- 20112011 -

Whoohoo~ So it's 20112011 today and I woke up early to doll myself up for Stella's solemnization! First of my friends my age to get married *-* We were chatting over lunch that it seems like yesterday we were attending each other's 21st birthday parties and now we are attending weddings -_-"' And next up will be baby showers mann. *restrains from saying WTF*

It was a simple, small but beautiful affair. All close friends and immediate family members. Here are some of the photos we took! Some of them are pictures of Polaroids so there are reflections :(

The theme was Coral or Yellow, so here's us in Coral!! Whoots~ Well..not many people actually stuck to the theme except us. There were even some who turned up in black! O_O But I got to admit the pictures turned out really nice because all of us turned up in cheery colours. I said all of us but actually mean just 4 of us because I only know them in the whole party. So loserish right? I know -_-"' AND! I just got to know Amy today. At the party. She's the one in yellow :) I really like her though!

Oh that's me hugging the AngPow Box..err...AngPow Birdcage?

We were waiting for the rain to stop and had to entertain ourselves...

Ahh! Amy kept this Polaroid because she really liked it. So I snapped a shot of it instead.

Oh erm self-entertaining before the event started...My hair was in a big mess this morning despite my shower so I ended up braiding my hair. Thank goodness you can't see my hair from the back. It was a bigger mess :(

And that's me with the pretty bride~~

We just HAD to pose with the birdcages. They are like the centerpieces ok.

I really like this shot too because of the colours. My eyes..could be bigger. HMMPH!

Ok, that's all I have for now because the pictures take so long to upload! Ciaos~ It's time to return to W.O.R.K. tomorrow.

Talking about work..despite the small turnout today, there's actually a friend of the bride who works in the same organization. What a small world. *shudders*

- 11. 11. 11 -

Hahaha obviously i'm not blogging this exactly at the time stated but I had a great time on 11.11.11! A date that only takes place once in 1000years! ^^ The lovely people whom I spent my day/night/morning with.

Really miss Nibbles - my big sister, my confidante, my pillar of support. Ever since she left, this is the first gathering we have had. Things are never the same without her. I have been too used to having her at a click of a mouse away or a few rows away from my desk. We have seen each other cry, laugh and scream. And we have seen each other in the most unglam acts!

We were supposed to meet up to treat her for dinner because it's her birthday the next day but the waiter gave her the bill when the 3 of us went to the toilet ROFL! Time just flew by. As we wanted to spend more time together, we ended up going for some drinks.

And the time flew by even faster. HAHAH. Nibbles took this of me and said that she didn't want me to be the focus of the picture. She wanted "Little Creatures Brewing" to be the focal point. OH WELLS. HAHAHA.

Well..as previously mentioned, time flew by and we sort of counted down to her birthday together. I guess I was pretty lightheaded by then. I woke up today with my head throbbing :/ Despite the drinks, I actually didn't sleep well.

The past month was a whirlwind of events and changes, laughter and heartaches. Can't believe she has left us for almost a month now. I miss her dearly!

Happy Birthday Nibbles! Love you lots <3

- 負けました -

私。。。負けました。

ちょっと早いですね。

私。。。最低だ。自分のせいだったんだ。

終わりました。

今まで、お世話になりました。

- 危ないですか -

Taking one of the biggest gambles in my life to date.

Show me the right way, dear God. I am lost.

- フェンテム -

Just finished watching Phantom of the Opera! What an amazing musical!!!!

- 本当にできるか -

I was re-reading some of my past blog posts and I realised what an emotional roller-coaster ride the past few months have been.

Every entry documents not just the activities I have done, but the thoughts and feelings of that particular event.

Thank God for this long weekend though! Things have been pretty tough recently due to numerous reasons. It's a good time to recharge and think things through.

But then again, too much time to think may also not be a good thing. While I was reeling in happiness from a particular source a few days back, I find myself feeling unsettled after my so-called rational thinking process. Doubt and apprehension seeped in, which led to the confidence scale tipping and then the happiness was replaced by unhappiness.

It scares me how affected I get. I can easily feel extreme emotions in one day, possibly accruing from the same source. So I came up with my own theory of See-Saw Emotions.

Haha or rather I likened my happiness to be like a see-saw. One side denotes Happiness, while the other Unhappiness. The point where the Plank of Happiness balances is what I refer to as the Pivot. The more pivots you have to support your Plank of Happiness, the less fluctuations you will face in terms of Happiness.

This can be explained scientifically. More pivots, less fluctuations. So the pivots are what affects your mood. May it be your job, relationship, friendship, money matters etc. Imagine your mood is solely affected by a certain factor, say Love. A little shift in the Pivotal position will cause your Plank of Happiness to tilt either way.

Assuming you add more pivots to support your Plank, a slight change in position of one of the pivots will not affect your Plank to swing up or down so fast as it will be supported by your other pivots. So what I am trying to say is that we shouldn't allow our happiness to hinge solely on one factor as it causes large fluctuations to our moods.

I recognise that the size of the Pivots may differ as people place different emphasis on each aspect of their lives. Well..my advice would be to resize the pivots to make them as equal as possible but that is only the ideal situation. And reality is far from ideal.

I'm currently struggling to resize my pivots as my plank mainly hinges dangerously on one while the other pivots are smaller in size.

Thinking too much is no good huh! Haha hope you enjoyed reading my warped theory of See-Saw emotions! :) I'm pretty proud of it actually!! Tipping more towards happiness now!!

- 困ってる -

感到很懊恼，到底如何是对的？

教えてください。

- 空 -

この感じ、久ぶりですよね。毎晩わくわくしてかもしれない,寝られなかった。ちょっと嬉しいけど、怖いよ。このステプは正しい?？答えがないね。どうすっればいい?　

あのとき全部のこと、思い出しました。今回も同じ結果?もしそうでは、あたし耐えられないと思うよ。絶対判れるです。