Although it is true that I missed out on a night of spite and hatred, I did get some introspection and meditation done.
Initially I wanted to find more time this break to just...be quiet and listen to Him...but I've found even less time than before. It sucks.
All these people constantly wanting to do things, never content with "doing nothing"...I guess...it makes sense since they never see me, what with pretending to be in school and all. Bastrids.
It's a fair request I guess...but still...it leaves me extremely short on meditation time.
Been thinking if I should have gone to Urbana this year...A part of me holds fast to my current decision, but a part of me questions the wisdom in my decision...so, whatever...Regrets? I shouldn't be living my life that way. So...the questioning part of myself gets killed. NOW! DIE! *cap cap* done and done.
Hahaha, although I am looking forward to New Year's Eve, since it IS good to chillax around friends. Even the ugly ones.
Seriously...what the crap? (this only makes sense to myself...and so I will officially call this a ramble)
Doesn't it get boring after a while? Honestly. There are really only so many things you can mock me for. Well, if I'm not doing anything. And if I haven't done jack shit to deserve it, get the fuck off my back. Seriously.
I mean, yeah, I can sometimes blunder into setting myself up for stuff. Or will start it by making some comments that can be turned right back against me. But if I haven't spoken to you all day, and you go out of your way to take a shot at me. Fuck that shit man.
And this month has caused me to reconsider this whole non-swearing thing. Yeah, He's probably not too pleased with it...but I mean, I don't see why He would come down and kick my ass for it. Maybe I'm just not seeing things too clearly now...
My nickname for the computer, key of RJ420 the "Failing Room"
I have a small tally here of victims of RJ420
- Buyan (the first to fall to the lure of Warcraft 3, I don't know if he's even still alive)
- Kevin
- Wayne
- Fontaine
- Myself
(Although...these four are disputable. We're not TOTALLY screwed. We just...did far below what we were capable of. And wasted MUCH MUCH TIME. I'm not even joking here, it was a LOT of time. We kept our computers on for a full week, so that Dungeon Siege would not be reset. I believe that is the cause of my video card fan being overheated, and wrecked. CURSES!)
- Polish Wilmer (this is by far the worst...He was doing okay in first semester, but second semester he found our place. I can't blame RJ420 completely for his undoing, but it played a considerable part. This once-noble Pole (HAHAHAHAHA) is now forced to combat his way through non-Polish work. Yarrr.)
And there you have it, the casualty list from first year.
THE WAR CONTINUES! ARRR! (that made no sense...SHADDUP!)
X-mas? Pfft. Spell the damn thing out you lazy bastrids!
Merry Christmas, mine has been...interesting.
The China Man has decided to ruin this house with his presence, starting from last night.
Quite interesting when he's around, because my parents kinda treat him like that "son they never had."
What with him being the standard "China man" kid...and me being...very much different from what Chinese families believe (hope? Meh) their sons will turn out as.
So...Whatever.
Though this is not New Years Eve (and hence, the time for introspection on the year as a whole...) I think that the fact that it is Our Lord's Birthday (Happy Birthday Jesus!) should be cause for SOME though...
Or maybe I'll just keep those thoughts off the page for now...Not fully edited and censored for public consumption. (What the crap am I talking about? I never censor anything here! BOOOYAH!)
I'm going to end my non-bold-streak now...along with this post (OHO!)
Hence, poor blogging discipline and much reading getting done, also much chillaxing.
Don't expect to hear much from me until I get back downtown. By that time, I'll probably have forgotten what has happened over Christmas break, that or I'll be too lazy to post it.
OR! I'LL BE TOO LAZY TO FORGET IT! (how does that work? IT JUST DOES!)
AYE!
I've just noticed that I haven't used bold for quite a while now. Nearly one week. WELL PLAYED ME.
Well, that's enough computer time for me today. Off I go to read the exploits of Elves in the Silmarillion, infinitely better than filthy, ugly, HOBBITS
I drank a great deal last night. Some might claim I got drunk...I think it was more just HIGHLY BUZZED.
I dunno, I didn't throw up, and I was still in control of myself. Just really poorly. But! I still remember what happened, and everything I did...I might be trying to justify myself, but not having been drunk before...I'm not really sure what to say.
Damnit! I should've tried blogging after having drank, it might have been really incoherent (as opposed to my current, brilliant pieces of writing. har har har!)
Finished my Classical Myth exam, went okay. It's a damn good thing I did Classics for 4 years prior to this...or else some serious rape occured. Maybe it occured and I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW. At any rate, I don't care.
Spent the night helping a friend do errands and pack her stuff, put her in a taxi at 7am to send her off to the airport and following that, back home to HK.
And my OTHER friend's going to Vancouver, why? Cuz she's rich...and rich people travel.
DAMNIT
I think my post points out that I need to be either a) Rich or b) ...I don't know. Shaddup!
TWO MORE EXAMS LEFT, 27 HOURS TO GO UNTIL THEY'RE BOTH DONE. COME ON UT!
Better than Smallville? PERHAPS...Maybe it's just cuz I haven't watched Smallville in a long time...but still, that Superman really did annoy me...and all that kept me watching was Kristen Kreuk...
Anyways, I should get to sleep...lotsa stuff to do tomorrow. Haircut (Huzzah) and PLENTY OF STUDYING.
What you say? It be old? AYE! BUT!!! The expansion has effectively extended it's life in the real-world...and has compounded my failure of school.
On an odd note...I got 82 on my political philosophy test (when I don't like political philosophy) and 64 on my Roman Christianity essay (when that's my Specialist...) Guess I should be humbled more often huh?
YEARRRR
Oh man...Gotta write some cards. What? ME WRITE CARDS?!? LIES!
(And as a side note, I did NOT make fun of Folkers today, NOR did I use bold! I feel so...unusual...)
I don't know why I'm blogging...it's probably because I'm hungry, and China Man John in all his brilliance has decided to SIT BESIDE ME AND EAT RICE. RICE WHICH IS MAKING ME HUNGRIER.
DAMNIT
(He would like to add that it's fried rice, not just any rice. Jackass)
This post actually doesn't have ANYTHING to do with a certain ugly white man, but I felt that he needed to be insulted for the sake of continuity.
Man...I wanna play World of Warcraft SO MUCH...but once that game is unleashed upon my computer, I might as well just quit life.
I'm going to play NORMAL warcraft now...which does NOT demand your soul in return.
and if I could somehow link that to, TODAY!...I would!
so...let us list the knife incidents of today
1) I nearly sit on a knife that's been left on the couch
2) Andy drops that knife (see above) and it nearly takes off John's foot
3) Whilst moving another knife, I drop it, and it nearly takes off John's foot
4) Whilst washing said knife (see#3) I cut myself.
But! I did run today. I *think* I'm able to do my 100m in about 11s now...I tried it, but I think I measured on the wrong track or something. Things are confusing.
Anyways, Folkers is still ugly...Too bad Smiley Grace won't kill you for me...
Went to a jazz-thingdinger last night...and I went in thinking that I was pretty much neutral to most types of music...
I come out more certain than ever that I truly am a classical-type of guy. Crazy jazz and their zero-discipline on well...anything.
So crazy.
Anyways, I've completed my 10,317 words of essays...
I'm trying to relax and play some serious NWN but I find that I have an OPTIONAL essay due on Wed for extra marks, and a test on wednesday.
Not to speak my monday/tuesday/2xwednesday tests next week. DAMNIT.
