i'm probably a very insecure person inside.

so not cool.

anyway prob moving away from blogspot..fb me if u wan the new add.

Am sooooo glad i've already found a job i'm happy doing

coz yes, almost 3 months after i first applied, i finally heard from an application i almost forgot about.

well, the word was "no".

which makes me pretty damn thankful i've already got my job!

coz eventho it's kinda belated..and tho it's not supposed to make any difference to me anyhows.

it still DID affect me a weeee bit (okay, it did.) that i didn't even make it for the first cut! the application cut!!

come to think of it, this job was pretty much the only job i made through all rounds! (maybe because they didnt really screen the applications themselves or... well. yea the criteria fit)

but anyhows.........i think i managed to pull through coz they actually gave me a chance to be interviewed!!

i mean, how much can you tell from ONE, SINGLE application!

that's why am soooooo glad i'm already gainfully employed at a place i am actually glad to be at. coz otherwise, i'd probably still be a bumbling fool out there being refused entry to good jobs coz of a lack of results in place of a colourful personality.

now i noe. interviews aren't that hard. the freakking paper applications are the worst coz they are so unjustified!!!!!!!

give people a chance man!!! you dunnoe what you're losing. i mean, HAVE LOST.

hmprh.

Just downloaded FXcamera on my Android.

it's fun!! (esp during toilet breaks hahaha)

Latest obesession - hair accessories! i need more fascinators. why are there no more fascinators to buy in town??? suggestions anybody??

(toy camera mode) the little cute corner on my workdesk! good luck bear from jennie and sandy's baby shower's doorgift + doggie card from seb + lollipop frm colleague + popchu lip gloss! the calendar's an urban dictionary tt cracks me up with it's ridiculous entries! haha

Taken before i downloaded FXcamera haha

Testing...

Trying out blogging from phone so...

Kenna raped today.

Totally nt a gd feeling.

In other news n attempt to make myself feel better, gg Japan in november!




Yay.

携帯でも日本語ができるよ！！すごいじゃなん？？：）

Can even type japanese on me fone!!!woohoo!!! :)

Am blogging from my HTC Dream now!! :) feel so techie n cool. Tho I noe it's just ignorance in me talking haha
The web browsing experience is super amazing on this fon!!fast n vv clear...n the qwerty keyboard is just a breeze for facebook,mails,blogging etc hehe! But of coz the downside is it's huge n rather fat tho futuristic looking w the funny looking side slide thingy..but truely, a web fon man! Even has alt tab functions so I'm act loading youtube videos while I'm typing thiss!

Perfect for me since my laptop is super slow n laggy..wld be great if I cld find the ms office stuff or offline pdf reader...den I can do my super belated bootyloot web on the go! Haha oh well...

Dun really have much time nowadays tho..everyday n everyweek (esp weekends) go by in like a WHOOSH n how to find time to sit down n blog properly or check out ny fon abilities man...esp since data plan haven kicked in...dun even have time to shop properly! Lucky got qt a bit of shopping at great world (where my office is)...

Product launches coming up fast n furiously n everyday's packed with marathon meetings n brainstorms n wad not...SHAG! Lucky colleagues r nice hehe

Hope can live up to my own expectations...need to work faster! N go gym more regularly n spend money more carefully.. oh man! all the way oosh!:p

so i'm into my 3rd week of work now...
and i already have ard 8 folders on my desk and a handful of assignments and a presentation to a buyer on thursday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ZOMG!!!

the responsibility is...daunting. but i hope to only be able to get better.. very scared to make errors la..... a lot of $$ involved leh! and now all boss can say is we have no money so how can i waste money!!! i havee to make sure to generate sales.

GAHH!!!

come on you can do it! haha

and havvvvvvvvveee you seen this???

GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!

Dog in a box, anyone??

on another note,
I'll be at MAAD again this weekend so come come come!!!! I think it's a great place for a date coz got so many things to see and do!! there's OIC portrait day on Sat where you can get your portrait drawn for like 5bucks? and bands and really some funky handicrafts :)) check out the event poster for more stuff to dooo!

やっと、就職決めた！！

The excruciating wait is over...now only 2 1/2 days of freedom left

freedom から --> マンドム

hehe

緊張過ぎる。おなかが痛くて、あまり食べれない。

なぜ電話しないの？？？！！！

この待つのはすごく苦しいだな。

早く教えて。

HOW GORGEOUS IS THIS???

