was supposed to go st john's home with yuerui today. but we were not in the mood so we bought rum and raisin and used the computers for awhile. then went to find miss rani and miss cheng for contacts. have to remember to get them from charity tmr. oh yes. and miss cheng's tablecloth too.
my best friend in primary school found me in friendster! and now we are on msn. so it's so much easier to keep in touch and catch up. mr tan did nmr with us today. he went thru the mcq qns like light and if i did not attempt the questions i'd definitely be lost.
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
Saturday, March 27, 2004
yum. focaccai garlic.
just got home. today was the odac orientation. fewer people compared to 1st intake. mostly were the 1st intake j1s. quite alright in terms of fun. spent my day walking up and down the drain routes. i felt dirtier than the last time cos i got smeared with more paint. anyway the cleaning up is always a problem. this time the j2s cooked starch and it was so hard to remove! we were scrubbing the railings with brooms and our fingers.
church was good today. i love pastor kong. he's back, and we watched a greeting from Sun in hollywood. pastor kong's a good leader, he cares a lot for his flock and always teaches us how to improve and make our lives worth living. his messages are so practical! he was teaching us about maximising our potential today. i'm motivated by every session with him.
i feel quite bad for not waiting for the other east ppl. left with the rest first and only realised when kailin called me. shall be more alert next time. jason sent me home. he must have felt high today. haha. ok we were discussing about his future prospects. where to study and why. still no conclusion. let me know ya.
ok time to go bathe, read on forensic science (latest interest) and sleep. cip tmr.
just got home. today was the odac orientation. fewer people compared to 1st intake. mostly were the 1st intake j1s. quite alright in terms of fun. spent my day walking up and down the drain routes. i felt dirtier than the last time cos i got smeared with more paint. anyway the cleaning up is always a problem. this time the j2s cooked starch and it was so hard to remove! we were scrubbing the railings with brooms and our fingers.
church was good today. i love pastor kong. he's back, and we watched a greeting from Sun in hollywood. pastor kong's a good leader, he cares a lot for his flock and always teaches us how to improve and make our lives worth living. his messages are so practical! he was teaching us about maximising our potential today. i'm motivated by every session with him.
i feel quite bad for not waiting for the other east ppl. left with the rest first and only realised when kailin called me. shall be more alert next time. jason sent me home. he must have felt high today. haha. ok we were discussing about his future prospects. where to study and why. still no conclusion. let me know ya.
ok time to go bathe, read on forensic science (latest interest) and sleep. cip tmr.
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
forwarded mails and spasm are such a headache.
today there was a meeting on orientation. we are not doing much publicity this time. anyway i'm doing drain walk again. i want mana in the drain! (old joke).. haha! alright currently i'm attempting the 1st question of normal distribution 2. a bit lost. trying my best to catch up with all the homework. i dont wanna let it pile up too much that i get suffocated under. haha..
i've got my new timetable! mon 1.10pm, tue 1.50pm, wed 1.10pm (but got cca til 7 plus), thur 5.10pm, fri 1.50pm. argh i dunno why thur looks so ugly. anyway it's better than my old one. so far, school is manageable. i think mr ho has gone mad. he's screaming and getting fits more often, many times imitating crazy girls and throwing his hands and voice high.
i'm still tired from expedition. i cant watch The Passion! because i'm still about 4 months away from 18 years. they are that strict. does a few months' gap mean a huge disparity in maturity?! i beg to differ.
time to continue with my work. but the TV's calling me. i'm in love with gui ji! =)
today there was a meeting on orientation. we are not doing much publicity this time. anyway i'm doing drain walk again. i want mana in the drain! (old joke).. haha! alright currently i'm attempting the 1st question of normal distribution 2. a bit lost. trying my best to catch up with all the homework. i dont wanna let it pile up too much that i get suffocated under. haha..
i've got my new timetable! mon 1.10pm, tue 1.50pm, wed 1.10pm (but got cca til 7 plus), thur 5.10pm, fri 1.50pm. argh i dunno why thur looks so ugly. anyway it's better than my old one. so far, school is manageable. i think mr ho has gone mad. he's screaming and getting fits more often, many times imitating crazy girls and throwing his hands and voice high.
