but surprisingly, the fat man was of GREAT help, to just talk to about these issues.
I guess you could call it an issue of faith...and it's getting there, but I don't think it can be 100% resolved anytime soon, and that's a good thing. Because the urge to get towards that 100% will drive me to getting things done, to looking and searching hard for a solution. A solution in His name, for His glory.
And KIDDIE SHIN was able to help TODAY...like..right now, as I'm typing this out.
I'm just so thankful that He has blessed me with such good friends, who listen (and boy do they listen, cuz I talk a LOT! hur hur hur) and just...are able to respond perfectly, keeping their answers honest and right. They don't tell me what I want to hear, unless it's what they see. They tell it as it is, and I couldn't be more thankful to them OR God.
HOORAH.
Okay, I should get going, seeing as how I'm still at Kiddie Shin's place, and he's about to fall asleep. JOAX.
I always thought that our job was to stand as a light, a beacon in the dark...
but...damn...I don't think I can hold back the night anymore...It's all I can do to stand in the light myself...and that just barely.
Wow..it looks like fatty made a REAL post...wow. He's STILL a VILLAIN Well...that's more than enough space about him.
But yeah, hope my friends get some Christmas cheer in some form or another. Have faith, He'll deliver (doesn't He always? He IS the big man upstairs! *w00t w00t* AHem...) right...So...I just got back today.
Wha? yeah, family decided to take a trip to Niagara falls on Tuesday Dec 24th, Christmas Eve...so we hung around there for a few days. Sure the stores weren't open yesterday, but does that mean NATURE is closed? AHA! gg Raymond, I 0wnz! So we drove around the area, lookin' at how nice things looked during Christmas...got me thinking about stuff in general (shaddup. Yes. I DID think about her...you jerks) But overall, it was a nice and unique way to spend Christmas day.
I should be shopping today for cheap coolio stuff, but...I did enough buying of items on the way INTO Niagara Falls (there's this outlet mall there right? And they've got Nike and Reebok stores, and all sortsa clothing stores. And a Timex store) so....I bought need workout gear (to use in the hotel. I MAD used it! MAD!!) and a new watch to replace the one I lost while getting my arse capped during paintball last saturday. BOOYEAH!
Anyways. I'm gonna continue my chilling/relaxing Christmas break.
Oh yeah, I checked my psychology mark. MAD FAILURE Not even joking this time. 49% = fail.
so...ouch.
First off...I'd like to say I'm officially stupid I mean...I came back from res to get some rest...and last night I stayed up until ~0500 and the night before, a BRILLIANT 0630...
Freakin'...by the time I was leaving my friends houses the previous nights, the NEWSPAPER HAD ALREADY ARRIVED! d00d! that is DIRTY!
So...tonight I'm going to STAY HOME. And therefore, only STAY UP until 0600...not return at that time! OHO!
I'm like...freakin' brilliant or something!! BOOYEAH!
Just got back from watching Lotr:Two Towers...Great movie. Can't decide whether it's better than the first...althought I have had opinions on either side...I will not be swayed! NOT BE SWAYED!!! They are BOTH GREAT MOVIES! IN YOUR EYE!!!
Yeah...so I'm going to be poor when a) the Lotr trilogy comes out on DVD and b) when the Star Wars SEX-logy...(that's prolly not right...Series? But that doesn't sound as...well...sexy)
so yeah...Mad DVD purchasing in...2 years time? 3 years time? Well...I'll either be a) rich, and not worrying about the cost OR b) too poor to even think about buying them
I dunno man, it feels so good to be saying stuff from HOME instead of from the DORM. like you have NO IDEA! SO GOOD!
So I'm home...and I have no idea what to do with all this time. I'll try to divide it up thusly:
1) Family 2) friends 3) chillaxin' 4) checkin' out if I have a chance with that girl I like. Name you say? You already know if you're reading this!! BLARGHHH!!!
Hahahaha, but this is cool. Relaxin' cool.
Ahhhhhhh...
5 MORE HOURS TO GO Then it'll all be over...I should be ready...because Greek History is my highest mark right now...but I'm mad nervous. Soo very nervouse.
doesn't matter...at 1700 (5pm) today...I will be DONE EXAMS!! and thusly, done first term...that'll feel SOOO GOOD.
But for now, concentrate, review notes. Conquer the Greeks like the Romans did.
OH YEAH! That's okay...I suppose. But then again...that's what I'm most afraid of. Losing days of study time and shrugging it off as "okay." Hahahaha. Just because I have the weekend and tomorrow (Friday)...This is really gonna try my whole procrastination bit. Curses!
Okay. But I did some hardcore 2 hours straight study of Greek history facts...and tomorrow it's work on essay + study some more. And saturday and sunday are for mopping up and final review. YEAH! I CAN DO THIS
yeah....halfway through exams. ONe more ugly ugly Greek History exam on monday...DAng guy...I'm AFEARED of this one...
60 content questions...I should be down with that...but that 1 essay...which I have to write in ADVANCE...and MEMORIZE
A lotta you are like. "oh yeah...question in advance...SWEET." I say to you BITE ME This means I have to use REFERENCES...and MEMORIZE THEM!
Bloody fools..."Oh yeah...I'd like to have questions in advance...blah blah blah..." ad infinitum.. yeah..ignorant people really anger me...them and their unwitting stupidity.
Well...I got nearly TEN hours of sleep today. That is heroic. It makes up for the 15 hours a WEEK I got during school time...Hurray for me.
Anyways, I'm gonna go eat lunch and start my preparation for my dirty Greek exam. I swear...if I met the last guy speaking ancient Greek on the streets...then ancient Greek would soon be an extinct language. "I shake my fists at you Olympians! Curse you and your Greek boyz!"
