Millions homeless as tsunami toll nears 119,000, new quakes scare survivors.

BANDA ACEH, Indonesia : Up to five million people were displaced by tsunamis that killed nearly 119,000 people in Asia, officials said, as aftershocks rocked traumatised survivors. "We estimate that up to five million people have been displaced and are at risk across the region," Harsaran Pandey, spokeswoman for the World Health Organisation in South Asia, told AFP.

The global health body said between one and three million of those affected were in Indonesia, with another one million in Sri Lanka. The rest were spread between India, the Maldives and other nations. The estimate came as a government warning that high waves could strike again from aftershocks rattling Indonesia sent thousands fleeing in panic from the coastline of southern India. "The waves are coming," people yelled as they fled on foot, buses and any transport they could find.

The latest quake, measuring 5.2 on the Richter scale, hit northwest of Indonesia's Sumatra island city of Medan shortly after 4:00 am (2100 GMT Wednesday), after two quakes measuring 5.1 and 5.2 the previous evening, but experts said they were not big enough to cause tidal waves. Sunday's killer tsunamis were unleashed by a gigantic 9.0 magnitude tectonic shift 150 kilometres (93 miles) off Sumatra, rolling on across the Indian Ocean to wreak havoc in 11 countries.

Nearly 119,000 people are confirmed dead, thousands are missing, and the toll is expected to rise sharply with disease threatening the lives of survivors. Remarkable tales of heartwarming generosity emerged amid the chaos and grief. Throughout the hardest-hit countries of Indonesia, Sri Lanka, Thailand and India, people came forward to help, donating clothes and food while tending the wounded. Others set about the more grisly task of disposing of the bloated corpses that litter beaches and streets and threaten public health.

At least 710 foreigners are among the 2,394 confirmed to have died after tidal waves battered southwest Thailand, the interior ministry said Thursday, with 6,130 still missing, many of them foreigners. Prime Minister Thaksin Shinawatra suggested Thailand's final death toll could approach 6,800, as European nations joined Thais in trying to trace thousands of missing people. Sweden and Germany have each said that more than 1,000 of their nationals are unaccounted for, while 446 Norwegians and several hundred French are missing. Across the region families opened their homes to bewildered survivors and strangers offered the shirts off their backs to foreigners in swimwear left with nothing but their lives.

Children have been among the hardest hit by the tragedy, swept off their feet by the power of the waves and drowned, or losing their parents and siblings. And for some, the killer tsunamis are coming again, over and over, in their nightmares. Malaysian Rahibah Osman's 11-year-old son, Mohamad Fikri Rahim, who was caught by ferocious waves "as high as coconut trees and blackened with mud", has troubled dreams in Penang General Hospital after being saved by his father.

The death toll among Singaporeans has risen to 7 - 5 in Phuket, 1 in India and 1 in Sri Lanka. 227 remain uncontactable and PM Lee says the country has to be prepared for the worst. (30 Dec 2004)

it's quite scary to read of this disaster. as if another war had taken place. sometimes reading of so much death makes one numb. my heart & prayers go out to these people and their relatives.

in about 10 mins it's gonna be 12 midnight.. the last day of 2004! can't believe that time has passed so fast! well all i can say is this year has been another experience for me. it just keeps getting richer and richer. shall find another time to reflect on wad happened this 2004. hehe..

i found a job! quite a blessing actually. my mother's friend needed a temp in her office. initially she said half day but then decided she can have me for full day! and best of all, no weekends! pay is quite alright.

caught kungfu with my classmates. wad can i say.. funny and lame lor. haha.. but u know my chinese isn't very strong so i didn't catch some of the amusing parts. overall it was very entertaining. however i didn't laugh as much as those around me. haha.. a bit violent though..

here's wishing everyone out there (people i have met and not meet, people i have met and am meeting, people i have met and are leaving, people i have met and have gone...) all the best for the upcoming new year! been a pleasure that our paths crossed. may love and strength be with u all as u embark on a new journey! God bless u and keep u as u go out to persue your dreams! :)

MERRY

CHRISTMAS!

actually today's boxing day. was too tired to update yesterday.

started my christmas day by going for service at indoor stadium. i enjoyed the dance and drama very much! received chocolates, sweets, cards. wendy was so sweet. she knew i missed sy rogers so she got me his sermon cd! after that went to aunty KE's home for christmas lunch. we even played games.. parents against children. then in the evening we drove to johor for uncle chia meng's yearly christmas dinner. this year was quite special cos he hired a chef to grill food in his backyard. so bushed after everything.

let me also talk about christmas eve. my cg headed down to orchard for christmas countdown. marcus had to go home so keenan, maosan and myself sent him to the mrt. it was HORRIBLE!! such a short walk and i think we took 20 mins just to walk from the land next to borders to the mrt. people were squeezing and pushing and spraying stuff all over. in the end we walked on the road. then had to go back to find the rest, but i couldn't bear to go into the crowd again. so we decided to leave at 11.50pm before the countdown. took another 20 mins to walk. met my cousin and sis at mrt. maosan went back himself while the rest of us headed to novena to wait for my father. we ate bk sitting on the floor outside novena square cos i couldnt stand the techno music inside.. attracted quite a bit of attention. sent keenan, xuehan home then it was zzzzzzzz for me.

my mon-fri was quite busy as well. doing saturation, helping out in the cch big day. the cch christmas service was quite cute. the children were all crazy about the mascots. haha.. ok going out for pc zone bbq later. til then.. update again. =)

hey everyone i'm back!! haha..

seemed like a lot of stuff happened while i was away. 1stly, my cg multiplied! i have a mixture of feelings towards it. 2ndly, i missed sy rogers! i heard the meeting was so good, and it's not posted on chc website yet. 3rdly, i missed sentosa outing! saw e pics on jeanie's blog and everyone looked like they were having fun. :( 4thly, i missed cch big day briefing! now i'm not sure wad i'd be doing, yet.

okok i'm back on track hopefully. later going to do cch saturation n i hv to call my followups. do feel a little unsettled still. it's always like this! when i'm off for holiday and come back, even though it's malaysia i'd feel a bit jet lag. can u believe it! i gotta learn to adapt quick. so many things are happening this week! christmas, carolling, big day, so exciting! then there's thanksgiving and soon my holidays are bye bye and i have to start working while the kids go to school. cant believe my holidays are gone so fast.

bangkok/pattaya
touring:
1st day was dreamworld amusement park. not very enjoyable, i preferred KL's time square.
2nd day was a boat trip to the floating market, then a precious stone factory, there was a HUGE hall of bling bling and i wished i could go on spree there! every pendant, necklace, earring was so beautiful! esp the emeralds cos they were green. then there was a skin factory where my mother bought a handbag made of goat's skin i think. then we visited a temple where they preserved 3 bodies of dead monks. it was quite scary. we reached pattaya at night and watched the famous transvestite show. the girls were so pretty i couldn't believe they were once men.
3rd day was coral island in pattaya. i did para-sailing there. was attached to a parachute and a speedboat. so when the speedboat drove i flew to the sky! so thrilling :) then they gave free time to ride motor boats n play in the sea, but i forgot my swimsuit so i killed time by going for a local manicure. approx 80 batt (S$3.20). did my nails quite nicely. after these we went to a food factory, snake farm, and 4 face buddha.
4th day was free n easy in the morning. but the shops weren't open yet since it was a sunday. so we took a tup tup ride and got decieved by the drivers.

food:
the thought of that makes me quite sick. we had rice with dishes, tomyam soup, for almost every meal! sigh.. a slight variation would be pineapple rice and maybe some milk, cornflakes, bread during breakfast.

shopping:
judging from the itinerary, u wld have figured we didn't have much time for shopping. went to night bazzar at lumphini, ma bun klong, robinson @ thailand cultural centre briefly. prices were about the same as singapore's. just that the billabong, rip curl, roxy, quiksilver t-shirts were very cheap, about S$8. there were also many many imitations of von dutch, diesal etc. i didn't buy any, though..

that's about all i guess. tmr going for job interview with peggie. nike staff called me and said they have a job for me at airport. shall find out more tmr. also have an opening to do admin work at singapore insurance college. well gotta pray for good pay and no weekends, pls.. haha!

i'm tired.............

let's see.. started my day at 9am today. went to jurong east to meet shuyi for bible study. then walked back to mrt meet e helpers to go raffles to meet jeanie. we had helpers meeting at bk. talked quite a bit. i already know where i'd be. all thanks to a tithe receipt. hehe.. well but i'd miss out the big announcement this fri! and everyone's being so cheeky by saying they dont wanna sms me to tell me. =
after that some of us headed down to suntec. peg and jianting came with me to do mailing for cch at church office. did for abt 3 hrs. bro paul came in to see see. he was even teaching the poly kids how to pon school! haha.. i didn't know sticking addresses, folding flyers and slotting them into envelopes can be such a tiring job! david treated all of us in the room to pizza. so shocking.. it's like we are not very close to him or wad. however, it's a good blessing. :)
just came home from visitation and my legs are really sore. oh no..

tmr i'm going to bangkok for holiday with my family. actually my father promised us a big holiday since i finished As, my bro finished Os, my sis finished psle! haha.. but we had new home commitments. i fear i wont have enough time for shopping cos the tour group is going to many temples and sites and only the nights are free!! argh.. haha..

well i gtg now. til sun night.. cya!

just now i went for visitation with teacher timothy. guess how many kids we visited?? 2! haha.. well we wanted to visit more but tim said they were sleeping already. after that he walked me to my home bus stop.

today was quite fulfilling actually. supposed to go to my mother's office.. but in the end she asked me to stay home and pack up. so i gathered all the loose photo albums we took since 2002 and put them in a big one. took me 3 hrs! then pa brought us to macritchie. i wanted to go cos i haven't seen the suspension bridge. it was very high and quite a sight. but my legs got wobbly in the middle.