i'm still tired from expedition. i cant watch The Passion! because i'm still about 4 months away from 18 years. they are that strict. does a few months' gap mean a huge disparity in maturity?! i beg to differ.
time to continue with my work. but the TV's calling me. i'm in love with gui ji! =)
Saturday, March 20, 2004
i'm back!
it has been a rather tiring but fun-packed week. climbed ophir on mon and tue. we camped at elephant pool, and spent time playing at twin waterfalls. tue went to summit then down. wed we climbed datuk and lambak, had long debrief til 4 plus am at mersing i think. so no sleep cos had to catch ferry after that to tioman. then thur we had jetty jump, royal rumble, snorkelling and went to see sea cucumbers and hermit crabs. this was the most fun part of the expedition! i saw nemo and it came upclose to me and zijian. after that we had night hike across the island (i'm so lucky to be bitten by 2 leeches) and went to the jetty to catch sunrise. i'm deprived of 2 nights' sleep, and my ankle is hurting again. swollen now. this morning had to wake up early to wash tents too. so i'm gonna catch my beauty sleep later.
anyway i was almost dozing off in church today. ate listerine sheets to keep myself awake. i had this strong craving for mac today. i ate it for lunch and dinner! haha.. after that i ate a corn pancake, a peach tart and 2 egg tarts. treat from maoshun. i'm gonna put on weight... alright time to finish man and wife. holiday homework has to wait til...................... i have no idea when.
it has been a rather tiring but fun-packed week. climbed ophir on mon and tue. we camped at elephant pool, and spent time playing at twin waterfalls. tue went to summit then down. wed we climbed datuk and lambak, had long debrief til 4 plus am at mersing i think. so no sleep cos had to catch ferry after that to tioman. then thur we had jetty jump, royal rumble, snorkelling and went to see sea cucumbers and hermit crabs. this was the most fun part of the expedition! i saw nemo and it came upclose to me and zijian. after that we had night hike across the island (i'm so lucky to be bitten by 2 leeches) and went to the jetty to catch sunrise. i'm deprived of 2 nights' sleep, and my ankle is hurting again. swollen now. this morning had to wake up early to wash tents too. so i'm gonna catch my beauty sleep later.
anyway i was almost dozing off in church today. ate listerine sheets to keep myself awake. i had this strong craving for mac today. i ate it for lunch and dinner! haha.. after that i ate a corn pancake, a peach tart and 2 egg tarts. treat from maoshun. i'm gonna put on weight... alright time to finish man and wife. holiday homework has to wait til...................... i have no idea when.
Saturday, March 13, 2004
since monday, i've been reading 2 books by tony parsons. man and boy, and its sequel, man and wife. it's pretty depressing knowing monogamy is declining in our modern world. sigh. i hope i'd never have to put my kids through the trauma of parental breakups and love deprivation.
i'm leaving tmr for expedition. would be back on friday night. we would be climbing 3 mountains, ophir, datuk and lambak, and after that snorkelling and hiking at tioman island. it seems so fast. anyway i went to buy stuff at watsons with my mother just now. our family, excluding my brother went for dinner. some sort like a farewell if u choose to put it that way. i appreciated them for the dinner although i could see they were obviously not enjoying the food. haven't really had a decent dinner together as a family for awhile.
today jason came back! happy to see him again. hope he's somehow settled and decided. pastor kong watched the passion of christ in US. he said it was a great show. impactful and touching. not all gore and anti-jew as we heard. i pray with all my heart that it's nc-16 with no cuts here. our church booked 20,000 tickets in the cinemas. friends get to watch for free. this would definitely cause a stir of revival and renewal of faith.
keenan's such a cute boy! i have the urge to hug him and give him a kiss as if he were my son. haha! at training today, i watched the j1s gals whizz past with below 12.30min 2.4 timings. gosh. have to start doing something about that. my packing's not complete and i have to look for rotten socks. i hope i won't get grounded because of my ankle.
can you feel the love tonight?