Here we go....10 hours before my first exam....and I have BARELY studied today (about...1.5 hours)
curses, Professor Welch told me NOT to study the day before...but I can't...rrrgh...okay. My eng sci friends are coming over and when they are ANYWHERE...NO studying gets done. Good stuff.
Okay...I am ready for this exam. READY. I know the cultures, I know about conflict (heck, I've been studying war since I was a 'ittle baby! ACH!)
okay...OKay...let's do this. Get some sleep after those jokers leave...and then..wake up at 0800, get ready to tangle.
0900 H-hour..YEAH!! COME ON!!!!
THIS TIME NEXT WEEK I'LL BE DONE EXAMS AND ON CHRISTMAS LEAVE!! YEAH!
ONLY TWO EXAMS STAND IN MY WAY. Not for long comrade, not for long.
Well...two movies to watch today. And War and Peace needs the FINAL FINISHING (I ACTUALLY FINISHED THE MONSTROUS BOOK last night...but I still have to read the CRAZY NOTES!!
I got a reasonable...6 HOURS?!?!?!? What the crap!?!?!!?
Oh geez...I'll try to sleep early tonight (it's not going to happen)
I actually should've made this post BEFORE ranting...cuz it would've been fresher in my memories...
It's about fellowship, the Church group that's from my home church (Markham Chinese Alliance Church. I won't use acronyms, cuz not everyone will understand)
my point is...I've never really gone there on a regular basis because I felt it wasn't "my style" of fellowship...well, God surprises us all in the most wonderful ways.
So this is my...4th or 5th week down here, and THEY decided to come visit for their fellowship time (Friday nights) And so they came down and we went to eat dinner at Pizza Hut. That was really cool, because they all took the time to come down here and bum around with me, and we swapped stories (mostly between myself and this 4th year Eng Sci guy. He's really unexpectedly down to earth when talking about this stuff) and this new graduate who I taught "kiddie Church" with. She's jokes cuz she's...well...she's just jokes.
I had a lotta fun actually, and...It made me feel kinda bad about not going with them to their fellowship more often, and I think that I'll strongly consider going more often (if not on a permanent basis) to the Friday night Fellowships. So...overall, tonight was quite productive even if I did make my rant and even if I AM staying up this late.
Plus, tomorrow (saturday...today...whatever) is actually MOVIE day. I'll be staying home watching movies the whole day. Lucky me? Unfortunately, neither of these movies are what I'd call "MUST SEE THRILLERS!" hahahaha. Serves me right for having movies to watch instead of problem sets to slave over huh?
Well...I'll place an addendum to my rant: RANT CONT'D She's a really great girl who would be like...#1 girlfriend material on ANY type of ranking hierarchy or anything...It's just too bad. But...I can content myself with being "just her friend." Heck...that's basically the story of my high school life right?
JUST TWO MORE EXAMS TO GO BEFORE I'M DONE THIS TERM!!!
hahahahaha. Hilarious.
Okay...I'm going to write a piece about Joanne2. Freakin...I need to GET THE F*CK OVER HER!!!! SHE FREAKIN' HAS A BOYFRIEND ALREADY!!!!!
YEARGGGHH! worst luck ever huh? *ugh*
okay...Either I a) get over her SOON or b) stop spending so much freakin' time with/around her...damn guy...I suck at this whole "woomen" business.
bad game.
OR...maybe I should just NOT thinks about all the hot azn chicks downtown...DAMN IT! THAT'S JUST WRONG!!!!...So...I lose my A target...and I've lost my C target a while ago....now I need to institute a B target...or move onto a D target...horrible. So...where does that leave me? Maybe I'll try 1 week of not ...damn guy... I can't even finish that sentence.
so...yeah...any of you guys reading this....yeah...nothing out to Joanne. k?
= )
SO THAT WAS OFFICIALLY THE WORST ESSAY I HAVE EVER WORKED ON!
Like..it was well written, but I spent TWENTY-FREAKIN-FOUR RETARDED HOURS I swear...if I am EVER that unproductive I should just shoot myself, that would be more efficient.
BUT! I managed to haul my butt to Church, and I was extremely energetic and stuff...probably me being too stubborn and proud to display what a "real tired" person should be like..but when I had that FIRST yawn at church...I exploded in a wave of tiredness and I had to use sheer force of will to prevent my corpse from spilling into the aisle and looking like a complete idiot.
So....It's PSYCH STUDY TIME Okay. Bye bye. Crazy psych...it's going to kill me.
I have to NOT WORK ON WEEKENDS. Not only because I want to chill...but honestly, my productivity is like...ZERO PERCENT...or maybe it's NEGATIVE percent. I lose efficiency and I lose papers belonging to all my subjects. Hahaha, that would be ghey.
So...I rose at 0800 on Saturday morning, good stuff. Got cracking at my religion essay (I had a noble goal here, really. Once that is out of the way, I can begin working on psych and studying for the KILLER MIDTERM OF DOOM Man...considering I BARELY (read: 55%) passed the first one.
So...I'm still here, my religion essay is still on my computer. And I'm kicking myself for having worked EIGHTEEN STUPID HOURS on it. Boy do I feel stupid. I should've been less arrogant earlier, cuz I was all "Oh yeah. I can finish this in no time if I put my mind to it." And typically...I did NOT put my mind to it. Ergo, I sit before you a stupid stupid man.
So, NOW I am "putting my mind to it." Mainly out of self-anger. But!!! Partially out of a desire to get my work done. AND...it (hopefully) will be a good piece. For some reason, my essay writing doesn't totally degrade as I continue to stay up into the wee hours.
TIME TO DO WHAT I SHOULD'VE DONE 18 HOURS AGO!!! WORK!
hahahaha