DEE, this is THE monster/power ring man

and the cheapest one is only a cool $8000 dollars wad.





www.philippetournaire.com

I just concluded the weeklong celebrations for my 23rd birthday on the 13th May 2009 and here are some shots starting from

Day 1 of celebrations, 12th May 2009

@ Tomo Izakaya with Jiahui and Joel

We're "home"!! (like Japanese food=Japan. coz like we all went Japan tgt last year at his very time.. we miss Japan!!)

Kawa Ebi complimentary from Joel's ex-boss. and we had a 久しぶりのにごり酒!

Day 2 of celebrations - On the DAY itself, 13th May 2009

(11am-4pm) @ Mt Sophia for Suffi's Brunch!

It was much fun in the sun!

Blue Skies, Blue Pool wad's not to LURVE!

HI my sexy boyfriend

My bday candles! haha

T'was MEGA camwhore session man.. but the house was too nice to resist ahah more peektures on facebook!

(4pm-11pm) @ Thai Express and Mind's Cafe

Learning how to lie convincingly...

LOOK AT ZHANRUI!!!!! hhhaa

YAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE

Day 3 of celebrations, 14th May 2009

@ Fort Canning for Much Ado About Nothing!

I LOVED the set and lights for the show but somehow... it wasn't that engaging..maybe coz i was too busy eating? some good directorial there but the accents just kinda.. didnt convince. and the peranakan element was just kinda out of place given the use of Shakespearen english.. i guess i'm just highly influenced by the 1993 movie by Kenneth Branagh which i just wanna rewatch!! I prefer the version of "Sigh No More" from the movie too but the SRT's set still just rocked ass. Loved the pool. and well, making Don Pedro and gang sailors was a nice touch. THAT made more sense den peranakan-ising Leonato's household. enuff with The Little Nonya already!! haha

Dee, Dexiang, Suff and Seb: WATCH THIS!!

Day 4 of celebrations, 15th May 2009
urm. i was supposed to go for Stardust but my lazy ass got stuck at home watching Boys Over Flowers! hahaha so.. fast forward to...


Day 5 of celebrations, 16th May 2009

@ Tampines One with beloved neighbours Jennie and TY!

that place like rocks man!! haha and topshop sale!! so me being thick skinned as usual, asked and received...



My First and Only jumper!!! super comfy and ohso high fashion :) will be purrfect with a pair of oxfords which i can only hope Xiaobai managed to buy from Chinaaa :)) haha

Jennie tried on a damn cute romper!! looks super cute on her rite! Jennie cutie pie :)

THANKS neighbours!!! btw, TY's room is like the size of my living room. OMG. hahaha

alright. that was my week in a flash had so much fun the holidays rock!!

on a non-hedonistic note, two interviews next week (so far) both in 日本語!! omg wish me luck everybody!!!

<3<3<3>

OMG i'm 23!

thanks damn old. Happy birthday to me!

I wish for a ***** ***!! haha

a great day ahead! :)

so that's it.

the end of 4 years of utter freedom, privacy, late nights, tv lunch/dinner/suppers, midnight meetings/tennis/rehearsals, overnight Grade A essays, arts canteen YTF, mac's delivery and sooo much more.

all gone, just like that, in the flash of an eye.
sadness can't even begin to describe it.

sure there were good and bad times but, ultimately, if given a chance. I'd def love to do it all over again. Heck, i'd even attend FWOC and not sleep for a week (almost) to finish up essays. give it to me man. i'd really do it all over again.

but of coz, we all have to move on some day. and the day has come for U051052M. haha

2005-2009. wow. 4 years really just flew past.

here's to a great college life and some strength to embrace the impending drudgery of working life.

*chinks glasses*

すごくがっかりした。人の本音を見てしまいました。もう過去のように見えない。残念だな。。。初めて会うときはすごくいい印象があったんのに。。。あんな楽しかった時間を過ごしたのに。。。これからもうお互いおかしくなるかもなぁぁ。。本間に残念！

ところで、わたし、太った。ダイエットしなきゃ。今日から。または大学人生最後の試験に頑張ります。

きゃぁ。。。卒業したくないなぁぁ。。。

SHOE JEWELLERY

??!! damn nice!!
from littersf.com

i just waved my dream job goodbye.