mon was huifang's birthday chalet. it was quite enjoyable.. i did random helps at the bbq pit. haha.. well i managed to say hi to sis wenhui. think she's very pretty. anyway huifang is FON! she bought this quite plain cake.. and i think everyone wld have realised her purpose was so that she could put her 'toys' to decorate her cake! we also got her a voucher, which is meant for a watch, but in the end she recieved 3 watches for her birthday.. and now she's contemplating whether to get 0 degree specs with it! haha.. in the end i didn't stay. left after ANTM cos i had jc cluster meeting the next day. which turned out great.. we receed nus, and although it's cancelled i'd say i had a good time fellowshipping with the rest during the meetings.

well this is the season for job hunting. my mother found me one at a childcare centre. 5 day week, $700 a month. hours uncertain. shld i take it? shld i not..

ahhh.. i feel so clean and comfortable i can fall asleep anytime. just had dinner and a nice shower! haha.. ok redundant information here.. but just now my cg went for badminton and the place was like a sauna! heat radiating inside man. and we weren't allowed to switch on the aircons. -__-"

today i recieved the certificate of christian foundation.. and delvina gave me a white lily! so sweet of her. came upclose with pastor kong! wad a rare chance. ok in case u dunno, that means i've completed my 4 levels for bible study. =) he laid hands on us too. but it was so quick and i didn't get to linger much in His presence. this year is the year where i've recieved the most breakthroughs in church. 1stly, i was appointed sch ic, then served more as a helper in cg, doors really opened for me to rise up when i went over to w263. went back to serve in children's church. promoted to ministry member! and then today graduated with the CCF. another thing is that this year i had the most chances to be laid hands on!! seemed like God was giving me the opportunites to go forward to recieve His anointing. wow.. i feel so blessed. it must have been the best year yet. look forward to 2005 in 3 weeks. but for now.. i still have one bang to end my year with.. and that's christmas!

haha well now i'm gonna unwind with some television and have a chat with keenan.

if u haven't already known, taufik won the Singapore idol! haha.. ok. no matter how much i'd love to see sly win, taufik's victory is for the better good. he has steadily improved and is definitely more fluent. i still can't picture sly on the world idol stage. but at the end of the day, i'd still go out to buy sly's album. =)

let's see wad i've been up to this week..
mon- jc cluster meeting, then i met huifang for a 'walking' session at bugis. supposedly shopping..
tue- i think i went to wee lee studio for keyboard try-outs for the concert. then night it was ANTINOMIAN seminar in church, til very late.
wed- in church to discuss drama. then out for dinner with my family. i managed to try the wanton mee at lavendar, where the queue is always so long...
today- i'm going out later.. and tonight's my 1st visitation with teacher timothy! he used to visit me and now i'm visiting with him.. haha..

okie.. shall update more when i feel like!

i got my hair highlighted red. my aunty's friend did it for me in malaysia. but it's not very outstanding. hehe.. last night went to marina for steamboat with my cg. had a good time of fellowship. then we went to the arcade for awhile. after that headed to church for overnight prayer meeting and i reached home at 6am. felt so refreshed! just got back from dinner with my mother's 2 friends. people who watched me grow up and i watched their kids grow up. haha! met gerard who's grown up now and er-hum.. well gab is still quite small. i think i wanna go up to bed soon. =)

direct me.

just came back from chalet! quite enjoyable actually. initially there was nothing much to do. cos it rained and we had to stay indoors. anyhow we managed to catch a walk to remember. quite a sweet movie.. then some of them went for bowling while the rest of us wandered around and watched robbie and nenghao waste coins in a machine which promised good returns if u were lucky. we walked to the yacht club for dinner.. nothing much to eat. our chalet fridge was really empty. spent the night playing pictionary.. rather amusing.. then it was exorcist vcd. freaky demonised gal .. then slept awhile and was woken up by soccer noise. most of us were sprawled on the living room floor.. haha..

this new skin looks somewhat decent. i got sick of puss.
anyway.......

it's finally over!! i'm liberated!! yeah! haha.. just think of it.. no more school uniform.. no more national examinations!! i just wanna have a good sleep and think of nothing. cares leave me alone for awhile.. hehe..

today i caught the incredibles. it was great!! awesome show. full of good feeling and very entertaining. did some shopping.. i bought something from zara. and came home.. went out with my sis to watch princess diaries 2 again! it's such a girly fairytale show. haha. now i feel so drained.
there's actually lots of things i hv to do. they are all in my mind and i need to write them down. but first priority is to pack my stuff and clear the table of books and notes.

tmr's class chalet. should be quite eventful.

this is the song sylvester sang for the last spectaculars show. seriously i was pretty impressed by it although he recieved mostly bad comments.. it's a great song! and he gave classic a touch of local spice eh? aroused my interest in phantom of the opera..

Slowly, gently
night unfurls its splendour . . .
Grasp it, sense it
-tremulous and tender . .
Turn your face away
from the garish light of day,
turn your thoughts away
from cold, unfeeling light -and listen to the music of the night . . .
Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams!
Purge your thoughts of the life you knew before!
Close your eyes,let your spirit start to soar!
And you'll live as you've never lived before . . .
Softly, deftly,music shall surround you . . .
Feel it, hear it,closing in around you . . .
Open up your mind,let your fantasies unwind,
in this darkness which you know you cannot fight -
the darkness of the music of the night . . .

creepy in a way.. :)

delvina su!!
i miss u so much!! miss fellowshipping with u.. got so much things to share with u. i feel a little heavier without u around!! haha.. we are always so busy with our own cg stuff. same ministry and cannot even get to meet!! cant wait for exams to be over. then lets have a proper chat without the time factor. anyway..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!

not sure if u'd see this.. but ya!! i miss u soooo much!!

i found math hard.. however the responses i got were mixed. easy (!!!), ok, a little challenging, confident. me? not confident. well.. it's over. i'm still full of hope. =)

i'm pretty upset and frustrated with some people.. dunno why they try to present themselves well but inside they are not as they seem.. i actually dreamt i was scolding someone. and the dream is still so vivid that as i'm typing this i can sense the anger i had in my dream!

but then.. He led me to this passage in the bible. 1Cor 13:2 'And though i have the gift of prophecy and understand all mysteries and all the knowledge, and though i have all faith, so that i could remove mountains, but have no love, i am nothing.'
huifang's also always saying to have love for people. so i shall abide by that motto and let no one upset me with wad they do. shall lift them up to Him.

Jesus said to him, 'If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.'

how should i describe the weather? rainy.. cold.. dark.. threatening.. bleak.. haha!

anyway.. had gp today. well the topics were not very encouraging.. in the sense there were no education or life topics. so u know.. ppl like us who dont like to memorise facts had almost nothing else to write. i did about beauty products and treatments. let's pray everything goes well. the compre part wasn't as straight forward either. i've seen easier papers. A level is really another story altogether. speaking of which i'm pretty upset that some jcs sort of hinted and played foul during the practicals! leaking out anions and readings..

hmm wad have i been up to this week.. mon went to school to study. actually also to meet up with delvina briefly cos she had to come back to settle stuff. tue studied at home.. yesterday in school. tmr meeting mr ho for counsultation. wld try to make it as productive as possible!

the gloom is drawing closer but the light is also shining brighter....

on friday huifang announced that jeanie's officially taking over our cg! that means she's our new cgl!=) actually it wasn't much of a surprise cos there were already signs.. hehe.. we caught sg idol after cg too. but this time not as happening cos there was no peggie to scream with me!!

well thinking back.. i've been huifang's member for 4 years! since e195 started, when most of us were young,(think i was only sec2). and we gathered at some old shophouse at katong area. yes! the salt baked chicken shop's upstairs. i think there were joyce, jesslyn, myself and i can't remember who were the pioneers. wow time flies.. e195 grew and multiplied into east and west! i do miss all those i grew up with from e195. anyway i still get to fellowship with them when they come to my place for cg. praise God for prospering us with souls! i appreciate all the effort HF has put into helping us grow and be who we are today. it has been a blessing having her as my cgl!

today we met early to prepare fang's farewell gift. had prata breakfast with my cousin before that.. and we were having a hard time eating with soft plastic forks! cheewei folded 500 stars! irene 100. jeanie actually got most of the stuff for her present. there was an array of chocolates, watermelon, fresh n rotten coconut. haha! it was so nonsensical when we presented it to her. after service gave bs then stayed back to discuss a little while with jeanie and the cg helpers. then i headed to jurong east to meet my mother. we went to kallang to meet my sister then headed to santuary green to check out the unit my parents are interested in.

feel a little discouraged about some things. but nvm! i have Him to confide in. so everything wld be fine!

