈, 他好好玩也. 但是他是从中国那边来的. 所以...有些他写出来的华文字我太不明白, 然后就要烦我的爸爸来帮我解释. ^__^" 哇, 中国的华文跟新加坡的真的有很大的差别也. 这是为什么啊? 我门两国还不是一样, 学华文吗? 啊, 我也是应该多讲和写华文吧!!!　不然会被看不起的　＠＿＿＠； ok, 我.......累了.........xP Switch back to english!!! Now i really know what other people from other countries think about Singaporeans. Sad to say...........hmm...............i don't think they really like us. That China chap said that Singaporeans don't really like to talk to China people, mainly becus of their english..........well, Xing Zi is ok what..........=) Er jiujiu introduced me to a friend of his from hong kong a few days back, and the hong konger said that Singaporeans use too much singlish..... told her that we might be using alot of singlish, but when it comes to the real thing, during exams, we'll know how to switch back to proper english. I....hope so =X Xiao Tong is ok what.......=) i'll write the rest down in my diary.....i tired now. buaiZ!

Blogged @ 1:08 AM

Today.......tired............dunno how many calories i burned XP Went to the gym with my sister. It's ok lah........just that i felt a little weird and wondered whether we're allowed inside the gym anot. Cus went i stepped in the gym, everyone there have BIG BIG MUSCLES................some are sooo big that........*speechless* Ok, maybe not everyone. Most of the everyone there. DId the runny runny machine thingy first. I'll probably not use it again.........it sux!!! U'll feel like fainting and get dizzy...........it's very different from running on the ground....or at least something like that. Then there's the cyling thing........quite tiring too xP I'd wanna go to the gym again :) Maybe i'll call jelly along. Hope sherlyn or the rest wanna go too........the more the mellier =P Ah shit..............think running in the stadium burns more calories than in the gym..............stupid muscles................i don't have any :'( Btw...i really admire my stead. She's good.....damn good.

Blogged @ 10:54 PM

sigh.....i thought it was going to be okay but looks like it's not. Maybe.....i'll just ask Miss.Gan tomorrow after school..........i'll wait one more day. I'll see how it goes...........i'll tolerate :x History test tml. USSR is to be passed up tomolo too xP die la..........think there's so many others who didn't do their ussr too X__X" I don't wanna go to school anymore............maybe i'll just break a few school rules to vent out my.....weird weird feelings that i'm experiencing now?!?!?! Anger, confusion, craziness, sadness, happiness all mixed into one!!! SIAO LIAO XPPP Looks like u can trust no one anymore, confusing, no close friends, but full of best friends....what the use.......ever felt this way....? Sure u have..... If u've never experienced this kindof weirdy, then u've not seen even half of the world yet! i wanna have one close friend, at least one.......but everytime when i'm sure it's this one, ARghh...........think i prefer writing it in me diary. Sometimes i just feel that u've got to expect the unexpected*duh..* and.. the unexpected, it's not very nice. well.....but of course there are nice ones too la. Went for nutball today for some reasons, and they still treated me like a nutballer. :) My leg is aching....x) toooo long a time no play netball liao!!!! MY face was burning when the game stopped!!!!

~ it saddens me...it pains my heart. Everytime i think about it...i just couldn't hOld back tears. ...BUT WHY?

Blogged @ 7:34 PM

Arrrrrr.............just finished my 12 pages of............."fantastic" science theory homework XP Actually....to think of it........sitting with Weihao, Satbi, Natasha or Benny's not so bad after all. They're my classmates.........afterall X) Tomolo will be a new beginning! *positive positive positive* lalalalalalaas................. sigh......but the sudden change of seating arrangements are not nice to get used to.....if u know what i mean. I think almost all of us are not so happy with the new arrangement. Obvious!!! sigh sigh sigh sigh =X Miss Gan...............hope u can think again about our seatings wor. LOL she's not even reading this. @__@;; Today learnt another new lesson.....which, i shall write it in my personal diary x) ER............maybe tomolo. I'm dead beat!!!! Night ^V^

~If FaTe bRougHt us TogeTher agAin, I'll nOt regRet haVing u as A FrieNd......~ =) I miss my DaRlinKk!!! =X uh oh..............LESBIANA!!!!!!!!!!!!

Blogged @ 11:39 PM

SOB...............SOBSOBSOB.................Miss Wu and Miss Gan changed our seats................................i dunno what to say.......................................except SOB and I DUN WANNA STUDY LIAO LAH!!!! -__-;; DOtZ i was juz kidding. DOTZ. DOTZZZ X 100000000000 times. THIS'S ANGERING ME!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO............................................red red red red red!!! -__-;; BLACK BLACK BLACK BLACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Siah lah.....alot of people are unhappy about it too. ok. bye bye.

Blogged @ 7:59 PM

Today went for air bang bang again. My..stead.......couldn't go.........='( what kindof stead is she!?!? @__@ well anyway i don't tink she wanna go too.....sho........................nvm. Today the training was abit tougher than the last. ABit only xPPP But anyway............after dinner, i immediately hit the bed at 7.30p.m and alllll the way til 10.30 xP My........homework...............i'm doing it now. Lalalalalala..........shomebody's computer crashed..............hehehehe but nvm lah......maybe she can take that chance to kill the computer eddict in her =D oh shit, but liang wei will catch up with her in maplestory........................hahaha ok. night. *YAWNNNNNNNN* Oh shucks think i better go brush my teeth first. Eh wait....i alredi have.......eh did i?!?!?!? oh yeah, i did. k, night.