AND! I'm s'posed to go to Montreal to assault some frogs this weekend, provided a certain VEGETARIAN get his act together and buy the damn tickets.
OKay...time to get that stupid essay done, and level up my Elven Wizard.
Man...ran 5k today in about 30 minutes...BUT! in my defense, I stopped MANY times to walk like a big lazy man...Very surprised I made up for lost time. I'm hoorj. And tired.
So tired, that I don't feel like continuing my week, even though it ends on Thursday at 1130...Damn guy...So tired. Damnit.
And I just had this piece of sponge-cake which created INSANT hiccups. CRAZIEST THING EVER.
I'll blog after reading some stuff, or playing some games. Or some jive.
Fortunately this is not a parable, so I shall not be receiving any anti-blasphemy lightning bolts anytime soon.
Well...perhaps now there will be some sort of consistency, but Mike...in keeping with your habits, how long will THIS blog last? HMMMM?
*cough*ass*cough*
Now why would I be using working out as some sort of macking tool, perhaps you merely extend what YOU experience...onto my situation? Hardly the same my deluded science friend.
And in regards to "The Passion" Movie...I agree. HOORJ INDEED.
It's going to be spoken in aramaic, latin, and hebrew (perhaps some greek) The first "classical" movie ever!
YE YE YE! (well...there are others, but they don't have potential)
Oh...this is funny, I've managed to finish my RLG 203 essay...only to find out that instead of the TWO essays I have due next week, I have FOUR
FUNNY STUFF.
Hopefully I can get the RLG 100 essay done this week, and POSSIBLEYE the PHL 265 one...
which gives me the weekend to do PHL 205 (it's about Anselm! That tricky Archbishop of Canterbury!)
Well...I'd better get this schedule going, because PHL 205 is due on Tuesday the 18th, and my Classics essay (either a myth of something Christian-based) shall thenceforth be due on the 21st.
Added to that I'm s'posed to go to Quebec on that weekend and I'm a very ANGRY MAN INDEED
Arrrgh...Time to get crunching.
Judiasm and Christianity....It's GO TIME! BRING IT ON!
Why am I up so ridiculously early? BECAUSE I NEVER SLEPT!
That's a lie...I did sleep.
Anyways...I've finished my midterm week of YARRRGH...but now I approach my month of ESSAY HATRED!
Well...I've got a Mediaeval Philosophy test on OCtober the 28th and then the essays begin to come crumbling INTO MY FACE.
Take into account that each of these essays is a good 3000 words (5-6 pages?) and require a good deal of research...
RLG 203 essay (I haven't even confirmed my topic with the Prof. I suspect that it'll end up being the survival of the Western Roman Empire and their traditions encapsulated within the first Church, the "Catholic" Church)
Due:Nov 12
PHL 265 essay (Seems the most straightforward. I only need 2 resources, and I have them. Now to get reading and interpreting...but I have to wait until my lectures on Locke are done...curse all this bureaucratic red tape! This is what happens when you study Political Philosophy)
Due: Nov 17 (I think...the paper says the 15th, but that's a saturday...)
RLG 100 essay (I've got all my books for this...and I'll have to either finish this by the 8th, or just renew my books. I'll be comparing Judaism and Christianity and how God speaks and makes His will known. And all the differences and so forth...not bad, once I get started.)
Due: Nov 19
This doesn't SEEM so bad...but I still have classes to do, Chinese to combat...and some other stuff that wil doubtlessly pop up. Some good stuff though! = )
Anyways...I'll go do something productive before church.
Ah...Chinese Combat met Polish Combat for the first time today
And it was quite the humorous day. Involving a really nice day at the AC, even though my left hand was squished by some weights. It was ALL WORTHWHILE
= )
I've finished 3 midterms this week...and that's about it (for midterms)
well...I have a test next tuesday worth 25%...but it's Boethius, and he's coo with stuff
EXCEPT FOR THIS! He never concluded this argument...it's VERY confusing
"Let us accept that God's foreknowledge neither compels, nor necessitate. Due to His unique nature of eternality (able to exist outside linear time as we know it...)"
So...He knows what our possible futures are, but we have free choice to make them. Does His knowledge of our choices depend on us? Perhaps...(unless we take a further step with His weird relation to time)
So, is God's knowledge dependent on us? If so, what does that say about His divine nature? (that second question is a natural extension of the first)
OHO! THIS IS NOT A BLOG! THIS IS A PHILOSOPHICAL TREATISE!
Ending on an okay note...but seriously now...How is this any type of academic assessment in the least?
I'm given a page with 9 terms, and told to explain and identify the significance of 7 of them. Each "term" is worth 10 marks. I have one hour.
The terms are such as:
Paul
Covenant
Mishnah
Torah
Babylonian Exile
Rabbinic Judaism
Moses Mendelssohn
at least...those were the ones I picked, because the other two I had never seen before (methods of analysing religion)
But seriously, one hour to throw down as much information as possible on TERMS.
PAUL OF TARSUS IS AN ENTIRE COURSE!
Entire careers can be spent analysing ONE of those terms.
Granted she didn't expect a complete deconstruction of the term and everything about it...but each term is pretty significant and we did cover a LOT about each term....yarrr
Whatever...I am DONE MIDTERMS. That's all that matters...
Just read some guy's blog (Lee...Something...I don't even know his last name. But he's white! WHITE LIKE FOLKERS)
Anyways...I can use bandwidth up on that. MY UNLIMITED BANDWIDTH
Also hating the fact that I have class tomorrow...unlike certain people (DAMNIT) Which is to be followed by fighting some crowds for the UC book sale (maybe I can gouge out the eyes of an eldery man...or yeah...) followed swiftly by WORKING OUT. CHINESE COMBAT CONTINUES PAINFULLY!
YOU'RE GARBAGE! HAHAHAHAHA (this makes no sense, unless you're in my apartment, RIGHT NOW.)
YOUR FACE IS WEIRD CHINA MAN. THAT'S RIGHT. IT'S ON MY BLOG.
THIS BLOG HAS QUICKLY DEGENERATED AND I STILL HAVE READINGS TO DO!
I HATE HAVING NO LONG-WEEKEND! GIVE ME BACK MY HOLIDAY!
stupid Kill Bill (well..it actually was a pretty good movie. Classical Tarentino and his craziness. Minus Samuel L. Blackson)
Yeah...Anyways. I definitely felt the SUPERIOR character was Lucy Liu's O-Ren Ishii. (Which...the more I say the name...the more sexier I feel it is)
AND...FOLKERS Claims he blogs more than me...
Little does he know, he is SUPERIOR only in terms of UGLINESS
Mwahahahaha
Well played.
ADDENDUM: SUSHI BUFFET = VICTORY FOR ALL. 125 pieces of sashimi + many ounces of teriyaki chicken and beef + weirdass Japanese Perogies (Perogies are Ukrainian...Wait...let me start that again. Perogies are Polish)
Many thanks to team EFFORT: China Man John, Fetty Wang Sang, JAU-Yeung, and Miko Chien
Congratulations gentlemen. Next time, we break the 200 mark
(I hear from Garway that there's a ~$11 uptown sushi buffet)
We strike there next!
Brilliant...here I am trying to write a philosophical refutation of Augustine and the issue of Divine Omniscience and God's foreknowledge and ANDY SHIN goes running about talking about his hairy wang...
You see, when you mash a keyboard which has the buttom labelled "POWER" on it...you run the chance of actually hitting it, and seeing as how keyboard buttons generally function...what does that button do?
