A while ago, I couldn't breathe because I felt Your presence in my heart.
But now I can't breathe,
because I can't decide.
I remember how much I want to bring the lost and tired home,
but now I have a heart in vagabondage.
How do I take others' hands when I need one so badly in my own.
Can I take your hand?
Not only do I really want it, I want to have it.
What I want to remember is Renewal's Got Talent 2009.For someone who doesn't dream,
GOD gave me a dream.
CLAYWAW was my dream.
'The Playground' pulled the road out for my dream.
The very short and sweet dream only consisted of a band and a song.
And this christmas, we had an excellent time fulfilling this dream together.
No, we didn't win.
No, it didn't matter.
Because people heard our song, and that was all I asked for.
I wanted to give Jesus Christ the best gift on his birthday.
But when I got off stage and the lights dimmed,
there came uncertain tears of joy.
That was it, the performance was over.
For the blood you shed and nailed hands,
this was all I could give you this christmas.
Truth is beautiful, without doubt; but so are lies.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson
I don't want to tell lies.
I don't want to put on a facade.
Would things be different if I never grew up to know things I didn't want to know?
One year ago, things were different.
So much different.
2009 was starting, 2008 was gone.
I want to know what 2010 will bring me, what I will become.
But then again, lies are beautiful too.
Hi Szemin,
I was at the prayer meeting on Tues and some how God impressed on me to communicate to you about your Renewal Got Talent performance. I would like to encourage you that God has given you and your sister a song and this is a message that he would like you to communicate to those coming that day as audience:
It does not matter if you win or not, you need to allow yourself as an empty vessel to allow His spirit to work through your voice, lyrics, body language to communicate about Him to the people coming that day. This should be the purpose of you joining and you need to believe in it. Lastly, do not be afraid of your skills etc, on that day, just know that it’s God working through you.
You need to start believing. Start believing and be convinced not in what you can do but rather what He has purposed and will do through you.
God Himself will use that song to touch hearts. You need to put your resolution to be used only as a vessel for God on that day. So pray and prepare hard to that day when you use your talents and the song He has provided to glorify Him and point others to Him. Well, I am only saying this as this was what He told me and my role is also to be a vessel to carry His message. That’s all we do, in different ways. A lot of times as performers, we think it’s us but really it's not, we are there because He has allowed it.
We sing, talk, and play an instrument because He wants to work thru us.
Thankyou Pan Liang. When you told me about being an empty vessel for Christ so that I can be completely fill by Him, it reminded me of CLAYWAW: Come to the Lord All You Who Are Weary. 'CLAY' being a tool for You to mould and 'CLAYWAW' meaning that my band will play songs which will bring the lost and tired back to Christ//////
So, I found my group name.
CLAYWAW.
I won't be doing Street E this saturday.If I were to go, it would be my first time!!!!!
I really want to go for it.
But I know of another channel in which I can share the good news!
(Walk, walking, walk, and I stopped you by the street.)
(I opened my mouth and I said)
Hi! I'm Sze Min from Renewal Christian Church!
You: Uh. Hi.
Do you have any wishes this christmas?
(Hands you paper and pen)
(You thought about it and scribbled something on the paper)
Thankyou! And here's a candy cane for you!
(Pulls out a piece of candy cane and places it in your hand)
Have you heard of the candy cane story?You: No.
Well, there was once an old man who enjoyed making candies for all to eat.
(I will tell you the rest later!)
I still remember clearly when the desire for God in my heart started to drift away. It was like I couldn't feel his presence even though I know He's already here, with me and wherever I go.
In a prayer meeting last month, I asked God to give me challenges.
Challenges.
I realised that I should have been more careful with what I pray.
Because not only do wishes come true, prayers hold even more power.
For me, they come true instantly.
How do I say that?
Because the very next day, my phone got taken away.
However, I got a treat. My flight to Korea was only a day away. I considered it as a blessing cuz then in Korea, I have one less electronic device to care for(other than my camera). Hmm, stupid cupidity. I felt bare without my phone. So I brought a thumbdrive in my wallet. For no particular reason but because, because!
In retrospect, I realised what my first challenge from God was. It was to learn to live without something so dear to me.
Did it work? Did I endure?
Yes I did! I was out of reach for two whole weeks. During that period of time, every payphone I saw had a glorious light shining on them. I started collecting coins. But my parents couldn't take it. They couldn't take the fact that I WAS OUT OF CONTACT=CONTROL. (he he he) So I got a bluetoothless and camera-less phone. Oh, AN ARMY PHONE!!!!!!!!
This picture has to do with my second challenge. This picture was taken during our practice before the audition.The smiles plastered on our faces .............................. got us through.
I'm so glad God put me together with them because they are so positive and talented and patient. It's not easy putting a song together. But they made it happen, together with me.
What we really need now is a group name!
So what's really the challenge? I'll tell you when I find ourselves a group name.