Mt 28:20 'And lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.'

yesterday i studied at the airport with hoiman, huiteng, sean and sengkhng. wasn't very productive for me. haha.. i felt cramped up and the ambience felt a little weird. but it was quite an experience studying there. there were a lot of sec4s.

today i went to school at about 8 plus am to meet lifen and timothy (who was 2 hrs late). did quite a bit of math, then danielle joined us while waiting for eunice. finally timothy came.. i think he didn't do anything cos he was with his gameboy most of the time. later i lunched with lifen, timothy and his friend terence at far east long john. chatted awhile then walked around a little looking here and there, then headed to taka to get ice cream. we felt so guilty cos we were behaving as if exams were over! haha.. well the de-stressing part was actually quite a motivation for going home to choing more! overall it was a rather fulfilling day. =)

many apologies for neglecting my blog..

let me just comment on all the hoo-ha over the weekend about sylvester and maia from singapore idol..
watch sg idol results on fri night after cg at darrell's place. peggie and i were actually holding hands hoping sylvester wld stay and that nonsensical gal jumped up and screamed and threw her hp when gurmit announced he was still in. haha but i'm really glad sylvester is still in! he's my only reason for still watching sg idol after david yeo was out!! lets wish him all the best..

anyway today was a cold and rainy day. service was good, pst tan did the sermon cos pst kong was sick. which reminds me that many others are sick too, including huifang. better take extra care of myself.. i was surprised to see that siang hong was around in church today. my cg sat around in kfc to chat cos our game plans were spoilt bcos of e rain. had a good time fellowshipping.

i was promoted to Ministry Member last weekend (17oct)! felt so blessed. and i look forward to serving even more after my exams.

well cant really think of wad to update anymore. shall do so when i hv the time. for now, it's study study study!

i'm finally liberated!! hahaha... not really actually.. cos As are not over yet. yesterday was my graduation. from all school rules and uniform! i've spent 12 years in state education! hur hur.. and would probably spend another 3-4 years cos local universities are also govt owned!!

putting that aside, the grad ceremony was pretty ok. besides the usual presentations to top students, speeches, etc, there was something shocking! bro paul mentioned that 2T29's dearest sean loke's poem was reflected by some minister in his speech. of cos everyone laughed, incl mr ang, and no one really congratulated him. haha.. i also had my nyaa award presentation (the reception was the best cos the cheese cakes were heavenly!) yest, and the minister of state for education came. i only remember him as Mr chan. his address was quite entertaining. actually he came to my church before to ask us to donate blood and i remember he was quite long winded.

guen and i wanted to watch white chicks yest. so we happily went to j8 thinking we had a lot of time and we'd surely get seats. however there were a lot of sec sch students there and by the time we got there, there were only 2 separate seats left! so we ended up not watching, i suggested to go find the class but later we decided not to. it was quite a pity missing out on our last class outing on a formal sch day and NOT getting to watch white chicks! anyhow i'm looking forward to the class chalet right after our econ paper. gonna be a great time hanging out with my classmates before we all start walking away to our own pursuits.

cg was good yesterday. had a fulfilling session with jeanie and some older members listing our visions and goals for w263. the year has only 2 months before its closure, and it's important we run our last lap well so we can end with a bang! =)

'Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us!' Hebrews 12:1

i think my pa is more anxious about my As than i am! he kept asking if i need any tys or guides, and offered to ask his cg member's kids for extra notes. i told him i dont need any guide books or extra tys cos i'm attempting to finish wad i already have, and i dont think i have time for any others. anyhow he went to waste money on a gp guide (btw i dont believe in gp guides cos A level is not an era of memorising model essays!) and a red spot essay book (which i already have!!). do i sound very childish?? i guess i have to appreciate his concern. =|

last night when i came home i noticed a crowd gathering under the block. there were ambulances and fire engines at the car park. apparently someone attempted suicide and locked himself in his home. his doctor alerted the police cos his condition was unstable. so i stood downstairs for a good 45 mins hoping for some action. they had inflated a big float below the balcony in case the person tries to jump down. at least i got to see 2 firemen abseiling down from the higher floor to break into his window. then the lights came on and i saw some shadows of struggle. haha that was all the drama last night.. but it was interesting to see people's wild speculations and how nosey people can get! :)

i missed school today. felt too sick to go. had a very bad flu and sore throat. i couldn't stop sneezing! and it was so tiring to sneeze. especially when u cant sneeze and u have to concentrate to make yourself sneeze so u'd feel better. anyway i spent my day mostly lying in bed. cos the medicine made me extremely drowsy.. managed to do some central problems reading just now.

reflecting on how i did for prelim.. not very good i must say. well it's not that i didn't study. i knew i did put in the effort. maybe it wasn't in depth enough. and definitely lack of practice. (gotta stop reading math tutorials! haha..) however from today i have exactly a month to either make or break. gotta start getting my momentum again.

on a lighter note, i went with guen to get my green moo moo watch last thu!! finally after a month's wait. cant find a picture of that watch but here's how it looks on the watch face.



children's day weekend saw an amazing attendance of 9203 kids in chcc! that's so wow.. and there's good retention too! praise be to Him who is able to do exceedingly and abundantly above all we can think!

Mid autumn festival's here! which reminds me that 3/4 of the year has passed! that's so quick. anyway i've had my indulgence in yolks and lotus paste.

my internet has been up and down for the past week. so it had been frustrating whenever i wanna go online. that explains for the neglect on my blog. hehe..

my exams are over. i dunno how i'd do. and i dont feel like thinking about it. actually when i was younger i was always excited about getting back my results. however it seems to be the otherwise now.

last night i got home pretty late and my mother wasn't really happy cos i was out since morning. but it was quite a day in church. after bs with cheewei i had nothing to do so i went for the 430 cc service with joyce. after it ended i hung around before the big day briefing started. quite a good word shared by pst eileen and an entertaining presentation by bro yewtuck!

joyce if u r reading this just wanna thank u for running up and down with me to settle the transport thingy with sis glordia. i'd be quite lost w/o u. :)

amazing race's over. and sadly.. my favourite nicole and brandon din win!
presenting the winners... chip & kim..



my fav team!

nothing worthy to update actually...

i'm in the midst of my prelims. chem had been quite hard. i din have time to finish the questions. tmr's chem paper 2. i've been quite slack after tue. seemed that all my brain cells died after chem paper 3 and maths 1. haha.. i feel so tired too. just wanna sit in front of the tv and have nothing to do with my brain.

anyway yesterday went for bs at ymca. studied awhile before that. then met delvina at city bayview hotel (not for rendezvous!) haha.. to go home. but we hung around at the lobby cos i wanted to see pastor tan, and we saw sis wenhui. then walked to 7eleven, bought something, then walked to kopitiam, bought something, and we ended up going home at about 9pm. she decided not to go to school since she only had 2 useful lessons. haha.. i went home, watched amazing race. argh colin and christine are not out!

now i'm feeling so guilty about all the time i spent on tv and slacking! there's actually so much work waiting for me to touch. but i'm feeling so moodless and tired! need the strength. :)

oh no!! my brother's testing organic chem and i just realised how much i've forgotten! how??! that's so depressing.

anyway time flies! i dont even have much time to update my blog! it's sept already. 3/4 of the year's almost gone! and i'm having my prelims in 4 days! anxiety is swelling up. so many things happened during this period. there was the russian siege which saw many innocent children's lives lost. about 300? not to mention the crisis in florida, china, japan cos of the typhoons and floods. terrorism and natural disasters seem to be striking every corner of the earth... wad else could add to the gloom???

haha actually i'm only partially affected la. just concerned for the world and my studies. but i must remain happy if not i'd age faster. hehe.. today was a happy day! cos i ate mac fries!! hahaha.. -__-"
yup i went to mac to study with delvina (again). then later huifang, peg, vic, mx, jt came. do u know huifang is actually reading comics for her japan business module! and it's so explicit some more!! haha.. yikessssssssss. well today was a pretty enjoyable studying session. wah bs was packed today! kinda reminds me of those china churches where people squeeze all over, jus that we dont queue up 3 hrs early. haha..

amazing race and more studying time.

did u realise i havent been online for about a week? haha.. my modem was down!! i couldn't come online. but xuehan (my cousin) was telling me it's the best time for my internet to be down cos my prelims are coming up in 2 weeks. i had my chem pract last fri. and it was super draining! felt so tired after that. and it's actually the 1st time in my jc life to complete 3 experiments so fast! anyway i got my whole 2nd qn wrong cos i drew the wrong graph. argh! and i realised i wrote carboxyl group, when i actually meant carbonyl. shucks.. wonder how many marks that's gonna cost me. cos those 2 words mean different things.

taking a look back at my past week, i was really smittened by 2 guys. one is boonsak ponsana! he's this cute badminton player from thailand who plays well and loses graciously! the guy who won susilo and was later defeated by 2 indonesians. btw he's on olympic scholarship. another guy is david yeo! the ah beng from singapore idol. haha! actually i noticed him long ago, but after his makeover on wed night, he looked even better! :) and u know wad the coincidence is?? both these guys r law students and 22 years of age! hahaha! not that i've got a liking for lawyers.. hahaha...

well.. now really got to get deep into books. i've been failing all my mocks and i dunno wad to do. quite a few things are happening, and of cos it's not very encouraging for me. sometimes i do wonder where God is taking me. gotta stay faithful and keep running with endurance. on a lighter note, peilin came back to church yesterday! happy for her!

i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly. i'll do what it takes til i touch the sky.. make a wish, take a chance, make a change..

i feel so tired. been having tests on sat so often. and right now my stomach is giving me some problems...

athens fever is in the air! sigh.. li jiawei lost to the north korean woman! she actually started very well.. even won one set 11-0!! the north korean woman was so irritating.. she kept shouting throughout the match. anyway hope jiawei gets bronze so she can win prize $$$ to marry susilo. haha.. :)

i was just going thru some old spiritual diaries i wrote to teacher michael when i was in pri5 & 6. really thank God for someone like him, who spends time reading thru untidy handwritings and replying notes of encouragement to his kids. notes which speak personally to every person. he has invested a lot of time and energy to guiding children and leading them in the ways of the Lord. he is such a great man of God! he wrote me many many things, urging me to have a heart for nations, to see myself rising up, to be a prayer warrior, and all the promises of God for my life. which i have failed to keep up after i left cc. however, these i shall claim back now. i shall move on and not look back, although i do regret slipping away from His presence for the past 4 years in sec sch. now i feel driven to do my best in everything He has placed in my hands! and one day, i wanna be like teacher michael, to love and impact people like he does. i have only one life. live it.

