Do u think u cry more when ure watching dramas when ur troubled?

Can u say that some things aren't meant for everyone?

Like, ok now probably ALL ur friends who are the same age as u are studying right? Cos we're meant to? I think academic stuff and.. non academic stuff have the same weightage in life, but not on paper la. But, why is it that not everyone is meant to do the non academic stuff? Why is it so one-sided?

Does being good academically make u better than other ppl? Of course u get more respect at first, but if that's the only thing ure good at, a bit lame la =.=

OMG THIS IS SO CRAPPY =.= im probably only writing it cos im not studying XD

And, i really find it very sad that my dad doesn't care abt anything other than studying(ok la not until like THAT but...) . Like when i tell him abt smt i really like, and am really excited abt, like abt smt that makes my day(but like when it's close to exams), all he says is

'ok, but did u study or not?' or 'aiyo, u didn't study?'

then i don't feel like telling him anything d. and then after that(like a week or more?) he'll be 'how come u never tell daddy one?'

Like why can't u be happy for someone? It's not difficult right? the only thing u have to move are ur lips =.= Don't ppl know all the little details matter?

And how well can parents say they know u? hahaha ok i admit my mum knows me well XD but like, still, i don't think any parent REALLY REALLY knows their kid. so i really don't like it when they go 'U THINK I DUNNO U MEH?' and proceed with shooting u with all the bad things they know abt u. Then for example they ask 'WHY?' they always think they know why =.=

Who sits down and actually talks to their parents? Like tell them abt what's troubling them? (no it's not a WHO THE HELL does it question, im really asking) I don't. Like i don't think i've ever done it. and maybe i've been forced to a few times. NOT COUNTED. I really wanna know who does it. And how?? I dunno la, i find it suuuuper difficult to actually say what i feel =/ i think it's cos i find it soooo, bleh. AIYO I DUNNO WHAT IM TALKING ABT LA.

I tell u, it's finals that are getting to me la =.=

this is the crappiest post ever.

After finals, or maybe not, i WILL do a post on my new obsession SUPER JUNIORRRR =D =D =D

I hardly ever have favourite artists, so it MEANS alot XD

I just spent ALOT, and i mean ALOT of time watching videos with them in it O.O

DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Sparky XD

SO yesterday, on the 16th of October, me, calvin, wei ken, matt, lauren, ch'n-wen (tcw) and wanru went to Bangsar shopping centre (BSC), Alexis to have lunch to celebrate Matt and Tcw's 18th birthday.

I'm still thinking like 'HUH 18 d ah?' It doesn't feel like we've been friends for what, 6 years d. We're getting old i tell u.

I really have to learn how to take pics of food properly =.= it doesn't do them justice by judging them based on the pics. It doesn't even look nice. hahaha. I ordered this Nasi Istimewa Alexis. Realised i don't really enjoy this kind of rice and combination of things.

The birthday kids. AHHAHA. I really like this picture =)

Wei ken!! ahahhaha we all like his hair XD

Calvin and Matthew. so barbaric.

Tcw and Lauren. The only HELP ppl among the 7 of us. hahaha.

Wan Ru and me.

The guys.

And the girls =)

=D I'm really glad that we've been good friends since form 1 =) (ok la calvin form 2) haha.

Sparky XD

AND.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TCW AND MATT =)

My camera died and this com can't read the memory card so i can't transfer the pics through the cable =.=

TMR.

Sparky XD

YOU'RE FAT XD

Ok, so, yes it's what everyone always says to me, of course i don't deny it, and i am! but like, WHY do ppl say it?

No, this is not a I HATE PPL post, it's just smt i've always wanted to type abt, and not just replay it over and over again in my head.

Like, is there something wrong with fat ppl? haha. Why do ppl have to say it to ur face? isn't it like a super known fact that weight issues are VERY sensitive to ppl? Especially to girls. U see celebrities get shot down with all these mean comments and you're like 'so mean.' but don't ppl do it all the same?

