ahah just managed to put up my archives!!!!

when thru some of my old posts..

haha can so see the difference in the style of writing i had in J1 and now man
for one i dun have so many dot dot dots after every sentence
maybe im more economical now but well
just dun really like dot dot dots and AltErnATe CaPs
like so secondary sch haha im a grow woman now ya.

(HAHAHH)

and the majorly huge difference in lifestyle man..
in my 2003 posts, life revolved ard tennis and crushes most of the time
like every post i tok abt training, matches, seeing this guy, toking or not toking to him
haha
on hindsight i was so..
insecure and silly
developing and losing crushes like nobody's business

since then ive learnt tt to like someone we gotta noe tt person relatively well enuff or else we'll prob regret putting so much effort n time on tt person
and i develop crushes at less astronomical speeds and with less frequency now
=)

2004, a bit more mature, still playing a lotta tennis and enjoying the company of the tennis team trememdously and also def more involved in tsd, which is to become my 2nd love after tennis.

2005, more posts at weee hours of the night, the introduction of pictures on blogs, less tennis (regrettably) but bascially a whole new very different life punctuated w still some angsty posts here and there.

but from 2003-2005 XYsq is/was omnipresent in posts. my frens for life really =)

alrighty,
back to the present.

IHG trainings have been madness, back to back double trainings everyday.
every night just come back n refuse to move.
and its liddat for almost everybody..

if i think 3 sports, 2trainings a week is bad,
there r others w more sports and up to 4 trainings a day to attend!!

so..
gambate everybody!!!

keep it up its gonna be over soon
and to captains, pls pls try to understand some times we're really on the verge of K.O and there's really just this much the body can tk despite wad the mind says...

tennis today was quite good and fun
anu is still the power mama scaring everybody and anybody facing her across the net
my backhand is really coming back!!
=)
but need to change my gross strings.
looking fwd to tennis trainings quite a lot!!

vball was quite gd too today
NO PT!
haha heng ar.
but i still suck at digging
but just not as bad as last time

next week will b an exciting weekk!
19th monday - Mingfeng's 21st bday chalet
21st - psycho JB trip (and ablk xmas party??)
23rd - hball day and py's bbq w his frens(which we had a disagreement over but well. its okay now and for more details ref jx's blog haha)

phuture on weds was DAMN GOOD!!
its just a hoot (in her own words) to b ard jo la
plus mary w her texan twang is double hoot!

hahaha

tho only wetn for last 30 mins of mambo it was quite good hand dancing retardedly w aaron L
and well...
the spectacle i was to behold there was well..
SPECTACULAR.
albeit not in exactly the nicest sense.

*bleah*

haha
just got the bleach episodes 7-31 dvd
(read: anime tt ian got everybody hooked on, even my lil sis)
shall try to rip it into my comp or stg
if i cant ill just disappear w it n leave charlotte high n dry haha
=)

tmr's shopping for py and ikea lunch n good food day!!
rest well everybody and night to the world!

Ablk sentosa outing!  

Ablk JB trip! 

im blogging frm jx's room!!

yes me bry and her r ALL sharing one room this hols
it mayb a bit of a squeeze but well its cosy and vv convenient for late night gossips =)

ALL my handball, volleyball and tennis trainings clash.
so i haveta split myself up in 3s every tues thurs and fri
rendering me an extremely fatigued individual like now

had handball training from 4-6 followed by tennis 7-9
and all tt was precluded by a dunnoe how many metres dash from KentRidgeHall to the Sport&RecreationalCentre.
okay jog, not dash.
haha i suck at running forever la

but dun worry, i dun feel like total shit over not being able to run, or not being in the best physical condition.
as long as i feel good abt wad i can do and can do relatively well
im assured.

i feel good abt tennis and look forward to tennis trainings the most
i guess because im quite secure in the sport
i noe i play alright
and i look forward to playing better every training

today's training was quite good
at least i can hit my backhands better now
but by 8 i cld feel the lethargy alrdy
and movements became significantly slower lazier shots more haywire..

not looking fwd to thurs and fri's back to back trainings man...

too many sports
and 2 of 3 u dun feel good abt and prob wun b on the main team

tennis is still the best la huh
haha

stick to the safe+secure side.