i'm leaving tmr for expedition. would be back on friday night. we would be climbing 3 mountains, ophir, datuk and lambak, and after that snorkelling and hiking at tioman island. it seems so fast. anyway i went to buy stuff at watsons with my mother just now. our family, excluding my brother went for dinner. some sort like a farewell if u choose to put it that way. i appreciated them for the dinner although i could see they were obviously not enjoying the food. haven't really had a decent dinner together as a family for awhile.
today jason came back! happy to see him again. hope he's somehow settled and decided. pastor kong watched the passion of christ in US. he said it was a great show. impactful and touching. not all gore and anti-jew as we heard. i pray with all my heart that it's nc-16 with no cuts here. our church booked 20,000 tickets in the cinemas. friends get to watch for free. this would definitely cause a stir of revival and renewal of faith.
keenan's such a cute boy! i have the urge to hug him and give him a kiss as if he were my son. haha! at training today, i watched the j1s gals whizz past with below 12.30min 2.4 timings. gosh. have to start doing something about that. my packing's not complete and i have to look for rotten socks. i hope i won't get grounded because of my ankle.
can you feel the love tonight?
Monday, March 08, 2004
got this from uray's blog.
Someone said... "Wallets are a lot like girls. You really have to take good care of, because if you won't, something might happen"...
I know what he means. I just lost a wallet, and I just lost a girl. You know, it's the exact same thing.
One day, you just realize it's gone. You try to look for it everywhere, even going back to the places where you could have lost it.
You think, and you think hard, only to come upon a grim realization: it's really gone.
Of course, you can hold on to some hope. After all, there have been some very, very lucky (blessed?) people who get it back.
Perhaps you could become one of those people. You sit home and you hope that someone would call, and that you would get it back. But then, some time passes, and you realize that it's still gone, and you realize that it's time to let go.
The first few days, you turn to your friends for support. Some tell you you'll be ok, some tell you that it was your fault and that you should have been more careful, and some tell you about their own experiences.
They give you all sorts of advice, none you haven't heard before.
You then go out to find a new wallet, only to realize that you don't really want a new one. You want the old one that you lost.
No, you don't want all these better-looking wallets, you want yours, because of how comfortable it is, because of all the cards and pictures and other stuff in it.
You go out and carry on without a wallet, keeping your money in your pocket instead. You throw away stuff that you would have held on to if you had your old wallet. And then, finally, you find a new wallet you like and settle in.
You then start filling your new wallet, little by little. It still doesn't feel as comfortable as the old one, but it's getting there.
Then you start putting in cards and pictures and other important stuff in the wallet. Soon enough, there's as much stuff in your new wallet as the old one. And then, after some time, you feel as comfortable with your new wallet.
And then you realize that you've almost forgotten you ever had your old wallet. Sure, you still remember most of the stuff you lost on that wallet. But then again, you don't remember the feeling of hurt that you felt when you lost it.
That's because that wallet you lost is no longer your wallet. You're no longer holding on. This new wallet you're holding, it has all the important cards and pictures and stuff that you need. This is your wallet.
And this time, you tell yourself, you're never losing this one.
Someone said... "Wallets are a lot like girls. You really have to take good care of, because if you won't, something might happen"...
I know what he means. I just lost a wallet, and I just lost a girl. You know, it's the exact same thing.
One day, you just realize it's gone. You try to look for it everywhere, even going back to the places where you could have lost it.
You think, and you think hard, only to come upon a grim realization: it's really gone.
Of course, you can hold on to some hope. After all, there have been some very, very lucky (blessed?) people who get it back.
Perhaps you could become one of those people. You sit home and you hope that someone would call, and that you would get it back. But then, some time passes, and you realize that it's still gone, and you realize that it's time to let go.
The first few days, you turn to your friends for support. Some tell you you'll be ok, some tell you that it was your fault and that you should have been more careful, and some tell you about their own experiences.
They give you all sorts of advice, none you haven't heard before.
You then go out to find a new wallet, only to realize that you don't really want a new one. You want the old one that you lost.