:(

just discovered EDWARD MONKTON omg loves it!!
reminds me of my yet-to-ever0-be-received-dream-bday-present-because-its-so-meaningful-and-i-can-read-it-all-the-time --> a hardback copy of Tim Burton's Melancholic Death of Oyster Boy. perfect for emo-ing and being awed.

but edward monkton's good for now :)
some favourites to share..

sometimes we need to be random. our brains cant think so much. randomness is good. refrigerator.

yeap. at these crossroads, surely hope "its nice when we get there..."

My wallpaper for now! i get angry at my fan for being noisy.

because i need to finish typing 7.5k worth of words by tmr morning and i cannot think that i cant do it despite the fact that im still blogging HAH. and also intending to apply for what seems like a dream job but they dun accept many pple so HAH. please, i dun care if i lose my skirt if i can really grow wings. ill wear nice knickers.

Lastly, sad sad sweet story.my current favourite

Too Short Too Sweet
Dramafest 2009 - Twisted Fairy Tales

that's dramafest.
always TONS of fun but always too short...its amazing how a group of practical strangers can have so much fun in just over ten sessions of rehearsals..for the cameos..just 1 and 1/2 days in the dressing rooms. i guess its group solidarity and vision of a common goal - to have fun and to put up a great show.. doesnt hurt if we're a buncha good looking kids too :)



Dramafest this year? more about the fun and getting to dress up that made it so wonderful really...theatre wise. not so satisfied.. but even that was an aftermath reaction :) On stage at that time really, was really just elating to hear and see the audience enjoy themselves so much and see my actors act so well..even the young ones! glad my bossy pushing for better acting worked to a certain extent :))

i had so much fun i dun ever feel like leaving the stage or dramafest for that matter...if only we coulda hide in that little bubble of paradise for just a little while longer before we all went our separate ways because let's face it. the fun we had is never gonna happen again as it did during dramafest itself coz...well.. for one, not everybody's free to meet up and 2) there will always be some kinda unbalanced grp dynamics and well.. things just cant be as they were at dramafest.

i think last year's group attested to that..if only we woulda kept it that way JUST for a little while longer.. but well.. perhaps this impermanence and temporariness of dramafest fun and frens is wad makes it so great.

guess i'd just have to accept that.

but it wouldnt hurt to want to relive it right? :)

in all honesty, (okay this is a little embarrassing), when we were backstage, just 20mins away from showtime and Neeti told us it was almost full house and that only 40 tickets were left uncollected, tears sprung to my eyes unexpectedly...but of coz i quickly held it back before my cast could tease me endlessly about it (i hope no one but dee reads this haha) but well.. seeing how from a pathetic LT13 to last year's relatively emptier theatre to this year's almost full house, Dramafest has indeed come a longgg way. and being a Dramafest veteran, its is def much cause for joy.

hopefully my dramafest alumni item dreams will come true and we'd at least be able to relive all that fun from time to time..but otherwise.. its really 最後のさようならto dramafest, to hall and to mindless fun staying up late at night...long chats and wad not.. of coz there were tough times but cliched as it may sound (and i think its a popular hall alumni thing to say) if given another chance, i'd gladly do it all over again...

kinda jealous of the freshies and yr2s who still have such a long way to go...have loadsa fun and make every second in hall count. do all that you've always wanted to do its your only chance now..

sigh. emo-ing before several deadlines is definitely no economical on my time but i guess it helps to get it out of the system :)

on a final note, here's wad i posted on facebook about what i regretted most about my play in dramafest.. and btw, those who watched the show, i'd reallly reallly love to hear ur feedback.. good or bad bring it on :)

"Hey guys!

i noe im adding to the spam that's post-dramafest high but well, we gots to revel in the high! (coz life is short n full of assignments)

alright since thanks and all have alr been given, it shall remain short and sweet

anyways first up, HUGE thanks to my cast and co-director! don't think can thank you guys enough :) thanks for the time and effort you guys put in under my command. rellly appreciate it!

to joycie: thanks for everything (esp my SLIGHT diva-ness during the prep period hehe) and always taking care of our welfare with notes, chocs and snacks :)

to bry+suff: great work guys its been tough shit but we pulled thru and did well :) thanks for the advise and feeback you guys gave man.. without you suff, the sexy men wouldn't have been borne. haha

speaking of whom, i think i have a love-hate relationship with. i mean not with the guys per say but with the idea of having had them on stage.