GREETINGS FROM GENTING STARBUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!

i noe this is gonna sound super lame but well
THIS IS SHO EXCITING!!!
ahah

i feel sooo..
like..
SOPHISTICATED.

[at the same time im fearing kaypohs peeking over my shoulder and laughing at my act matureness sitting w my lappie in my Ablk teeshirt n jacket and stylo milo birks when im actually excited doing so. haha]

well its cold up here (wad else)
haha but quite chill out..
i wlda sat in the alfresco if not for all s'pore secondary sch band kids whu r here for shome concert/performance i thinks
and in fear of pple coming up n snatching my lappie away (no thanks to zhihao for planting tt fear)

so here i am in a 2-seat table trying to tk up as little space i can
and contemplating if i shld pick up my laptop n order a drink (which will make me look like an absolute idiot)
OR risk leaving my lappie alone and making a mad dash to order a caramel frap which ive been craving and i have abandant (okay. enuff.) money for (for once)
OR just sit here and type away hoping they wun chase me away and so i can go back to my room to watch chicken little (JI1 XIAO3 XIAO3) with my bro n sis.

haha
i think im choosing the 3rd choice so chop chop chop!

=)

tmr gonna be a busy busy day in the theme parks which will prob not b v fun becos like everybody has been on the rides super a lotta times n i nv dare to take all the horribly thrilling rides like corkscrew and i probb wun tmr so ya..
ill just walk ard enjoying the cool air.

speaking of which.
this is def not the best plc for a holiday esp during this peak period.
with many pple crawling ard EVERYWHERE.
sigh.
but well..
i can always hide in the room n watch movies and b antisocial or try to catch narnia here or just come surf the net here

just waiting and WAITING to go KL to SHOPPPPPPPPPPPPP after this man!!!!!! =)

i sound quite high.
i think i am.

must be the HOLIDAY MOOD.

haha
best holiday or not, this is STILL a holiday ahah
no training to wake up for no NUUTHING!
haha
(except sis' black face to face)

-----------bro came down he's buying my caramel frap for meeeeeeeeeeee=)------------

yest was Ablk JB trip which was in jingx' words:"damn fruitful lor!"

haha charlotte went crazy shopping to poor ahbang's chagrin
zhihao was astounded by my lack of shopping ahha
but well tts becoz im saving all my energy for KUALA LUMPUR!!! =)
hahah

on parents' wallets=more fun + flexibility! =)

haha sentosa trip last fri was damn fun too! haha
photos up soon! =)

im officially chao ta now my face is like black now
haha speaking of which, prabs made quite a funny joke on our way back
haha but i think not super funny to everybody lar haha but he was like trying to cheer our ms jingxian bin chao chao up den he was like: -

" u noe wad ill say when pple ask why i have a black face?"

"i say its genetics."

hahahahahehehe
hahahah

stupid prabs and it just tickles me to hear thats dom doms call him blackie haha

black humour

WAHAHAHA

no offence prabs still love u loads!=)

okay stopit im sho high
on caramel frap and Genting

ahah
kk eyes abit the pok liaos update again tmr if i can! haha

cheers all the way from malaysia!!=)

===tis the season to b jolly falalalala lalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaa===

finally back at home after almost a mth's long hiatus!

still not used to the bigger desktop screen at home yet...
nor the comfy and big keyboard n mousey..
nor the close proximity of the toilet and CABLE TV!

but am enjoying so far coz ive been homesick for a while.

kinda miss the studying days just a week ago, esp during the study break
we just studied studied and studied and bothered about nuthing else..
i liked the seemingly mundane and routine lifestyle den
morning wake up at 11, lunch den mug till dinner, break blog a bit, pictures here and there
DEN back to study room mugg till 2/3 with maybe and very occasionally supper in btwn and there the cycle repeats..

