Friday, March 30, 2007'♥
i really had it enough of your nonsensical things. we tried to talk it out yet you just ignored us by walking away.
i admit, that the dance team has no team spirit or some sort. is like since you say i am not working hard for it. just try and dance my part, and dance better than me, i will admit it. although i am not a professional dancer, but come'on you aren't too. is it not the first time that you insulted me in front of everyone, for the sake of fun. and i could tell you there's a limit to it. for goodness sake, i don't really see any problems that you are facing which suddenly changes your attitude. sometimes i really do admire your way of dancing, but there is always different weaknesses that we all have.
even though i really had offended you, i apologized to you now, but the truth i really appreciates you come for practices.
although you do hates us for now, but please continue dancing the SYF, i begged you. don't waste others effort.
Thursday, March 29, 2007'♥
my day was totally screwed up.
it started off in the very first in the morning.
XX who is showing serious attitude problem, everyone was like working so hard. yet she is the only one that is not being serious enough. it isn't the first time. i am trying to control my own emotions, which i dun even know what crazy things that i might go and do. is like i had it! why am i working so hard yet everyone is lagging behind. WHATS THE POINT OF DOING IT IN THIS STUPID LAME DANCE GROUP!! i could go to better school and join other dance group!! i really had it enough. is just like the whole dance 1/4 of it is danced by the rubber band thing. so i dun seem to see any difficulties for them to cope it! i had to get scoldings by dance teachers espcially corrections of the dance steps. i just trying to focus and just had a very slim hope of getting a gold for it which might be impossible at this rate. i could just drop out from it and just went off like a click which i dun really mind. everyone is as tired as you, so just shut up and listen, do your part and you are just done! is that a impossible task to do? why must you just show this attitude that it does not even show the passionate of dancing.. i could just bear with your vulgarites but there is a limitation to it. apparently, there is going to have more conflicts to be happen.
if you are reading it, so be it, continue your fucking. i really had enough.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007'♥
i practically feeling very down. a feeling that i dun even want to explain it. i want a BIG BREAK. FAST.NOW!
on monday. i was still joking with michelle and huimei, but the happiness does not last long. last period, mother tongue. x square = xuan xuan. went to change our seats... i ended up sitting at the last row! from middle until the back! WHAT THE! and i cried at that point of time. we all protested not to change seats. yet the damn stupid x square still change our seats. no fair! but my mood was gradually getting up while dancing. but again it went downhill at the end of dance. it was so tiring that i almost had collapsed. GREAT! just let me do that. lots of homework not done. getting BLACKLISTED! i hate this. no one really cares.
tuesday another bad day. changed of art teacher to miss shasha. what a werid name that is. and new english teacher miss lie(chinese -indonesia) was like nagging and nagging all the way while doing our work. dance started off good. but middle part of the dance, after wasting my energy on the stretching of rubber band performance, i could not really focus on the last part and wanting to give up!
wednesday.
had a bad sneeze throught out the day. almost used up cassandra tissue box. getting really tired and really can't focus. great change seats. change to the back of the MOST NOSIEST PERSON IN THE CLASS, JR. again there is no difference. i am still stuck at the back. i have no rights to protest.. great, why is my life going so down! i hate it!!! i allowed the dance members to sleep for 5minutes, before i asked them to do stretching, as they had done well in the morning. next what i am getting stressed. really STRESSED! i got "scolded" by not being focus in the dance. well actually this is not the first time. why? my energy just got drained pretty badly that i cannot even really go and focus. just like what pearl said, while dancing, we have gone to our limit. what can you ask for more? just want to stress me out? next week having class test, after SYF 1 week and 1 day later is SA1 examination. i tried my very best and getting really pissed off this few days. so if i had offended anyone, i am so sorry.