Habakkuk 2:3 'For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come. It will not tarry.'

ronald susilo lost to thailand's boonsak ponsana! 1st set 10-15, 2nd set 1-15!!! wad a disappointing defeat. rather saddening...

today was an eye opener for me. after school, delvina stayed with me to wait for photo taking. in the end it was cancelled. and i waited 1hr plus for it! nobody informed me until i saw yuerui outside the library.
so i headed down to nus to meet huifang and the others. in the bus i caught the badminton quat finals! cos guen told me it's at 2pm, so i was rather sad abt missing it. so exciting.. but no susilo. there was a cute danish guy though. haha..

del and i got down at the wrong bus stop. we decided to walk to nus art blk cos it looked just round the corner. haha.. quite a long walk actually. then we managed to locate the canteen which is called THE DECK. i figured that was the canteen cos i saw a fork and knife. nus's food is real cheap!! and much better than cj's. they even have genki sushi. later after huifang finished her food we went to nuh. via the mortuary side. so creepy.

hospitals always carry a gloom. we went to the children's ward cos jianting hasn't turned 16. wad a joke for a big guy to be there. haha! i felt so sad for this little kid i saw who had to walk around with a drip. and there was a 1 wk old babe who had high fever. the baby was such a bundle of joy! i felt so much love swelling up inside me as i looked at it... sigh.. anyway had a 'good' time sitting in the bus on the way home also. del and i took it from the wrong side and it went one loop round nus before going to the mrt. i appreciated her company today. :)

o ye of little faith! today fang actually asked me to pray for jt. but i was hesistant cos i felt inadequete. so i came up with excuses. del said if her cgl gave her the chance she'd definitely go ahead. nvm.. gotta work on my confidence.

time for amazing race!!

my saturday.

0700 - rise & shine
0730 - pa sent me to school
0800 - econ mock starts
1102 - econ mock ends. realised i forgot to bring my purse out! mitch helped me borrow coins from seany. rush home.
1200 - reach home, eat, bathe
1230 - go pick up faith
1255 - cc bus comes.
0145 - settle down in church. children learnt the history of CHC and there was an old pic of pst kong who looked quite nerdish.
0315 - cc ends, bring kids up.
0330 - count kids, get onto the bus. i forgot to take the worksheets and presents for them! felt so bad.....
0430 - last kid faith. walk her up.
0445 - take 66 to interchange
0500 - walk to taxi stand to wait for shuttle bus.
0545 - reach church, so colourful with balloons and 'long things'. CHC is 15 yrs old! 15 glorious years! =DDD. meet daixuan and irwin. delvina calls to say she'd be going for s3 too.
0600 - settle down, del's 4 seats still not given up. sis yanping said 'svc starting!'
0615 - she finally comes with her 2 sis and ma. smile at usher. :) proceed back to praise n worship.
0750 - svc ends! POM was so good and rather amusing! JAMs made me feel touched.
0815 - meet sis qiushan to return tpt form and tags.
0830 - plucked up courage to say hi to sis wenhui. hahaha!
0835 - went to food fair with delvina. the chendol was lukewarm already!
0900 - del leaves. i see kokseng at the riveria so went to chat with him.
0910 - ks leaves. alone at riveria til maoshun comes up for interval. he said he lost him shirt. poor boy..
0925 - ms left for briefing.
0930 - ks comes up for awhile.
0955 - svc ends. went to meet my parents and aunty who wanted to check out the food fair. i bought thai rice set. $1 only!!!!
1030 - walk to carpark.
1100 - home sweet home! watch tv
0100 - zzz

wad a weekend! i've got so much things to say. firstly, the fireworks i caught were really awesome! although it lasted only for awhile. can't be compared to may day's one. i went kayaking with some cg friends too. supposed to be only a few of us but in the end so many people! it was quite a disaster cos of some technical problems. my brother's and ben lim's boat capsized in the middle of the sea. quite far from shore. then me and jason went over to save them, and in the process jason's boat capsized. but we managed to empty the water, however when ben was getting onto the kayak my boat wasn't stabalized so i capsized too. even huifang and jeanie who thought they could escape eventually had their kayaks turned over by the guys. wad a day! i think everyone had their turns at capsizing! haha..

just had students ic meeting at my place led by terrence. i'm quite inspired by him cos he leads praise and worship so exuberantly! it was so good! although there were only 8 of us.. but i can say it was a time of refreshing and restoring lost visions.

do u know wad! i saw veroy on singapore idol yesterday and he was humiliated by the judges. poor boy! and i saw on the shots another female singer from children's church. hope she fared well. haha! this is so amusing.

today was quite an enjoyable day, despite getting my ezlink confiscated by michael tan for socks. anyway he came into our class to do this impromtu spot check, and i was among some of those who got caught. so after pe, mitch, cheryl and i went to see MT and he brought us to the hall and asked us to move chairs out and back in again. ridiculous rite, there were so many rows. mitch very funny, she said must ask clara they all to help so we can move faster. but he was just scaring us la. i kinda knew he wont get us to do such a stupid thing.

ellien came back today. so she and liangyi, gladys, cheryl, shiaoen went out to eat. then mitch also joined them. she asked me to walk out together with them and i ended up going to makan with them! haha. quite fun! i enjoyed myself talking nonsense to those people. there's a different side to those whom i view as studious kids. haha! we went to this place at TP, i cant remember the name, to eat those jap rice boxes thingy. i drank 2 bowls of miso soup! (gladys gave me hers) so nice. =) . yup the food was not bad too. so good of mitch to introduce us to that place. then we chatted for awhile and laughed and laughed. had really a nice time. i feel that our class is more united now! different cliques starting to mix around. and i'm starting to really love being in 2T29, when i've only got 3 months left in cjc. haha. better late than never!

tofu miso soup! my latest craze.

Miso Soup(with tofu and green onion)

Ingredients:
4 cups dashi soup stock
1/2 tofu
3 tbsp miso paste
1/4 cup chopped green onion

How to Cook:
1. Put the soup stock in a pan and bring to a boil.
2. Cut tofu into small cubes and add them to the soup.
3. Scoop out some soup stock from the pan and dissolve miso paste in it.
4. Return the soup in the pan.
5. Stop the heat and add chopped green onion.

i just got home from school.. studied a little with delvina (actually not her only) today. the library was freezing! in fact the whole day i felt cold. anyway today during econ remedial, we sat around nathan. he din have jun'01 ppr so he jus asked us for qns to clarify. suddenly that sean loke asked abt privatisation, and i dunno why, i was quite tickled by his qn so i started giggling. then it seemed like something triggered off and more ppl started giggling. haha! and nathan asked 'am i funny?' which made me wanna laugh more. the whole time i couldnt look at his face or sean's face else i'd start laughing out loud. sean was using his tie to cover his suppressed smile. hahaha..

alright after econ i had to wait 2 lessons for del. so i was thinking there's nobody to stay with me, but sean stayed back awhile to teach me complex 3, in the end i took mana's ppr. then daphne came when sean was abt to leave. then siang hong came. so i was quite glad for the unplanned company. oh! that jeremy's really FON. yest he went down during svc for prayers, then when no one attended to him after he stood in front for awhile, he went up again. FON! and he's super lame la.. 'wads the park that links bishan to amk? linkin park. wads gingerbreadman without legs? limp bizkit.' del's smart idea of jokes also.

ok time to continue with my math. i seem to be having mock tests every wk.

alright! i've got my blog done.. finally something that suits me. greenish and cattish. hehe..
just got home from children's church. faith's block has a malay wedding and chinese funeral going on at the same time! btw i feel a little blur today. i went to a kid's place to fetch her and i ended up going down 2 wrong staircases. and just now i jus did something wrong in the bus again.
i feel a bit weird being home so early on sat! cos service used to be on sat night. anyway, gonna nap for awhile later then start studying. 4 weeks to prelims! i actually feel quite geared up already, but thinking of the amount of revision i need to do makes me feel overwhelmed.
sorry. my attitude and thoughts towards u were wrong.

thanks for the refreshing and inner healing. i called and You came.

change my mindset and emotional inclination!

i just finished 2 complex tutorials. sigh.. now i feel so brain drained from all the thinking and my eyes can't see properly. i dont even think i did with understanding. just wanted to get over and done with them so i worked towards the answer. anyhow i'd revise when i get them back. don't know how to do a few qns.
terrible headache!! i dont even know if i'm writing sense here... i've got things to say, but i cant say. hmmmm..... this feeling from long ago is returning.

i'm feeling messed up and uneasy about certain things. argh. feel like crawling into a shell to hide. i hate it! argh!

had odac farewell last night! was very enjoyable. 1stly, the food wasn't pathetic. wad a spread! there were cakes, cookies, prata, fried finger food, rice, meehoon, pasta, jellies, brownies, .. etc. very very well planned by the j1s. and their performance was hilarious!!! they acted out the j2s. ok for me they acted out this prata eating competition between Loser, XL, XXL and HL. so of cos HL won (i ate 10 pratas at ophir in Mar xp). j2s performed an item. the guys LOTR and the girls back up choir. haha.. then the girls sang some nonsense. after that they presented gifts to us. each j2 had a stack of well wishes from the j1s, odac fbt vest, addidas bottle and a pair of ankle socks. then we sat in a circle and sang with the glowing canister to revive sing-along sessions during xp. so nice.. very nice farewell.. thanks j1s for all the hard work!  

alright today at church. we had orange julius hotdogs and ice cream cones. then we went to have games and bbq. the chickens were all black. anyway on the way home, jess and i discovered that my eyes and her nose and mouth compliment each other. so we took my top half face and her lower half face and voila! we had this quite pleasant face. looked like a totally different person. jason was our dear very patient photographer who snapped us from jurong east to aljunied. haha shall post it up when i get hold of it.

okie gtg now lots of work to do! mugging time..

went to bugis with guen after school. looking for her bag, but she couldn't find wad she wanted. in the end i got something for myself from esprit. i've finally eaten chicken whopper! it was so huge. i was feeling a bit sick when i got home. i think i was too full and was walking around while eating.

anyway this morning i met the other cj church members. as usual we could not find somewhere to gather so wendy suggested we go to the catholic's prayer room. just in time to catch bro paul stepping out of the room. thank God he got out cos i dont think he'd approve of non-catholics using that room. so we kinda had the whole room to ourselves, with the glowing light from the virgin mary's statue. i was afraid we did something wrong cos 2 catholic students were watching us. anyhow, we prayed boldly and i must say i felt better after that. been anxious about many things, concerning studies, evangelism (mostly discouraging), this that this that. He keeps calling me back to His Word cos there are promises for me there. only You know wad i'm going through inside.


