Youre my feet when i cant move on

20070206

prove it, move hawhaw

OKAAAAY...
im MOVING ON to livejournal hawhaw

http://paperoaktree.livejournal.com

12:59 PM

20070203

toblerone pieces

and as i move on, hoping to take some people along with me. i know lifes like that and i cant 10 hands to hold on to 10 people cause i love you them all the same. some goes with me, some doesnt. some remains a distant memory, some remain closest to my heart, some just stands as a sidewalk. we all need love, alot of love. this world needs alot of lovers.
but i have 10 toblerone pieces.
and i love you fatty, although this time... i cant hold you in one of my hands, im giving you one piece of toblerone pieces i have in my hands.
(:

oh well.
alot like life, alot like love.

11:46 PM

blessed you.

i am blessed.

ivy is studying psychology now.
celia is drawing.
wee is like interrogating the macdonald man for gab's 6bucks.
bless their fervent hearts..
[:

JUST ONE CALL, AND GOD WILL SET YOU ON FIRE.

12:08 AM

20070201

love, like rain

today the joy of The Lord was present.
and i am happy as a blubby monster.
hawhaw
okay, anyway.
training today, during the first round, i was very much like "omg, i need to stop now now now." cause i was so exhausted and my legs were simply just giving way however, this funny feeling just told me to keep on pushing on. so i went ahead, and pushed through. however, when i reached the sport complex, i knew i had to push my limit. so i went for one more round... [: and wong accompanied me.
she has been my encouragement throughout the entire run. love you wongwong
in my mind, what just kept running was "the joy of the Lord is my strength" repeatly.. and truly. the joy of the Lord is my strength.
and i felt extremely happy during the entire training too.
it amazes me again and again, how He has been there.

i am going to be wise about whom i decide to open up my life to.
weewee, you have been an amazing friend. being there for me today.
you faced your greatest fear of running janis leong, now its this you have to overcome.

:D
been hanging out alot with joy+hui+kx for the past few days heh. sometimes, nice friends deep deep down are hard to find.

like what yahlan shared on tues during PM..
"before you can achieve something greater, before you move up another level in any area of your life, everything has to be broken down first"
so if you feel like the worlds crashing down on you.. dont fret [: its because something great is going to happen to you.
be blessed.

10:28 PM

20070131

fuzzy wuzzy

retail theraphy like what they all say.
belt from fareast
one darkgold + black chain from fareast
top from zara
top from pull and bear
flip flops
and its not even the start of the month, my money is gone.

today, somebody msged this to me.
"fuzzy wuzzy likes * but not me,
so does janis"
and yes, i am affected :S
oh well...

i had family dinner on monday and today, and i am really happy :D i wish i could have these days more. when i can come home early often and have dinner w my parents and sister.
maybe after i decide on it, ill have more free time.

9:35 PM

sigh

its not about having low-self esteem.
but its for the very fact that, all of you look at me with this in your head.
"janis has fallen so darn badly she cant help out anymore"
"look janis, im higher up than you"
and.
"i am helping someone now"
"pay the cash"
or its like some addition pple to your group like some competition.

sometimes i really dont know who to trust.
ugh.

djs...
i wish i was a little closer to the both of you.
sorry i was not there.

omg. im really miss emo kiddo.
im going to make that decision and not regret it.

1:30 AM

20070128

false concerns?

leave everything of 06 and move into 07..
everything.
good and bad memories.
yes, good memories too because they come along with the bad.
its all hand in hand.

to be emotionally strong.
means that you have control over every aspect of your life, emotions.
which also means.
you can have the control whether you want to/dont want to fall for a person.
wah then i dont think im that strong after all
"do you know why you always fall for the wrong person?"
honestly. i dont want to know why.

and so, its okay if im not ever going to be a good volleyball player with all skills and talents, im just going to learn how to be a positive player.

12:26 AM

20070125

neveda

okay im like having VB now, ahhh screw computing. bluek.
hmmm im this screwed by during computing classes cause im looking at my thousand over pictures in the states over again. reminisicing the taste of liberty like, for real.
sighhhhh *haha its a good sigh yeh.

okay now i cant wait to go bali with my friends (:
haha all my life im just waiting for holiday after holiday.
when i grow up, im going to save and travel around the world.
bringing along w me the old folks of course.

today i was so late for school was kinda !@#$%^&*( initially until i saw this FAT FLUFFY sparrow. cause it was super cold, so i think its feathers sort of sized up for warmth?
HAHA.
made me happy leh(:

"all i desire a heart after You.."
--> and i really do, why is the heart so hard..?

why are you always so beautiful?

3:02 PM

20070123

pee pee! you lost that point

theres a very fine line between,
1)giving up
2)letting it go because you are just not good at it altogether no matter how hard you try

rah.
i dont want to be upset about not being able to perform anymore, just be happy and play ball like what they all tell me.

sometimes bad esteem gets the better of me bluek when your 2bestfriends are always slightly better than you, in studies and in sports. ogay get along janis leong.

going to accompany rena for her volleyball westzone refereeing with joyci laters which means im gonna go out of school which means im going to leave class early.
im so sick of school i really dont know what to do. HAHA. hey it rhymes.

A WOMAN NEEDS A MAN LIKE WHO A FISH NEEDS A BICYCLE
hurhur

9:17 AM