Great...one bad thing after another...

Just came back from the doctor with a big white bandaged thumb...

Was cutting lemon for a drink and while trying to squeeze the juice out using the knife...I accidentally sliced my thumb halfway through. What a sharp knife. At first, I didn't feel anything and just froze for a moment...then I saw the wound was like spilt open, as if the cut thumb was going to fall off. I actually took a glimpse and saw some white fluffy stuff from the wound and reckon it to be the adipose layer. It looks something like the Xue3 Ge2 Gao1 (A kind of nutritious food item, usually made into dessert, said to be either a winter frog's fat or the frog's sperm...nobody knows what is it exactly)....but ya, what I saw from the cut looks like it. Then, I was like "Mummy, mummy...." then my mum came followed by my Dad and they were like scolding and scolding me for always being so careless...before my eyes were then patches of bright light and I thought I was going to faint. I started to hyperventilate..I was very dizzy and couldn't walk straight.
The first thing that came to my mind was: I'm going to die....Then my mum brought me down to the clinic to get my would stitched up. The wait for my turn was painful and it seemed forever to come to my turn. Was praying to God to ease my pain. The best thing was, I'm having terrible stomach cramps at the same time and the wound was like making my cramps worse...My postulate is, the wound actually caused my body to release a kind of hormone and this hormone, having multiple functions and target sites caused my stomach cramps to worsen....Finally my turn came and the doctor asked me whether I want anesthesia for the stitch...I bravely said...its ok...I can bear with it....but after the first stitch, I was ouching all the way...and requested the anesthesia....had 4 stitches altogether. Yup...wat a wonderful day...

(was thinking back...should have taken a photo of my wound)

Just came back home and immediately went to disinfect the "contaminated" areas...thinking back on what happened in the MRT train bring chills down my spine..."eeeewww". I cant believe what had just happened and until now I'm still recovering from my shock. What happened was: I entered the train at Orchard heading towards City Hall and there's this lady who refused to move inany further despite me struggling hard to grab the pole. Nevermind, my balancing skills aren't too bad and I still can "tong". Just then, an unexpected "AH CHOO!!!" came from a big Indian man standing next to me, and guess what...yup, mucus SPLATTERED onto my face, my right shoulder and my collar bone area, even though he attempted to cover his nose with his hanky. I immediately took out my tissue and gave that disgusted face...think of the germs and ugly bacteria all over me...eeee...so disgusting. Studying microbiology really helped me understand how disgusting the situation was. Hai...spoilt my day.

But at least it didn't rain today, first time after the long, cold and wet period. It signifies the start of a sunny and bright future. I'm gonna miss the cooling weather though. You dun get day temperatures of 23 degrees very often in Singapore you know...

Anyways, school has started for me and today is my second day. Not very exciting, went to lecture and saw all the familiar faces taking the same course as me for 3 years. Din get to know many of them very well...which I think is quite a waste. But what to do...I'm not a sociable person. This morning, as I entered my human physiology lecture theatre, at the side of my vision, I felt that there was someone looking at me and suttly I looked at that person without letting him know and saw the guy I had a crush on two semester ago...haha...ok, I should stop to "fa hua chi"...

Its my last semester in school already and felt like I din do much and din cherish my time in University to make a difference, to leave a legacy....haha, its bit too much wishful thinking la. Till I share my thots again...

Had the Kembangan Club's 1st meeting of the year and attendance was really bad. Only 50% attendance (three out of six): The President (PSD), the Publicity Head (PH) and yours truly, the Treasurer(TR). Hard to have members committing nowadays...Actually one sprained his ankle, another went for an exchange program and the last one had a project presentation

We started from the usual meeting place and the agenda was to visit a newcomer in church, Kenneth aka Kenny and try to psycho him to join the club, and also, to find the furthest mailbox we can travel to, so that the PH can post his letter.
We first went to Bryan's house cos the PH, as usual a lot of things to do, needed to pass something to him, or something like that...not too sure what he was doing because I was busy discussing some things with the PSD. Then after getting the exact address (somewhere in Bedok Reservoir, cant reveal exact address here due to confidentiality) from Kenny, we roughly planned our route (actually we had little idea how to get there but decided to try). The PH said that there is an overhead bridge across the PIE which will be nearer to the resevoir. We jus skated and cycled to find the bridge and took a long time because no one had any idea where it was. We finally found an underpass which we believe goes under the PIE and links CHai Chee and Bedok North (the side nearer to the reservoir). Upon reaching the HDB estate in Bedok North, we asked around and travelled for some distance before finding out where we were in relation to the reservoir. The TR met with an accident (as usual) along the way and was mildly injured at the knee. We travelled and travelled in the rain and finally reached the road leading to the reservoir. there was a sense of achievement although we havent reach the place. We went under this bridge which was quite cool. We believe this bridge was the PIE itself. But the PH was puzzled at how we thot we crossed the PIE twice but still manage to stay on the same side...??? I suggested that the PIE was not straight and so maybe we crossed near the bend or smth. But up till now, its still a mystery.

At the void deck of Kenny's block, we dried ourselves and talked to Kenny. Had a great time getting to know him. I realised that he looked a lot like HuiYing's younger brother. Kenny is a very nice and friendly guy who's studying in TPJC as a year 2 student this year. The first impression he gave me (Yes, actually my first time talking to him although he has been coming to church for abt three weeks already) was that he is quite a gentle and approachable person and nice to talk to (Can actually see from the photo). We fulfilled our agenda by convincing Kenny to join our club but first he has to get either a bike or a pair of blades. The rightmost guy is Kenny.

