yeah...I'm so surprised that something dumb would appear on my Blog..."HMM. I WONDER WHO POSTED THAT?!?!?"
Man...you've gotta find a way to be more subtle...But wait! You're a stupid villain! So you can't be subtle!
Well...changed my mind...too much work to do to afford skipping class, so maybe I can read less jive over the weekend. More time to study for Religion test (Tue, 1400-1600) and to make my Philosophy position paper (Tue, 1830-1930)
Wow...TWO things on tuesday. I'm like...dum or something for scheduling my position paper to be handed in on the Tuesday...CURSES!
hi IM RAY RAY
I GOTS THE c4$h m0n3y5 Bl1ng Bl1ngZ..........
MY BODIES ARES SOS SEKSHAULSSSS
I WADDLE MYBIG BUTT EVERYWHERE...
I LIKE KOREAN WOOOOOOOMENNNN
RATHER I LIKE TO WOOOO MEN........... HUR HRUHUR HRU
First off...She WAS good looking...Which I must say is a RARITY AMONGST VICTORIA COLLEGE ASIANS (All 25 of them...)
That girl, and the Korean girl from the cafe...they're pretty much it...But I digress
I MIGHT'VE looked a bit longer than was normal...but that was because it was SO UNUSUAL THAT ...perhaps I looked longer than I would at any other girl?
At any rate... SHADDUP
But...I'm not going to sleep/go to class tomorrow...cuz...well...I really do all the readings...and...I dunno..the class isn't that great.
maybe doing so "poorly" in Greek History really beat down my confidence...I dunno..anyways, it's time to get stuff done. C'yaz
Another thing I'm starting to hate (well...not hate...but BE INJURED BY are these crazy Polish Combat sessions
That's right...After posting earlier today about how much it HURTS...I WENT AGAIN!
Okay...so I worked my back and chest musZles out today...and it went okay...Rather hardcore workout (saw a nice asian girl working out...well..dumb-bells..or as we call them. DeathBars. We meaning...Me...and only me. Anyways...back to the main story) So my back and chest were kinda sore (Duh!)
And on the way home...I thoughtfully decided. "I'm going to get home earlier if I take the snowy shortcuts through Queens Park" So...as the world spins, the humorous things ALWAYS DECIDE TO HAPPEN!!! So...NATURALLY...I SLIPPED AND FELL ON MY BACK the SAME ONE I WORKED OUT!
so here I sit before you...a mass of broken bones and shattered muscle...typing away. YEARGGH!
I really hate this place...All this marks and all that crap-age.
Like..I love the learning and I think it's great that I can just read and write jive about stuff..but..the marking is such bull...
Freakin' this place ENFORCES an average of like...65-70 or something ridiculous like that. It's complete arse! I HATE SCHOOL! WITH A PASSION!
A passion for hating school..FREAKIN'!!! ARRRGH!
Yeah...I just did some calculation and estimation...and found that even with GENEROUS mark-giving in terms of a) psychology and b) crazy Politics...
Oh yeah..AND I get my 77 in Greek History changed (for the better..which is doubtful, knowing how this stupid bureaucracy goes at STUPID UT! (I HATE THIS PLACE!!)
Yeah..there's a) no way that I can get a 2nd year scholarship and b) no way that I'll feel good about handing anything in again.
Why? BECAUSE EVERY MARK IS PULLED OUT OF SOMEONE'S ASS! I HATE THAT! NO CONTINUITY AT ALL! FREAKIN BIAS EVERY WHICH WAY! HATE HATE HATE!! DIE DIE DIE!
I did NOT break my arm today, I CAN move my left arm...All this...after a 2 hour session of POLISH COMBAT! WITH CRAZY CHRIS WILMER!!!
So...that is going well...
AND my anti-mack rule is STILL in place...to that effect...I will begin avoiding Sidney Smith ....Why? Cuz the name Elisa(Eliza? No...has to be Elisa) is TOO cool...I mean...isn't that a cool name? At any rate...ANTI MACK RULE HOLDS FIRM!
So...part 2...I need to figure out what's up with that Korean (I think she is) girl at breakfast...or...stop eating at my dining hall and starve. Either way...it's all good. (hur hur hur)
HOLD FIRM TO THE RULE!