No, you don't want all these better-looking wallets, you want yours, because of how comfortable it is, because of all the cards and pictures and other stuff in it.
You go out and carry on without a wallet, keeping your money in your pocket instead. You throw away stuff that you would have held on to if you had your old wallet. And then, finally, you find a new wallet you like and settle in.
You then start filling your new wallet, little by little. It still doesn't feel as comfortable as the old one, but it's getting there.
Then you start putting in cards and pictures and other important stuff in the wallet. Soon enough, there's as much stuff in your new wallet as the old one. And then, after some time, you feel as comfortable with your new wallet.
And then you realize that you've almost forgotten you ever had your old wallet. Sure, you still remember most of the stuff you lost on that wallet. But then again, you don't remember the feeling of hurt that you felt when you lost it.
That's because that wallet you lost is no longer your wallet. You're no longer holding on. This new wallet you're holding, it has all the important cards and pictures and stuff that you need. This is your wallet.
And this time, you tell yourself, you're never losing this one.
i feel free for once! haha.. today, went to purchase medic stuff with blardys. after that we went to value dollar shop. yuerui bought so many things! then she realised some chocolate thing is 4 for $1 so at the end of the day she had this big bag of stuff. then may could not reach a file so she stood there waiting for us to help. rather amusing when i think abt it now.
sunday was surf and sweat at sentosa. sponsored by rip curl. so u can imagine how good the prizes were. but i din get any. haha. my partner was andrey and i must say he ran very well cos i must have slowed him down with the paddling. but it was fun! an experience indeed. spent the whole day getting ourselves roasted at the beach.
sat was a hike at sembawang. another day in the sun. i was already burnt after training. my shoulders, neck and nose are red and gonna peel. my ankle hurts too. i think i didn't walk properly on sat or sun.
sunday was surf and sweat at sentosa. sponsored by rip curl. so u can imagine how good the prizes were. but i din get any. haha. my partner was andrey and i must say he ran very well cos i must have slowed him down with the paddling. but it was fun! an experience indeed. spent the whole day getting ourselves roasted at the beach.
sat was a hike at sembawang. another day in the sun. i was already burnt after training. my shoulders, neck and nose are red and gonna peel. my ankle hurts too. i think i didn't walk properly on sat or sun.
Friday, March 05, 2004
i'm finally done!
-.F I R S T.T H I N G S.F I R S T.-
[my name is]: tan hwee ling
[in the morning i am]: groggy and moody. i wanna sleep more.
[all I need is]: Him
[love is]: Him
[I'm afraid of]: certain things. depends on the situation.
[I dream about]: perfection.
-.F A V O R I T E S.-
[COLOR]: GREEN!
[NUMBER]: 7
[SUBJECT:] nothing in particular.
[CLOTHING BRAND:] i dont endorse any.
[SHOE BRAND:] asics are comfortable for running.
[SPORT TO PLAY:] i hardly do anything besides running. but i like cycling, blading and swimming!
[DRINK:] pokka green tea and dou hua
[ANIMAL:] cats and some dogs
[HOLIDAY:] australia!
[FAVORITE LINE FROM A MOVIE:] dont recall any..
[BAND:] no preferance, as long as the music is good.
[MOVIE:] LOTR trilogy, harry potter, love actually
-.H A V E.Y O U.E V E R.-
[pictured your crush naked?]: nooo!
[actually seen your crush naked]: nooooo.
[had sex]: no.
[made love]: isn't that the same qn?
[been in love]: definitely.
[cried when someone died]: yes
[lied]: definitely! everyone does. haha..
-.W H O.-
[makes you laugh the most?]: sean loke
[makes you smile]: those i love
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: hahaha.. too many to mention
[has a crush on you?]: u dont really know such things..
[easiest to talk to]: my close friends. mel, dong.. etc
-D O.Y O U.E V E R.-
[sit on the Internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?]: i did that before! with ivan. haha..
[save aol/aim conversations]: used to save special conversations.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: a few times. wanna know how different life is for them.
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: yes.
-.H A V E.Y O U.E V E R.-
[fallen for your best friend]: i wouldn't wanna lose the friendship.