After the visit, we wanted to head for supper because I was a bit hungry. Still havent found a mail box though. How to get home was really a puzzle for us but surprisingly we managed to find a new and beautifully litted overhead bridge across the PIE in a relatively short time. To my amazement, this bridge actually leads to the HDB estate where I live (Which means that if we started out from the bridge at my HDB estate, we would have arrived Kenny's place much faster). Then, the mailbox was at the MRT station which we have to pass by in order to get to Bryan's place. Bryan is one of our member and he's the one who had a presentation. In the end, the furthest mailbox we wanted to find was actually the nearest...how ironic.

Lastly, we went to the 24 hour prata place at Kembangan and had our dinner cum supper there. the President had to leave early due to some unforseen circumstances. Ya Shuen, Michelle and Sam joined us.

So, this was the Kembangan Club experience.

Dru dru....received a call when I was still sleeping, looked at the time in my hp and saw the person who's calling me...I was like..."sharks!"...it's 1pm already...and I'm suppose to meet Bo Ram...She was already heading down to city hall!! Thank God she told me she'll be meeting Ya Shuen and Jae Hoon also...if not she'll be all alone. Din expect myself to sleep until so late....
She then msg me saying that they'll be going to Raffles Hotel to eat...I was like: wah...Ya Shuen kind of place...hee...we had very very delicious dim sum and the char siew soh was the best I've ever eaten...Its the ultimate su1 cui4 and the filling was piping hot and meaty...hee.
Matt was there too and we were like tracing back who woke us up...the untimate culprit was Jae Hoon...ha ha...you should look at his innocent face man...Jae hoon called Ya Shuen and woke her up, then Ya Shuen woke Matt up...Bo Ram then said Jae Hoon also called her and woke her up...then she in turn woke me up...so funny rite?

We spent the whole time learning Korean...our Korean names to be specific...My Korean name is E Young Young...ha ha...sounds funny to me...apparently young is a common word used in girl's names in Korea. Matthew's one even more funny..." Im Som Mien" sounds like insomnia...haha...We then had dessert, which is my favourite O Ni...which is also what Bo Ram calls me..."On ni"...apparently its a greeting system where a younger girl will call an older girl in Korea...I like this system because it makes u feel very qin1 qie4...a younger girl will call an older guy "Ob ba"...after that, Ya Shuen footed the bill, as usual and so pai seh to make her pay everytime we have meals together...

After that, we went Levi's where Bo Ram bought her velvet jacket...it was so classy and nice...but the price even nicer...cant believe it actually costs twice in Korea...We then parted with Ya Shuen and Matt and went to Orchard to shop some more...Guess what...Jae Hoon went to Burberry's...cos he had to buy a long sleeved polo shirt for his dad...and it costs abt $180, close to the velvet jacket...when they pay for the items, they din display any airs...which shows that buying branded stuff for them is like going to Isetan or Metro or Mango or Zara or Topshop for us...If I buy something from Burburry's or Louis Vuitton...I'lll be like so proud of myself being able to afford them and try to act gao1 gui4(you get what I mean)...

Then Bo Ram went to buy her favourite kaya spread, which we mistook for hair spray when she said it...haha...Jae Hoon bought dried mangos and dried pineapple...at least some things unique to Singapore or at least SEA... they wanted to buy Bak Kua but deemed it too ex and so didn't even though they like it a lot...hee. Can see that they rather spend more money on clothes than food...which I feel is some what different from Singaporeans...hee...Since they buy so many stuff...I also cannot diu1 lian3...so I bought brownies home for my parents...

After that, we went coffee club to sit down and we talked and talked and laughed and laughed until I got headache...Jae Hoon's facial expressions together with his weird sounds are so cute and funny. I really enjoyed the time spent chatting with them and spending these last few moments with them...Bo Ram said smth to me which touched me and made me feel sad at the same time...I suppose this friendship with Jae Hoon, Hyuk and Bo Ram will be in our hearts forever. There's a special yet somewhat different closeness in the friendship I had with each of them...will miss them terribly

At the airport was really a bittersweet moment for us all..God allowed a delay in their flight for us to spend more time together and it really meant a lot for all of us. Details can read from Yu Xian's blog...haha

The grossest photo of the night...haha..

Was thinking : Should I get a webcam too...

I dunnoe what's gotten to me? I'm still searching, searching my heart, searching for answers, searching for happiness. It still seems to me that the whole world is far better off than me...I'm right now having little strength to love....

Is it considered to be putting up a front when I'm having problems deep down inside but appear to my friends that I'm happy and enjoying myself. How do I tell people my thoughts without having to offend them. I simply jus cant, which explains why I keep most things to myself rather than say it out. As much as I feel that true friends should be truthful to each other, without being afraid to offend, I cant seem to be able to do that to certain people I thought are my true friends. Maybe to them, I'm not...its hurting isn't it...

I need my dose of renewal PT...I'm on the verge of trying to rely on my own strength to struggle through my usual problems again...when will it ever end?

Many events took place today...or should I say yesterday (1 Jan 2006). First is the long services I have to attend and trying to keep myself awake, then its going for my niece's birthday party and to Matt's house for the farewell for the Koreans. They are truly a great bunch of friends whom I've got to know but they've got to go home already. As much as I want to tell them how I feel during the sharing session, I cant, becos I cant speak well and organise my thoughts in-prompt-to-ly. Wrote long cards for them though, hope they understand why I've got nothing to share then...

I feel that these few days, I've been too contained in myself and the usual problems just keep coming back to me...I'm getting weaker...God please help me!!