And...I think I'm getting drawn rather into CCF...Which is a pretty cool thing...I've never been given the opportunity to really just...serve God in such a public kinda setting...Feels kinda cool...and...I'll keep praying that He leads me the way He wants (well...I dunno...He knows which way He wants me to go...and that's the way I'm going...But either way, I'll keep praying about that)
As for school work...I...actually feel like I'm working AT it...More readings than I can remember, and more work that's NOT done...but...I still feel like I kinda got a handle on things...(feel...Let's hope it's gonna work)
Wow...this was a semi-big update...BUT! THE MACKING IS STILL A NO-GO! I AM WIN! VICTORY IS ME!
TROG DOR STRIKES AGAIN!
I think this'll be my last blog for a while...nothing really groundshaking has come up and...my regular everyday life? Well...It's just not that exciting.
Sure I'm probably gonna get whupped by Polish Combat Session #3...Which is like..in 10 hours or something. And I'll probalby end up playing games tonight or watching anime. NOT ganime...freakin' Gway. I hate you...
But...I think I'll spend more time reading The Book. What book? The only book that really can be read and read and read, The Holy Bible. I think that perhaps I should get used to reading it and just...letting myself be open to what I can draw and take from it. To see what it inspires, because it IS inspirED...
I thought a few weeks ago that since I "knew" where I was going now in life...and what I was doing that it would be pretty easy. But already I've been thinking about the LSATs and what would happen if I did well...I know what my parents would want...well, my mom at least. I think my dad's pretty cool with whatever I do.
But...this whole Chinese family and what THEY want from me...that is not going to sit well with what He wants from me, whatever that may be (unless I really do have it figured out here. And that would be rather cool.)
So...I guess I'll blog again when there's something worthwhile. My regular everyday life? Doesn't even contain THAT much to fill up time with...
BUT!!! The brilliant man got his foot stuck in a moving COAT RACK today during Sushi night (which was surprisingly good actually) SMART MAN!! WATCH OUT MED SCHOOL! hahaha
Okay...now for a REAL post...and not some random tired-craziness. I made the previous post RIGHT after getting back from....
POLISH COMBATANT SESSION 2.
Well...My left arm can't extend past 90 degrees...not even joking. That's the price it pays for BEING WEAK! DIE LEFT ARM! DIE!!!
And now...my back and chest hurt like heck...OH YEAH! POLISH COMBAT IS PAYING OFF!
stupid left arm...I swear, it's the dumbest arm ever.
Yeah...So I have no work...so tonight = game and anime and movie night.
TIME TO START A CRUSADE! YEAH! w00t w00t!
So...I drank a Bacardi Silver like..an hour ago? No...more than that. 2 hours Ago. Special Occasion? Garway got angry at playing Q2 on a cheating server and left.
They were INTENDED for Andy's b-day party last week...but "Team White" did their job...and HOW! They brought MANY MANY boozes...
Just check out Eng Sci Shin's blog...There's a picture there of the whole bunch of us.
But it was HILARIOUS...because at one point...We stood around wondering what each team brough. "Team China" was talking about their Chinese food (which included A LOT OF RICE!!!) and "Team Brown" was there with their Brown food (quite LATE I might add...running on super-Brown time or something) "Team White" was standing around...each of their members proudly holding their BEERS...And they were the ONLY ONES HOLDING BEER!!!
GO TEAM WHITE! Hahahaha. Anyways...that's from a few posts ago...(it SHOULD be) but I found it funny...and was talking about it today.
Anyways...Garway lost at Q2 to said cheaters...and handed me the Bacardi silver as he took one. I did NOT get drunk. Stupid peoples...and I DO have friends from Innis! HA!
But...I say that Smirnoff Ice or Mike's Hard Lemonade tastes better. Not to say that Silver is BAD...just...not as good. But much BETTER THAN BEER. Stupid beer...worst creation in the world (granted, these "woman drinks" have more alcohol...but also..more GOOD TASTE!) So that was in beer's eye.
