I haven't even given birth yet, but here I am on leave again.
Just felt tired of work, and since there're no meetings today, i took the day off.
I'm only about 5.5 months currently, but I feel like I'm already developing last trimester syndromes. Argh.
Feel tingling at the toes (liken to the water retention feeling), quite bad lower back pain, sit on the floor got difficulty standing up, bend down a bit become breathless. Oh no! What's happening to me! I'm also not very big? I think I've gained about 5kg since the start. And i'm constantly tired, even though the 2nd trimester is supposed to be the "glowing" phase of pregnancy?
I envy my neighbour, who received a golden handshake from the bank. She is well remunerated for a year, and decided to be at home with the kids. Barely half a year has passed, but she yearns to go back to work. I guess there are always two sides of the coin.
If we women weren't so educated, we'll find more contentment looking after the kids and the house as a primary role rather than being out at the marketplace for a pay cheque? While i take delight thinking about being home with the kids, i also gotta bear reality in mind. Firstly, being able to earn an income is wonderful. You'll feel less restriction in your spending and can afford treats for your kids and self. i dont really have to think twice when I feel like buying something for my girl. Secondly, the social life. At work, i look forward to lunch breaks with close colleagues, chatting about work and life encounters. This will probably all be lost or greatly minimized.
What should our choices be? i want to be led by my heart and not have regrets down the road. Hope i can hit a win-win situation somehow. With the Lord, His plans are the greatest. Pls direct me to the best path.
There was a hfmd scare in ariel's class! Her partner (whom she holds hands with) got it and was in school during the contagious period for 2 or 3 days. another 2 playmates in their "gang" have already caught it.
i was so so concerned about ariel getting it, especially so because I am pregnant, and hfmd is known to cause still birth and complications. what to do but pray for divine protection and health? rounded up some trusted friends to pray for her, and i felt such overwhelming peace! cries and petitions to Heaven are simply wonderful. The Lord hears and the Lord cares. i still kept ariel at home yesterday as a precaution. But since she was all well and about, i decided to send her for class today. Moreover, she was rather destructive at home yesterday. Haha. Toddlers have too much energy!
Wednesday, April 27, 2016
Friday, April 22, 2016
21 weeks now
On Monday i had my gynae visit.
It was the LONGEST experience I've ever had at KKH for an outpatient visit! Spent 4.5 hours at the hospital and exited the carpark with a shocking carpark fee of $11.68.
I had the 20-week detailed scan. Not sure if it was a technician's competency or an uncooperative baby - but I had to go in and out several times, seeing different sonographers each time, until they got a satisfactory image of the whatever they had to check.
count the waiting time between each room, the aloofness of the service associates (ah, you are just another number waiting in the queue), the back and forth, the waiting again to see the doctor because I was 1.5 hours late for my dr's appointment due to the incompleteness of the scan... This summed up to be the most frustrating experience I've ever had.
I was even late in sending ariel to school and had to call my dad for help because I couldn't make it in time.
I've never been so delayed from all my experiences at KKH before. I'm not a subsidised patient who should get used to a longer waiting time due to the sheer load. Sigh, my colleague encouraged me to give a feedback, but it was probably just a bad day and I left it as that.
Well, some not-so-good news.
First, i have to go for an oral glucose tolerance test to rule out gestational diabetes. What a bummer, i didn't have to do this when expecting ariel!
Secondly, I have a low placenta this round and it could mean i'll have to undergo and caesarean if it doesn't move up. Have to minimise carrying ariel :(
Thirdly, i have to go for another detailed scan to monitor the growth. Never had to do this with ariel too.
Can't help but feel concerned and fed up with the situation.
Ok lastly, the gender is out. I'm carrying a baby boy.
Ending this post with a cute picture of ariel. Always proud of my baby girl!
It was the LONGEST experience I've ever had at KKH for an outpatient visit! Spent 4.5 hours at the hospital and exited the carpark with a shocking carpark fee of $11.68.
I had the 20-week detailed scan. Not sure if it was a technician's competency or an uncooperative baby - but I had to go in and out several times, seeing different sonographers each time, until they got a satisfactory image of the whatever they had to check.
count the waiting time between each room, the aloofness of the service associates (ah, you are just another number waiting in the queue), the back and forth, the waiting again to see the doctor because I was 1.5 hours late for my dr's appointment due to the incompleteness of the scan... This summed up to be the most frustrating experience I've ever had.