[been rejected]: i think so.
[rejected someone]: yes.
[used someone]: maybe.
[been cheated on]: i think so.
[done something you regret]: many times. even buying lays over ruffles.
-.W H O.W A S.T H E.L A S T.P E R S O N.-
[you talked to on the phone]: mel la.. she always calls me from her workplace cos it's free.
[hugged]: dong before her race.
[you instant messaged]: msn? i think it's dong again.
[you laughed with]: mel. i saw a gal slip and her underpants. oops. ;D
-.D O.Y O U / A R E.Y O U.-
[smoke cigarettes]: once. but it sucked.
[obsessive]: depends.
[could you live without the computer?]: quite hard.
[how many peeps are on your buddylist?]: i've got many friends. =)
[what's your favorite food?]: toufu, potatoes, dont really have a specific one.
[fruit?]: guava
[drink alcohol?]: occasionally.
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: definitely! but no chance..
[what hurts the most?]: words
[trust others way too easily?]: probably.
-.N U M B E R.-
[of times I have had my heart broken? ]: a couple of times.
[of continents I have lived in?]: one
[of drugs taken illegally?]: none.
[of tight friends?]: a few
[of cd's that I own?]: didn't count
[of scars on my body ?]: plenty on my legs. elbows too.
[of things in my past that I regret?]: quite a lot.
-.P I C K.O N E.-
[MARRY PERFECT FRIEND OR PERFECT LOVER]: perfect friend.
[CATS OR DOGS:] cats.
[1 PILLOW OR 2 :] 2.. the more the merrier!
[W/ OR W/O ICE CUBES: ] with!
[TOP OR BOTTOM :] top
[WINTER/SPRING/SUMMER/FALL:] summer
[NIGHT OR DAY:] day
[GLOVES OR MITTENS:] mittens are sweet.
[DRESSED OR UNDRESSED:] of course dressed!
[BUNK OR WATER BED:] water bed! i slept on one before.
[MTV OR VH1:] mtv
[OCEAN OR POOL:] ocean! it's so vast.
[SHOWERS OR BATHS:] showers.
[LOVE OR LUST:] love
[SILVER OR GOLD:] gold. it's more valuable
[DIAMONDS OR PEARLS:] jade. haha...
-.I F.Y O U.C O U L D.-
[Move anywhere:] melbourne i think.
[Meet one famous person:] Jesus.
[Live with one person the rest of your life:] probably a soulmate
[Name one thing you love:] God.
[Name one thing that embarrasses you:] exposing myself
[Do you like school?] depends..
[Do you like to talk on the telephone?] depends on who the other party is.
[Do you like to dance? ] i wish i could! haha..
[Do you sing in the shower?] when i was younger.
[Do you think cheerleading is a sport?]: yes.
[What's on your ceiling?]: lights.
[What's the hardest thing about growing up?] changing and discovering.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | abandonment
02 | pain
03 | aimlessness
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01| mel
02| mr tan, mr ho
03| sean loke, the very sight of him. (am i mean?) i laughed at him for falling last year and got my retribution. the scar's still on my knee!
THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | Him.
02 | family.
03 | friends.
THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | hypocrites
02 | forgetting to appreciate
03 | stubborn people.
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | human nature
02 | chemistry, in all sense.
03 | why we are who we are..
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | my handphone
02 | archie comics.. i'm a big fan of betty and veronica! maybe that's why i cant write good essays.
03 | nothing else! i've cleared my notes. haha
THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | this survey.
02 | listening to perfect 10.
03 | contemplating whether to go collect my chi results in school
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | fulfil my dreams.
02 | marry
03 | travel the world
THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | make pancakes with ice cream.. haha, that's an easy task huh
02 | look innocent and decieve people.
03 | play the piano!
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | introspective sometimes.
02 | mild
03 | accommodating
THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 | dance.. sigh
02 | domestic chores
03 | backslide
THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | Him
02 | parents, at times..
03 | heart.
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | blardy!
02 | hai
03 | nothing else really, i dont have a distinct phrase.
THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | ruffles cheddar and sour cream
02 | ferrero
03 | fast food.
THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 | how to play the guitar
02 | baking well
03 | ballet! i can dream rite? haha..
THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | water.
02 | soya bean milk
03 | green tea
THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | sesame street.
02 | captain planet i think
03 | magic school bus! haha..
RANDOM QUESTIONS...
01 | Spell your name backwards: it's ugly.
02 | How did you name your blog?: this.
03 | Are you homosexual? : wad do u think?
DESCRIBE YOUR:
[ x ] Wallet – green with pink flowers.
[ x ] Hairbrush – hahaha.. it's purple.
[ x ] Toothbrush – i use an electric toothbrush
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily – dont wear any. except a pair of ear sticks.
[ x ] Pillow cover – blue and plain
[ x ] Blanket – pink
[ x ] Coffee cup – dont have any.
[ x ] sunglasses – i dont own a pair. haha..
[ x ] Underwear – not for discussion.
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume – dont wear any.
[ x ] CD in stereo right now – some cd that pa burned for me.
[ x ] Tattoos – none
[ x ] Piercings – on the ears.
[ x ] What you are wearing now – a baggy shirt and boxers. i just woke up. =)
[ x ] In my mouth – nothing at the moment.
[ x ] In my head – answers to these questions.
[ x ] Wishing – my wishes are plenty.
[ x ] After this – eat breakfast. i'm famished!
[ x ] Fetishes – mostly concerning school life and church
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what? : i wont dare!
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now – hmm.. no one. i'm not presentable.
[ x ] Is next to you – a chair
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to – getting over and done with A levels.
[ x ] The last thing you ate – i can't remember.
[ x ] Do you like candles – yup, they give a romantic and cozy feeling.
[ x ] Do you like incense – not really..
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood – not at all!
[ x ] Do you believe in love – definitely.
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates – of course!
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight – not really.
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks – i always use chopsticks.
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candies – m&ms peanut butter
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand – everyone's different. there's a need for compromise and accommodation.
-.F I R S T.T H I N G S.F I R S T.-
[my name is]: tan hwee ling
[in the morning i am]: groggy and moody. i wanna sleep more.
[all I need is]: Him
[love is]: Him
[I'm afraid of]: certain things. depends on the situation.
[I dream about]: perfection.
-.F A V O R I T E S.-
[COLOR]: GREEN!
[NUMBER]: 7
[SUBJECT:] nothing in particular.
[CLOTHING BRAND:] i dont endorse any.
[SHOE BRAND:] asics are comfortable for running.
[SPORT TO PLAY:] i hardly do anything besides running. but i like cycling, blading and swimming!
[DRINK:] pokka green tea and dou hua
[ANIMAL:] cats and some dogs
[HOLIDAY:] australia!
[FAVORITE LINE FROM A MOVIE:] dont recall any..
[BAND:] no preferance, as long as the music is good.
[MOVIE:] LOTR trilogy, harry potter, love actually
-.H A V E.Y O U.E V E R.-
[pictured your crush naked?]: nooo!
[actually seen your crush naked]: nooooo.
[had sex]: no.
[made love]: isn't that the same qn?
[been in love]: definitely.
[cried when someone died]: yes
[lied]: definitely! everyone does. haha..
-.W H O.-
[makes you laugh the most?]: sean loke
[makes you smile]: those i love
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: hahaha.. too many to mention
[has a crush on you?]: u dont really know such things..
[easiest to talk to]: my close friends. mel, dong.. etc
-D O.Y O U.E V E R.-
[sit on the Internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?]: i did that before! with ivan. haha..
[save aol/aim conversations]: used to save special conversations.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: a few times. wanna know how different life is for them.
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: yes.
-.H A V E.Y O U.E V E R.-
[fallen for your best friend]: i wouldn't wanna lose the friendship.
[been rejected]: i think so.
[rejected someone]: yes.
[used someone]: maybe.
[been cheated on]: i think so.
[done something you regret]: many times. even buying lays over ruffles.
-.W H O.W A S.T H E.L A S T.P E R S O N.-
[you talked to on the phone]: mel la.. she always calls me from her workplace cos it's free.