CRAP! I forgot the polish combatant's punching bag! (ie: me)
So for all of you who know Chris Wilmer (ie: the big Pole)...I'm now his workout d00d, well...I'll be doing more leg and running stuff...while he beats things up getting h00rj...
but I figure...whilst working out with the Polish combatant I will a) get h00rj too and b) learn how to fight Polish style. hur hur hur
Anyways...That's the Polish punching bag update for today (I feel like I got beat up by a herd of fat Kevin Hungs. Yeah...a hur hur herd.)
And this'll be like...a REGULAR schedule thing too! d34th to m3!!! d34th!!! (at least I'll get h00rj)
At any rate...I think it's clear that te 2400 (or 000 if you're all fancy) oh wait...I just said something that I needed to post.
"DEATH TO YOU WAYNE!"
well...I'm venting for having been without internet for TWO DAYS! THAT IS INSANITY!!!
Right...Stupid fat Garwo has been posting every now and then...I guess that's what I get for telling him my password (I forget why I told it to him in the first place...must've been for some maintenance issue of something...but that was a BAD IDEA as you can tell from all the damage that he has done)
I HEREBY DECLARE GARWAY NULL AND VOID (hahahaha, that felt good.) NULL AND VOID! (what does that mean? You tell ME! Mwahahahaha!)
Now...for Henry "little fighter"Hung...DIE! (that's all the space you deserve! OH! hahaha)
I would post about the whole issue of Lord vs. Money...but I've written a paper up about that...so...I'm not writing it again. But I'll just make this brief post...
"No one truly knows what he is MEANT to do...until you've found it, then you have that 'divine' feeling that it is RIGHT. That this is what He wanted, you can't escape what He intends, because He knows all paths, and all outcomes. Prayer and reading His Word is the best we can do come to figuring...that and paying attention to what's going around in your world (but we should all be doing that anyways) we just need to let go and let THE MAN do His thing."
His will always comes out in the end, because He is who He is. (DA MAN UPSTAIRS!!! w00t w00t!)
*ahem*...okay...I think I've gone insane with this whole "no internet" return thing...I think I'll slowly ease myself back into the chair of sanity (UNLESS I KICK IT OVER! DIE CHAIR! DIE!)
Don't you hate it when OTHER PEOPLE blog for you?
I do.
This stands as a temporary post until my internet is restored, on my OWN computer
(it's not ganime! It was the minority report soundtrack, damn fatty.)
When I return in my full MAJESTY I shall deal with ugly Gwo...and Henry Hung...
in the meantime...
I DEMAND SCREENSHOT! THAT IS AN IMPLIED STATEMENT!! (Have they MADE it? No. Do they PLAN to make it? Yes, probably. So? AHA! THAT IS NOT 100% PROOF! GET OUT OF MY HIZOUSE!)
Mwahaha! But yeah...I'm going to look forwards to 0wnz1ing j00 at the war3 expansion. Why? BECAUSE I CAN!
A truly fun and great moment...I knew there was a reason I have more eng friends than "artsy" friends...and they just proved it tonight. Good times, really good fun. (Hahahaha. Good ol' Gigantor getting worked up over ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING "They should change the name of the Compaq center to the Yao Ming Center. And have a picture of his face as their logo"...HILARIOUS)
Great stuff...and I am so glad to have been able to meet them...they are jokes people.
= )
Well...time to put an end to that string of total retardation that went before today...
Man...I think I'm finally getting back into the "swing" of things at school. But still, that doesn't make it cool (BLARGH)...
Still ZERO FUN Well..the "school" part...
And I got BONED on my Greek History...Went from a 90 something to a 77. And in order for me to appeal it, I gotta pay up the $bling$...That's COMPLETE ASS! (Did I mention I hate this place? WELL I DO!)...making us pay to look at our exams...what BS...Freakin'...I guess I'll have to get some extra money to do that. PFFFT
Anyways, time to get some food. Oh yeah. I was woken up at 0700 IN THE FREAKIN MORNING for...A FIRE ALARM! YEAH!!! w00t w00t! (geez)
i like un-fermented cranberry juice
and i smell (and look) like a moose
every nite, i sleep with an umbrella
and i'm one cursed weird fella...
i like to mack gurls and big boys too
i like to pick at the corn in my poo
I wasn't going to Blog for a while...since my brain has exploded from all those uber-long posts...but this was MASSIVE DAY today.