Mt 6:8 'Therefore do not be like them (worrying, anxious sinners), for your Father knows the things you have need of before you ask Him'

such a tiring long day today! i hate thursdays. anyway pe was fun for once. ms smith din come so our class was split into 2 grps. the guys, guen, gladys, matilda, may and myself were with mr fu while the rest with mr lim. thank goodness cos mr fu let us be on our own til 5pm while e rest had to do prusiking. yeah prusiking is fun but the idea of crowding around 1 rope and watching ppl climb up and down wasnt really welcoming. so we played no rules basketball with the guys. the game was fun because sean had his usual antics. i finished the virgin suicides. wad a sick story. seriously i still dont understand why those libson sisters had to take their lives. it's so blurry and mysterious.

btw i just caught glam! i must say Sun is really glamorous. she's so beautiful! i might seem biased cos she's my pastor's wife. but i think she deserves all the admiration and praise. she has done so much for the chinese youths in asia. her gigs were not for her to gain popularity or get sales (they were free concerts anyway). wad she did was go there to sing and share abt her life testimony, giving the aimless youths there a hope and purpose. isn't it evident in her that no matter who u are, wad people think of u and criticise u abt, as long as you have a dream and believe, u can achieve it? i'm so proud of Sun! she's truly an inspiration to me! =)

rather embarrassing situation today. it came without warning. so i was flustered. however i realised that some gals are really nice although they might seem otherwise on the surface.

i'm feeling so lethargic now. came home to change and now i feel sleepy. going out later for church without walls seminar. it is such an interesting session that really gave me a different outlook of things!

anyways... i'm feeling stressed now. need to get myself into serious revision. i guess my mid yr results were a wake up call for me. seems like so many things are happening. i think delvina is leaving school. i guess she'd be happier too.

the virgin suicides is so bittersweet.

horrible mid yr results.
8 weeks to prelims.
less than 4 months to A levels.
studies in jeopardy.
brain cluttered and messed.

i'm officially 18!
turned 18 on the 8th of july! =)
hmm let's see.. my pa bought 2 big apple tarts for me. simply divine. i've gotta finish them by tonight if not they are gonna rot. nothing much to say for now. i wasted today! wanted to do some vectors tutorial but i didn't know how to do qn5 so i stopped there. going out for potluck at zijian's place later. celebrating mr lim's birthday.

Tonight it's very clear
As we're both lying here
There's so many things I want to say
I will always love you
I would never leave you alone

Sometimes I just forget
Say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I don't wanna lose you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

You'll keep me standing tall
You'll help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you've been dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Just like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We're gonna live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

footsie - you like to goof around and laugh with
the people you care about.


What Sign of Affection Are You?
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math was hard! compared to our promos and cts.. sigh.. really wonder how i'd do. forgot how to do CIs and find test statistics. this shows studying the day before exam doesnt work.
slept for quite awhile after the exam, then went to ymca for bs, and i realised there was no bs today!! wasted trip. so i headed to bishan to meet delvina. walked around a bit, then sat at kfc. i got to meet her 2 sisters. haha.. left for home when her mother came.
jesslyn brought snacks from japan. there's this hard brown cracker that almost broke my teeth. but her strawberry flakes are heaven! cant be found in singapore. they are creamily sweet and crunchy! awww... pigged myself with the bag yesterday and jason said i'm gonna get bloated. so i went to run just now. haha.. =)
tonight's gonna be so eventful! gonna spend the night in church with fang, jeanie, joyce and i think maoshun.. cant wait..

finally done with chem and econ yesterday! i just finished my vectors tutorial. need to go thru the other math topics later. then after thur i can take a break? probably until mon, which is actually a holiday. life aint a breeze yet, prelims are 2 months away! *screams*

maoshun got baptised today! happy for him. we bought him SUNSHINE BREAD and chocolates and jason got a meh meh for him. haha.. God is so good! maoshun was asked to play guitar in JAMs church after his baptism! wow! i believe this has really been something he wanted. i'd put up some photos when i'm more free..

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hands

When the ocean rise
and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still
Know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

yum.. i just polished off 2 slices of pie made by my mother.. mashed potato with bacon and cauliflower covered in cheese.

had church today. i always look forward to going to church on weekends. a few new members joined us. i got to know this gal called irene who's from cedar. she's sec2, that means she joined the school when i graduated. had dinner at the coffeeshop with my cell after church, then met the east people to go home. delvina and sis went back with me too. she lost $8! got cheated by cai dao kueh aunty. joyce bought 2 new pairs of ballet shoes! haha.. del and the guys could really get along. talking nonsense and laughing.. anyway the fellowship in the train brightened me! admist all these exam fever. tmr would be going to church again. support maoshun's baptism. he wants his christian name to be bread. FON. so jeanie was actually saying his surname should be talk. hurhur.. ok i think i should go study now.

so long and goodnight! =)

finally!
i've got breakthrough in my studying. haha.. yesterday i spent 6 hours at ymca mac. managed to cover quite a bit, and i felt focused. not distracted like last time. for once i was rather pleased studying! hahaha... i was supposed to study with delvina but i think i spent half the time alone. she joined me initially, then left to meet her cg ppl at city hall. i saw quite a few church and cj ppl studying there, yuerui and her friend..
after that went for bible study upstairs. it was my last lesson too! =) btw i'm quite excited about getting a chinese bible. for fun. it's pretty interesting to see, but very ex. and yes! i wanna go china someday. right now our church is having a missions campaign to prepare the path to china. i've never stepped into china before, so i would probably join the church on one of the upcoming study trips to china.
okie gotta read up on econs now. one of the subjects i feel like i'm trying to move forward but the wave keeps coming at me.

i waited for u. i'm glad u din come back.

dream= wish, something you hope for and want to happen very much.








You inspire me.

i'm so sick so sick so sick so sick so sick so sick so sick so sick so sick so sick so sick (x infinity) of studying!
not that i've been doing much.. dunno why i'm so out of focus these days. cant even sit down still for a decent hour to read. argh! i'm fed up.

went swimming with jess today.

exams are drawing near, and i'm dreading it! argh.. cant get myself to sit down and study without having to walk around or dozing off. have been going to school to study for the past few days with delvina.. until sat.....

funny incident: we met at 12pm to study awhile before church at j8. went to mos, we bought drinks and were happily settled until a staff came to chase us out. she said 'it's sat and no studying allowed. hope u cooperate.' ok so we did not know where to go, the other fastfood joints were all full. went down to the basement, and i found us pathetic seats behind a cookie oven. so we sat there, until another woman came to chase us away. delvina actually wanted to study in the nursing room! anyway we went into ntuc and studied, while looking at sweets.

went jammin' with some cg people yesterday. the studio was quite small. it was quite fun, although the music was a little thrashy. managed to try out playing keyboards too. i realised i cant sing yesterday. haha..

currently i'm passing time by reading about market failure and allocation of resources. *sigh*.. on a brighter note, i'm finally watching harry potter with jess and my cousin later! =)

i'm finally done with this blog. nothing seems to please me ever since angelfire stopped hosting my old background pic of a baby girl standing by the shore. since then i'm been trying out different pictures but they dont seem to fit.

been a long time since i've updated.
the 1st week of my June hols was spent in church. we had a 3-day youth conference that was charged us up to become great and mighty people. haha.. i felt so inspired to do so many things and discover my destiny. yup so 1st week was burnt, and i did not plan any revision for that week, thankfully.

2nd week. attempted to start on chem, but here i am, into the 3rd week still trying to complete chem. sigh.. i spent my 2nd week mostly with my cell group. busy week cos we had outreach. so i was practically talking to maoshun every night to plan games for sentosa on thur. (huifang's in israel). but the day turned out fine and fun. haha..

i left for tioman with my family on sun, and was back yesterday night. spent my time there snorkelling, admiring corals and colourful fishes, (sadly i saw no nemo). i did the jetty jump at marine park again! wad an experience. this time i wasn't afraid at all. then the other hotel guests started jumping from the jetty too. besides these i was trying to study in the hotel room while tuning into hbo.

today studied in school from 12 plus to 6 with delvina. we took so long to get settled down and concentrate. after about an hour staring at the books, we were bored so we went to read newspapers. then, we took a walk around the school, followed by a short nap, and by the time we had our momentum, it was 4 plus. and this del had to log into friendster, tempting me to do the same. tsk. planned to go pierce my ears after that but she had to rush home. so i'm gonna get them done tmr. and do some shopping! gotta get something out of the great s'pore sale.

time now is 11pm. am waiting for someone's call, am planning to start my tys, am wanting to read one for my baby.

today was sports day. played amoeba football. was tied to 3 other people and hobbled around trying to kick a rugby ball. rather spastic. haha.. anyway i spent the rest of the day watching other games and some swimming.

went for a sushi buffet with timothy, wendy and del later. i wanted to eat pasta but we had to accomadate that del cos she wanted to be with her classmates. it was quite fun eating with them. basically we took a lot of food, and i wanted to eat the fillings only, so del handed the waitress a stack of plates with my rice on top. they wanted to charge us for wastage of food, so wendy took the plate with the rice away, exposing the bottom plate with a flattened sushis that we could not finish. haha! it was super amusing and embarrassing.

