I am generally a very happy person. I try not to complain too much and if I do it's usually because of the way my day has proceeded. I have never been a mom who has a difficult time parenting. Hate me if you must but I rarely have days when I am frustrated or angry with my children. They know the rules and the consequences, I just choose not to let the choices they make affect me or my day negativiley. Call me crazy but I love to see my children fail from time to time, just to watch how they'll handle it and how much they will grow. It is beautiful to watch the people they are turning into.
I do have days however when I am frustrated with myself. I put a lot of pressure on myself to do better than I did the day before but I fall short...often. I'm realistic. I understand that I can't do everything. I understand that I will have "off"days. I understand that I am human and will make mistakes. But sometimes I just want to scream. I have a list of things that need to be done and literally no time to do them. I thought maybe I was just being "lazy"...but then after paying attention for a few days and realizing I literally do NOT sit down until after my children go to sleep at night and then I get right back up and finish dishes, laundry, or do yoga.
So reality check Trish! you have 3 children who are very small and VERy close together in age. you have a sometimes over dramatic, very involved 8 year old. your husband is gone 50-80 hrs a week with school, church, and work responsibilities. Things will just have to slip through the cracks because it is not worth losing the time with your babies before they are not babies anymore.