I just finished religion class...and I think that 2 hours has really helped me figure out where I want to go. I know now what I'm doing, I know where I want to go. I've decided my path and in no small part to His influence and His help. Thanks.
I've realized today that I'm not religious...well...not quite there...yet. But I will be...one day, and I'm grateful to know all that.
For the first time in my life...I think...I've got things straight, and ....words can't describe what I'm trying to say, so I'll just leave the thoughts in my head since I can't adequately express them.
oooh...Blogging from home, I don't think I've ever done that. FANCY eh?!?!
So...I had church today...and...it just feels weird to be back there after being away for so long. Don't get me wrong, it was good to be back...where people knew me better and stuff...but...it's different.
Next month I'm going back on the 2nd...to do like...little kid sunday school teaching, or something like that. And after that, I'm gonna stop with that...or maybe I'll stop before hand...I'm not quite sure...haven't really made up my mind yet.
Like...I know that Markham Chinese Alliance Church is supposed to be my "home" church...but...I barely livei n Markham anymore...and so I'm totally confused as to how I'm supposed to "serve" when I'm not at "home"
only one answer, and that's to keep praying about it. That perhaps will clear things up and show me the way things are s'posed to be...
I think this all came at a bad time...I mean...MCAC needs a lot of help and a lot of commitment from people seeing as they're moving into the new church building in a month or so...but I FREAKIN' LIVE DOWNTOWN!
so...I dunno...this all seems really confusing now...
But on the + side of things, the speaker at MCAC today was a Prof at Tyndale College and Seminary, and he gave me some really good pointers to consider for Graduate studies after I'm done my undergrad. (I know I know...4 years away...but it's good to always have some advice about stuff) so...that was definitely a good thing.
in the long run...since I am honestly considering living downtown for my 4 years of undergrad...I think perhaps it a bad idea to get TOO involved in MCAC...But...my prayers will solve all problems! mwahahaha! UBER!
CURSES! 3rd post in a ROW?!?!?! WHAT'S GOING ON HERE?!!?!?!?!?! HAVE I GONE MAD!?!?!?
I forgot to put this thought in...Vision, you either grasp it...or you don't.
And it's a pain...because when you HAVE it...When you "understand" that big thing...It's like everything clicks into place and you're just more inspired to do EVERYTHING...on the other hand, when you are trying to get that vision, that quest to "find it"...that's the most frustrating place to be...EVER. Because you don't know what you're looking for, you don't know when you'll find it...whatever it is. I think that personally, I am midway between those places...
Earlier this year, I was extremely frustrated with the way things were going...I'll explain a bit.
When I first studied law in high school, I was great at it...I could argue my way out of a box in a corner (submerged? Maybe) but I was GOOD at it, I ENJOYED it...I told my parents that I could be a lawyer, and they couldn't be more happy (their earlier dreams of my Med abilites being shattered by my hatred and poor skillz at sc1ence)
But that was all before Christianty came into my life...and boy did it come into my life. I really feel that I've been changed by it...my behaviour (well...my non-jukx behaviour.) my outlook on things...just...my life in general. And that's really one of the things that the Word does to you, it changes you inside to...well, I can't really describe it...because even my "artsy" words fail here. It's good (simple words are best when describing things that cannot be described. Woah...do I sense oxymoron?)
At any rate...I think my vision is totally different...so visions and goals DO change...until you find that "one" right one...the one that He intends (theological question. If He was the one that led you to that vision, was it really you discovering that vision in the first place? OOooOOoooHhhhhHH.)
So, I am being criticized on the seemingly shallow quality of my previous post. Well then...I will post my observations about this week.
So I've heard about visions and goals THRICE this week.
First from the CCF Retreat group meeting on Wednesday.
Secondly from Wayne talking about goals being different depending on the length of time available...
and finally today at the CCF meeting talking about our general vision and goal of the fellowship itself.
So it seems to me that maybe I should post some random thoughts on goals and visions that I've had. (however they didn't come to me via visions, how cool would THAT be? UBER COOL, but I digress...)