With that having been said...let me say something about my laziness. IT IS HUGE.
Anyways...I skipped my first class yestderay *sniff* It was Political Philosophy...felt so good...Brought back all these memories of skipping last year and playing games and so forth...
But today...I started my weekend at 1130 (AM I NOT MERCIFUL? err...THE MAN? I AM THE MAN!)
Anyways...working out with Kiddie Shin, the China man and some brown guys (include a VERY TALL ONE) was pretty funny. EXCEPT THAT KIDDIE SHIN DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO WORK OUT!!
(this is all because a certain LAZY MAN refused to come downtown earlier...Thusly making ME have to come up with my own work-out program for the day.
And as it stands...I now have strained my left calf...because I don't know what the crap is going on. All my workout sessions have been undertaken under a Polish or Chinese Mentor (well...the Chinese one less mentorly, more lazy...and the Pole wasn't really much of a mentor...more like a large guy who ate things and beat people up...)
Yeah...
So...on the way back from soccer, the TALL BROWN MAN decides to walk through a soccer game going on in Front Campus..."Don't worry guys, they're not playing. They're on timeout." To which the girls playing responded. "We're playing, you're in our game."
And I said. "Why don't you go block out the CN tower?" BECAUSE HE CAN!
Does this mean the end of Polish Combat? Only time will tell.
btw...I expected to be MUCH weaker than I am...clearly the previous year's Polish Combat sessions were able to do SOME good over summer degradation.
My stamina is okay...I can still sprint 100m in fairly good time. 15 s...Which means since it's been 2 years since my 11s...that's 2s per year. Not bad...BUT I NEED TO GET BACK IN SPEED...errr...shape.
I should've made this blog before...But whatever, I rushed my arse downtown for F!rosh week...
Summer REFLECTION TIME!
Tiring summer...thanks to work. But honestly, it wasn't as bad as I make it out to be. Yes, it was tiring working with those bastages who continually fought and swore and so forth...but it was good because overall, they were a fun group. And there were so many little kids that were HI-larious! HI-LARIOUS I SAY!
But yeah...being paid to joke around all the time and beat children up is quite good. I say that you should ALL try it out someday. But I guess you're not as evil to children as I am...which makes it less effective! Damn nice people...ruin everything...
And I got to see how children who are less-well-off than we are (That's right...you bastages reading this are all WELL OFF. YOU KNOW IT) anyways...these children live in broken homes and it's really good seeing them smile after knowing the crap that they have to put up with from their stupid trashy parents...and it makes you angry seeing their parents, doing jack-all for their children whilst getting fancy cars and fancy clothes and all that other BS...EAT MY ASS.
I also didn't devote enough time to Him at all this summer...I was supposed to reconnect with my church...but now I feel more distant than ever...so...Some serious changes have to be made in my motivation. I can't blame it on my work + studying for exam, because I should've been able to MAKE time regardless of what's going on in my life...so sucks to me...
I have some serious reflection to do this weekend about the coming school year...and some sunday school teaching to drop. There's no way that I'm gonna keep teaching those kids if I can't come back for service. It's...no good for me. That and there's a lotta sunday school teachers these days anyways...so..BAM! DROPPED LIKE A SACK OF BRICKS! or potatoes...or whatever.
Well, I have some serious stuff to pack up...including the computer upon which I type. Moving timetable has shifted...so I don't even know what's up anymore...ARGH!
See...this is what happens when I don't have internet whilst F!rosh week goes on all around me...
Anyways, I went to Engineering F!rosh this year as a sorta leader...I know, I'm not in engineering. That is what makes it that much more funnier. Morons.
So, I convinced many a frosh that I was from Admissions and Awards (the guys in charge of admissions and...yeah...awards.) And that their "fake" exam was considered for a scholarship. I BONED THEM ALL.
Anyways...that was good.
Engineering frosh kiddies are tons more funner than normal frosh. Seriously, you can beat these guys, stomp on them, etc...
Oh yeah! Ginos are not cool, they're jerks...stupid, hairy, greasy jerks.
Anyways, I need to get sleep...and pack up this compootor for taking DOWNTOWN!
And seeing as how all the jokstacular kids aren't showing up anymore...it's just the jerkfaces...I guess I won't be taking any pictures...unless it's photographs of me throwing them into the toilet and giving them swirlies.
bWAHAHAHA! ULTIMATE BULLY ME!
Anyways...This has been a tiring summer, and I guess I'll have to do some hardcore "summer summary" blogging when I move my arse back downtown
Hey...summer and summary are examples of alliteration...and...y'know...that other term...where words sound like each other. Well...maybe they don't sound THAT alike...but...DIE!
Man...back to work tomorrow, after a NICE 3-day break (GO POWER OUTAGE GO! DO IT AGAIN! PLEEEASSSE!)
hahaha...
2 more weeks left of work, and contrary to some stupid person's idea *carny* I will NOT take pictures of the day campers...well...depends who's there on the last day.
At any rate...I guess I should sleep, since the subways might be down tomorrow and I'll have to use some sort of subway-replacing-bus to get moving. STupid arse busses, they ain't no subway.
Oooh...new blogger style. Much better, I like being able to see my previous posts. Allows some consistency to my ranting. What's that you say? there is none? DIE!
Anyways....back from a minor weekend trip with family to some silly Quebec mountain. Probably would've been better and made more sense had we spent more time there...but whatever...people around this house are crazy...so...meh
I've led a horrifying day...well...AFTER my exam that is.
So I went downtown with ANDY SHIN to masquerade as an engineer for their F!rosh meeting. I probably will play the part of engineer f!rosh leader for a day or two during frosh week, spend the rest of the week recuperating from summer (seeing as I work until the last day of august...BRUTALITY)
At any rate...almost all of his friends are gone (I knew very few people that were there...for some reason, the Legion of the engineers I knew just didn't go today...bastrids!)
And so we listened a bit, I got to hear the firing of the skule cannon...not too shabby I must say, for a dinky little piece of metal. It's VERY surprisingly POW-erful (hur hur hur)
Anyways...just bummed around downtown, went to see the apartment with all the fixes (yay)
AND...on the way back on the subway, looked at MANY A CHICK.
Hottest one? Undecided between these two Koreans...the one in the jeans had a nicer face...but...they're both Koreans...and thus, hard to decide between. Not that Koreans are the be all and end all (look! Another white terms! WOODWORK!)
Anyways...time to do something useful (that will let me avoid packing for my weekend trip with family to Mount Tremb-something or other)
finished my history exam. I *think* I passed...60%...come on!!
Man...I'm kicking myself for not knowing some stuff I SHOULD'VE known and for mixing some stuff up that I DID know...and that I answered earlier on the exam.
Stupid women writers using men's names...Daniel Stern, George Sand, all the same crap.
Should be studying...but am just so freakin 'tired.
32 kids today...where the crap did they come from? I had 20 last week. TEN EXTRA KIDS! COMING OUTTA THE WOODWORK! hahahaha...such a white term. Woodwork...what is that anyways?
Yeah....(however...I have studied the charts, and there is a slim chance of success...)
I might actually pass this thing...It's all down to how well I can pretend about writing some stupid essays about composers and their pieces.
Fixed idea! Monophonic! MOLDAU BY SMETANA!
err...Tchaikosky's Cappricio...or something..
Umm...Italian Symphony by Mendelssohn and Carmen by Bizet = EXOTICISM!