Friday, March 23, 2007'♥
monday.
i seriously need a break. i was in a totally breakdown. totally.
was lucky that the theory class was canceled.
i had to finish my homework until 1am or 2am.
and the next day i was so tired that i could really barely get up from my bed.
tuesday.
everyone was trying to slack. including me. it was pretty slack lesson on that day. and got to know the date when we are competing. 24 april. a tuesday. great. in the morning. had to arrive school before 6.15am. damn it.
wednesday.
maddness training again. perspired like mad dog. except that i don't stick out my tongue to gasp for air. and my whole clothes could really compared with the garbage. hate the stench. the FIRST EVER BLUREST thing that i had ever done was that i was asleep from 7pm to 11pm. and i woke up. the lights of my room was on, just liked in the morning. so somehow that my mind told me that i was awake and slept for so long, and it is about to go to school. then i grabbed my uniform and towel and walked towards the bathroom. my maid asked "why are you grabbing your uniform?" so i replied: "going to bath, and prepare to go school." then she laughed it is like only 11pm. what was my mind really thinking, even myself wasnt so sure.
thursday.
mr gan is not teaching us english anymore. and we all knew he was so sad. as we are so nice! just joking. he wanted to tell the HOD of english to allow him to teach back our class, but NO. and guess what, a new english teacher. Chinese - indonesia, came from dunman sec, VJC, and studied english literature. dont smile much. gloomy face. soft spoken.
friday.
played scrabulous. and i won tai fung. which actually i did not really like playing it. and had shuttle run and sit up trainings. and had lame mathematics lessons. oral practicing for english. then, on the way of rushing back home to go to piano class. i checked my handphone and the class was canceled as my teacher went back thailand for urgent matters! i was so surprised!! i been slacking too much on music, i did not really practice my exam pieces and also did not had piano class for past 3 weeks! LOLS. went back to school for councillor duty. then went compass point with cassandra. took bus home with qian yong jie and stella. and ta-da! end of today
(predicting)tommorrow.
8am to 11am stuck at beach doing cleaning for CIP.
12pm to 1pm at ballet class
2pm to unknown timing for geography project to be complete.
and tons of homework awaits me to do it!
and at here i am going to thanks xue fang for helping me to do a nice blog skin!
Tuesday, March 13, 2007'♥
Monday. i had dance on the morning. pretty exhausted by it.
then afternoon met up with xuefang to do homework at rivervale plaza mac. both of us just wore the same colour without telling each other. then we saw some ex-schoolmates at there. and i saw mr gan wearing a white t-shirt buying mac.
Tuesday. again had dance in the morning. then after that met up with xuefang to go plaza singapura to watch "follow the law" the show is quite nice larhs. very funny. after that we went to kovan to shop for clothes. i bought one. and today i spent most on food like sushi, cheese sausage, honeydew sago, wafer. woo quite a lot things right. didnot really managed to go to bugis. perhaps next time bahs. there's always another chance.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007'♥
i just noticed another thing. our class is getting more united. thats a fact. literature, it started that we cannot answer mr krishnan question, caused everyone ended up stood up and told him that we can't even find the answer. yet he did not believe.
we felt quite sorry for Mr Gan, cause he got scolded by the HOD of English Mrs Raja, due to we had not hand in our assignments and he could not really tally our marks. So he ended up got scolded. everyone felt like, Raja should have blame on us not on him, so the whole class is trying to find a way to apologize to him.
good news! we could skip the last 2 periods! we will be heading off to anderson secondary to support our school's basketball team! All the best! we were going to be late for dance practices. our ballet teacher will have to go through a surgery. thats scary. hope that she will pull through from it.
concluding it. holidays are coming soon. i hate it. thats the point when there is tons of homework. ironic, rest that we had look forward for, but end up doing homework.
my story ends here, anyways dun ask me about the test results.
Friday, March 02, 2007'♥
common test had just passed one day.
i did quite badly for this time round. anyways that mr yeo our history teacher is not going to teach us anymore. and mr gan treating us to bowling today at 7pm! LOLS.
today was quite a bad day. i had a very bad cough like 2days and is those kind that cough until stomach hurts lots. then today we did another time of circuit training. One word to describing it, suffering. i told the mr tan that i was not feeling well together with xin yi as she is also just recovered from stomach flu yesterday. and both of us did not really went to see doctor and expect us to give him MC! and the class wanted to voice out to change PE teacher. but no one dares.
we had both new PE teachers to relief our class. In my opinion, both are very old fashion in the teaching style for lesson. anyways they are nice.
tomorrow going to perform at nan chiau primary. then perform at secondary on sunday.. tough week man. and i am still so sick. whatever just have to survie from it.