I talked with Sango for a bit today...and reached the conclusion that the Temples of Asia would INDEED be a cool place to visit (given existence time left)
Likely some buddhist temple or something. whatever it is, they picked a nice location. Like remember the last scene in crouching tiger, when the girl jumps off the mountain, "into the clouds"? There's a place like that." --Wayne Sang
I would agree to that idea, because I've always wanted to visit those "serene" locations in Asia, because there are so many...and I have no doubt that it would be a breathtaking experience...so I resolve that I WILL DO THAT ONE DAY (hopefully not under a life-time constraint...)
However I did devise an alternate location, which holds equal appeal in my mind. ISRAEL. Why would I want to visit that war-torn country where death is a 50/50 chance when one steps out onto the streets? Because JESUS WAS THERE ~2000 years ago (don't know the precise date. And don't come up to me and say "He was there around the year zero. Because there's no evidence for that!)
But...I definitely would like to have the chance to pray where Jesus prayed, to stand in the streets where he once performed His miracles, delivered the Word in PERSON. How cool would THAT have been...to have the chance to listen to Jesus, LIVE. I would dfeinitely give up all the "pros" of this life to have the chance to live in those times, under the Emperor Nero, with the persecution, with the poor health, the problems...ALL of that...just for the chance to hear Jesus.
Am I crazy? YOU BET! But y'know...sometimes that's the best way to live life. And there's nothing wrong with being crazy about HIM...But again, I digress.
To walk in the streets of Jerusalem, to just...be there. I know that we should be able to feel His presence no matter where we are...but...I would imagine that it just...feels different to be in that place in person. There must be some unique experience in that alone...(This is another trip that I WILL TAKE...but man...where do I have the money to go East AND West? Curses...)
That's enough about the trip thing...back to my original statement about vision.
Goals, vision...same thing. But I've found something...sometimes your vision is no good, you just gotta discard it and go with what life gives you. I think this concept might be easier to "go with" when God is prevalent in your life...believing that no matter how badly you screw up, no matter WHAT you do...It all fits in with a single Divine Plan that can take all of these "screwups" into account. He's God for a reason, His control and His rule are faultless, and perfect. I wrote about the concept of Divine Plan and "fairness of life" on my Thursday Philosophy test...and I think I'm too tired to rewrite all of that...
so in a nutshell, by accepting His control over all things...(you don't become less responsible...) but I think your eyes are opened to what is MEANT for you. Make no mistake, I'm sure entire lives are spent searching for what He "wants" from you...it's all about looking for His signs. Pay attention, pray...He'll make things clear...that's what He's all about right? Clearing things up and getting His point across?
Hmmm...This post is getting odd...and the rambling style isn't right...maybe I'll redo this another day or pick up where I left off...but...I dunno...I think I've lost my "flow" with this piece.
gg
Okay Fatty Hung...enough of you, Mr. "Crime-fighter"...You'd just get arrested by the cops for doing something silly...like public nudity or another equally foolish act.
But yeah, THIS POST IS UBER ELITE! A sign of never-been-seen intelligence from the d00d. hur hur hur.
(too bad your dragonboat team will be weakened! MWAhahaha YOU SHALL BE UC'S DOWNFALL!)
I'd spend my last 24 hours making sure you did NOT stop any crime!! Ya big g33k.
Okay...my back is being prodded. DAMN YOU GARWAY!! DAMNIT!!! ARRRGGH!!
YOU WIN NOTHING! EXCEPT A PACKAGE OF DEATH!!! DIE!!!
At any rate...Goin' home this weekend, which is a...well, it's something different from the usual.
Get to see how my "Home Church" is doing...wonder how things are...
Anyways, maybe I'll post during my "not-so-chillaxing" weekend. Cursed readings.
So...I woke up at 0900 on Thursday...and I'm STILL AWAKE What's wrong with me?
NOTHING. I FEEL GRRRRRREAT! (no, I haven't eaten Frosted Flakes)
but...I HAVE completed BOTH of my TWO tests this FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL. So I relaxed by watching 5 hours straight of anime, curses! I have another series to get through, I'll do that in a bit.
So...this is great, this is the feeling that I had when I finished my LAST EXAM of Term one. Ridiculous isn't it? OH YEAH.
But yeah, time to do some readings for class, and then...eat some breakfast...and then..MORE ANIME! YES! HEROIC AXION!
hi im sekthxual.
im raaay raaaay.
i love my wooomannnnz. i make mah wOooOmanz feel all sekthxxy and toasty inside....
i am a woooooooooomannn magnet..................
