lethargic for yesterday.

dance then followed by piano. of course, rested.

something i was so frustrated. which is, i got INDIRECT blame from my mum.

i was eating the last box of biscuits. note: one box around have 5 pieces of biscuits. one was eaten by mum. (as a biscuit lover i ate 3.)
so my mum asked me to leave ONE piece for my younger brother. so i did. when my younger brother took the biscuit and went to my older brother room, my older brother took his biscuit. then the younger one started crying and complaining. so my mum blamed me, "why did you just leave ONE piece?" "you asked me to leave ONE!" i replied. i was utterly pissed. my mum should have blame my older brother for taking the piece of biscuit, instead she blamed me for not leaving more than ONE piece. is SO UNFAIR.

which i conclude. never ever eat biscuits in front of family. of course my mum did scold me on my bad attitude towards her. but for goodness sake, i was trying to reason with her, i NEVER will tolerate something that i never do and was announced guilty.. damn it.

there is so much homework. there goes my weekend. a new monday is starting.

i feel much happier after talking to xuefang. at least she is someone who is willing to listen my pain.

Labels: annouced guilty

busy.

rushing from one place to another.

early in the morning i woke up like 7.30am? despite that SCHOOL IS IN THE EVENING(:

i had to go to somewhere for classes. i sat on the LRT. cause i was running late. and for goodness sake. the LRT STOPPED halfway through. suddenly. and i dun even want to take another ride. for sure.

everyone was like packed sardines in a tin. my god, it was so damn terrible. i was UNABLE TO even FIDGET. but at least the train rides were fast. and total, train rides were like 1hour same.

at there it was a total quietness that i can never ever find it.

around 1pm i reached home, rushed out of the house and went to cityhall to meet jiamin they all as we need to collect the jackets. seriously, i am not good at counting money[big amount].

rushed to school and reached around 4pm? lost track of time. i utterly lost my temper for some reasons, which i am sincerely sorry. the school parade was nice(: but of course, everything went smooth. had chicken burger. mum fetched and the end.

tomorrow there's dance. and extra chemistry lesson is CANCELLED :D hopefully everything just goes well and no hiccups.

ps. the school is celebrating 61st anniversary, so didn't have lessons in the morning.

Labels: life

ruined. troubled.

lessons were mainly fine, did the chemistry test. mr lee didn't come to school again.

my class had 5 absentees. mental, physically, flu struck, fever monster, hospitalized.

everyone is going to be sick. partly the reasons are the changing of weather and overworked.

changing weather.
the weather changes until so fast like from hot scorching sun to droplets of water. no doubt people are getting sick. our school uniform group were the worst of all, they still had to march despite that it was raining. but the white uniform for the guys are so nice(:

overworked.
non stopping rehearsing. for example, we had dance from mon to wed, then thurs had a sudden rehearsal (WHICH IS TOTALLY POINTLESS). friday is the big day to celebrate our school anniversary. totally, i feel like getting over and done with.

my ballet teacher totally gave me an (unhappy) face. which totally caught me off guard. she totally knew that mental and physically i am tired. real tired. what else can i do? just continue dancing until she points my mistakes. not only my mistakes are making my day so unbearable but is also the way i danced. my teacher actually gave a sentence: "i don't even know what shall i do to you." seriously, i am very troubled. real troubled. of course as a student, my heart just dropped like a thud. at the end of class, of course she gave advices.. viewing from an angle whereby, i shouldn't get affected by the words. being pin point by teacher is better than no comments. i ought to be glad that she is trying to correct me.

somehow, i just can't stop thinking how to do it right before it gets really worst. real worst. soon or later, i am going to develop depression. D:

hopefully theres nothing wrong during the performance. finally, we had voiced out for what we all dancers really think. a change maybe a good idea. but also, we being put at risk.

so frustrated. shall not think so much.

bless jiamin for a quick recovery. and everyone continue to fight with stupid irritating virus.