(alright, henceforth this note is gonna be rather honest and may require some thought and intellectual provocation so if you cant bear it. u can stop reading anytime. BUT its fodder for thought and will be good for the many budding thespians like most of my cast and andre)

anyways ive decided to say it now rather then later since dramafest is still rather fresh on our mind.

thing is, i am, in all honesty, at odds with our end product (with Happily Ever After) that is. I mean we got HUGE response from the audience and stuff and alllll my neighbours loved it but they all seemed to love it only for the naked men!!!! (no offense)

not that im jealous of your fame or attention (coz well, attention to you=attention to Happily Ever After wad), in fact, im glad for the humongous reaction you guys garnered from the mass audience BUT....im afraid that would have cheapened our play to a mere chick flick! While Happily Ever After excelled at appealing to the mass market, the theatre snob in me is disappointed with myself.

I mean, before I got you guys I was already struggling with the issue but eager to go out with an OMPH (and justifying to myself that it was a feminist play where men is commodified), I went ahead. pity i only managed to see the whole piece with all the cast 3 days before dramafest, since it was SO HARD to find people as great and spontaneous as Bengtatt, Andrew and Allan. By then, the focus during rehearsals had shifted from the coherence of the play to the deliverance.

Dont get me wrong, my professional frustration is not only directed at our lovely sexy men; it's with the overall concept of the play. I mean, after our abysmal first try at the 1st combined rehearsals, i was at a loss as how to make the play better and kept thinking it was a restriction of the script that didnt allow me to get too stylised or symbollic.

but after an intense post-mortem talk with danielle just now, I finally came to a conclusion. I am not satisfied with our play because it was too commonplace. Maybe its a bit egoistic or wad for me to think that way but well, theatre snobbiness is a natural, hazardous by-product of 2 years (albeit 2 years longgg time ago) of Theatre Studies & Drama.

In any case it has nothing to do with the script (yes joyce, NOTHING!) but to do with my own inflexibility. Whatever you guys did/saw on stage is pretty much what ive already conceptualised at the 1st reading of the script (exp w.r.t to set and lighting) so when rehearsals started i just went with the flow.

Unforch, it only took after the show that i saw/felt the flow was too....simple and amateurish. At least to the (theatrically) educated audience. Then, danielle and I pushed each other to think of ways we could have made the play better, and the ideas just started flowing. Just thought to share with you guys some of our post-dramafest strokes of brilliances. And also, admittedly, to appease my own theatre ego to show you guys that I AM capable of better theatre (i hope) beyond what was on stage.

From danielle,
she would have done it puppet/doll style. i.e. having all actors act in stylised manner and jerky actions akin to a puppet show, like with the first scene, having sleeping beauty, fgm and cinderella all start the show lying on the floor before being jerked up ala puppets. but of coz this would have required intensive rehearsals and perhaps a change in the script to accommodate the role of a puppeteer or at least something to justify that kinda symbollicism n stylisation.

From me,
If i was to do it any different, first and foremost, I would have justified the 3 sexy men's presence coz while i always like to ask the question "what's the significance of ...", this time round, i forgot to question myself properly. so if i was just to change certain stuff and retain most of the play in its entirety, I would just make the 3 sexy men = the 3 blind mice. which would tie into the actual Cinderella story with the animals and carriage. Then, in the last scene, I'd have the 3 blind mice(present sexy men) stripped of all their sex and glam and turned into servants of sleeping beauty's, all positioned around her house cleaning and dressed in rags, looking pathetic in harsh general lighting symbolic of the revelation of truth and irony of the previously glamourous scenes with fancy lights in allusion to the theme of twisted fairy tales and unfulfilled Happily Ever After-s.

well, or something along those lines. In any case, the point being, such a simple change would have added so much more depth to our play yet, i overlooked it and concentrated too much on the aesthetics and stage effect. its like, im surface directing!Concentrating on fanciful blocking, multiple entrances and the symmetries and balance of stage.

oh well, that being said, its just a post-mortem and while i regret that i could have done better, I wouldn't have changed my cast in any way. You guys realllllly worked hard and acted well. my neighbours did make mention of how brilliant you guys were too so.. THANKS AGAIN! this was just a rant of my artistic frustration. its like i constipated on the play for so long now then i got release so must share. HAHAHA

but anyway for our budding thespians, please always be aware of such (and various other) issues and dun be like me!always ask for harsh reviews and be self-reflexive!!

