Too much anticipation

Aaron just can't take it!!! And now, I'm is starting to wonder if I will obtain my goal for today - be a good mommy and not yell at the kiddies....

Reflection

How time changes things...
On Sunday our family met with our good bishop for tithing settlement. Mark is our ward's financial clerk, so he was already at the church when we got there. He had been going through old documents and shredding them. When I walked in, he handed me some papers and said, "Take a look at that."

I assumed these were our statements from 2008 and that I should review them before meeting with the bishop. They were actually our statements from 2005. When I looked at the total contributions for the year, I could hardly believe the amount; this was during a time where we as a family were struggling to stay afloat. Mark had lost his job of 10 years, and we were basically starting over. I often wondered how we were going to make it and take care of our growing family. I had to put some of my pride aside and let others help us. Where are we now?

I know you don't need all the details, some I would rather forget about anyway. But since that time, Mark has not only received a bachelor's degree, he's also graduated with a Master's degree. He has a great job working full time as a civil engineer, and I actually have a part time job using some of the skills I went to school for. I work as a contractor updating and editing web pages for OSHA.

I sometimes wonder why our Heavenly Father blesses our family so much. There is so much more we could be doing better in our lives, yet, as the loving Father He is, he sees fit to bless us and help us along this journey we call life.

Little A's special Day

I knew I was blessed to have a wonderful husband, but after days like today, I'm reminded of it even more. I'm grateful that Mark was able to give Alex his name and blessing.

The blessing Mark gave was amazing to me. I didn't cry until Mark sat back down next to me, then I couldn't stop. Mark said that Alex just sat there and smiled and watched him the whole time.

Mark found some information for me on LDS.org from an Ensign article from December 1988 (the article I'm referring to isn't at the top of the page, it's the second question, that of naming and blessing a child) that helped me better understand the importance of this ordinance. After reading what Mark found, giving Alex his name means so much more to me. I wish I had the URL to where Mark found this material, it answered my question and gave some great insight to this ordinance. How grateful I am to be Alex's mother, to have helped create his little body and be able to name him.

I guess I needed to better appreciate my good husband and be reminded of how much he does for us as a family and for me specificially. Now he has to go out of town on business for the week. I am a little worried as this will be the first time he's been gone since we've had Alex. I get to be the mom to THREE boys all by myself. I'm just hoping I'm up to the challenge and that I'll be blesssed will be LOTS of patience. I'm going to need -- I'm just sure of it.