Labels: dance, life, school

another day past.

all totally ruined. ruined.

maybe i just love to resent about dance, trying to cut some slack within the jazz dance. seriously, one day, i may just quit it. and i might just do it. everything is like going haywire. another rehearsal for the stupid 61st anniversary celebration was added for tomorrow. and if i am not wrong, we are going to stay until 6pm. which totally going cause me to be late for ballet, i might just tie up a bun. as i don't think there is enough time for me...

and there was blood again, at my toe.

today, the bloody flu struck at me during class. at a moment, i felt so weak, sneezing all the way. had tons of tissues? from now, i am preparing one whole box of tissue at my desk. seriously, there's lots of dust within the classroom. the flu continued during dance. had a hard time trying to breathe through my nose. drank pretty lots of water. of course, trying to stay away from everyone as i am afraid that i might just passed the flu to someone. i will be living in guilt if thats the case.. but at least i managed to dance finish. oh yeah, today buying lunch was the most terrible. we had to get packed lunch from the canteen. and then rushed up to dance room to dance. only able to munch a few bites. and then began practices.

i am not that intelligent girl that everyone thinks. i am just an average girl, spending off her time, trying to devote into dancing. dance is a part of my life.

Labels: dance, school

another day past at school.
today had photo taking. yay and said CHEESE! i know i am being lame =.=

today kept falling asleep despite that i slept quite early than usual? shall not talk about it.

jianyi got 4th position for his speech? 特优奖。lols. he kept forgetting his words, which totally gave people an impression that he is nervous. but indeed, he is nervous.

suddenly had some reflection of dance in school.

well, some secondary one felt quite "disappointed" not being able to get selected in dance. but what i can say is that, DANCE has its own meaning.
Do it
Active
Never give up
Continue to persevere on
Enthusiasm.

being a secondary one, don't worry about not selecting you into performance, for the first time, you might not have a chance as there is more for you to learn. i believed that modern dance is new to every single one, including me. there is always a first try to it. dance may be seemed to be wasting time, spending quite a lot money. indeed, i can't deny the fact. but what i have to say is, able to learn a skill or even spending your time useful rather than slacking off and learn nothing in your life. that is what i strongly believe in. dance may not be one of your top favourite list right now, but it will slowly develop the interest in it. that is how every dancer had to experience it.

being active enough to learn the steps. no matter how hard the step may seemed to be, in the end, it gives a certain satisfactory to oneself as a form of achievement, a goal that had been reached. even though, the audience may or may not appreciate it, but as long as the utmost effort is given out by you, is enough and everyone will understands it.

Some takes time to learn the step or even memorizing it, but i don't blame those people. everyone may be retard or even poor at certain area. just like an example, being poor at mathematics, by doing more worksheets or assessments, there is bound to be improvement. thus, dance just needed hardwork and 10% of talent and intelligent. no one is really born to be able to dance, is through training. as time passes, effort will be paid off. just like one chinese sentence, 台上五分钟，台下十年工。being on stage just require 5mins, but the effort needed to be on stage required 10years.

soon seniors have to graduate, everything have to depend on the next generation to being able to flourish.

Labels: dance, random, school

i think i totally screwed up the log test for a maths..

i am totally prepared that i am bound to fail it.

geography project is extended till 11april. which is a good news, as we totally DO NOT have the time to do it at all. which perhaps everyone will start copy and paste from wikipedia.

and i just realised that my maths teacher is a pretty nice guy. despite that i had tons of alpha and beta questions to ask him, he did it all and explained very clearly. now i can happily finish my amaths homework(: how much i wished he is my private tutor for maths, of course unable to fulfill it. unlike my older brother, doesn't even work out and expect me to understand what is he talking about. i will NEVER taking up maths as H3 in JC. or maybe not even H2. it totally can make me bonkers. but being my private tutor might be damn tough, due to my busy schedule and unable to absorb as fast as spongebob squarepants. hahas.

and in the fact, i am pleased that i am able to have a good physic, maths, chinese and history teacher, for now. who knows, suddenly maybe another teacher will just come in and teach nonsensical stuffs.

seriously, i had enough of dancing for now. i totally need a break from my hustle and bustle busy schedule. need a kit kat? sure of course, i loved to have it. kit kat is able to boost my mood, especially it lands on my table and i will really appreciate it well.

of course, tomorrow have cca photo taking. and i having both council and dance(: great which is there is a interval between it. so, i think i could do some work or slack at classroom. and good thing is that, NO DANCE TOMORROW. i finally have a break. yay!

i just love to rest and be back on track when i am finally ready.