thanks guys for being patient with my lor soh note :) and feel free to comment (even scold if you think im wasting your time making u read this)

LOVELOVELOVE,
yunwen "

will die in the next few weeks.

state paper due tmr,
marketing presentation tmr,
ISM draft due 27th,
Dramafest on the 31st,
Memory paper due on the 31st,
Reading Ethno presentation on the 3rd apr,
ISM final due 6th apr,
Reading Ethno paper due 6th apr,
Marketing group paper and individual assignment due 6th apr.

just gonna take it one step at a time.

dunnoe if i can survive man. but im hopeful.kinda. sigh.

and lemme just say.

i do not like people who just ask "how ar?" "where to find ar?" etc without first tryna find out on their own.

i may be guilty of that some times but well. am trying not to.

sigh.
deadlines.

Fairy godmother?

.........i am not. and i should stop/not be one aka stop being a kaypoh! hhaha

as much as i can be proud of how i matchmade some frens.. i shouldnt keep giving love advice!!

haha

who am i to play cupid rite?

so from this day forth. i endeavour to mind my own business and give advise only when consulted haha

scared i tell pple the wrong things la..
like telling them to go after the wrong girl/guy or telling them to NOT to go after someone who might just turn out to be right for them.

yes! scary thought!!

so zipitupyunwen!!zipitup!

haha

on a side note, I think i shld give myself an English name lest nobody can remember my name once i start work. :/

any suggestions? haha

Farah suggests Yve, Yeva.

but i cant help but feel poser-ish with those names coz i gave it to myself!!! hahaha

would love a japanese-ish name but again, same problem coz ahlians nowadays like to call themselves yuki la, miko, etc..completely desecrating lovely japanese names!!

grr. n since im not Japanese, i shouldnt have a -ko to my name! cannot! haha

i like Tora, means tiger in Japanese but its oft associated with yakuza so my Japanese associates will prob gaff at me haha

but its a very ghetto name if u think abt it!

yet. if its ghetto. it may be too much for im but a mere asian.

URGH!

help!

Love in the Ice - Tohoshinki

冷たいその手 君のせいじゃない
幼き日々ほった　傷抱え
誰かを愛すること 恐れてるの
言葉の裏側 背を向けて

抱きしめた心が 氷のように そっと溶け出す

誰もが誰かに愛される為に
この世に命を煌(きらめ)かせるのさ
それがもしも僕なら もう一度君の心を
永遠(とわ)の優しさで 暖めるよ…

運命の悪戯(心を痛めても)
その涙の先には
ひとすじの光が(闇の中舞い降りて)
僕らは気付くさ

苦しいほどに強く 感じあえる 人の温もり

誰もが持ってる哀しみや孤独
癒してもらえる場所探している
SO… 君にはその場所が ここにあるさ 恐れないで
もう迷わないで 僕が守る

切ないほど(my heart )美しい
愛だから(Don't be afraid)
儚いほど(Let you know my love) 麗(うるわ)しい
この時を…(You know… Let you know my love)

誰もが誰かに愛される為に
この世に命を煌(きらめ)かせるのさ
それがもしも僕なら もう一度君の心を
永遠(とわ)の優しさで 暖めるよ…

favourite song of the moment. well actually have been on repeat since december so.. quite favourite? :)

super emo but nobody else appreciates leh. maybe coz they cannot understand but i thought the singers were very emotive.

oh well. satomi~ u'll understand rite? haha

Friday the 13th

indeed.

8am - woke up to an extremely bad piece of news. something that didnt even happen to me but to a very close fren. what happened to her just made me see how crazy the world can be and how we can hardly trust people. especially men.

12pm - got chided in class for using the fon while prof was talking. to be fair, she JUST started talking! and half the class was still in the canteen :/

330pm on the unluckiest day of the year, i see myself $70 poorer for an old debt that i didnt even incur. just paid it off coz i dun want anymore trouble/animosity. sigh. i dun even want to talk about it.

5pm - due to trauma from situation above, was unable to complete freelance work (writing) by the stipulated 5pm. bad timing considering editor just sent out email concerning punctuality 3 hours ago.