Such a humid day...and I played the LONGEST game of soccer baseball ever...it was me and two alternate pitchers vs THE REST OF THE KIDS! AND TEACHERS! RIDICULOUS!
Anyways, at least the alternate pitchers were my favourite (ie. least troublesome) kids...
stupid punk noisy kids...I AM SO SORRY FOR BEING A NOISY, WHINEY KID WHEN I WAS SMALL!
Clearly, He has the FUNNIEST ironic humour EVER! (ha. ha. ha. Man, we are gonna have some WORDS when I get up there!! Heresy? DIE!)
Relaxing week at night...even thought I actually studied my ARSE off (and still...only feeling 2% more confident. Freakin' Music History...gonna be the end of me I swear!)
But...did a lotta thinking about Him, lotta talking. Tried to listen, and hear what I thought He was saying...so that's all good.
Things are starting to get rolling for next year...which is bad for me, due to my perpetual tiredness...but overall it is a GREAT thing. Good stuff getting ready for next year! EXCITING STUFF!
Oh yeah, my courses...BWAHAHA! 15 hours per week per term!
BONIJ! BWAHAHAHAHA!
And...well, the location(singluar) I WANTED....I GOT! BWAHAHAHA!
ALL IS FALLING INTO PLACE! (back this week? Perhaps...we'll see.)
so the poor blogging discipline continues!
My eye!
and since I've eaten...I've regained the energy to be MORE ANGRY THAN EVER BEFORE! (and 10% more spite!)
FREAKIN'!! And now I'm faced with the reality of getting WHUPPED at music history. SONUVA!! I HATE THIS SUMMER! (well...with the exception of the job which equals money...waitaminute...that's the CAUSE of all this hatred! DIE!!!)
*WARNING!* I'M BEING CRAZILY INCOHERENT!!
ZARGH! ARRRR! IT'S DRIVING ME NUTS!
At any rate...yeah...Well, playing a lot of warhammer this summer was cool, especially considering the 100s of $bling$ that I've thrown into my army...Zargh. I'd best have a chance to use it next year during my skipping of school. (hehehe)
Anyways...I've kinda calmed down (but will anger up once more!) Yeah...maybe I'll angrily post (can I post anything BUT angry?) after trying to STUDY MUSIC HISTORY!
all time week-ness for me...or weakness...whatver gets ya. (ya bustrids...)
Any rate...I've been warhammering it up this week (SCREW YOU HISTORY) and paying for it tomorrow...by having to basically study all day...bastrige history! DIE!
Just wanna get that over with, so I can get back to having my butt tired out at work, and trying to warhammer as much as possible. With the game of war3 thrown in there for full geek measure
= )
And I'm not really chilling with anyone these days...I'm like a freakin' recluse or something! Gheyed up!
However...I do have some serious thinking to do about "my role" next year...BLargh. Stupid Carney Warney. (someone remind me to kick her next year...Her and sing...oh that monkey...If he thought that being thrown out the door hurt...OHO!)
Yeah...lotsa people to beat up next year. I'd better get working out huh?
; )
(oh yeah, and emails are still the best thing ever invented. EVER!)
Well...due to my skippage of work on Friday, my throat infection has been THROWN BACK TO THE DEPTHS OF HELL FROM WHENCE IT CAME!
With the aid of some antibiotic called pendocill or some jive that starts with a p. FACE THE WRATH OF SCIENCE! BWAHAHAHA DIE!
Anyways...So the Church Pastor asked me to consider returning from UT more next year to help out with leadership kinda roles during the year...And this was like a punch in the face...because whilst a) I know that our Church needs some boosting, because the numbers just aren't there yet...I am torn between that and CCF downtown...Which I would also like to help out at.
And before y'all go suggesting it...I have thought of doing both, and it cannot be done. BUT I WILL TRY IT ANYWAYS! (at least, for a little while)
Dunno why I threw that up on the blog...it's something that me and The Man Upstairs have gotta talk about...and figure out where I'm being called to...Zargh. I hate choices.
Just got back from the Church retreat...it wasn't bad. It was interesting catching up with people who I haven't really seen and chilled with for a year (with me staying downtown all the time and all)
Finished up some old business...and everything is ALL COOL now. I'm very glad I settled this within myself.
Had some time to really just...meditate. And really step back (although I was involved...as always, cuz I just can't get enough, just can't get enough...)
Anyways, LESS involved than usual. So, I had some time to myself to really meditate and chill with the Big Man Upstairs. That was good.
Anyways, back to preparing my army for victory. I've won thrice so far...but...it's not really tested against stronger opponents...Ugh
Too bad I missed the volleyball thing...And too bad I need to ramp up my history 3 studying. Stupid schedule. Things were much better when I did NOT have my job...
But then again...I was also much poorer without that job...
Off I go to my Church retreat in a few minutes...Not quite sure what to expect...
But...I'm gonna be going as hardcore as these punks can take it. So, hope they're ready for some MAD BIBLE STUDY AXTION.
Oh yeah...Kiddie Shin--I really don't WANT to fail. But at the same time...history is really starting to grate on my nerves. Limited to studying it on the subway on the way to work is NOT cool. Whatever, it was my choice to take it this summer...so I'd better be able to find a way to deal with it.
OH. BUT...I can continue the streak of NOT falling for the same problem that gets me at conferences. And once this retreat is over, it'll extend to THREE CONFERENCES IN A ROW!
hahaha! Sweet action. And I owe it all to...well, yeah...you know what's going on.
Anyways, I'm gonna finish my packing and haul ass.
My goodness, those kids are INSANE. They're like..constantly at war with each other.
(I'd like to hope that I wasn't like that as a child...BUT...hehehe...seeing how I am now? ehh...)
However, my point is that I'M the boss now!
Anyways...another attempt to get outta here foiled by my own tiredness. I was s'posed to go over to ...FOLKERS'place BUT...Evidently, my dad needs to go over to the hospital for some sleep clinic thing...So, I'm not going anywhere.
OHO! And...My computers are not being deactivated at midnight, by order of my all-seeing, all-wise father. MAn...So...This FORCES me to rest during the summer, however it effectively DISABLES any attempts at playing coordinated War3 with the rest of the EVILUN (well...minus ...ANDY, cuz he doesn't have it...YET!)
Oh yeah... and read THIS for an account of the horrors of rock concert crowds. I commented that the lesson is clear, stick to operas, symphonies, and orchestras. Ain't none of the fancy-folk gonna mess wit u. y'know what I be saying? Yo?
BWAHAHA.
Anyways...My back is sore from work, AND...my newly instated policy of attempting to study history is now in effect. If I die, make sure that Folkers gets NONE of my stuff!
Why am I posting so early?
Bite me. You gotta complaint? Take it up with my fist. AFTER I PUNCH YOU IN THE NOSE!
Oho...my Warhammer army is ready, and today is the pre-campaign testing phase. Time to smack down some enemies of civilization and try to wipe mankind from the face of the galaxy! MWahahaha, my army is an arrogant space-Elf race. And I get to go kick some arse today.
= )
Speaking of arse kicking...WENEED to get better at War3.
I played massive amounts of the expansion Frozen Throne. Amazing game, Night Elves STILL RULE THE NIGHT! BWAH!
Anyways, I'm going to get boned like nobody's business on that History 3.
AND...as a final note...email is the best thing EVER!
= )
they're calling each other UTERUS'! WHAT THE CRAP IS WITH THAT?!?!