Labels: life, school

is a saturday and i just spent it quite fast.

let me recall on wednesday.
it was the rehearsal for public concert. raining. and the person from the ice skating rink called up to confirm with me the skating schedule of a new coach. because i want to participate in the june competition. it went quite well. just that pearl was sick and didn't come for dance. bless her(:
and returned home quite early, and my mum came to fetch me.

thursday.
the day before good friday. last day of school for the week.. went to compass point to eat with mandy at burger king. just sometimes thursday we are free(: but after that i have to go for ballet. of course, i couldn't do my pointe work thanks to my toe.

friday.
went out with mandy. walked to plaza singapura. then orchard. then went back home. before our trip begins, we went to eat pizza hut. for the first time i didn't clip up my fringe(: had a great time(:

saturday.
morning, danced. and after my class, i stayed to practice my pointe, even though the wound isn't recovered yet. my mum also said that it is good that i stayed, she kinda force me. cause i said that she could pick me up at 1.30pm, but she said 2pm. more practice.

came back home, rested about 15mins, and rushed to school. it was quite a busy day. rushed back home get my costume, and a blank disc, went yiling house to burn the music. then after that, went back school. raining pretty heavily and had to lock up the school gate. GRRR!! performed. took a lot of photos. the end. home sweet home(: and i am totally exhausted, sticky.

that's my life. i loved how it goes.

at least i don't waste every single second of my youth, my short life.

Labels: dance, life, school

yet another day had past. i came back and slept till 9pm. a mountain of homework is waiting. and my chinese newspaper report speech haven't even started. anyone can save me?! i need more sleeping / resting time!!

secondary 3 isn't fun at all. should have enjoyed my secondary 1 and 2 life better...

as a secondary 3, i became more matured than before in primary school. regardless is at my dance or studies and even thoughts of stuffs, i have seen a wider angle and different point of angles that people had seen it. but when maturity develops, more problems and troubles can be experienced. some "major" problems that i used to see, is actually a "minor" problem. why? is because that i learnt how to let it go and not to bother it.

anyway, i hurt my big toe(left) and bleed profusely. and it was in the middle of the dance. but just continued on. now, i don't think i can go on pointe as seriously it hurts badly if too much weight is placed on it.

Labels: school

i am proud to say, i didn't finish my holiday homeworks.

somehow, i hate a maths. it just screwed up my mind. and that mr lee, he goes through super fast. =.= but i have to admit that he is sometimes nice and patient guy.

there's a change in the timetable. i totally don't like it at ALL. i still prefer the old one. most are double. is like dead meat..

kicked start off today was PE. we had to run 4round within 10mins. now i am still having jelly legs. and even want to faint after the runs.... shall not describe others. is just like how normal school days.

of course, i changed a new hairstyle and most are startled. somehow i am not VERY used to fringe. it sort of blocked my view. so i have decided, to clip up my fringe especially is studying and listening to teacher and dancing.

dance was okay, but didn't have the "dancing mood". physically and mentally tired but i had to finish my a maths homework. argh!!

Labels: dance, school

HELLOS
XueFang posting here!
Some of you must be wondering, "eh? why is she posting here?"
Well, to answer all of you.
I am actually helping Lynn to do up a blogskin, so yeah, came in to help her. hehes.
Nice? =X
& FYI, she's slping soundly now.
So yep, I got to go as well. Byebyes (:

well today had theory exam.. sat there like 3 hours?

seriously, i almost had not enough time to finish my paper somehow. but at the last 10minutes, i still managed to check my paper. and found mistakes... and it will be my final and last PAPER!!! WHEE!!

school starts on mon. so fast =.=''
theres still a lot of homework not done yet. shucks, i am so dead meat.

the past few days had been filled with music stuffs. for now, finally can concentrate and do my maths. the worst thing is that. i forgot to bring back my e maths textbook. as i thought that ace learning is do at the website itself...