very stable, very routine
it was predictable and perhaps boring to some but i found some kind of peace w that
of coz albeit moments of extreme frustration and ''dun feel like studying"
but it was good and easy on my single-tasking mind

the exams and all tt studying flew by 9 to use the oldest most conventional cliched term ever).
in fact, the whole sem sped by.
so much things has happened and changed and so much learnt and unlearnt immediately after the exams!
i can still remember FWOC n IBG times but at the same time those moments seem so foggy and belong to something long long long time ago!

its super amazing how different we all were, how different KR was to me and a lot other freshies compared to when we just came in and now
frenship, relationship forged. and lost.
easy peasy man every thing's speedy in the halls.

u see so many pple getting close den a mth or even weeks later, they barely tok
and most of the time its not like it was on purpose or wadever but it just happens..
but usually its when one person in the grp goes away n joins some foreign club or just simply stops hanging out to start intense mugging or just goes home for a few days in fact,
when tt person comes back, things will just not b the same sometimes.
its amazing.

its like wadever close-ness u have can just be dissolved in like a few days just because u're not ard..
it may be because u guys were simply just not exactly v close to begin w or perhaps
to present my theory that to a large extent, hall and uni frenships or relationships r based on tangibility of presence.
if u're there, u're there.
if u're not, den some byebye to u.
if not..its likely u'll lose some sense of belonging when u're back simply because of the fact that in hall, every thing is speeded up

its like how decomposition can b speedied up by termites or like the film infection we watched, the decaying of the dead body speedied up in a heater room.
i mean its a v gross and sick analogy and im not saying hall is gross and turn-offing but well
tt was the first image tt came to mind bcoz often such hot n cold shit is just mentally draining and irritating.

and sad becoz u start to wonder if u really have a trully close fren u have ard in hall or uni and tt person is not someone from ur sec sch or jc or just anybody u knew b4 meetin in hall or in nus.

maybe its in over-generalization and maybe its just too early to say coz i have only been in NUS for a sem but for now, this is how and wad i feel from myself and from experiences shared from others..

sad aight?

so sad tt some frenships r so high maintenance and just when u think u're really good frens alrdy something just changed and u're not anymore or maybe tt's just becoz u werent there for a few days.

or tt some frenships r really just for fun. no depth no substance and entirely based on tangibility of presence.

u start to qns all the effort (if any) u put in to maintain such relationships, other pple u've neglected in order to be there. to be in the picture.

maybe really, everything not toned and matured by time as yet..
all too young and immature to say, adolescent frenship and relationships volatile n prone to change.

i guess then only time can tell if it was all worth the effort, if we're really good frens and no period of time can corrode the sense of belonging and attachment..

well well, ill content w wadever few i have but sad to say most r from jc and sec sch..

but welll, we shall see if we get disappointed or not.

more happy posts about post exam activity soon =0)

Me Bry Seb Matt after 4hrs of singing!! 

29th Nov - Me Bry and Matt eternal flaming! 

29th Nov - Me and Bry singing ourselves silly! "Doe a deer a female deer!!" 

29th Nov - Matt and Seb shen qing kuan kuan @ KTV party world! 

30th Nov - MODESTO'S taitai lunch with xy square!

30th Nov - nice car spotted along MS on our way(on foot) back to zouk from doubleO!

30th Nov - phuture/doubleO 3rd floor girls' nights out!!(minus xinli whu joined us late!) 

super belated (sort-of) TSD/03A55 outing


























I love you guys. =) 

nickie bear is dying...........................................................................................................................
......................

seb thinks he looks better in this picture. 

BY POPULAR REQUEST....
another candidate for all ur single girls to consider.

SEBESTIAN XU JIA HENG!