WHO CALLS ANOTHER PERSON A UTERUS!?!?
FRICKIN' RIDICULOUS!!
Anyways...commuted around, went downtown for CCF. Interesting, because it was about the Christian stance on homosexual marriages. WHICH I AM COMPLETELY AGAINST!
But...I guess I'm going to be flamed for my homophobia. But at any rate, the discussion was good...because it reminded me of how I was like in the past, how I am SUPPOSED to view homosexuality.
It is a sin, no more wrong than any other sin in His eyes. And in my zeal to stand against what had been happening, the real focus was lost. His glory. I guess the media exposure was just...way too much in my opinion and I spoke out against it.
Kiddie Shin knows what I'm talking about. And, I apologize for the vehemence in my tone when I spoke of it. However, the basic stance is the same. Sin is sin. It can be fought with discipline, will and heartfelt prayer and repentance. OR...it can be accepted, along with the consequences for rebellion in the end.
AYE. And so I have to be at the daycare at 0830, to prepare for a LIZARD SHOW!
Hahaha, I make the situation out to be a LOT worse than it really is. I should stop joking about this.
Anyways...first day of work. RIDICULOUSLY HILARIOUS
So much...racism...and these kids don't even know it. There's a black kid calling another black kid "black"...and putting an offensive tone on it. Tsk tsk...these children. AND I SWEAR THEY ARE NOT LEARNING IT FROM ME! SERIOUSLY! I'M NOT RACIST AT ALL AROUND THEM!
I AM UBER GOOD uh....counsellor d00d...yeah.
Anyways, more to the point...I hate commuting. Except for the unexpected visual benefits. Eh? eh? ehhh
hahaha j/k. I'm mad uhh...well...faithful isn't the right word. Obsessed? That's negative.
I hope no one gets offended (well, only if you're Irish...)
BUT! IT SEEMS AS IF THE BRITISH WIN! TAKE THAT IRELAND!
BRITAIN - 1
IRELAND - 0
So, it looks as if the British group that I went downtown to meet today (headed up by Sir Robert of something...) have decided to sublet our apartment for the summer. GOOD SHOW OLD BOY. BWAHAHAHAHA
Anyways, I have to stay around until 1400 when ANOTHER BRITISH GROUP shows up at the apartment, and mercilessly tell them. "THE APARTMENT HAS BEEN SOLD. GIVE ME YOUR MONEY. THIS IS A ROBBERY."
Oh yeah...Gonna show the apartment to some Brits tomorrow at 1100...Hopefully this deal will go better than the previous one with the Irish.
Hmm...what's with the British Isles and their stream of people interested in our apartment? oh well. It's good that they are.
BELATED (by about 3 weeks) b-day party for PEGSTA at Shin's house today. Jokes game...that cranium. Ridiculously all over the place (how the heck do Jeff and Kevin develop such a symbiotic relationship? They're monsters at these team-guessing games. Bastages.)
Bwahahaha. Anyways, I'm up in about 6 hours. So...Maybe I'll try to make the most sleep of it.
AYE!
Okay...MDHS Classics Club barbeques are ridiculous...Today was no exception.
A bunch of current and old-skool MDHS classics people went over to Mr. Mclaren's place for a BBQ today...and I TURNED the tables on him, by giving HIM nanaimo bars! The much hated food of the civilized world.
Anyways...Mr. Mclaren decided to go on a CRAZY BARBECUING spree...making around like...40 or so burgers. AFTER we had all eaten our fill. So...I being the Classics official "eater of stuff" decided to eat as many as I could. So...of the 40 new burgers he made...I ate maybe...5 or 6. This added to my 5 or so burgers from earlier, gave me a grand total of TEN FREAKIN' BURGERS That's just PLAIN WRONG.
Man...AND afterwards...I ate many a bowl of tiramisu (how is that spelt???) anyways..it was REALLY GOOD. And also I threw in some timbits and ate them in the tiramisu...(am I even talking about the right thing here?) And ate an ice cream sandwich AND...duh duh duh...freakin' NANAIMO BARS! At least this time, it was just one; not the THIRTY that Mr. Mclaren MADE me eat a few competitions ago...worst person EVER!
And so...I'm at home, having completed about 300 of those bicycle ab workout things...300 reps, not sets. Hahahaha. And about 100 pushups. Trying to burn off the DEATH from all that burger-age.
(holy crap...Wayne just thought I meant I did 100 reps in a row...that's monstrous. Anyways, he's hoorj these days. Which kinda reminded me of my policy earlier this year to get more in shape...hence the workout today. And hopefully home workout-ing that will continue until I get back to school, for POLISH COMBAT to take over.)
So...until the year begins for POLISH COMBAT, I will undertake...CHINESE TRAINING.
(if you're asking yourself "Does he ALWAYS have to make some sort of racial slur?" The answer is YES.")
Freakin...I would like to amend my statement about saturday being the longest day ever...cuz evidently, TODAY was.
I had my interview at 0930 at Woodbine and Danforth (which is ridiculously far already...) And so I get there. Fine.
They give me this package about how their daycare center operates and jive, and ask me to answer a few questions on paper.
Fine.
I go into my interview at about 10 or 1030 and get out around 1045-ish. Fine. Then they ask me to come back at 12, to "volunteer" with one of their classes. I'm thinking...hmm...okay...That's not too bad. So I do that. Hang around the danforth, notice that there are a LOT of Italians standing and sitting around...think to myself. "This is like...mafia town or something. Don't make fun of the wops..." Err..Italians.
So...I go back at 12 and I play with the kids, them having never seen a Chinese male in real life (evidently) decide to attach the label of the ONLY Chinese guy they've ever seen. Jackie Chan. So...to those 23 or so kids, I am "Jackie Chan." Freakin' Hilarious...crazy kids.
So I finish at 1, and THEN...I'm told. "If you don't mind, come back at 2, then you can see how the younger kids are like." I'm thinking "FREAKIN!!!!!!"
But...having no good excuse to bail, I tick around. And from 2 - 5:30 I play with the little little kids who toddle around and attack anything that moves, and never listen to anybody.
Man...if I didn't get this job, they've managed to trick 1 full day of FREE work outta me. Curses.
Back from an amazing Baptism ceremony today for PEGSTA (and 14 other members of the Unionville Alliance Church)
Huge stuff. I really liked how they had an "encourager" come up and speak to them before the actual emersion ceremony. Really hardcore stuff. Really good stuff...
And I dunno...it was really good to hear all those people declaring their intention to faithfully serve Him starting from that day onwards. (Though I might have been less than supportive in BODY LANGUAGE) But yeah...Good to hear of a growth in faith, and especially of a good friend like Peggy.
= )
I dunno, just made me think back to my own Baptism last year, it was around this time and now that I think of it...it could've been the EXACT day (the 22nd)...that would be cool if it was.
Been thinking of how I've lived my life since that day, if I've done all that I could do to uphold that title "Christian"...And looking back, I feel that there are several spots where I've screwed up, and haven't done a good job with His glory at stake. Though last year was a great year overall, it had its ups and downs and that definitely had an impact on my Christian life. I guess that today got me thinking about myself...(greedy bastage! hahahaha...) And how well my year has been, spiritually.
I'm proud to say that I've learnt a lot the past year, really grown up quite a bit. Well, in some aspects. Not so much in others. BWAHAHAHA! I WIN!