GRRR... i hate it when holidays are over. you cant relax anymore... TADA! term 2 starts. more tough stuffs stuffing into poor small minded students' brains.

seriously, no one loves school.
at least not for the reason that they loved homeworks.
nor facing the stupid teachers lectures.

Labels: random, theory exam

OH GOSH! one week had past since the last post. i seriously didn't have time to blog at all. currently mad about my older brother.

let me recall.
saturday ballet, theory class

sunday early in the morning received lots of messages, refused to get out of my bed. until xuefang[ah pang] called and screamed into my ear =.=''' and accidentally slide my handphone and ended her call =X opps. went out of course. wanted to eat pizza hut but ended up that her mum asked her to go back and eat dinner. i was still full with macs.

monday. returned to school. 8am to 9.30am. and i was late. i actually overslept despite so many alarms... returned home at about 6pm after dancing.

tuesday. totally skipped school. cause of some audition. from 8am to 2pm. 6hours. the god was crying heavily that day. and then theory at 7. and of course, my mum was like arguing on the way back. sort of detained me in the office.

wednesday. as usual, reached school. had dance. for first time, i felt like arguing with the teacher. somehow. shall not elaborate. rushed from vivo to sengkang to theory classes....

thursday. went school in the morning. and then theory classes in the late evening. raining as usual.

friday. today. had theory lessons in morning 8am to 9.30am. then later theres another one. mad revision. seriously, after this, i wish that i shall not touch theory stuff which is totally impossible as there is MEP.... ARGHS!! shall find a way to get out.

saturday. early as 8am again, final revision. then shall go for exam at SMU. i shall sit on the chair and table for like 3hours? fingers crossed! XD

final stuff. about my older brother. although i am happy that he built me a new computer. but somehow I HATE IT! firstly, the microsoft excel, words, powerpoint can be open at there, once try to open in the other computer which has the ACUTAL microsoft, it will be blank. =.=''' NEXT, MSN. cant even be installed. how i log in? using stupid software called pigin. and which is like so damn lousy. no personal message can be seen, and the "appear offline" mode cant even used it to communicate with others. ARGH!!! therefore, seeing 2 different display pictures...

the only thing i am satisfied would be theres a lot games which is built in.

i just realised that there is lots of photos i didn't post.

waiting for xuefang to create a blogskin for me. and changing link for sure.

don't try to anger me.
i will bite you.

Labels: life, random

I AM ALIVE!

after this tiring week, suddenly, i feel so proud of myself that i can survive this unbearable exhausting week.

the next week is holiday. but it seemed no difference to me. every single day have to go back to school. except for friday! but too bad, still have to prepare for my theory exam on the next day, i will be mugging and practicing.

bad news is that, there will be another similar tiring week like this. which is the nearing the end of march. shall not elaborate it. i don't know how to vent my anger. ARGH!

the worst thing ever for holidays is that, HOMEWORKS. is like i am being flooded and almost drown by the "tsunami waves".

as usual for practices, modern teacher just "scolding" and teaching at the same time. everyone is so exhausted. neither can my legs can have a really good rest. and we were dying from dehydration, but she did treat us to ice cream(: after dance, all of us were having the symptoms of heatstroke, dehydrated, "jelly-legs".

upon reaching home, i just slept through and almost forget to go for my theory class.

currently, both my parents and my younger brother is not at home. it is so peaceful.

Labels: dance, life, school

although today didn't have school dance but the sec 3 had to do something related to dance. we went all the way to cityhall. wenqian was late as the MRT was suddenly stop because of the incident happened at there. i just heard the news that the murderer was killed on the spot by the police or some sort.

had a hard time at the stall there..

today had ballet. and finally got a pair of pointe shoes that suits me. but my teacher is worried that i will break into the shoe in no time. if that happens, i have to wait for another 3 months for a new pair to come in. shucks.

despite that i went to the chinese physician, my toe still haven't recover yet. argh... but i will never stop dancing.

there is rehearsal tomorrow. i hope that nothing goes wrong. hmm, i feel so rusty. and i haven't finish my homework yet!! as i reached home around 9pm+.