He's savvy (sebby?), plays the guitar, he's one of the lead for hall production, he's HENG and u can see his HUGE brains thru his nose!(psst: he's smart)

wadcha waiting for girliesss!!




seb.YOU ASKED FOR IT.
=) 

one fine day in the study room, ah bang eyes ron's newly bought thai pineapple tarts. "NICE man!" but after a while, we realised it lacked SOMEthing tt might hinder ah bang's enjoyment..
"TAK HALAL LA!"

and thus our dear 'malay' fren improvised and drew one himself! (look closely it says: 'ah bang: YAY!) 

reading room happenings.reading room my second home..
top row left to right, ron sleeping, ron stupid face, yunwen stupid face,
somebody and his studying partner, best snack in the world!!!!

this is wad excessive studying does to u...(clockwise from top: Meow Low, Me, Kaiwen, Winning11 Kim, Moss-hair Wong, Chen Ah Beng, Christel Ong, Chicken Rice Uncle Liang) 

all my single girlies...








hope is here..........
















introducing.....






















RON KOH!

He is single, available, drives and is a national discus thrower.
he can give a great sense of security and protection and i can assure u he's a perfect riot to hang out with.







sorry. i needed to destress.
=)

christel the duck is so cute!

(christel, not very smart to name ur penguin after me.)

not very smart of u to name ur pet penguin after me, christel...
not very smart...

(click to quack!)

AT ALOY's 21s bday party...















aaron and I invaded and took over his camera.
=) 

[yunwen]...impending satiation says:
ahahaim hip hop queen

[A-eon] Larry Brown haters...rejoice. says:
lounge hostess la de.

[yunwen]...impending satiation says:
ahah

[yunwen]...impending satiation says:
yah la \u need mei mei come look for me

[A-eon] Larry Brown haters...rejoice. says:
haha

[A-eon] Larry Brown haters...rejoice. says:
steady!

[yunwen]...impending satiation says:
wad kind u wan

[yunwen]...impending satiation says:
i got 2 whole floors of meimeis

[A-eon] Larry Brown haters...rejoice. says:
hahaha

[yunwen]...impending satiation says:
got 4 other blks for reserve

[A-eon] Larry Brown haters...rejoice. says:
wah lau...only this block arh???

[yunwen]...impending satiation says:
Y
[yunwen]...impending satiation says:
WADS WRONG W THIS BLK!

[yunwen]...impending satiation says:
ure dead

[yunwen]...impending satiation says:
for to incur the wrath of the glorious ladies of ablk

[yunwen]...impending satiation says:
is tantamount to suicide

[A-eon] Larry Brown haters...rejoice. says:
suicide away for I hath never claimed to be of any intelligent ilk...

[A-eon] Larry Brown haters...rejoice. says:
simple truth and honesty permeates my very being.

[A-eon] Larry Brown haters...rejoice. says:
alas...death befalleth the truthful vigilant

[yunwen]...impending satiation says:
truth is but subject to individual prespectives

[yunwen]...impending satiation says:
which in thy case i have suspicions to be a false genuine

[A-eon] Pistons to Knicks...you asked for this Larry Brown... says:
such misguided accusations derived from the subjective opinions of one I consider to be moderately objective...

[A-eon] Pistons to Knicks...you asked for this Larry Brown... says:
sigh...

[A-eon] Pistons to Knicks...you asked for this Larry Brown... says:
you have wounded an already crestfallen creature of undeniable choler.

and hereafter, he went offline.
mourn we shall of the impending death of mr marcus wong.

girls grab ur guns.

o3a55.. 

Laments of a waitress weary

With feet like stone on ground

Head down, forehead lined and frowned,

thy food is served, guaranteed with a smile.

but sad is the fact thou art not able to appreciate

tolerance and yet demands more requests.

A single error incurred thy wrath.

Doth thou not see the milieu, the crowd?

Doth thou thinkst thou art Her Majesty, the queen

to be bestowed supreme subservience?

And to be solely attended to with obedience?

Doth thou thinkst thou's 'lowly servants'

creatures with dozen limbs

And able to commit effort to more than a couple of things?

Thou art wrong as thy supreme rear lie stark

Stuck to thy throne.

Thou art not but another mere whore

Prostitute to overt esteem, advocate of war.

As thou smiles, thou's soyu is poured.

A mixture of spite, spit

And horrors galore.

Doth thou thinkst not thy sneer me sees?