But yeah...I'm still looking for just...direction from Him. I've chosen a path to walk, but where that path goes? It's up to Him. I'm just praying that I'll get some advance warning of any major changes that are s'posed to happen, or a heads-up on any major happenings that relate to my path. A hard path it is to walk...but...Y'know, we ALL have a tough path to walk, well...we're S'POSED to have a hard walk. If YOUR path ain't hard, you ain't walking the right path friend! Or something to that effect...
But yeah...I'm so inspired by seeing Baptisms, and hearing testimonies. And just seeing all the good things that He's doing out there. I mean, I see stuff that He does and have a small view of what works He's doing in others...but to see and hear 15 people get up on stage and commit their LIVES for Him? That's good stuff.
What else is good stuff? That I'm prolly gonna head off to sleep soon. Crazy job interview at a ridiculously far place. Oh yeah, commuting axion!
HAhahaha, I foolishly made the mistake of gaming until 4am last night...WHILST knowing that I had to wake up at 0730 for freakin' dragonboat hauling-ass-down-town.
But man...Was I in for quite the long day.
Evidently Stew decided to take up Folkers' job of BEING AN ASS. And he was quite the ass. Added to the fact that I couldn't KICK HIS ASS because his wooman was there...was quite frustrating. Bastard.
(oh yeah, throw in Garway being a normal ass...and that completed the morning going completely bad. LIKE HIS FACE)
So Dragonboat was really cool, and has pushed me into saying that I will GO TO PRACTICE next year to make the Vic team, cuz they're all...Vic...and stuff...w00t.
Yeah, WANG SANG has HOORJ in all his paddling...uhh...glory? Yeah. Too bad that the Mississauga Canoe Club is genetically bred to OWN OTHER TEAMS IN PADDLING. Seriously...that team was monstrous and huge and powerful. Crazy stuff.
Then those homos went off to that SARS concert and I sat around on the island waiting for someone (but I didn't mind...cuz y'know. That's cool. hehehe)
And she shows up with her friend (who's pretty jokes. Those two are mad different, so weird...) Anyways. Enough blogging about that.
OH man...freakin'...I walked around TO for like...4 hours by myself. Just wandering. Because I didn't know when the SARS concert would end...so I stayed around until like 7. When in fact, I could've left at FIVE! RIDICULOUS PIECE OF SHIT DAY! Well...just the wandering part
And it wasn't so bad...because I got a lot of thinking done. Mainly cuz it was just my thoughts bouncing around in my head. Of course, that leads to some danger as I was nearly run over by several rogue cabbies (or not so rogue ones...) Bastards.
In conclusion, I am tired beyond belief, starting to miss someone who hasn't even left the continent yet, and determined to PLAY DRAGONBOAT NEXT YEAR! Play? Ah whatever.
Secondary conclusion? How the crap can I miss someone who hasn't left yet? Freakin'...!!!...Too tired to yell out a proper freakin'...*sigh*...
OH!! I remember why I'm so damn tired today! I ate a piece of toast for breakfast...and until about...half an hour ago, when I ate a bowl of rice and some beans. I had eaten NOTHING all day! BWAHAHAHA. I was walking around downtown for 4 hours (well, 6 if you count with her and her friend) WITHOUT HAVING FOOD ALLL DAY.
First off, SORRY TO PY for not being able to haul my arse downtown quick enough to chillax with him before his bro's convocation pictures.
I swear...the Wang Sang place BREEDS laziness!
BREEDS!
SO MUCH LAZY...it felt JUST LIKE RJ420...
SPEAKING OF WHICH!!! I saw IDIOT LAWRENCE!! (Of Sing Wang Ho and Lawrence fame. See April 17th posting)
Hahaha. I saw him on the subway on my way back uptown from downtown following UTCCF and a purchasing a video card fan.
Which leads me in to my NEXT topic. So...last night, my video card fan STOPPED WORKING!!! This is CATASTROPHIC news.
So whilst downtown, I decided to get a fan. And it's installed, and now all is saved from BURNING BURNING PAIN.
So instead of eating dinner with the CCF crowd, I ate dinner with my dad. Just the two of us. VERY interesting, I don't think I've ever been able to sit anywhere and have dinner with just my dad...and the absence of the noisy monster that is my brother (hahahaha. He's jokes. In every bad way possible) Yah...interesting stuff.
Indeed.
HAhaha, and while doing the CCF program...none other than SAIGIN GOVENDER RAN BY. He was late for a meeting with an apartment owner for next year, and swearing as he was avoiding cars. HILARIOUS STUFF.
Freakin'...went to a soccer game with Andy after dealing up some contract stuff with Gway (looks like we have some SUB-TENANTS FOR THE SUMMER!)
hopefully that deal will go through...it'll save our collective arses from $4240 of wasted MONEYS!!)
SWEET.
But man...a billion mosquitoes out there...and I'm standing around going "dum de dum...look at me. I'm a target." Freakin' bloodsuckers...they'll kill ya twice before you hit the ground. Bwahahahaha.
RIDICULOUS. In order to get downtown, I have to haul my butt outta bed at like...0900 tomorrow. WORST TIME EVER. SO EARLY.
hahhaha, I should stop complaining.
Okay now...I've gotta learn MORE cooking things...although I think UGLY here doesn't trust my cooking too much...
FINE! DIE!
Oh yeah...have you ever seen FOLKERS not crazy? Well last night, he and Kiddie Shin were over here...and Folkers, hated enemy of all civilized people, was quietly reading about Warhammer...And Andy was scanning stuff and using ICQ lite..
only it was weird...because while he was ANSWERING messages on ICQ...he was also answering them ALOUD and I mean ALOUD
it was weird...cuz he was yelling and laughing and going all crazy. And for the first time in history, I was ON MARK'S SIDE...in denouncing his insanity. And subsequent heresy. (heresy you say? I DO SAY.)
And I don't think this post makes much sense...but...if you have a problem...YOU CAN TAKE IT UP WITH THE COMPLAINT DEPARTMENT...
MY FIST!
IN YOUR EYE!
I learnt how to make egg-stuff...and mushroom stuff...and some green stuff...I assume they're vegetables or something related to them
And some sorta meat kinda dish...RRRGGGH. I know the name in chinese...but...I don't know it in english.
It's like...well in chinese, it's that term you use to describe someone that's skinny. It's like, old school chinese parent talkage....ARGH.
Well...I think I give up on the whole job searching business. I'm being boned by being unable to find any nearby jobs (whilst stubbornly holding my conviction in my choice of job application...Oh well)
Instead, it looks like I'll be spending obscene amounts of money on Warhammer 40,000 materiel...for the upcoming Eye of Terror global campaign...Damn. I need some money. Anyone wanna help me knock over a bank or two?
= )
BWAHAHA! In further news, I found that the Dentist gave me this water-squirty kinda thing...it's like a needle except it's intended to spray water into my gaping mouth wound.
GAME OVER!
This thing is the best!
okay...I'm making no sense.
so...off I go!
good thing I'm not stupid enough to order some drilling for them
= )
Well...until my anesthetic wears off...I'll be around.
After? Well...Maybe I'll be in some alley screaming at the top of my lungs.
oh my...I can feel it wearing off already...crap!
It's a good movie! Filled with fish, and swimming and all sorts of other goodness!
It's a really good movie though. Up there with my other favoured animatedZ: Shrek, Monsters Inc...Ice Age was okay...but...not THAT great.
And the like! At any rate, yeah.