Labels: dance, random

today is kimberly birthday. so happy birthday(:

we did circuit training for pe. and just nice one class(2e) was doing the "beep" test. i didn't do the "beep" test before. if i didn't remember wrongly, i was sick on that day.

physics was very funny. of course, still have human experiment. LOLS. and as we learnt inertia, mr goh asked one question. do you use 2 hands or 1 hand to pull the toilet paper? so i was like wondering, there are bad quality ones and good quality ones(with the dotted lines). so he eventually experiment out in class with a bad quality one. he asked everyone to pull, but everyone is like both hands? so he said that i can do it with one hand. since is a bad quality one without dotted lines, he pulled the toilet roll just like about half of a square of the dotted line one. so he started laughing. his laughter like damn stupid which makes the whole class started laughing. so he had concluded that, you can pull good quality ones with one hand and bad quality ones with 2 hands.

others was alright.

i didn't really have my lunch as i was filled with unknown emotions inside.

dance was again hectic. we are released around 7pm.
muscles are aching really badly. had blue black on my knee. sprained ankle had restricted my movements. shin part is aching badly if i jump a lot [the new dance has a lot of jumps and splits and stuffs.]
mon morning 3 laps running for pe, then dance.
tues morning pe did circuit training, dance training again.
wed tomorrow dance again. with school rehearsal[prize giving]. but also still going to be practicing in the dance room. i want to faint..
thurs dance again 6 to 8pm at my ballet class.
friday STUPID REHEARSAL[public concert]. piano 7pm to 8pm
saturday morning theres chemistry lessons. ballet 11.30 to 4pm piano 5pm to 6pm
sunday going out with xuefang
mon dance chinese lessons in morning
tues personal stuffs but releated to dance. dance 1 to 5pm in afternoon
wed dance 1 to 5pm
thursday a day off
fri piano 7 to 8
sat EXAM
sun ice
repeat all over again

gosh. theres more. there goes my holiday. i am so lethargic. but i seriously prefer this than studies! not to mention those blisters appearing. dead skins. argh!! my feet hurts when the skin peels off or blisters burst. hard to recover from injuries and blisters =.=

going into lala land

Labels: dance, life, school

today is not a good day.

dance just happened something that really i shouldn't be saying. and the matter was blow up, even involved principal to come in person.
the sec3s performing did a good job(: at least the thing is forming up. but everyone's mood was somehow affected by the matter.

i reached home around 7.15pm. seriously i am exhausted, didn't even feel like moving. tomorrow there is dance again. i bet i will be released around 6.30pm. finish locking the dance room is around 6.45 to 7pm. shucks. wednesday there is the rehearsal for the prize presentation. friday is the rehearsal for the public concert. we are lacking of practices. and i somehow my schedule for march is already planned out.

8th sat
ballet 1130 to 4
piano 5 to 6
9th sun
REST
10th mon
chinese extra lessons 8 to 1030
dance - 1 to 5
11th tues
totally not free. somehow it cant be revealed
12th wed
dance - 1 to 5
13th thurs
chem 8 to 10?
14th fri
piano 7 to 8pm
15th sat
theory exam 2pm to 5pm
16th sun
ice skating morning to afternoon

which really proves that i cant make out any timeslot for xuefang. except sunday 9th.

happy about my overall results(: but i still wanna slack.

Labels: bad day, dance, life

WHEE!! i passed everything!

somehow i am just so happy with my results. but of course i still have to buck up. still weak in my additional maths.

my sprain is recovering which is a good news, but the new tight schedule i am having is not giving my feet a good rest. so i might worry that it will still hurts, or it might as well get worst.

not going shopping with xuefang probably as she is too busy with her stuffs. but still trying to make her schedule to suit mine. hahas. no choice, having me this kind of friend is hard to meet up and chat. but i guess the next shopping trip might as well be sitting down at some fast food restaurant and chat.

nothing much to say about. just hope everyone is feeling well and okay.

a rainbow maybe nice, but it is too attractive, may not be everyone's liking(:

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