So far today I am in a pretty good mood so I figured I better blog before that changes. I know it's weird but lately I can turn on you in a second. I'm trying very hard not too, but sometimes...you know people bug me.

Anyway, I'm at work which you all know is my favorite thing in the world. It's okay...today. At least I have a computer at my desk so I can blog. The only thing that sucks is that since I am on a MAC I can't load on my pictures. And since Michael has been a big computer HOG lately, how dare he...stupid school :), I don't ever get to at home. Sorry. Well he should be done today with all his homework so maybe tomorrow you will get pictures.

I did want to mention to everyone, we are having a BBQ for Michael, Jeremy, and Adam for graduation. It is on Saturday May 5th at 12:30. It will be at Michael's dad's house. Call me if you need directions.

I feel so good today which is a little unusual. Lately I have fealt like crap everyday. I've been tired and mean. I've come home from work everyday and fallen asleep and then I get mad because I can't sleep at night or because I got nothing done. Or I'm up all night throwing up. It's been fantastic. But today is good.

We went to dinner last night with Natalie and Chandler. I needed to film Chandler for Nat's bridal shower game on Saturday. I feel kinda bad because Kari was doing one game and I was doing the other but it kinda ended up being Kari doing both games. She thought of the questions and then Michael filmed it. I really did nothing. I did send out invitations and called and ordered food...does that count? Sorry Kik.

Well I better get back to work..."break's over"...lol break, at 9:30 in the morning. Good thing it's Friday...Peace.

Ug!!

Okay I know my blog was not so inspiring yesterday. I'm sorry about that.

I am so emotional today and it's not something I'm used to. My emotions are usually headed in the other direction. But today I just keep crying. I have to share what Kailye said yesterday after she heard what was going on with Bobbie. Here goes...

We were driving home from Grandma's yesterday when I called mom to ask what was going on with Bobbie. She let me know things were not what we'd all hoped for and that she needed to get off the phone. I was so sad. Kailye asked why I was upset. This was the conversation to follow...

"Mommy why are you sad?"..."Because Aunt Bobbie is having a hard time, and she is not going to have a baby in her tummy anymore."..."why?"..."because something happened to make the baby stop growing."..."mommy, aunt Bobbie isn't going to have a baby because it was sick. That Baby went to heaven."..."kk you are very sweet"...Kailye started to get a little bit teary and then she said, "mommy, aunt Bobbies baby was sick and had to go back to heaven but she will have a healthy baby next time. This baby just needed to stay with Heavnly Father." I of course was crying my eyes out by this time then to make it worse she sang "I am a child of God" all the way home. Over and over.

I was so touched by her sweet innocent spirit. I worry about how I raise my child spiritually. And that I'm not doing all I should. It's times like this that I realize that little girl has ten times more faith and stregnth than I do. She thanks God every night in her prayers for the Gospel. I'm so greatful to have these experiences to reflect on when she's driving me up the wall with her SUPER hyper personality. I am greatful that she understands so many adult things, it also is scarry how much she understands. I love that she is so intune to the spirit and so intune to peoples feelings. For an almost four year old it amazes me how she somehow always comes up with the right things to say.

Bobbie we are very sad for you, we know everything will be okay. But also want you to know we Love you very much.

Oh how much I love work...?

Okay so I'm realy stuggling today. I am at work and I just don't want to be anymore. I know I have to work until Michael gets a job after Graduation but I am struggling because it may actually be longer than that. Michael plans on doing Mortgages and Loans to start out which means he may not work for a company that has insurance. Which means I get to work through my whole pregnancy...oh goody! I know it is a blessing that I have a job that pays well and that I'm so good at and I should quit being so ungreatful for it, but I just don't want to anymore. I want to go home and be with my baby...who is almost 4...before we have another kid to take all the attention. Okay I know she's not going to remember but it still sucks. I'm trying really hard to be greatful...REALLY HARD...I wake up happy everyday until I remember it's not the weekend. Oh well...someday I will be able to stay home and be greatful for the opertunity to have a great job while my husband was in school...I just wish that day would come FASTER!

