I had a bad night yesterday...went to work at this bookfair from 10am-9pm and at the end of the day, my employer gave me my pay. I enjoyed the job becos it's stress free, compared to the job at Taka, and the people(staff and customers) are nice, and lastly, I can get to read some interesting books(most of the books cater to children and they're so attractive and colourful)...hee, make me wanna go back to my childhood days. Anyway, back to my main point,after receiving the pay, I slot it into my pocket and went off to close the fair...I had to do some squatting and moving ard to cover the books with cloth, and so dropped my money without realising it until I was on my way to the mrt station.The first thing in my mind was: Oh God, why must this happen to me again?I've lost quite a few valuable things within a short period of time. Called my employer and ask her to inform me if she happen to see the money I dropped...though without much hope.I met Sin Wei to go home together and told her wat had happened...she tried to make me happier and as much as i appreciated it, it din work very much. I sulked all the way home and teared a bit, with complaints running in my mind...complaints to God...but then, it din take long before I manage to regain to my normal self. Woke up this morning at 10.30am and thot to myself: they wouldn't have found the money if not they would have called becos they open at 10. Jus when i had this thot, i received a call from Winnie, my employer. Up till then, I still din have much hope and was waiting for her to tell me that they din find any money.But Winnie told me the unexpected...I was too shock(plus the fact that I just woke up) to express my elation immediately and was still talking to Winnie in a blur state. With her expecting me to respond with shouts of joy, she was taken aback by how calm I was and asked "Are you Wendy?"...haha, found this quite amusing...Thru this incident, God has amplified the meaning of His graciousness becos I din even prayed to Him and was also slightly angry with Him to do so and yet He has blessed me with a miracle. This taught me a lesson to not undermine what God can do and not jump into blaming God for everything bad....this is something i'll contnue to learn.
As i type, my wrists are aching cos today after fellowship, the nus tuffers and crytal youths hepled to move abt 400 cartons of campbell soup from the second floor to the fourth floor. Tiring but fun...towards the end, everybody was like counting down but the numbers din really decrease consecutively...haha...it din even reach 1...
Fellowship was fun, played a game whereby the contestants have to be blind-folded and use a selected body part to feel an item and to guess wat was it. In one try, i had to use my feet to touch some living thing...and expected it to be frogs...i was right...haha, these things dun scare me though.
I've been thinking about my friendship with a friend...happy to get to know this person better and able to talk to this person more...

*"Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all these things will be added unto you" Matthew 3:33? not sure...haha, lazy to check now...update later.

It's been a long long time man...maybe should do a bit of updating...today is the end of the first stress period: module registration. Finally it's over.But then, it's the start of another stress period: the actual piaying...i have this sudden motivation to want to work to my honours year recently...some time after the cap score criteria was decreased from 3.8 to 3.5. not sure whether this motivation is temporal, as usual, or hopefully is smth which is able to urge me to work hard all the way...we'll see.
Told Gim Seng that i'm going to change my focus in my blogging...what i've not mentioned in the reason: becos certain areas of me changed for the better and dun wish to dwell so much on the sad past, sad experiences and the the old me...but i'm not exactly entirely changed...but still in process.God has been so great and loving, so wonderful and understanding, lovely and comforting. My eyes, my mind and my heart have been opened to widen my vision...the things i see include the friends, new friends, old friends, my future, God's purpose for me, God's importance in my life compared to anything else. I've learnt to be broad-minded, instead of being so petty and over-sensitive over little insignificant things.I've learnt to not keep so quiet so that i can make new friends(socialising skills), not to keep so quiet in front of my old friends, think deeper into my purpose in life.i've always had tat laid-back attitude in life and never really think much in wat i want to accomplish, in other words lack the motivation in doing anything. at least now, i'm slowly picking up this motivation, so that i can enjoy life on earth to the fullest without any regrets. These changes seem dynamic...but i'm sure with God in my life, i can do it, be it 10 months, or even 10 years...
Talking about new friends, i've met a lot...ppl always meet new ppl, and often these new relationships dun last...but i'm glad i can get to keep in contact with some new frens who hav come into my life, like Gim Seng from lavy, Kevin from crystal, Mai, a wonderful vietnamese friend from NUS, Melvin from charis, the sweet little Sweedy pie from MacDonald's, Laverne,Yen Ping,Man Yuen, Cherrie from lifescience...haha. the list goes on. and i'm glad to know old friends better, like Edda, Matthew, Evelyn, Ja...and my best friend who always will stay as my best friend. Sin Wei...ha...
My only hope now is in God, who never fails to make things right, even when things go wrong, He will still be there to help, to guide, to comfort and to strengthen.

*this song Only Hope keeps running in my head the whole day... ha, cos i watched the show A Walk to Remember in the morning on HBO.