overall my day was quite enjoyably spent. met my mother at suntec after that to go home, then cell group at my place. right now i'm having the house to myself cos my brother's away at camp.

off to bathe and a book. =)

gotta make this update quick before american idol starts..

today was a short day! we had 2 tests, math and chem. was not in any mood to do so whenever i had a problem i conveniently referred to guen's answers. haha! nvm la.. need to save myself from the harsh scrutiny of certain teachers.

yup at the end of the day i felt extremely relaxed. this feeling has not been felt for long. waited until about 2pm for our class t-shirts. the design turned out great! just that it wld have been better if the surfboard was in front. anyway, after that stayed with may in the library for awhile as she did her approx solutions.

headed to town to meet meifeng at 3pm. we planned to discuss the design and printing for the shirts for pos. went to the printing shop at far east to take a look. they've got very nice shirts inside! some with glitters.. but rather ex. spent some time at long john. then delvina and darren came over to join us. crapped a lot. walked over to ymca later in the evening for bs.

american idol has started! gtg!

another week has gone by! time really flies. i've just finished my curve sketching tutorial (i'm clueless about most of the questions actually), and econs drq. came online to take a break. let me try to recall the happenings to this week..

hmm yesterday was our econ mcq and case study test. overall, the test was do-able, if u studied. obviously i din do much reading so basically i wrote a lot of crap and resorted to guessing for mcq. after that we had training, well, not really, cos the j1s had finished their 4444, so the gals just walked/jogged a few rounds. i practised prusiking and changing over later. training ended quite early after some discussion, and we went for lunch at long john. sat there and talked a bit, and andrey was giving evaluation of the gals. pretty interesting session. from moles to the future.

i enjoyed church last night. it was a time of refreshing. we had fellowship in the church cafe. later, some of us went to the roof top to plan stuff. there was hardly any place so we were sitting below the slides and obstructing some kids having fun. haha..

sometime in the week (thur probably) it was reported that 5 iraqis captured this american and beheaded him alive. they recorded the whole bloody scene. i was tormented by the news! that night i couldn't sleep and i asked my brother to sit in my room til i fell asleep. haha! speaking of nightmares, mr lim is haunting me in my dreams too. my father said he heard me shouting out his name in my sleep. maybe cos he wanted me to run for the 2.4k challenge and i was quite pressurized by it. sadly, i have lost the drive to run. always feel sick when the time comes.

anyway enough of all these. i'm going type out some nyaa now. ciao!

i'm so in love with clay aiken! argh!

jesslyn's here to visit my bro cos he's having exams. ok i really hate having my privacy invaded. feeling really irritated! dont like visitors now. (that's quite bad attitude i know).. i have to visit some people too. but not today... i had to go back early cos my ma just came back from the sibu mission trip. i heard it was a success.. anyway the 1st 2 nights were raining, so it really hindered them.. but God is good, on the last day of the trip, there was sun to dry up the area and 8000 people turned up! including the mayor i think. for information's sake, 48% of the people are christians in sibu! that's a pretty encouraging fact.

after school i went to town with may. walked around, and satisfied my craving for mushroom swiss, finally. supposed to go with delvina to get a present but she wasn't feeling well so i din meet her in the end. that gal seems to be losing her drive. my plans of shopping were kinda spoilt. anyway still got tmr to do.

i'm feeling really perplexed about things. feel like i've got a lot of things to do, not sure why too. and when i get home early like today, i feel guilty, like a great deal of time has been wasted.

man i hate life.

Recorded by "Thompson Twins"
Remix by "Wayne Wonder"
Sountrack: 50 1st dates

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I have a picture
Pinned to my wall
An image of you and of me and we're laughing
We're loving it all

But look at our life now
We're tattered and torn
We're fussing and fighting, delighting with tears
That we cry until dawn

CHORUS
Hold me now
Warm my heart
Stay with me
Let loving start
Let loving start

You say I'm a dreamer
We're two of a kind
Both of us searching for some perfect world
We know we'll never find

So perhaps I should leave here
Yeah, go far away
But you know that there's nowhere that i'd rather be
Than with you here today

Hold me now
Warm my heart
Stay with me
Let loving start
Let loving start

You ask if I love you
What can I say
You know that I do and that this is just one
Of those games that we play

So I sing you a new song
Please don't cry any more
And I'd ask your forgiveness though I don't know just
what i'm asking it for

i miss ministry.

my mother's away. she went to sibu for mission trip. so have to keep her in prayer. huifang said there'd surely be spiritual attack.
i was feeling very pissed off today. not sure why too. probably mood swings. i dont really feel right these few days anyway. conflict of emotions.

go with me in wild abandonment.

i dont know why i'm online when i'm supposed to be studying for my nmr test and arranging cg stuff.

anyway looks like i wont be taking part in the parade of schools after all. not able to commit to the practices, and i dont want my studies to suffer. they are already suffering, my class tests can prove. pretty down about this.

today i did my 5 items. on tue i saw the guys in my class putting a mat at the 230cm mark for sean to jump over. so me and guen decided to use the idea, she put a magazine at the 175cm mark for me and i managed to clear! 180cm around there. so today i tried it again, and i did 180cm. quite pleased. overall improved. managed to do 15 inclined pull-ups, considering the fact that i only did 6 for the last test, and 0 when i was in sec 1 and 2. super weak arm strength. i'm putting myself to shame here. sit and reach short of 1cm to A! shuttle run and sit ups A. so i think gold is within reach.

alright actually i've got lots to say but my books are calling me. update probably tmr. oh yes! mr ang postponed our class test to mon. wad a relief! =)

since i'm home early, might as well take some time to update. gotta rush out again later for parade of schools practice. timothy said they ran out of gals to throw so asked me to join in. i'm terribly afraid i'd hurt the guys. haha..

lets see.. my weekend has been rather eventful. i didn't go for training on sat. so it felt like sunday morning when i woke up. anyway had church in the afternoon. after service we went down to esplanade to watch Sun perform, then there were 7mins of fireworks, brought to us exclusively by NTUC. 7mins! those guys must be freaking rich. hahas.. i din know labour day was such a big thing. dinner after that at marina bk, then home..

yesterday had parade of schools practice. i was doing the base beat. so i just kept tapping 1,2,3,4.. 1,2,3,4. ok i'm starting to feel something for my upcoming exams. BUT.. pastor kong said we must never worry, so i'd just try my best to focus on studying. seems to me that there are other commitments i have to tackle. but i'm not sure where to start. sigh.

jieru i miss u too!! hope u r having fun in school and enjoying whatever u r doing. muacks!

stress= continuous feelings of worry about your work or personal life, that prevents you from relaxing.

today odac ran to yjc to support our rugby team. the distance is about 15km. i stopped at macritchie cos i was having difficulty breathing. was supposed to take the bus down to yjc with may and some other j1s, but we decided to walk behind. went after the rest but lost sight of them. so we walked along upper thompson, was stopped by mr lim halfway to take a bus and look for the rest. but we just continued walking, to shell, and may wanted to use the toilet. then we went into thompson plaza to take water from bk. haha.. was looking out for a white van the whole time. then continued walking to lower pierce til mana came from the back to scare us, and we took a bus down to khatib, then walked/ran and met up with the rest to go yjc together.

the rugby team lost. rather disappointing. but the school spirit was commendable. at least we weren't low-class enough to jeer at our opponent. wad a display of ugliness. i've never encountered people like them. anyway it was pouring during the match. i didn't manage to make it in time to ymca for pos.

it's the end of the week again! glad to be home early for once. i dont know why but i feel like i've got a million and one things to do. i just know i've been pretty stressed these few weeks. maybe cos there was easter, and i had to do follow-up, bible study, blah blah blah. school wise, i can feel the A level stress coming too. and i heard nyaa has to be submitted on may 15? goodness.. my journels are not completed, cip not a single hour! i dont know where all my time went to. was it all the church activities? sigh.. supposed to return mel's stuff 2 weeks ago but i kept putting them off. mr jufri asked if i wanted to go back to help out in damai, cos my sis's the vice-head prefect, and i was an ex-student. i'd see if time permits.

nicoll highway collapsed on tue(20 apr) at about 4pm. i think it was a blessing that there were no cars there at that time, and it was tea-break so the no. of workers who got hurt were minimum. u know wad this taught me? never to take things for granted. u'd never expect such things to happen in s'pore, where everything seems efficient and perfect. it came as a wake-up call i guess.

i tried descending on wed. gave mr lim this pathetic piece of note i wrote and he actually let me go ahead! haha.. but i didn't go that high la. i forgot quite a few steps and fumbled. but thankfully andrey, ray and lifen were there to assist. haha.. lifen was trying to help me straighten my karabiner and her finger got stuck. there was a dent. haha..

i always look forward to friday morning prayer group. anyway i got this God sent friend, delvina. only got to know her better after meeting her in church and finding out we are both from cj. she's someone i can really confide in. the amazing thing is we are going thru many similar situations which make our sharings so meaningful. =)

diet time. i've put on weight again. my face has outbroke and it's probably due to all the junk i eat, stress added on. in no time i'd be a pimple plantation. apr is coming to an end! i'm so glad time is passing so fast. cant wait to graduate from school uniform and rules.

finally found some time to blog. this week was extremely busy.

mon (12 apr) : went to watch The Passion with odac ppl, i think there were 10 of us? it was really gory. touching too, cos u see all the sufferings that Jesus went through for us. i guess wad they said about renewing of faith was true. but... i never wanna watch or think about that show again. makes me feel very numb and turned off bcos of the brutality.

tue (13 apr) : can't really remember wad happened, nothing significant.

wed (14 apr) : mr lim went through prusiking lessons with us. i left training earlier for POS meeting and bible study.

thur (15 apr) : long day in school..

fri (16 apr) : gave bible study after school to a newcomer at tamp mall.

yesterday's eco-challenge was much better than the previous one. we did 20 rounds relay instead of 50, 6 gst with 20 sit ups instead of 10 with 10, run outside and forest walk was the same. mr lim also taught us how to descend. i tried a bit of prusiking, halfway up only. quite fun. after training the j2s had a thrashing out session. i wonder why such politics seem never-ending. sigh..

church yesterday was good too! talking about hidden potential and leading a life of purpose. liangyi told me last week she was just thinking wad her purpose of living was, and the message really came in time.

alright have to go type NYAA stuff now. many things to do this term! i havent met up with dani and eunice to do enrichment too. keep procrastinating.

