Tuesday, July 10, 2007

I'm back!

it's been a long time since i posted something hee.....

since it is coming to the first month in the new place i decided to note down my progress....

the first week is always the week where i feel super dumb and stupid, basically i was an invalid sitting there while the others were busy..... This is the time when i feel that the old place is better and that at least i can be of use there, knowing what to do, how to answer the emails, wat are the procedures..... it's a tiring process to start everything afresh.... 从头开始

the second week was passed with helplessness.... felt that my hands were tied behind my back without a pc.... yes till now i still don't have my own pc..... so cham how to do work like that? how? hee.... so sad.... wanted to learn as much as i can but without hands-on with the pc how can? nvm....

the third week was hell week without christine around..... stayed till very late everyday last week.... the record was friday..... left the place just before it struck 12... hee all of us become cinderellla.... i only have one thought the whole week that is not enuff time so many things to do.... so many reports to do, so many breaks.... how? cannot take it..... can't wish that friday will come faster..... i even dreamt that there were lots of breaks that i couldn't solve..... stress -_-'''

it's the fourth week now.... feel that i still have lots to learn but don't have the time to learn with so many things to be done on a daily basis.... haiz..... human beings are nv satisfied.... when there's too little things we complain that we too bored.... when there too many things we complain that it's overwhelming and tiring..... so hard to strike a balance..... hee anyway msged my ex-colleague and he felt cheated hahhaa say i nv tell him it's so cham...... pity the new ger, him and rh..... was still telling bb that i jump from one 火坑 to another 火坑。。。。 haiz it's true that everywhere also the same lah...... every place has it's own problems..... whether big or small

that day ht just msg me saying that she also doing ot and volume super high now.... hee lulu is the one that goes home the earliest!!! I also want! ~envy
Today christine still ask me wat's the target time to go home? Me: " As early as possible, really cannot tahan liao" :) hahah everyday also try to target to go home at 6pm hahah mission impossible..... i muz aim to do things faster!!!!

Anyway tml is mid-week! so happy at least the week is going to be over soon..... :) hahah self-consolation.... ah..... i've become so optimistic..... happy happy :)
hee i miss monday lunch-es with lulu.... hee and miss saying tml is mid-week :)
Yeah meeting the gers on friday nite..... it's been a long time since i saw them.....

2 more weeks to the BIG DAY....


* ps sorry this post abit the incoherent..... tata shall aim to sleep early.... :)
i think i'm going bersek? (mad) soon.....

Sunday, June 03, 2007

five more days~

就让一切回到原位
还我原来的自由
没有束缚、没有包袱
就这么简单

简单好难

Saturday, May 05, 2007

十八天

事情简单点多好

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Crossroad

Along the crossroad of life we come across numerous people and decisions
Some take the straight and wide path while others take the less travelled path
Some go around in circles while others go for their destination head on
Question to ask oneself: IF, yes the BIG IF

If I've made this decision, would things turn out differently.
Of course but would it be better or worst?
Or the ending would just be the same?
Seriously nobody can answer the question.
I guess that is what life is about: the unknown

After reading ht's blog I understand how she feels.....
Humans are weird beings aren't we?
One moment we can feel so strongly about it the next moment we think of staying of the people that we'll miss, of the place.
Then why do we feel so adamant about it in the first place?
There must be something right? But I just can't put a finger to it......
A combination of reasons?
Is leaving better?
Just when things might be within reach I realised leaving for a new place will bring about a new set of problems on it's own......
Are we proving something by wanting something so badly?
And making little of it when we get it?
矛盾
Just take things one step at a time?
But for how long?
I feel that time is slipping away......
I really envy those who are just happy to stay just as they are.... maintain status quo, to just pass each day happily........
Or is it what i see on the surface?
Who knows

如果做这个决定或不做这个决定
结果会不会一样?
好像返回。。。。。
可以吗?

Sunday, April 15, 2007

32 days

Sunday, March 25, 2007

and the cycle repeats itself

Sunday, March 18, 2007

and there were 51 days...........