[hugged]: dong before her race.
[you instant messaged]: msn? i think it's dong again.
[you laughed with]: mel. i saw a gal slip and her underpants. oops. ;D
-.D O.Y O U / A R E.Y O U.-
[smoke cigarettes]: once. but it sucked.
[obsessive]: depends.
[could you live without the computer?]: quite hard.
[how many peeps are on your buddylist?]: i've got many friends. =)
[what's your favorite food?]: toufu, potatoes, dont really have a specific one.
[fruit?]: guava
[drink alcohol?]: occasionally.
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: definitely! but no chance..
[what hurts the most?]: words
[trust others way too easily?]: probably.
-.N U M B E R.-
[of times I have had my heart broken? ]: a couple of times.
[of continents I have lived in?]: one
[of drugs taken illegally?]: none.
[of tight friends?]: a few
[of cd's that I own?]: didn't count
[of scars on my body ?]: plenty on my legs. elbows too.
[of things in my past that I regret?]: quite a lot.
-.P I C K.O N E.-
[MARRY PERFECT FRIEND OR PERFECT LOVER]: perfect friend.
[CATS OR DOGS:] cats.
[1 PILLOW OR 2 :] 2.. the more the merrier!
[W/ OR W/O ICE CUBES: ] with!
[TOP OR BOTTOM :] top
[WINTER/SPRING/SUMMER/FALL:] summer
[NIGHT OR DAY:] day
[GLOVES OR MITTENS:] mittens are sweet.
[DRESSED OR UNDRESSED:] of course dressed!
[BUNK OR WATER BED:] water bed! i slept on one before.
[MTV OR VH1:] mtv
[OCEAN OR POOL:] ocean! it's so vast.
[SHOWERS OR BATHS:] showers.
[LOVE OR LUST:] love
[SILVER OR GOLD:] gold. it's more valuable
[DIAMONDS OR PEARLS:] jade. haha...
-.I F.Y O U.C O U L D.-
[Move anywhere:] melbourne i think.
[Meet one famous person:] Jesus.
[Live with one person the rest of your life:] probably a soulmate
[Name one thing you love:] God.
[Name one thing that embarrasses you:] exposing myself
[Do you like school?] depends..
[Do you like to talk on the telephone?] depends on who the other party is.
[Do you like to dance? ] i wish i could! haha..
[Do you sing in the shower?] when i was younger.
[Do you think cheerleading is a sport?]: yes.
[What's on your ceiling?]: lights.
[What's the hardest thing about growing up?] changing and discovering.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | abandonment
02 | pain
03 | aimlessness
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01| mel
02| mr tan, mr ho
03| sean loke, the very sight of him. (am i mean?) i laughed at him for falling last year and got my retribution. the scar's still on my knee!
THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | Him.
02 | family.
03 | friends.
THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | hypocrites
02 | forgetting to appreciate
03 | stubborn people.
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | human nature
02 | chemistry, in all sense.
03 | why we are who we are..
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | my handphone
02 | archie comics.. i'm a big fan of betty and veronica! maybe that's why i cant write good essays.
03 | nothing else! i've cleared my notes. haha
THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | this survey.
02 | listening to perfect 10.
03 | contemplating whether to go collect my chi results in school
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | fulfil my dreams.
02 | marry
03 | travel the world
THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | make pancakes with ice cream.. haha, that's an easy task huh
02 | look innocent and decieve people.
03 | play the piano!
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | introspective sometimes.
02 | mild
03 | accommodating
THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 | dance.. sigh
02 | domestic chores
03 | backslide
THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | Him
02 | parents, at times..
03 | heart.
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | blardy!
02 | hai
03 | nothing else really, i dont have a distinct phrase.
THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | ruffles cheddar and sour cream
02 | ferrero
03 | fast food.
THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 | how to play the guitar
02 | baking well
03 | ballet! i can dream rite? haha..
THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | water.
02 | soya bean milk
03 | green tea
THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | sesame street.
02 | captain planet i think
03 | magic school bus! haha..