Eventhough it's been happening to me since FOREVER, and i'm definitely used to it, i wouldn't say i'm numb towards these type of comments. WHO WOULD? it's almost like saying ur first love will never mean anything to u after 5 years =.= ok that didn't make sense XD

So, i mean srsly la, why do ppl do it? No one's perfect, but why do ppl always pick on weight issues? (actually weight issues are not the only things ppl pick on =/ EVERYTHING is. height, hair, clothes, speech, u name it. hahaha but i'm only gonna say weight issues la cos it's a highlight XD) does it make ppl FEEL better? do ppl think it makes the person their picking on feel better?

Everytime i think abt anything, i always put myself in everyone's perspective, so that i kinda get a gist of what each pihak would feel abt that thing. As someone who was neither teasing or getting teased, id be thinking 'why would ppl do that?'

I dont understand why ppl would laugh along also =/ like if ppl saw their friend being treated like that, and they KNOW it hurts them, why do ppl laugh along? (Shouldn't they be standing up for their friends?? ) No one can say they've laughed along before, cos it's all part of growing up, and there's nothing wrong. I mean u can't always go 'EH dont do that la.' or 'stop it' or else ppl would call u a party pooper and wouldn't wanna be friends with someone who doesn't wanna joke around right?


I guess for joking around and teasing, there has to be a more forgiving side. and of course i mean the picked on side! if not it'd kinda be a one time thing right =.= tease one time, cry, end. Ya of course it's just fun and play, but does it mean if the picked on side DOESN'T give in, the person gets relentlessly teased for i dunno, FOREVER?

Everyone has only so much patience and tolerance, and no, i have not reached mine (i don't think i should be the one who has to let ppl know when it happens, ppl have to learn themselves right?) , EVERYONE will, trust me, it only take so much to break that oh-so thin thread. I dont want this to be abt me. I mean of course the reason i'm typing this post is because it's smt close to my heart, but i want it to be addressed as general as possible. Hence, 'ppl' and 'their' instead of like 'you'.

Respect. Don't ppl have to respect each other? family, friends, strangers. Ppl allow themselves to get teased, thinking 'maybe if i'm nice and give ppl smt to laugh abt, they'll like me' or 'aiyo, tease only la, playing around only ma' or 'if i make a scene, nothing will be the same again.' or 'later they dont talk to me already.' U get the picture.

Ppl allow it to happen, because, if it happens so often, what will happen if it stops? What is going to fill the space that was once filled with mockery, jokes and all? I'm sure ppl cannot help thinking 'if it stops, what if there's nothing to talk abt?' of course, there can't be NOTHING to talk abt, but come on, why would thoughts like these even cross ppls' minds unless, unless their constantly being teased?

How does respect come into the picture? It doesn't. Don't ppl deserve respect? How can ppl be friends if they don't respect each other? how can ppl be a family if there is no respect among each other? How do ppl SHOW they respect someone, i don't think it's by picking on someone's flaws, or just picking on someone, for that matter =.=

And what happens if one day the thread DOES break? I'm pretty sure things will NEVER be the same =/ But if ppl never see the thread break, how will they know when it's too much? When will they realise that everyone has their pride, and ppl can't just keep bringing it down? MARUAH DIRI. Ring any bells?

Oops i think my tone is getting higher. SHIT SARCASMMMMM. hahaha. no that wasn't funny :(

AND, why do ppl think they can just go up to ppl and say 'you're fat.' or 'your nose is funny.' or 'you're flat.' or 'your balls are small' (HAHA)? WHY? Do ppl do it because of their insecurities? Just because ppl laugh it off DOES NOT mean their hearts suddenly light up and glow in the dark (LAME XD), it just shows they can't be bothered with addressing your bluntness and having to explain that what you're doing is clearly not nice =.=

I don't think the best way to bring up sensitive issues is through bluntness. I mean you can't go 'ok, so your daughter died.' or 'WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU WEARING?!' YOU JUST CAN'T =.= it's plain mean and NOT understanding at all. What if what the person wore had sentimental value, what if it was her/his fav piece EVER, what if the child was EVERYTHING to that person? EVER HEARD OF SUBTLETY?

I SRSLY HAVE NO IDEA WHERE THIS IS GOING XD

Anyway, never take ppl for granted, never assume you know someone ( i don't think anyone can actually be figured out, sadly =/)

Next time ppl pick on someone, they should look at themselves in a mirror =.= NO ONE'S PERFECT OK.