Okay sorry just had to vent...peace

This is short...or maybe not.

Okay so this was going to be short but I wrote more thnan I was going to. I just have to write it down before I forget to ever do it.

We went to the doctor again last week to do another ultrasound. It was good, this time we took Kailye. She was so excited to be able to see the baby. While we were waiting in the ultrasound room she looks up at the screen and says "when are we going to be able to see the baby shaped like a peanut?" Michael and I started laughing and I asked her,"how did you know it looked like a peanut?" she responded by giving mw her you dumb person look and saying "from FRIENDS." Yes that's right from the TV show FRIENDS. We watch it every night at 6:30 and then we watch Wheel Of Furtune. Kailye likes that one better. I thought it was so funny.

On monday Bobbie and I were watching the Bachelor with Kailye. It's pretty entertaining I think but apperently Kailye thinks it is very entertaining. Half way through she grabs my head and whispers in my ear, "Mom that guy is SOOOO HANDSOME!" I told Bobbie and Kailye got mad at me because it was a secret. But ever since monday every night she asks if she can watch the show with "Andy that one guy" on it. I'm a little worried that my not quite four year old already has very definite opinions on who she finds attractive and who she doesn't. Oh well!

Well I better get back to work. Bye

Pregnancy....

Okay so last time I was pregnant I was sick from day one. And not sick blah..but hospital sick, and losing 18 pounds in the first 3 months, and multiple kidney infections, and a lovely episode of colitis (until you've had that, you have no idea what pain is. Exept Steph and her 10 pound baby with no epideral), and a bit of bed rest, you know...only like 3 months. Anyway this time around it has really been no big deal. I feel sick once or twice a day but not bad. I'm so greatful so far this has been farely easy.

There are so many things I forgot about though. The dreams, sore chest, fat shift (yes Bobbie I too look 5 months pregnant and last time I didn't look pregnant until 6 months), being exhausted all the time, weird cravings. I don't remeber most of it but I also haven't been in this stage of pregnancy in almost 5 years.

I do love that I can sleep in the middle of the day and still sleep at night. I really love sleep :) I get tired quickly though. Poor Kailye probably takes more naps than an almost 4 year old needs. She is very excited though. She argues with her dad everyday that it is a baby girl NOT a boy. Honestly I don't care if it's a boy or a girl. After so long trying I'm just greatful and hope everything goes well. I know Michael feels the same way.

Well I better get going...Love you all.

I know...I know...

So I know it has been so long since the last time I blogged...but here you go...

Things were pretty hectic around the Griffee house for while. We went down to Moab a few weeks ago to take Natalie's engagement pictures. It was nice but I have determined I really do take the cold everywhere I go. Kari and I thought it was both of us but after a few trips with out her I've decided it's me. It was beautiful the day we left though.

Michael thought it would be great to give me a heart attach let me show you what I'm talking about....

So what you are looking at doesn't look like much but, Natalie and Michael are sitting on the edge of a cliff that is shaped like a diving board and has a 2000 foot drop down. I wanted to kill him. I was scared to death that he was going to slip while he was getting up. It made me SOOOOO nervous. you see the wall built around the outside did nothing to stop them from climbing over it and sitting on a CLIFF!! yea, he's so smart.

I love him anyway even if he did give me anxiety for the next three days...no kidding I was up two nights. I'm deathly afraid of hieghts. Not because I'm scared of falling but I can see other people falling and that's all I can picture. I know it's weird.

The trip to Moab was fun. Dad had never been down there and he has lived in Utah his whole life. I thought that was weird. It is so beautiful in the parks. There is nothing like it in the world. I think Arches is my favorite park.(It's the one with Delicate Arch) We are headed down again in a week for a camping trip with the Griffee Family.

Well Michael is on his way home and he has to use the computer for homework...thus the reason I haven't blogged for a while..oh yea that and the fact that I'm pregnant ;) yes that's right after Two and a half years of trying. I guess the lord knows what he's doing. I'm due about the same time as Kristen, Bobbie, Kari, and almost everyone Steph knows. November 11, 2007.

Love you all... Night.