Thy gleaming amber teeth stained with smoke

Art mere facade as thou utters,

"Thank you, no more."

Yet thinkst, " Fuck you i want more."

Doth thou thinkst not thy curse me hears?

Doth thou thinkst not a curse i returned?

If thou thinkst not i comprehend

What thou meant by that reprimand,

Thou proves to be dim and unworthy to command.

Henceforth 'piss off' i say,

To all elitist, pompous and prone to sashay.

Thou hath not elegance, poise or grace as yet

For fine dining requires patience and respect

Not cussing, sarcasm and pretence.

i hate this.

usually i wake up and feel better.

i was feeling good........

den i felt lousy.........

den i felt good again............

den i felt lousy again..............

all in the span of 5hrs.

wonderful.

i felt good and raring to party

den i was disappointed.

BUT i reconciled with the fact and felt, "NEVERMIND!" there's always another day.

felt good abt work and had fun mixing choyatini albeit serving w ice

felt good abt self.

BUT was flung into bitterness of reality, "HEY!" u're not so welcome or well-liked anymore.

u have no idea of dinner today. nuthing mentioned by pple u just msged today.

WOW. and yes mambo was just a spontatneous idea no u guys din meet for dinner before that.

maybe i shld help i feel so un-part of psycho anymore.

i was showering n thinking of a post: IF I COULD TURN BACK TIME, union camp would be one of the times i'd go back to.

and then wad do i find out aft my 'happy shower'?

but well, despite trying to go for lunch every weds. pple still dun find me familiar maybe. im a fucking phantom?

dinner plans not in my favour?

"sorry, cant please everybody"

sorry ive got work. sorry ive got hall stuff. sorry im busy. sorry i tried to go for lunch often. but no im still OFF. im still out.

im hurt i was never told. even tho i see them ard.

perhaps its just my fault.

for being too involved in hall.

i tot it wld be a respite.

but guess not. doesnt seem like it coming back to an empty room in a long empty hallway.

wadever i do i kinda of always screw up somewhere?

isn't it?

im just, you noe, insignificant. somehow.

i tried.

its not like i havent talked to them in a while.

i had lunch with them last week, the week before, the week before before before.

oh well. guess that one odd hr in a week doesnt account to anything.

i wanted quite badly to go for the dinner.

but no, "sorry, cant please everybody"

i think u mean, "everybody impt can make it for tt day, ure insignificant u dun have to come".

i had training.

train train train but still, not enuff. nv enuff. ull miss some and ull feel bad.

bryna always toked abt sacrifices.

i sacrifice some, i dun gain any.

wad shld i do then?

be a phantom? and only appear when there's food and fun? incurring my own wrath?

den ill b able to go for dinners and outings and pple wun conveniently forget me when they u noe, like organize stuff. or just pass a fakely innocent reply.

be involved. super.
den wad? neglect everybody else out of hall because like i still have to work coz im broke?
not like pple will remember.not like pple will care.not like pple will like u.

so wad shld i do?

i dunoe man. seems like everything i do goes wrong somehow.

and i feel worst den every single person i did wrong.

why am i so weak?why do i tear more often now?

i tink im losing confidence, ounce by ounce.

small little blow may be nuthing. but replacement is even slower.

'natural resources' depleting.

all signs of weakness.

which i fucking hate.

wad the fuck am i becoming?

im gonna fucking hate myself pretty soon.

fuck and guess wad i used to hate pple who hates themselves.

wad happened to encouraging pple?

i noe, nobody to encourage me!

aha. u fucking stupid weak piece of shit.

get a fucking grip.

dun make me hate you.

Craig David - Rendezvous
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and every weds night @ zouk we have... 

thailand pictures to entertain!(part1) SUAN LUM FEAST 

I have:

1)completed and handed in my SEAsian 7-page paper (albeit all in a terrible horrible disorganised rush. i will NEVER do research papers last min ever. its a terrible feeling rushing the biblio at 1535pm when the deadline's at 1600.)