And, after reading this, PRETEND YOU NEVER READ IT. It's one of those things i don't want to be addressed abt because i just needed to express myself, and i don't need anyone telling me if i'm right or wrong =.=

Ok la, tjen, carmen, BEN, tcw, wanru and nat can :) and no i don't mean u ppl have to. ahhahaha.

I FEEL SO HAPPY NOW =)

Sparky XD

FINALLYYYY.

Please ignore the fact that i put 3 posts worth of pics in 1 post XD I just wanted to get it over with =)

Bangsar Shopping Centre (BSC) at night. SO NICE =)

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So like i mentioned, i went for S6's lantern festival thing and Broga Hill climb last weekend.

First, mahjong at the Ooi mansion(choong hern's hse) XD HAHAHA. Yes i was very sad cos i didn't (and still don't) know how to play mahjong.

Tjen, Chun Foong and Jessica.

Justin, Yong Sen (sp) and Choong Hern outside playing uh, another version of mahjong? =/ haha sry i srsly am not sure. But the tiles were different. And the game got 'EH I DIE ALREADY!'

Me and Jessica.

I swear, it's getting harder and harder to take nice pics. OR, we're just more fussy XD I mean, the last time no digital camera right, so u'd only take 1 pic of the subject, instead of 6239463986 ones and picking what, ONE? haha

The guys starting the fire. It kinda drizzled so we didn't go to the bbq pit.

'WHERE'S THE CAMERA???' HAHAH. They wanted to get Justin with the smoke on top of him and all. He looks so... ancient=old XD jk la, more like, a revered figure XD

Argh, chose the blur pic =/ lazy to upload again. Voon Bing, Kai Zong (sp), Ling Keat, Chun Foong (sitting), Jia Wu, Pei Wen.

Tjen, Choong Hern, Jessica.

S6 - missing some ppl. Oops there's like a dust particle on Voon Bing. Sorry!

+ me XD

Havent done this in SO long, at least with a big bunch of ppl =) Walked around the neighbourhood. Was fun.

Group pic!!!

They were toasting to, everything XD

The way back to the Ooi mansion was filled with Moonlight Resonance, cantonese dramas, and debate over the best looking TVB actors XD

The ppl who sleptover were Me, Tjen, Jason, Voon Bing, Chun Foong, Jeremy, Jia Wu and Ling Keat. Apparently Neo came back at 2 ish (am!) after going home or smt. We all went to sleep at 1am and got up at 4.30am. hahaha we were late XD

Choong Hern, Voon Bing, Chun Foong (3 only right?) drove the rest of us to Broga Hill. *salute* i was sleeping in the car XD

Got there around 6 ish. Then OFF WE WENT.

Pics on the way up.

When we were on the 1st peak. Yes there were like 4 or 5? like after we reached the first there was another one behind it, and behind that one was another one, and another one, u get it =)

Ok, so there were altogether 10 of us who went hill climbing. Me, Tjen, Jason, Voon Bing, Jia Wu, Ling Keat, Neo, Jeremy, Kai Zong, Choong Hern.

Tjen and I.

Hahaha. Kai Zong, Ling Keat and Choong Hern standing, Jia Wu and Jeremy sitting.

Kai Zong, Jeremy, Choong Hern, Voon Bing, Jia Wu, Chun Foong, Ling Keat and Neo.

This pic was cool cos the rocks were like stairs =)

Sunrise.

There were alot of ppl climbing Broga Hill that day too. Some ppl brought mooncakes XD

HAHAHA I LOVE THIS PIC XD Jeremy and Kai Zong.

The guys.

Group picccc.

Me and Tjen. My eyes are small enough, and their even smaller here O.O 3.5 hrs sleep ma =.= HAHAHA.

LIKE THIS PIC =)

Another group pic =) This is nice.

Yes, the ONLY time you'll EVER see someone bring their brush up while climbing the hill. XD HI TJEN =D

Jeremy, Choong Hern, Chun Foong (I ALWAYS call them wrongly =.=) and Neo.

Tjen and Jia Wu were mimicking models who were nearby XD

Chun Foong and me.

Oh ya and we found the Selangor and Negeri 9 border XD. SEE WE WERE IN 2 PLACES AT ONCE XD

Phew, wa so many pics man.

Ok bai bai =)

Sparky XD