Hmm...although once again, on the movie watching I seem to be behind the rest of you chumps (Especially you high schoolers...)
Oh well.
*shrug*
I guess it's clear that I didn't want New Jersey to win...but win they did. AND HOW! 3-0...madness...pure madness
well...I guess it's back to waiting for next season...for the Leafs. *sigh*
nuts.
For a change I'll post some thoughtful-stuff...Which I actually THOUGHT about
It's...interesting to see how much things have changed at my home church...Markham Chinese Alliance Church, since I've been there from last year. Most of my year was spent downtown, with periodic visits back up to teach kiddie sunday school (which was jokes, cuz kids + Raymond = MADNESS! But the FUN type! Bwahahaha)
yeah...it would've made more sense for me to post this LAST MONTH...when I went back to service...Wait. no...I didn't go that many times in May...due to Campus Challenge and other stuff...Anyways, back to the main point.
So yesterday...I heard the new english-ministry Pastor speak in a sermon for the first time. Not bad. Some minor things that I thought up, but they weren't theological ideas just presentation issues. But whatever...
But overall...the church just seems different to me. Hard to explain in a post...just...this itching at the back of my mind...
Because I know that next year I will be back in Markham even less for Church (if at all)...and the same would likely apply for the rest of my undergrad...and then grad school (whatever it'll be...depending on what He says to me...) And that's even MORE time away. How's that gonna work? I can only assume, hope, that new members will enter the Church. It seems...so rough that I'm not around to talk to and get to know and watch these people grow. I want to get to know these new people...but...if I'm not around, that's not going to happen.
Even the people from before...things just seem different with them. I guess I wasn't as "tight" with them before my 8 months downtown...and being down there for most of it certainly didn't help things. Well, I placed myself into this hole. But...do I want to try and dig myself out only for the next year to smack down on it all?
hmmm...
I definitely need to pray about this more...
(back to your regular scheduled ranting)
Hey! My post is on monday! SWEET AXCTION!!
Which means, my reference to sunday is STILL VALID!
OWN3D!
So...Risk 2210 is a HILARIOUS game. SO MUCH TENSION AND ANGER AND RIVALRY!
BWAHAHAHAHA
As usual, I start the game with my standard Anti-Folkers agenda, which means EVERYTHING I do...is AGAINST...THE FOLKERS!
And then, in an unusual act of VILLAINY...ANDY SHIN strikes at my provinces. REPEATEDLY This had to be met with full force...as China cannot tolerate any dissidents! HAHAHAHA (it's the Chinese General in me speaking)
And so...I bent my ENTIRE FORCE towards CRUSHING THE TREACHEROUS TAIWANESE DOG! Err...no offense to anyone FROM Taiwan, they've got hot chicks. BWAHAHAHA. (I've led a horrifying life...)
At any rate...that was the night...and I'm reinstalling War3 thanks to my g33kish reformat yesterday.
Let this be know, that I am COUNTER-BLOGGING DIRECTLY IN RESPONSE TO THIS
well, I also was NOT trying my UTMOST to defeat Andy Shin. Though it be known, that my PREVIOUS high score on my current computer would in no shape way or form, have fallen to FOOLISH MAN's score.
Certainly not today, certainly not ANY DAY.
At any rate, we have our KEYS and CONTRACTS for the apartment downtown.
JOHN YE IS OFFICIALLY OUR BEYOTCH! BWAHAHAHA. WE OWN HIM! That's cuz he wasn't on hand for the actual LEASE, but he is instead, a SUB-LEASER...from US!
OWN3D!
Yo...if I can get that job at Metropolitan United Church, that would be HUGE!
So amazing if I can get a summer and/or school term job there...
SO GOOD.
Yeah...so I can't make any more of some certain jokes...And it's all HIS FAULT.
Well, not really his fault. But he did start those jokes...and when he stopped making them, I started picking up the slack.
Hmm...comp went bad today...Win2k wouldn't start...I had to get it reformatted and reinstallation of windows..
However, I forgot that wiping the C:\ drive would cause all my registry numbers to go wack...AND delete my fancy desktop pattern (It was a Cross! A NICE CROSS! BLARGGH) AND delete all my email settings, ALONG with my email
And I got 1 wisdom tooth pulled. Second one is coming out in a few weeks.
All in all...a weird day.
Watched National Security at GWay's place...but couldn't really hassle FOLKERS because of the pain that would sear up in my mouth if I tried yelling.
looks like the angry man is out of commission for a few days...or weeks...until the NEXT freakin' tooth-sawing.
So...whaddaya do when your life is called into question?
...And it happens far too often for it to be cool.
My Program Selection, my courses, how I want to live my life, how I'm going to LIVE...All these questions...always posed to me.
I know they mean well and worry...but...how else can I take it in any other way but a lack of faith? Faith in me, faith in MY faith. In my view of Him.
A very pragmatic view of life...contrasted to my...spiritual view on life I guess it would be. Always a war...about everything. Even when they dont' say it...I can feel it. "Again with the fellowship, again with the church." It's there...and it burns.
My path is in conflict with their worries...And yet I cannot bring myself to turn my back on them. How can I?
But...I dunno...the guilt hits me hard at times. The knowledge that I...I just haven't been a good son. And I know I haven't been. Focused on Him, more than on the earthly family...What kind of a Christian is THAT?...Not a very good one I guess...
so it looks like I lose out in both categories...0wn3d.
I dunno, I guess that I've always sort've known it and been able to live with it in the back of my mind or something...but...hard to run around with no remorse about this stuff ALL the time (heck, even most of the time)
And it's true...Lately I've focused my attention and my efforts on campus ministry...all the while my family relations were being shattered. I guess they've been in that state of free-fall for a while...Since I saw Him? Since I believed? Perhaps...Dangerous stuff. I mean...what can I do? What AM I to do? This is stupid...this is my life...What the crap...
It's ridiculous too, because ALL this stuff I'm rambling on about? ALL came from asking for permission to rent out a place. And that led into ALL of this. ALL!
RIDICUROUS.
I dunno...I guess this all just hammers down on me pretty hard. I had a feeling that this stuff would come up...it always has a habit of popping up when "major" decisions are being made. Always.
HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE LIKE THIS?!!?!?
Am I supposed to live a life where my commitment to Him clashes with my family? How can I respect them (as He calls us to) when they continually demean all that I want to do for His glory? WHY CAN'T THEY UNDERSTAND?!!?!? WHY DON'T THEY SEE HIM!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!
Unable to reconcile a spiritual life and a family one...Perhaps I'm looking for the wrong things? Asking the wrong questions. Not listening enough.
Man...I need some more sleep in summer. Stupid like...7 or 8 hours (which dwarfs the 2-5 that I get downtown)...but still. It's s'posed to be SUMMER!! BLARGH!
And yeah...S'POSED to find a job...Wouldn't mind if I get the Crestwood camp one @ Lawrence and Bayview. = ) eh? eh? eh? ehhhh..
Tad more about CC...the best Conferene I've been at to date (Yeah, it dwarfed even Classics Conferences of the past...hardcore)
It was just so inspiring. And never before have I really let God take over and take charge the way I let him be in the driver's seat here. I didn't know any of the people in my group, and I was just so unsure of how well I had prepared for the Bible study, for the small group time, for everything.
But once again, he's just like..."IN YOUR EYE!"...and it was MAD in my eye. It was SO GOOD. I was blessed with really getting to start connecting with the other members of the small group...Hehehe...looks like I'm missing them alreadyz huh? = )
Anyways...maybe I'll post some more thoughts about CC when they just occur to me.