RANDOM QUESTIONS...
01 | Spell your name backwards: it's ugly.
02 | How did you name your blog?: this.
03 | Are you homosexual? : wad do u think?
DESCRIBE YOUR:
[ x ] Wallet – green with pink flowers.
[ x ] Hairbrush – hahaha.. it's purple.
[ x ] Toothbrush – i use an electric toothbrush
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily – dont wear any. except a pair of ear sticks.
[ x ] Pillow cover – blue and plain
[ x ] Blanket – pink
[ x ] Coffee cup – dont have any.
[ x ] sunglasses – i dont own a pair. haha..
[ x ] Underwear – not for discussion.
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume – dont wear any.
[ x ] CD in stereo right now – some cd that pa burned for me.
[ x ] Tattoos – none
[ x ] Piercings – on the ears.
[ x ] What you are wearing now – a baggy shirt and boxers. i just woke up. =)
[ x ] In my mouth – nothing at the moment.
[ x ] In my head – answers to these questions.
[ x ] Wishing – my wishes are plenty.
[ x ] After this – eat breakfast. i'm famished!
[ x ] Fetishes – mostly concerning school life and church
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what? : i wont dare!
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now – hmm.. no one. i'm not presentable.
[ x ] Is next to you – a chair
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to – getting over and done with A levels.
[ x ] The last thing you ate – i can't remember.
[ x ] Do you like candles – yup, they give a romantic and cozy feeling.
[ x ] Do you like incense – not really..
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood – not at all!
[ x ] Do you believe in love – definitely.
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates – of course!
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight – not really.
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks – i always use chopsticks.
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candies – m&ms peanut butter
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand – everyone's different. there's a need for compromise and accommodation.
i'm attempting to finish a survey. soooo many questions. would post it up once i'm done. anyway, i jus watched trista and ryan's wedding. very nice setting. but very draggy, cos they did a lot of talking. haha.. i hope i'd find a soulmate who can spoil me with such extravagance! i was telling melvina that i would go treat myself with a full body spa, complete with facial, pedicure, manicure, and massages before my wedding day. gotta look my best!
haha.. ya.. i met her today. watched mystic river and shopped around a little. got caught in the rain. mystic river's good! touching story on how a father's love for his murdered daughter could drive him to kill an innocent friend. sean penn rocks. i met joanne later in the evening for bible study class at ymca. caught up with her. she's super dark now. too much canoeing eh? haha..
haha.. ya.. i met her today. watched mystic river and shopped around a little. got caught in the rain. mystic river's good! touching story on how a father's love for his murdered daughter could drive him to kill an innocent friend. sean penn rocks. i met joanne later in the evening for bible study class at ymca. caught up with her. she's super dark now. too much canoeing eh? haha..
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
i'm going under.
my cts are over! finally found some time to blog. i need rest! need some space to myself, away from the world. hmm i'm glad for the 2 days break. feeling tired currently. i wish someone would tell me a joke and set me laughing for the whole night, or stay beside me and watch my cry my insides out.
today was the national cross country at turf city. i saw jieru and i think she's much more relaxed than the cj runners. anyway cj's runners did well, considering we are cjc.. lijuan came in 10th, and i think a few guys made it to top 20. 1 in top 10. that's commendable.
if u din mean much to me i wouldn't have got upset over u, and lost sleep and fell sick. i cherish u very much. sometimes i dont comprehand. maybe u dont too.
my cts are over! finally found some time to blog. i need rest! need some space to myself, away from the world. hmm i'm glad for the 2 days break. feeling tired currently. i wish someone would tell me a joke and set me laughing for the whole night, or stay beside me and watch my cry my insides out.
today was the national cross country at turf city. i saw jieru and i think she's much more relaxed than the cj runners. anyway cj's runners did well, considering we are cjc.. lijuan came in 10th, and i think a few guys made it to top 20. 1 in top 10. that's commendable.
if u din mean much to me i wouldn't have got upset over u, and lost sleep and fell sick. i cherish u very much. sometimes i dont comprehand. maybe u dont too.