It only takes a spark to get a fire going,
And soon all those around can warm up in its glowing;
That's how it is with God's Love,
Once you've experienced it,
Your spread the love to everyone
You want to pass it on.

What a wonderous time is spring,
When all the tress are budding
The birds begin to sing, the flowers start their blooming;
That's how it is with God's love,
Once you've experienced it.
You want to sing, it's fresh like spring,
You want to pass it on.

I wish for you my friend
This happiness that I've found;
You can depend on God
It matters not where you're bound,
I'll shout it from the mountain top
I want the world to know
The Lord of love has come to me
I want to pass it on.

easter drama was good. quite hilarious, cos they did a remix of the william hung song. haha.. pastor sun did a stunt on nkf charity show just now. they shot 5 needles on her back. could see the pain on her face. ouch! it was bleeding when they removed them. it was really brave of her!

just got back from changi. today we went to pulau ubin for some cycling. i think we covered a lot less area than last year, when the j2s went only. nevertheless it was fun. this whole group of j1s came together 45 mins late. i'm beginning to think they feel that they're exclusive. it can get quite sickening actually. after training we went to subway for lunch, i've never been there before. so was kinda a sua ku when ordering and choosing veggies. but i dont think i'd eat there again in the near future, feel funny eating sandwiches with potato chips as a meal. i prefer warm food. haha..

anyway yesterday was my aunty's 50th birthday. my pa brought us to bt timah, went to see 2 properties, my mother really liked signature park. then we went for lunch, so i could not make it in time to watch the gospel of john with blardies and juan's church. my pa bought me this dish, catfish fillet with white wine and grapes. it tasted good initially, but later on there was this bittersweet taste. so much for exotic food.

thur, went to killiney after school to eat beancurd skin and kaya toasts with may and yuer. wed, ran from school to kallang to support the netball gals. they thrashed srjc. tue, bible study in church and i reached home only at 11.45pm. mon, 2 unsuccessful attempts to watch The Passion. could not enter the theatre.

church later, i have to go down earlier cos i'm doing counselling. sat burned, tmr having service too, which would probably drag til late afternoon after fellowship and all. hopefully can finish some work this weekend. there's a mcq econ test on mon, which is actually a chance to redeem myself, cos i got the lowest for the other test. yes! mon watching The Passion with the odac gals. i'm gonna use guen's ic.

wad is your passion?

today was ptm. my father spent 5 mins with mr ang. he asked him to sign my report (i got B for NE surprisingly!) , said i always doze off in class, and told him he had no other complaints, basically i'm never absent, never late, and consistent in my work and results. before ptm i was stuck in town cos it was pouring. i met mel for far east chicken rice. had the craving! haha.. the chili was extremely spicy today. but got kick! we went down to this soap shop in level 1. the soaps are so pretty! shaped in cake with fragrance of chocolate even. now i know wad to buy for yuerui.

speaking of energy draining, wed's training was madness. not that it was the 1st time running 12 km, but the sun was displaying its power that afternoon. and it was horrible running in that weather. thinking of it makes me scared. haha.. the j1s were dismissed at 6pm. sooooo early!.. and we had debrief with mr lim. he went thru everyone individually, stuff about PEARLS ( i think mine's gonna be a gone case) , and xp stuff. ok so he said i'm gentle and not odac enough. hmm... which is actually true. i'd learn to be tougher. haha..

i saw xr. he's not really my eye candy anymore. argh but i turned over and looked at him 3 times today. dont ask me why. and i think he noticed it, cos he turned and said hi. goodness.

ben tan is carrying a piece of cow in his pocket. -grin-

was supposed to go st john's home with yuerui today. but we were not in the mood so we bought rum and raisin and used the computers for awhile. then went to find miss rani and miss cheng for contacts. have to remember to get them from charity tmr. oh yes. and miss cheng's tablecloth too.

my best friend in primary school found me in friendster! and now we are on msn. so it's so much easier to keep in touch and catch up. mr tan did nmr with us today. he went thru the mcq qns like light and if i did not attempt the questions i'd definitely be lost.

yum. focaccai garlic.

just got home. today was the odac orientation. fewer people compared to 1st intake. mostly were the 1st intake j1s. quite alright in terms of fun. spent my day walking up and down the drain routes. i felt dirtier than the last time cos i got smeared with more paint. anyway the cleaning up is always a problem. this time the j2s cooked starch and it was so hard to remove! we were scrubbing the railings with brooms and our fingers.

church was good today. i love pastor kong. he's back, and we watched a greeting from Sun in hollywood. pastor kong's a good leader, he cares a lot for his flock and always teaches us how to improve and make our lives worth living. his messages are so practical! he was teaching us about maximising our potential today. i'm motivated by every session with him.

i feel quite bad for not waiting for the other east ppl. left with the rest first and only realised when kailin called me. shall be more alert next time. jason sent me home. he must have felt high today. haha. ok we were discussing about his future prospects. where to study and why. still no conclusion. let me know ya.

ok time to go bathe, read on forensic science (latest interest) and sleep. cip tmr.

forwarded mails and spasm are such a headache.

today there was a meeting on orientation. we are not doing much publicity this time. anyway i'm doing drain walk again. i want mana in the drain! (old joke).. haha! alright currently i'm attempting the 1st question of normal distribution 2. a bit lost. trying my best to catch up with all the homework. i dont wanna let it pile up too much that i get suffocated under. haha..

i've got my new timetable! mon 1.10pm, tue 1.50pm, wed 1.10pm (but got cca til 7 plus), thur 5.10pm, fri 1.50pm. argh i dunno why thur looks so ugly. anyway it's better than my old one. so far, school is manageable. i think mr ho has gone mad. he's screaming and getting fits more often, many times imitating crazy girls and throwing his hands and voice high.

i'm still tired from expedition. i cant watch The Passion! because i'm still about 4 months away from 18 years. they are that strict. does a few months' gap mean a huge disparity in maturity?! i beg to differ.

time to continue with my work. but the TV's calling me. i'm in love with gui ji! =)

i'm back!

it has been a rather tiring but fun-packed week. climbed ophir on mon and tue. we camped at elephant pool, and spent time playing at twin waterfalls. tue went to summit then down. wed we climbed datuk and lambak, had long debrief til 4 plus am at mersing i think. so no sleep cos had to catch ferry after that to tioman. then thur we had jetty jump, royal rumble, snorkelling and went to see sea cucumbers and hermit crabs. this was the most fun part of the expedition! i saw nemo and it came upclose to me and zijian. after that we had night hike across the island (i'm so lucky to be bitten by 2 leeches) and went to the jetty to catch sunrise. i'm deprived of 2 nights' sleep, and my ankle is hurting again. swollen now. this morning had to wake up early to wash tents too. so i'm gonna catch my beauty sleep later.

anyway i was almost dozing off in church today. ate listerine sheets to keep myself awake. i had this strong craving for mac today. i ate it for lunch and dinner! haha.. after that i ate a corn pancake, a peach tart and 2 egg tarts. treat from maoshun. i'm gonna put on weight... alright time to finish man and wife. holiday homework has to wait til...................... i have no idea when.

since monday, i've been reading 2 books by tony parsons. man and boy, and its sequel, man and wife. it's pretty depressing knowing monogamy is declining in our modern world. sigh. i hope i'd never have to put my kids through the trauma of parental breakups and love deprivation.

i'm leaving tmr for expedition. would be back on friday night. we would be climbing 3 mountains, ophir, datuk and lambak, and after that snorkelling and hiking at tioman island. it seems so fast. anyway i went to buy stuff at watsons with my mother just now. our family, excluding my brother went for dinner. some sort like a farewell if u choose to put it that way. i appreciated them for the dinner although i could see they were obviously not enjoying the food. haven't really had a decent dinner together as a family for awhile.

today jason came back! happy to see him again. hope he's somehow settled and decided. pastor kong watched the passion of christ in US. he said it was a great show. impactful and touching. not all gore and anti-jew as we heard. i pray with all my heart that it's nc-16 with no cuts here. our church booked 20,000 tickets in the cinemas. friends get to watch for free. this would definitely cause a stir of revival and renewal of faith.

keenan's such a cute boy! i have the urge to hug him and give him a kiss as if he were my son. haha! at training today, i watched the j1s gals whizz past with below 12.30min 2.4 timings. gosh. have to start doing something about that. my packing's not complete and i have to look for rotten socks. i hope i won't get grounded because of my ankle.

can you feel the love tonight?

got this from uray's blog.