I miss residence already...the...life of it all. The fact that if I'm there, I NEVER NEED sleep. Never.
I've managed to pull 2 hrs and 45mins of sleep since WEDNESDAY, 4pm. 2 3/4 hours out of 72. I AM A CHAMPION And actually...I'm feeling kinda dizzy. I guess it's time to get some sleep eh?
...And...As cool as summer will be, I'm kinda looking forwards to moving into that new house for the next year. I know that it might seem crazy to wish for more school...but more school will mean more jokes.
Wait...summer = jokes by definition. Just gotta fill my time this summer with jokes-tacular memories an great fun (and maybe a decision about some important things...OH!)
Last post from residence...and...I can't help but feel kinda sad at leaving this wonderful, hilarious, jox-tacular place.
So many memories, so much fun. It's been so great.
I mean, I complain about school and about the work and everything...But when it comes down to the line, I have HAD AN AMAZING TIME this year.
It's been SO GOOD. Just...unbelievable and I definitely think that this year...has been one of the GREATEST EVER in my life.
*sigh*...but it's time to leave this place and move on, as we all must, no?
Guess who was part of it? That's right..I WAS AT THE FREAKIN' MARIJUANA PARTY
I was in the library studying...and I looked out the window and I saw a big crowd in Queen's Park...So, following in LAST WEEK's footsteps (where we heard Howitzer fire from Queen's Park, only to find that they were firing it for THE OPENING OF THE PROVINCIAL LEGISLATURE...PFFF...) I went to check it out.
I remarked to some friends in the library that I was gonna check out "that party in Queen's Park"...So off I went.
Oh yeah. MAD MARIJUANA PARTY...It was so ridiculous, people smoking it up in public, selling...bongs...leaves...and other...weed related stuff. So much craziness.
And so...Evidently they ALL were smoking up SIMULTANEOUSLY at 4:20pm...and I was like. "What the crap? I'm getting outta this weed-hole!" So I tried to flee before the smoke hit me...
Yeah, I had more than enough 2nd-hand weed to last a lifetime
Freakin'...I had a week to prepare for the 2 pre-meditation questions, and BOY did I need it. I went in there and wrote like..11-12 pages WORTH OF CRAZY PHILOSOPHICAL RAMBLING! TAKE THAT DESCARTES, AL-GHAZALI, MILL AND NIETZSCHE! IN YOUR EYE!
More likely in MY eye...
At any rate...I powerfully wore 1 pen out (...not necessarily well writtenly...but POWERFULL)
I AM DONE PSYCH! TAKE THAT YOU SONUVA BEYOTCH!!! DIE DIE DIE!!!
DONE PSYCH FOREVER!! NEVER AGAIN!!
Oh my goodness...Who EVER gives the option "more than one of the above, but not all" WHAT THE HECK IS THAT?!?!?!?!?!
gay.
But the point is...Psych is completed...and I am done exams until May. SWEET AXION.
However, I'd like to note that there WAS a SARS warning during the exam...and had I chosen to do so...I could skip out on the exam with no academic penalty. But at the cost of quarantine...Hehehe
DONE PSYCH FOREVER! Clearly since I have no exams for a while...I'm not going to sleep for a couple of days whilst I partee it up.
Good luck on exams, suckas!
...I declare tonight Cowboy Bebop night whereupon I will watch all 26 episodes of Cowboy Bebop. ALL OF THEM IN A ROW That's right...I'm officially mad.
2 hours till it comes...And no way of avoiding it (well...unless I REALLY contract SARS...and that won't be enough)
Am I ready? As ready as 1 week of wasting time and studying sometimes can make me.
Psych has been an interesting course, and as much as I post about my hatred of it...I don't regret taking it (Mainly cuz my marks aren't THAT important for what I want to do...But failure is never cool) So...it's kinda ambivalent.
I doubt that I will fail...so that's a good thing. And I am ready to smack down the psych that I DO know...all 5 questions...hehehehe...Well...end of 1 class.
Oh, if I don't post for a while...I probably lost it during the psych exam and charged at Professor Wall with my psych textbook.
Yeah...instead of studying psych (Monday morning exam...I'm dead) I chose to do something...well...good.
I watched that really really good movie. Actually, I was reminded by a picture in the psych textbook which was talking about the idea of emotions and the impersonal nature of reality. Wow...I seem to know SOME stuff about psych. Maybe not dead...but brutalized.
Anyways...maybe I'll try to downgrade the brutalization to a bloody beating via studying...
Good Friday Service...His death on the cross for all our sake. For our very salvation.
Pretty straightforward service, nothing spectacular...Except that it was about HIS sacrifice. So that's always an amazing thing that I end up fiddling with in my mind for a while...The Perfect One, brought down here for ONE reason...to die.
And...yeah...in my mind I can't get over how much that sucks. But it was His goal...it was His reason for being...and...it's just so awesome that anyone would be like that. Well, not anyone...HIM.
There's altruism...but then there's ALTRUISM...so...yeah.
Back to psych I go...maybe I'll read about altruism or something...
OKay...so I post many times within the same day...
if you have a problem...I'm sure military resources could be diverted TO YOUR FACE!!!
*ahem*
At any rate...whilst reading the New Testament, it occured to me that perhaps I should spend more time reading the OLD Testament...Cuz I'm thinking. "What did JESUS read when he was doing it up in the J-dot?" That being Jerusalem. And since that was a rhetorical question (not meant to be answered, or answered by the asker...) I shall answer it. He read the OLD Testament!
Yeah...so after I finish reading up some book of John, it's time to go OLD school.
Man...I'm such a heretic or something...it's like...I have zero reverance right now. No worries!
I had to wash the NASTIEST container ever...I think it USED to contain lasagna or something like that...and it mutated into something that was just plain wrong.
Why? Because after a FAT UGLY MAN used it...it was tossed aside! TOSSED ASIDE!!!
Wow...if this goes through...tonight will mark the SECOND night in a row that the FOOLS (aka Lawrence and Sing Wang Ho. For more on Sing Wang Ho, see #3)
At any rate...I believe my campaign of Shock and Awe has finally taken it's effect. Let me sketch a quick rundown on the campaign to date.
Operations: Alpha) The Shock that was experienced when they saw what anger + 20lb weight could do to a shelf
Beta) Throwing Sing Wang Ho OUT our front door, and THROUGH the door across the hall
Charlie) Around the clock pummeling of Lawrence by my fists
Delta) Echoing voice off walls whilst projecting anger straight at the two of them, cowering in fear in a corner of the room
Echo) The Awe that Lawrence experienced when I used the remnants of my computer desk on him
Foxtrot) Tipping Sing Wang Ho off his chair unexpectedly in the middle of a game
Gamma) More voice/anger projection, this time only at Sing Wang Ho
Soon, Operation RJ Freedom will have been accomplished, and I will have in my possession...their possessions...MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Let me add MY contribution to the already begun Shock and Awe campaign
I HATE PSYCH! CURSE YOU PROFESSOR WALL!
That is all.
So...I was studying psych for FOUR dirty hours today...1 in Pratt, and 3 in Gerstein. I must've fallen asleep in Gerstein like...3 times? CURSES!
Man...How am I gonna get through 18 chapters? (well..17, if you count the ONE I got done today...)
Geez...I should get my passport ready to enter Bonage country.