Blogged @ 11:51 PM

sometimes u have to admit that she's a bloody freaking Q#_$#(@_%()@#%. ALways complicating things, always changing her mind at the very last minute, and is so........freako minded.... sigh.......yeah, although i like her, she's a real pain sometimes.....and it's just that part of her that she's gotta change. That's what my view is about me if i were to be someone else. Not much confidence and pride and no nothing.... demoralizing myself, yeah. But i don't care ah..........i wanna be a better person. But how? What should i do??? .........Step 1: Build up ur self-confidence. Let's try it out falalalaazzz
~ my sistar'z birdday todae!!!! ^__^ ``

Blogged @ 9:33 PM

Today i've got wet like i've never got wet b4!!!! =D i'm so glad everything went on as per usual.......i......suddenly feel happy hahaha insanity!?!??!?! Wrote him a letter of apology and told him not to stick that "Chapter 6" handphone keychain that his gf gave him outta his pocket*lalalala*, LOL! Jelly also said sorry ^__^" But i didn't want Mr.Gunawan to read it in class in front of me.....so i asked him to read it later then he smiled!!! Hmm......aiyo, i don't get him. Welll................goodnight!!! SwiT dreAmms guYs!!! ^V^ lalalala.....

Blogged @ 10:32 PM

AIZ........today i did something horribible and i'm regretting it alot... Went to the Science thingy after school with my classmates and 2e1, i think i'm behaving very bad in public. AiZ after the talk, we went to roam around the centre. Then we came to this room, and Xiu tong and i started playing -_-; I'm so goddamn childish! She took my wallet then i wanted to snatch it back. As usual..........Jelly found yet another moth and was showing it off to XIng Zi, Stead and the rest...and as per usual too, they were almost freaked out.......then i suddenly stretched my hand over the table to grab my wallet back from XT but accidentally crushed her poor moth. Ok, i didn;t even know that i'd crushed it........but later realised that when jelly suddenly said "FUCK U!" and hit me on my head!!! Mr.Gunawan saw everything but he just stared at me and kept quiet. He didn't know what to say. Sigh.....felt each and every cell in my body burning........RED HOT. Said sorry to jelly anyway -_-; though i really didn't wanna say it, i did crush the moth afterall. Walked outta the centre and in a fit of anger i pushed the glass door open real hard and it clashed onto another glass window. Quite loud. Amanda was the first to console me........thanks amanda....didn't really expect that to happen... then the others came too..... including Mr. GUnawan :S Knew i was in trouble.. I was crying kindof hard and maybe he saw me crying so he didn't really shout......damn i feel like crying againnnnnn said that i almost broke the glass then i said sorry again. Hope i won't always say sorry. Sounds very..... ~ I HATE MYSELF!!!!! Freaking hell how in the world can i even do this........................HAIZ......have to pass the practical book to him tml. Maybe i should write a letter and apologize again :S or i'll tell him myself lah....i dunno.... embarrassing....... i'm never doin that agAIN. .......i can't get rid of the guilt in my mind and heart i can't now that i've done it, it cannot be reversed
I've gotta change for the better!!! I"M SORRY WHITLEY SEC and.....MR.GUnawan and Mrs/Miss. CheR

Blogged @ 7:18 PM

haizzz ever felt like u nv belong, ever felt like u're the only one in this world that's having so much troubles so many that u couldn't possibly count them, one by one, hundreds by hundreds, thousands by millions by billions ah bla bla bla.. i pity her wor... i mean why pretend to be someone u're not, y pretend to be happy when u're not, hiding the feelings bottled up inside u might as well go find a trustworthy friend and spill some beans outta the bag... ..haix. Ok, if i were her i'd also keep my feelings to myself lah. that is.. if i don't find that i've someone great enuf to share wif. HaiXzz uh oh here i m talking rubiish again. I miss the old times haix! Idiot.......it would've been better if we still remained as b4. But anyway no point thinkin abt it now.... what'as gone has gone.. . .stupid idiot!!! X( maybe this's the only biggest mistake i've ever made this year maybe this's fate.... fate? Sorriea, -girl-.... ....but anyway it's no use brooding over the past, why not just get over and done with hoR dirgeinlrf!?!?!? LAlAZ, tml going to stay over at some resort with my family and relatvies :) I can't wait to see SAMUEL!!!! But don't think i wanna stay long, was.....planning.......my time to do.......something else.........xp If i'd say it out u all'll nv believe me X_X ok. bb.

Blogged @ 9:40 AM

DiaRy!!!!!!! Just ran about 2km.........wasan......!!!! xP Die die die..........cannot even complete about 2km run.................i'm dead x_x Welllll........it wasn't so tiring but it's painful. I mean, stitch as the sides. Ok...maybe that's termed as tired lah =X My father said that he used to run 7km non-stop.....................over at mount faber. THen i was there "KaoZ-ing" -in my mind- when he told me ^__^ Powder!!!!!!!! I can't belive that i'm not even able to complete one whole round........xP ok.....maybe it's too big lalalalalaa......... ~ then there's this bicycle man at the beginning of my run i ran pass him.. then he looked at me with his "scary but not so scary" eyes and said something which i did not hear because i was listening to my MP3 and also because i wasn't interested in him LOL hehehehehe....ok Need to go eat my late dinner liao.........CIAO!!!!! :)

Blogged @ 8:09 PM