Someone said... "Wallets are a lot like girls. You really have to take good care of, because if you won't, something might happen"...
I know what he means. I just lost a wallet, and I just lost a girl. You know, it's the exact same thing.
One day, you just realize it's gone. You try to look for it everywhere, even going back to the places where you could have lost it.
You think, and you think hard, only to come upon a grim realization: it's really gone.
Of course, you can hold on to some hope. After all, there have been some very, very lucky (blessed?) people who get it back.
Perhaps you could become one of those people. You sit home and you hope that someone would call, and that you would get it back. But then, some time passes, and you realize that it's still gone, and you realize that it's time to let go.
The first few days, you turn to your friends for support. Some tell you you'll be ok, some tell you that it was your fault and that you should have been more careful, and some tell you about their own experiences.
They give you all sorts of advice, none you haven't heard before.
You then go out to find a new wallet, only to realize that you don't really want a new one. You want the old one that you lost.
No, you don't want all these better-looking wallets, you want yours, because of how comfortable it is, because of all the cards and pictures and other stuff in it.
You go out and carry on without a wallet, keeping your money in your pocket instead. You throw away stuff that you would have held on to if you had your old wallet. And then, finally, you find a new wallet you like and settle in.
You then start filling your new wallet, little by little. It still doesn't feel as comfortable as the old one, but it's getting there.
Then you start putting in cards and pictures and other important stuff in the wallet. Soon enough, there's as much stuff in your new wallet as the old one. And then, after some time, you feel as comfortable with your new wallet.
And then you realize that you've almost forgotten you ever had your old wallet. Sure, you still remember most of the stuff you lost on that wallet. But then again, you don't remember the feeling of hurt that you felt when you lost it.
That's because that wallet you lost is no longer your wallet. You're no longer holding on. This new wallet you're holding, it has all the important cards and pictures and stuff that you need. This is your wallet.
And this time, you tell yourself, you're never losing this one.

i feel free for once! haha.. today, went to purchase medic stuff with blardys. after that we went to value dollar shop. yuerui bought so many things! then she realised some chocolate thing is 4 for $1 so at the end of the day she had this big bag of stuff. then may could not reach a file so she stood there waiting for us to help. rather amusing when i think abt it now.
sunday was surf and sweat at sentosa. sponsored by rip curl. so u can imagine how good the prizes were. but i din get any. haha. my partner was andrey and i must say he ran very well cos i must have slowed him down with the paddling. but it was fun! an experience indeed. spent the whole day getting ourselves roasted at the beach.
sat was a hike at sembawang. another day in the sun. i was already burnt after training. my shoulders, neck and nose are red and gonna peel. my ankle hurts too. i think i didn't walk properly on sat or sun.

i'm finally done!

-.F I R S T.T H I N G S.F I R S T.-

[my name is]: tan hwee ling
[in the morning i am]: groggy and moody. i wanna sleep more.
[all I need is]: Him
[love is]: Him
[I'm afraid of]: certain things. depends on the situation.
[I dream about]: perfection.

-.F A V O R I T E S.-

[COLOR]: GREEN!
[NUMBER]: 7
[SUBJECT:] nothing in particular.
[CLOTHING BRAND:] i dont endorse any.
[SHOE BRAND:] asics are comfortable for running.
[SPORT TO PLAY:] i hardly do anything besides running. but i like cycling, blading and swimming!
[DRINK:] pokka green tea and dou hua
[ANIMAL:] cats and some dogs
[HOLIDAY:] australia!
[FAVORITE LINE FROM A MOVIE:] dont recall any..
[BAND:] no preferance, as long as the music is good.
[MOVIE:] LOTR trilogy, harry potter, love actually

-.H A V E.Y O U.E V E R.-

[pictured your crush naked?]: nooo!
[actually seen your crush naked]: nooooo.
[had sex]: no.
[made love]: isn't that the same qn?
[been in love]: definitely.
[cried when someone died]: yes
[lied]: definitely! everyone does. haha..

-.W H O.-

[makes you laugh the most?]: sean loke
[makes you smile]: those i love
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: hahaha.. too many to mention
[has a crush on you?]: u dont really know such things..
[easiest to talk to]: my close friends. mel, dong.. etc

-D O.Y O U.E V E R.-

[sit on the Internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?]: i did that before! with ivan. haha..
[save aol/aim conversations]: used to save special conversations.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: a few times. wanna know how different life is for them.
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: yes.

-.H A V E.Y O U.E V E R.-

[fallen for your best friend]: i wouldn't wanna lose the friendship.
[been rejected]: i think so.
[rejected someone]: yes.
[used someone]: maybe.
[been cheated on]: i think so.
[done something you regret]: many times. even buying lays over ruffles.

-.W H O.W A S.T H E.L A S T.P E R S O N.-

[you talked to on the phone]: mel la.. she always calls me from her workplace cos it's free.
[hugged]: dong before her race.
[you instant messaged]: msn? i think it's dong again.
[you laughed with]: mel. i saw a gal slip and her underpants. oops. ;D

-.D O.Y O U / A R E.Y O U.-

[smoke cigarettes]: once. but it sucked.
[obsessive]: depends.
[could you live without the computer?]: quite hard.
[how many peeps are on your buddylist?]: i've got many friends. =)
[what's your favorite food?]: toufu, potatoes, dont really have a specific one.
[fruit?]: guava
[drink alcohol?]: occasionally.
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: definitely! but no chance..
[what hurts the most?]: words
[trust others way too easily?]: probably.

-.N U M B E R.-

[of times I have had my heart broken? ]: a couple of times.
[of continents I have lived in?]: one
[of drugs taken illegally?]: none.
[of tight friends?]: a few
[of cd's that I own?]: didn't count
[of scars on my body ?]: plenty on my legs. elbows too.
[of things in my past that I regret?]: quite a lot.

-.P I C K.O N E.-

[MARRY PERFECT FRIEND OR PERFECT LOVER]: perfect friend.
[CATS OR DOGS:] cats.
[1 PILLOW OR 2 :] 2.. the more the merrier!
[W/ OR W/O ICE CUBES: ] with!
[TOP OR BOTTOM :] top
[WINTER/SPRING/SUMMER/FALL:] summer
[NIGHT OR DAY:] day
[GLOVES OR MITTENS:] mittens are sweet.
[DRESSED OR UNDRESSED:] of course dressed!
[BUNK OR WATER BED:] water bed! i slept on one before.
[MTV OR VH1:] mtv
[OCEAN OR POOL:] ocean! it's so vast.
[SHOWERS OR BATHS:] showers.
[LOVE OR LUST:] love
[SILVER OR GOLD:] gold. it's more valuable
[DIAMONDS OR PEARLS:] jade. haha...

-.I F.Y O U.C O U L D.-

[Move anywhere:] melbourne i think.
[Meet one famous person:] Jesus.
[Live with one person the rest of your life:] probably a soulmate
[Name one thing you love:] God.
[Name one thing that embarrasses you:] exposing myself
[Do you like school?] depends..
[Do you like to talk on the telephone?] depends on who the other party is.
[Do you like to dance? ] i wish i could! haha..
[Do you sing in the shower?] when i was younger.
[Do you think cheerleading is a sport?]: yes.
[What's on your ceiling?]: lights.
[What's the hardest thing about growing up?] changing and discovering.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | abandonment
02 | pain
03 | aimlessness

THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01| mel
02| mr tan, mr ho
03| sean loke, the very sight of him. (am i mean?) i laughed at him for falling last year and got my retribution. the scar's still on my knee!

THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | Him.
02 | family.
03 | friends.

THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | hypocrites
02 | forgetting to appreciate
03 | stubborn people.

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | human nature
02 | chemistry, in all sense.
03 | why we are who we are..

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | my handphone
02 | archie comics.. i'm a big fan of betty and veronica! maybe that's why i cant write good essays.
03 | nothing else! i've cleared my notes. haha

THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | this survey.
02 | listening to perfect 10.
03 | contemplating whether to go collect my chi results in school

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | fulfil my dreams.
02 | marry
03 | travel the world

THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | make pancakes with ice cream.. haha, that's an easy task huh
02 | look innocent and decieve people.
03 | play the piano!

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | introspective sometimes.
02 | mild
03 | accommodating

THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 | dance.. sigh
02 | domestic chores
03 | backslide

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | Him
02 | parents, at times..
03 | heart.

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | blardy!
02 | hai
03 | nothing else really, i dont have a distinct phrase.

THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | ruffles cheddar and sour cream
02 | ferrero
03 | fast food.

THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 | how to play the guitar
02 | baking well
03 | ballet! i can dream rite? haha..

THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | water.
02 | soya bean milk
03 | green tea

THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | sesame street.
02 | captain planet i think
03 | magic school bus! haha..

RANDOM QUESTIONS...
01 | Spell your name backwards: it's ugly.
02 | How did you name your blog?: this.
03 | Are you homosexual? : wad do u think?

DESCRIBE YOUR:
[ x ] Wallet – green with pink flowers.
[ x ] Hairbrush – hahaha.. it's purple.
[ x ] Toothbrush – i use an electric toothbrush
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily – dont wear any. except a pair of ear sticks.
[ x ] Pillow cover – blue and plain
[ x ] Blanket – pink
[ x ] Coffee cup – dont have any.
[ x ] sunglasses – i dont own a pair. haha..
[ x ] Underwear – not for discussion.
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume – dont wear any.
[ x ] CD in stereo right now – some cd that pa burned for me.
[ x ] Tattoos – none
[ x ] Piercings – on the ears.
[ x ] What you are wearing now – a baggy shirt and boxers. i just woke up. =)
[ x ] In my mouth – nothing at the moment.
[ x ] In my head – answers to these questions.
[ x ] Wishing – my wishes are plenty.
[ x ] After this – eat breakfast. i'm famished!
[ x ] Fetishes – mostly concerning school life and church
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what? : i wont dare!
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now – hmm.. no one. i'm not presentable.
[ x ] Is next to you – a chair
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to – getting over and done with A levels.
[ x ] The last thing you ate – i can't remember.
[ x ] Do you like candles – yup, they give a romantic and cozy feeling.
[ x ] Do you like incense – not really..
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood – not at all!
[ x ] Do you believe in love – definitely.
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates – of course!
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight – not really.
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks – i always use chopsticks.
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candies – m&ms peanut butter
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand – everyone's different. there's a need for compromise and accommodation.