I was even late in sending ariel to school and had to call my dad for help because I couldn't make it in time.
I've never been so delayed from all my experiences at KKH before. I'm not a subsidised patient who should get used to a longer waiting time due to the sheer load. Sigh, my colleague encouraged me to give a feedback, but it was probably just a bad day and I left it as that.
Well, some not-so-good news.
First, i have to go for an oral glucose tolerance test to rule out gestational diabetes. What a bummer, i didn't have to do this when expecting ariel!
Secondly, I have a low placenta this round and it could mean i'll have to undergo and caesarean if it doesn't move up. Have to minimise carrying ariel :(
Thirdly, i have to go for another detailed scan to monitor the growth. Never had to do this with ariel too.
Can't help but feel concerned and fed up with the situation.
Ok lastly, the gender is out. I'm carrying a baby boy.
Ending this post with a cute picture of ariel. Always proud of my baby girl!
Thursday, April 07, 2016
Time and Seasons
The first quarter of the year is gone.
It wasn't very smooth sailing as I was constantly bothered with nausea, tiredness, bloatedness, indigestion, episodes of URTI, insomia, even gastric pains... Yes, the first trimester was dreadful. That's finally over and I am now 19 weeks pregnant.
So, this is my 3rd pregnancy. And i am highly inclined to stop at 2 children.
Occasionally, i like to browse my old posts and photos and reminisce Ariel's younger days. Indeed, a smooth pregnancy and delivery and a healthy child is really a blessing and miracle from the good Lord.
I couldn't help but be pessimistic and think about the possible worse-case scenarios for this pregnancy. Didn't feel so much anticipation. Perhaps the miscarriage experience got to me. But this little one is determined. I felt fetal movements very early this time. I just pray for God's covering and that this child would be so perfect like my little ariel :)
Another transition that I'm grappling with is a new helper. The helper of 2 years has left. Ariel has gone through 3 caregivers since she was born. This time, it threw her off balance because she had more understanding & memories of the one who looked after her from 1-3 years of age.
I'm on a week's leave (enjoying it very very much) to ease the new helper into looking after ariel. Hang in there ariel, mummy will be working for another 4 months and I can be home with you when I start my ML!
I am giving serious thoughts about quitting my job and being a SAHM. Makes it more worthy when I look after 2. Plans are to utilise my ML fully and seek my management's approval for no-pay leave. See if i can get accustomed to such a life, else there's always a job to fall back on. I really do hope that if i pursue the SAHM route, i would be able to find some form of income generation from home.
Well, social life would be a compromise, but the motherly involvement for a child's growing years is something time and money cannot buy... I just have to find ways to continue staying relevant.
Proverbs 3
It wasn't very smooth sailing as I was constantly bothered with nausea, tiredness, bloatedness, indigestion, episodes of URTI, insomia, even gastric pains... Yes, the first trimester was dreadful. That's finally over and I am now 19 weeks pregnant.
So, this is my 3rd pregnancy. And i am highly inclined to stop at 2 children.
Occasionally, i like to browse my old posts and photos and reminisce Ariel's younger days. Indeed, a smooth pregnancy and delivery and a healthy child is really a blessing and miracle from the good Lord.
I couldn't help but be pessimistic and think about the possible worse-case scenarios for this pregnancy. Didn't feel so much anticipation. Perhaps the miscarriage experience got to me. But this little one is determined. I felt fetal movements very early this time. I just pray for God's covering and that this child would be so perfect like my little ariel :)
Another transition that I'm grappling with is a new helper. The helper of 2 years has left. Ariel has gone through 3 caregivers since she was born. This time, it threw her off balance because she had more understanding & memories of the one who looked after her from 1-3 years of age.
I'm on a week's leave (enjoying it very very much) to ease the new helper into looking after ariel. Hang in there ariel, mummy will be working for another 4 months and I can be home with you when I start my ML!
I am giving serious thoughts about quitting my job and being a SAHM. Makes it more worthy when I look after 2. Plans are to utilise my ML fully and seek my management's approval for no-pay leave. See if i can get accustomed to such a life, else there's always a job to fall back on. I really do hope that if i pursue the SAHM route, i would be able to find some form of income generation from home.
Well, social life would be a compromise, but the motherly involvement for a child's growing years is something time and money cannot buy... I just have to find ways to continue staying relevant.
Proverbs 3
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
6in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.
My happy pill :) :) :)