2)completed my part in the CNM project due this fri. only grp editing and evaluation left

3)swept n moped my floor, changed the bedsheets and cleaned the fan. =)

4)added another song to my wonderful playlist.

5)helped publicise at the bizcom bash booth!(finally did stg for bizcom haha)(publicised my wonderful playlist too!!)

6)brought my comfy warm nice blankie from home! (no more shivering on rainy nights like this!)

7)got my allowance. haha

8)spent time with my dear =)

I have yet to:

1) start studying!!

2)come up with my study plan!!

3)recoop money i spent!!

4)give my dear his bday present!!*gasp*

5)collect my soci paper!!(missed it today!dunnoe when ill geddit man!!)

6)lose wt. damnit.

ooh baby! how true is THAT man!!
haaha check out the outfit! its almost like wad i wore for bling bling baby!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTtttttt

You're the high fashion trendsetter. You're
confident, independent, outgoing, and love
attention. You might become a star one day. All
the girls like to follow in your foot steps
because you're so cool, fashionable, and don't
care about anything. You make the rules, never
follow. But please be sure not to act bitchy.
That could be bad. But keep the attitude.
That's what makes you, you.

What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by

in LAJ1201, we have an hour long tutorial dedicated to speaking and conversation in japanese.

every week we will regurgitate conversations we memorise from the textbook in pairs or in 3s (wadever's required). the conversation details change as we go on.

so anyway there's this damn joker in my class who week after week bring laughter to our class =)

this week's conversation is between a janitor and a resident (japanese R damn friendly and polite)

so anyway the original conversation goes like,

janitor:"it's a fine day today! going out?"

resident:"yeap, going to the post office."

janitor:"i see!"

and den at this point my tutor asked us to add in extra conversation and question to ask the resident and vice versa.

so this joker who was supposed to be the resident, started normally den when it came to the improv questions, he asked the janitor a qns we learnt from our last tutorial. usually people ask normal questions like how's your mom doing, how's your daughter doing. this guy loves to ask "how's your girlfriend doing" or "how's your dog doing" kinda unexpected questions.

but this time round he really win alrdy.

lemme type out the entire conversation.first in jap den directly translated in english.

normal guy as janitor: "kanosho was ogenki desu ka?"

joker as resident: " hai, genki desu. ano...osawa sage no konsetto isshoni ikaga desu ka?"

(whole class erupted in laughter)

normal guy (immediately):"ah! osawa sage no konsetto wa chotto..."

joker:"zannen desu ne!"

translated...

"How's your gf?" (the normal guy tryin to match the joker's cheekiness)

"She's fine. (obviously joker din fall into trap n continued..) Do you wanna go to a concert by Osawa Sage (a famous jap conductor) with me?"

"Er...I don't....think so?" (actually he rejected him in a typically polite japanese way which is literally translated as "eh...the concert is...later..." coz chotto means later)

the joker really win alrdy!! hahahah basket
but really i dunnoe if everybody might find this funny. maybe only kim-san, gen-san to nicole-san (n maybe ian-san, matt-san to sebby-san and whuever noes jap).

but its funnY ahahaha

i never felt this shit in my life.

never felt so incompetent

so talenteless inefficient indecisive.

u made me out to be an incoherent temperamental bitch.

im startin to believe that.

u made me out to be an indecisive, inefficient leader.

im startin to believe that.

much as i dun exactly like to entertain tt thought.
perhaps i amd just doomed to be a pathetic nobody who runs ard in pple's shadow because she is too incompetent to be a leader.

u made me sound screwed up.

u made me sound exactly like pple ive always loathed.

perhaps u are talking sense.

perhaps everything is really my fault.
fruit of my own inefficiency.

i really am startin to believe that

yunwen=incompetent=indecisive=useless=nothing.

if u were tryin to get me, you got me.

yunwen=incompetent despite putting in very thing=pathetic incompetent at birth and forever

you really got me.

u made me out to be the shitiest person in the world.

screwed up n fucked up.

well,
you got me.

tinkofur own caption.i cant tink at the sight of this. 

me and bry! 

me matt and bry! cute victorians!!