HUR HUR HUR
COME TO ME WUMANZ OF THE WERLD!hurhurhurhuhrurhur!! CALL ME LAYDEEeees man frUM nOW!
So...the second day of school, and I had my FIRST TEST THIS WEEK the next one is THURSDAY! TWO DAYS FROM NOW!!
and I have the questions for them...HILARIOUS. So...2nd day of school, and I'm NOT MACKING! YES! I AM PROUD! hur hur hur.
Yeah...So I was kinda happy for getting 91 on my Religion test, and 85 on my Religion Essay. Would just like to thank Him for making this all possible and inspiring me to do so well in class that I associate with Him, because I try hard to like...express what I think He would say if He was writing that test, or that essay (of course, He'd be getting 100s everywhere...but I'm nowhere close to as ub3r 1337 as Him)
Gonna write some more tonight...it feels weird writing a blog so EARLY IN THE DAY! ZARGH!
(going to listen to some Michelle Branch whilst I relax. YES!)
Last day of break...I go back tomorrow (later today...whatever)...
and there are so many people that I could've spoken to, seen...whatever...before this break ended...but...instead I spent the time with the same bunch of people. Do I feel bad? No. I don't. They're good people and...I've learnt over the years that they'll pretty much be there...listen to Michelle Branch: I'll Always Be Right There It's SOOO good!!!! Not to say that other people don't mean as much...some definitely are as good friends as the people I've hung with over the break.
But...You guys all rock. (Y'all know who you are. Except for the China man...I hate you!! hahaha j/k)
There are a FEW people that I wish I could've spent more time with...but I'm sure I'll see them again, and...I owe them one (you know who you are. *cough*Priestley*cough*)
OKay...maybe I'm rambling now...and this is not getting any shorter...so I'm going to get sleepier...and END THIS NOW!
MWAHAHA!!
Oh wait...I DO have something of relevance to say.
Played snow-football today, after having shovelled the driveway for an hour. YES! 2-5pm...PURE COLD SNOW AXION! BRILLIANT WORK RAYMOND!! w00t w00t!!
Yeah...I am in PAIN...mainly because this one HUGE Scotsman (who is perpetually angry...not really..but it helps if he is..well, for my story at least) made it his PURPOSE...to HURT me. ZERO fun yo!!
but I digress...it actually WAS a LOT of fun...BUT!!! IMPORTANT LESSON leave car keys in the car when playing snow football unfortunately one of the guys there...wasn't so fortunate to learn this ahead of time...so his keys are awol in piles of snow. That was the downer for the game...
Yeah...off I go to sleep...and if this pain is there tomorrow...DAMNIT!
wow. I am making a blog for EVERY DAY OF NEW YEAR! (just for now...)
I AM HILARIOUS! I also have very little to do around the house...
I'd play more computer, but I do enough of that downtown at res...and I thought I'd do something nice for my brother (despite the constant warfare) and let him use the computer most of the time. It's not as if he has much more time to use the UBER-1337 compootor before I go back. hur hur hur!
Man...it's almost time to go back. DIE! I HATE SCHOOL! IN MY EYE!...ugh...well...I guess I gotta have SOMETHING to fill the massive time that each day is made of...
just that it doesn't seem so much time when I'm actually THERE...and OVERFLOWING WITH DIRTY DIRTY HOMEWORK!
DIE!!!
okay...I should have mad a resolution to be less crazy...but then...this whole thing wouldn't exist now would it?
OHO!
So...I just woke up. hahahaha, sleeping off the effects of New Years. (not drinking..just out late hur hur hur)
Yesterday was great, not because we stood in the cold at Nathan Phillips Squa, not because we watched some people sing what I can only describe as BMM (with the exception of the little gurl who Folkers got all nasty about. NASTY!)
not even because Mike started talking about how SHE asked about me...(or so he claims. hahaha)
but no, yesterday was fun because I got to spend some time with friends, and we chilled at Wayne's and had a massively good talk. We haven't had one of those for a while. It was very enlightening and...just good. Reminded me how much good times I've had with those people and how important they are to me.