6pm - due to running late from above scenario, was late meeting bry and matt resulting in us gobbling up our dinner at munchies

1am - received one rose (okay that's act a good thing) but the sad part is, its prob the only rose i'll receive this valentine's and no its not from my bf.

2am - still feeling emo. and feeling ugly and fat on top of that. maybe pms.

oh well. at least the day's over.

Theatre Snob?


*warning emo post ahead. read at own risk

so, I think im a theatre snob. i watch plays and criticise/comment on them. most of the time, i only criticise those student performances. i've seen some good ones, some bad ones. nothing is perfect until they get to the big stage, i.e esplanade, dbs arts centre blah.

funny thing is? i actually dun watch enuff public plays to really call myself a theatre enthusiast. (cheapo la and broke most of the time).

in any case, why does this warrant a lengthy post on its own. i'll tell you why.



i cannot justify my own theatre snob-ness.


i feel like i have nothing to show for all the crap that i say? yes, A level cert in TSD but so what? i've NEVER done a production tt plays to more than 300 people. I've NEVER acted/directed/participated in anything that lasted beyond an hour.

how to be a theatre snob like that?

with no credentials im just an empty vessel. so being an empty vessel theatre snob is a pain in the ass.

fark man this sucks so bad because ultimately, i think im just jealous. jealous of all these people who have the chance and i don't. when i think i deserve it better than they do.

see, if i wasnt a theatre snob, i would have been able to live with it easily. coz i would gladly concede that i'm not good enuff. that's why i dun get such chances, thats why i dun get chosen.

yet, i give myself more credit than i deserve. i think im better than them all or at least i would def be able to give it a better shot. and then when truth slaps me in the face, when they get chosen and i dont, it just hurts so bad when whatever you're so proud of turns out to be sandcastles in the air.

life would be so much easier if i wasnt a theatre snob. i guess i'd just have to tune myself to think that way more. when i was talking to you just now, there came a fleeting moment i managed to succeed in imagining i had no theatre experience at all and that i'm a noob and the result of that was sweet release. i felt liberated. it felt good.

because i hate to have to carry a huge burden, a blimp on the back of my mind all the time that eats at my conscience. that i cannot be happy for you for doing a great job because i'm jealous. im jealous because i think im better than you yet you are the one getting all the chances to shine brighter than i ever will.

there, i've said it. the root of the problem. the crux of it all. this is the glimpse into my evil, selfish,jealous mind and im sorry for the way things turn out. im sorry i cant be absolutely happy for you because all i want is to be part of the action but i can never. all i can do is stand and watch afar while you do all the things i crave to do.

i sound like i have such a tiny heart, like im such a horrible person who cannot let go. maybe i am, or maybe it is just something i can never let go until i find a second chance to make things right. but well, now i know at least one channel's closed to me now.

im sorry to put you through all these all over again. even as you go abt doing somthing you love. something you can put 200% in and yet i cannot give you my blessings. it troubles me that i cant give you my blessings too you know? makes me feel like such a closeted myopic person. everything that i dont wanna be.

i dunnoe how to make things better. its not you its me. its a thorn in my heart i can only heal myself. and knowing you, i think u'd rather stay away from it as much as possible. i dun blame you. its a whole shit sticky mess that should have been cleaned up long ago but has unfortunately been left to clot and build up.

the cleaning process is tough. but what would help for sure is if i could edge closer to the action. to be where my heart desires. you could have lead me there more often but you didnt. maybe it never occured to you. oh well. too bad.

its too late now to say anything really. good luck.

im sorry im such a horrible person.

New Blogskin!!

Looks so nice and simple :) Just some updates before i scoot off to bed coz its alr 4am and i have to wakeywakey at 830 tmr!! :(

why so early you ask? coz of this-->

Yes, all you need is love and HERE LIES LOVE (for this weekend at least), at Red Dot Design Museum. You my fren you better go i tell you!!! hahah

guaranteed not a waste of time. great place to find nice and unique valentine's gifts i would say :) more details HERE.bitches.

and my bootyloot.com site is also coming up!!!!!hehe so excited.

got many behind the scenes shots HERE and HERE.

btw, i've been paralysed by TV. Gossip Girl. late bloomer i noe, but better late den never!! and OH. CHUCK BASS. chuck, chuck, chuck. hot bastard.