i'm tired.

and it goes on n on n on.

i duno how other ppl do it.

then again other 2 ppl hav 2 different sets of personality to begin wif so.. ya.

one minute its all real gud.

and another minute... kaboom.

its like as though anyting gud.. HAS TO B followed by smth bad.

i'm tired of this inconsistency.

this hard to predict ting.. although such a long duration.. n i tot i grasp the flow..

but hah.. wrong again.

i'm tired.

i question myself all the time.

in movies.. in theory..

if it is it.. then u wun question urself rite?

but wad if its not like that in reality..

too scared to go for the leap of faith..

but wad if i was wrong.

wad if.

hmm i miss my meredith.

everyting written in words are theory.

words spoken are theory too.

and theory is easily written and easily said.

but reality wud nvr b the same as theory.

and life can b harder than words express.

any ting can b indefinite.

nth is for sure.

after everyting.. its kind of a pity.

its sad.

well, at least for me.

but if its not meant to b this time round.

then it relli wasnt meant to b.

so the brain need to get the heart ready..

the brain need to let the tot settle in the brain so that it can transmit it to the heart and let the heart process it..

the brain needs a control release approach on the heart :|

letting go.. means acceptance.

and acceptance is hard.

mabe some tots need to settle in ur brain for it to get use to b4 its being carried out by urself or b4 sum1 else carries out the verdict.
regardless.. whether its u or sum1 else who carries it out, the outcome wud still b the same. bcoz u will recall and miss and the future knowing of a new partner is gona make u feel a stab in ur heart.
so how shud it b now then??

when the sad memories and fight gets more than the happy memories..
ur brain noes wad to do
but u heart doesnt follow.
why? :'(